 to the camera. This is the journey of fiction with what we're talking about. As you go through life and you have an ego, then of course you will draw and attract to yourself situations, people, events, and circumstances that would be most helpful for your awakening. But those people that you attract, and when we talk about relationships we talk about attractions, repulsions, and so on and so forth, that all of that is by design. In other words, it's not a random universe where you seem to happen to get this experience or happen to meet this person, how lucky, how fortunate, there really is no luck or fortune involved in all of it. So it starts out with ego attractions, but the flip side of attraction is repulsion, the flip side of pleasure is pain, the flip side of expectations is disappointment, where when the expectations are seemingly fulfilled it's like, oh yes, very good, wonderful, this is great, this is going to work out really well, and then when the flip side of the coin comes in, of the expectations is disappointment. You disappointed me, why didn't you do this? It's part of the reason why the ego sets up relationships in this world is need gratification, needs come from luck, come from scarcity, that's what the ego is. And so it uses the environment as things like mining and pulling all the resources out there to help satisfy its needs, oil and coal, all kinds of resources to help satisfy its needs, and it uses relationships that way too in terms of need gratification. And when you have needs and wants and expectations and the partner seems to not fulfill those, then that's where the agreement comes in. It's like a projection, like I have this need, you were the one that was to gratify this need and you're not fulfilling your role. So every time a role has been cast and then the person doesn't seem to add up to or fulfill the expectations of the role, then it's as if there's agreements that you have let me down. So in one sense we could say that the world and its relationships I went through in my life, over and over you discover experientially that when you identify with these partnerships and you put this pressure on the partner, it's because if we made it and said clear and straight that a partner is set up by the ego to be a God substitute. In other words it's like the mind of a good speaker saying I never got the unconditional love that I deserve in childhood, I never got it through my adolescent years, and so here you, oh partner, are a God substitute. No pressure, no pressure at all. You just have to give me the unconditional universal love that I've never got from God and the love that I deserve from anybody else. You're my last effort and my last ditch effort so no pressure, but. And this is what puts the strain and pressure and this is what turns the relationship into a special relationship because the mind is saying, you know, there may be many fish in the sea but you're the fish that I select. And there are other fish, mind you, so just be careful. There are many, many fish in the sea, no pressure, but you're a God substitute. And nobody consciously needs someone and says, you know, I've chosen you to be a substitute for God's love and I hope you good luck. But if we could verbalize what's actually going on under the surface of things, you know, on the surface it's like, you know, this is like, you have a date, you want to make a good impression, put all your best things forward, not tell anything about your issues and all your problems in the past, you know, if you want a second date you would never expose us on the first day or the second day in order for the third date. Usually he goes, just wait until you're married.