 Alright guys, don't mind the glasses, but well as you can tell by the title, here we are. The season's over, the comeback season, 17 years, 17 long years man, it took me to get back down here and play some Littleton rugby and we did it man, we did it. I had a challenge, I set to myself at the start of this year, especially once arriving back here in Christchurch and well that was to get back involved with the boys, with the Littleton boys and god I'm so glad I did, hold up, take those glasses off, they're a bit much. Alright guys, here we are, look at this man, beautiful, fucking beautiful, the green grass, the blue sky, if you look about 100 meters that way we've got the ocean, honestly man, Littleton is my place, this is my home, I lived up on that hill for 19 years guys before I left for Australia, you know you've met me, my YouTube channel, my YouTube audience has met me whilst I've been living in Australia, now I'm living back home, even just looking at, this is, what a place man, what a place, if you do come to New Zealand, if you ever come to Christchurch, if you ever come to the South Island, definitely check out Littleton and you know it's got its own little vibe, it's its own basically enclosed sort of community, you know what I mean and what a place to grow up and whilst being around this rugby team this year once again I've definitely bumped into a few familiar faces and I've gone to a few familiar venues and it's all just come back to me man, it's been amazing, I'm struggling to put it into words actually, how I'm feeling, as you can tell and I really don't know if I can put it into words, so I tried to put it into words after that first game, you know, that vlog's had about 9 or 10 thousand views now and I feel like the emotion came through and that emotion I've felt through this whole entire season, but I didn't play the whole season and I guess that's what we're gonna discuss, we're gonna discuss, you know, how it played out, I mean the team, at the end of the day guys we made it, we made it into the final, Littleton made it into the Canterbury Metro Division 2 Rugby final which was played last week, unfortunately we didn't get the job done but we were close, you know, to be honest this is like the fifth video I've made today, I've gone around a few different locations in Christchurch and talked about a few different things that I've been doing in my life recently, this is one of the last videos I'm gonna make for the day, I'm feeling a little bit mentally fatigued right now but we're gonna do it, you know, I knew there was a reason why I prepared myself for this talk and I wrote down a few different things and I'm just gonna run through them, okay, these are some thoughts about the season, about my performance, my participation in the season and what's what's next, so basically the season as a whole was affected by COVID right, the thing that got me back on board was a week before the season was meant to start, I saw an advertisement on the Facebook page saying there was free subs, this was the only club in Christchurch that had free subs, which meant you know you don't have to pay registration fees, so I saw that and I thought well look is that God reaching out to me or what? I don't even have to pay to play, I'm definitely going down and that's what I did, so I went down the next week, got involved with the team and found out that the season starts that weekend, so I joined the team literally the week before the season started, you know I came down to the training on Tuesday, Thursday and lo and behold I managed to get a starting spot that week, I didn't know at the time but that's because probably three or four backs that played every single week were actually injured at that point so they started the season with a few numbers down and you know lo and behold I came into the team at the right time, managed to get my starting spot and I actually started for the first four games against Belfast, Shirley, High Skull Old Boys who we played in the final and Linwood, so I started the first four games of the season, I was fucking right into it right, then I realised that you know I was probably gonna have to call it quits for a period of time around my bodybuilding show because you know the demands of that physically and mentally were just too much, I could not focus enough on Rugby and be enough of a part of the team to make it worthwhile, it was you know Rugby, Rugby is a commitment man, it's it's a it's not a hugely long season as far as the games played but as far as the pre-season you know leading up to the season and throughout the season you've got three days of the week that you are committed to the team, you've got Tuesday, Thursday training and Saturday game and for a period of four or five weeks there that was just way too much so I had to call it quits so unfortunately you know I played the first four games, the next game was against Sydenham, I was named on the bench but I didn't make it on and the next game after that was against Lincoln and I was named on the bench for that game and I didn't make it on so those two games I was named on the bench, I suited up, I trained you know had all the anxiety, the game day anxiety that comes with it yet I didn't play and I thought you know what man I can't let this happen again because it's really affecting my life it's taking a lot of energy away from me and away from other things that I've got going on in my life right now so after that game where I didn't make it on for the second time I finally pulled the pin, I talked to the coach, I said look you know with everything else that got going on it's just too much and you know I'm gonna I'm gonna give my position up for the next four or five weeks so basically I said look I'm not gonna be able to play anymore I said good luck for the season I'll make it down when I can but that's it and that was it and to be honest ever since I made that decision for the next four or five weeks I was happy because my mindset was freed up I had time to think about things and you know everything improved my life so I forgot about rugby for four weeks right in the middle of the season and then I completed my my bodybuilding show and that was at the end of August and I thought you know what man I think it might be about time to head back down to rugby training and that's exactly what I did so I didn't actually realize but that week I went down to the Tuesday Thursday training that week we'd made it into the semi-finals and it seemed as if you know gobs on my side once again I'd come back right at the right time there's a couple of injuries they needed some numbers I managed to get my name back on the team sheet for the semi-final cheeky as fuck cheeky as fuck coming right at the last second and get on the team for the semi low and behold you know I'm coming to terms of the fact that that backline is solid man that is a solid back the forward the forward packs fucking solid the backline is solid as a pack and you know at the end of the day if something's not broke why would you try and fix it and that's exactly what happened again in this game so I didn't get on I was named on the bench utility bat could have gone on anywhere they even said look if I need you go on the forwards would you do it I said yes of course I'm just happy to be here at the end of the day I didn't actually get on but that game was played right here against Burnside we had a good win great turnout semi final played at home fantastic moment to be involved in even though didn't play it's fine then we move on to last week which was the final we played at high school old boys which is at Hagley Park through the tunnel and well this week I went to the trainings Tuesday Thursday all good to go amped for the game unfortunately on the Thursday I got told that there's a fella who plays on the wing he dislocated his shoulder three weeks ago thought he was gonna be out for six weeks low and behold feels fine wants to play in the final he's gonna take your spot Jacob I said all good what else you're gonna say I'm just thankful to be here honestly honestly I am I'm thankful to be here throughout the year that we've had I played those first four games I've been involved in the team we're in a final I'm just like man you know what at the end of the day anything can happen there might be another injury I'm here if you need me I wasn't called up but I did go and watch and I did take some footage of the final on my camera following this video I'm actually gonna put those a couple of videos up most of it is ruined because of the wind but there are two moments in that game in the final the thrill and the agony of sport that I've captured and I'm gonna put up on this channel following this video the first is the try that we scored in the first half to go up the second is right at the death in overtime at the end of the match we had an opportunity we stole a line out we had an opportunity to have a to score the match winning try in the final the same guy who scored that first try dropped the ball cold in the second moment of the match and you know for him specifically that is the thrill and the agony of sport the thrill of scoring that try the agony of being so close yet so far and those are moments I'll never forget and I'm glad I took my camera down so at the end of the day you get a positive out of a negative I didn't play but I was able to capture some moments and enjoy the game as a fan and as a supporter so well you know overall overall thoughts my performances no good I didn't show 10% of what I'm capable of on attack but you know what this was always gonna be interesting it was always gonna be you know my first season back finding my feet within a new team environment and I feel like I've done that pretty well so I guess following following on from here it's my mission to stay fit definitely stay active work on my speed work on my agility work on my skills throughout the throughout the offseason and if I'm still here at the start of next year well I'll be cracking into the preseason for 2021 and hopefully you know these restrictions will be relaxed a little bit more we can have a full season and all the best all the best to all the little some boys I will be seeing the boys again in three weeks time we're going down to Queenstown on a boys trip this is what they do every year this is gonna be my first trip my first trip with these boys I've been on rug I've been on rugby trips before I've been a rugby piss-ups before but I've never been on a three-day bender in Queenstown with the Littleton dolphins so it should be fun yeah that's what it's all about man that's what rugby is about it's about the team it's about it's about camaraderie it's about working together as a team because there are no there are no eyes and team I'm telling you that and if you're an eye in a rugby team that works together as a team you're definitely gonna be found out and you know it's it's it's not the vibe that's not it's not a vibe man it's not the vibe used to be my vibe trying to be the best trying to do everything trying to be first at everything but it's not anymore they don't know that that ain't no way to live that ain't no way to live man quietly confident that's what I like to call it quietly confident not cocky confident but quietly knowing that at any moment you're ready to take an opportunity and to prove yourself and at the moment I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about I'm gonna let you guys go welcome once again to Littleton this is my hometown this is where I was born and bred I'm so happy to be back here so happy to have played a season of Div2 Rugby with the Littleton dolphins and all the best for next year boys hard luck we lost 14-10 in the final and well that's rugby so have a great day everybody I'll see you on the flip side okay peace out