 And to use Noel as an example, like here comes this music. It's washing, it's washing. She's being called to prepare now to extend it and extend it to not put any kind of limits or parameters on it. You know, to step back and let the spirit lead the way. It's like a torrent that wants to come rushing through. Even around, we'll say, the sleep. You know, the sleep is just like a memory association in the mind and the ego is kicking like, you know, oh, come on. Everybody at least gets to sleep. This is like... What do you want of me, you know? But I remember when I first started having those times where I would wake up with eyes wide open and two or three or four in the morning and I would just be like, what, what, what, what, what? You know, it's like, you're interrupting, you know, sleep. You know, and it's like, and then, you know, you kind of get, go to the internet, you know, write a letter, an email, you know, something, you know, it could be to paint something, to write something, something that the spirit wants to send through. At three o'clock in the morning, yes, at three o'clock in the morning. It's this old pattern and association with just the human condition of sleep. It's like, well, wait a minute, you know, air, water, food, sleep, you know. Hey, Jesus, let me tell you about Abraham Maslow's hierarchy of needs here. Have you ever seen it? You know, let's take a look, you know. It's like, you're missing out on some of the big ones down here. And then you start to get to this thing of like, of like, well, it's really a thing of trust. Like, hmm, well, I've got all this old conditioning about, a whole conditioning about sleep. And how many hours a night I need. Just like the old thing about, you know, three square meals a day, and each of your vegetables and your proteins and your... It's like it's all just made up and the mind gets so associated and affiliated with all these things that it thinks these laws of nutrition and laws of sleep and laws of economics or whatever are just the way it is. And then it feels so victimized that certain ones are being violated, you know. It's almost like, what's going on here? I mean, this is a violation of my humanness and the spirit's like saying, I'm working with you on seeing beyond your humanness. Like people, one time people would say to me, you know, when you reach enlightenment or self-realization, you know, do you sleep and do you dream and those kind of questions? And it's like, you start to have this realization that all the imagery is dreaming. And so, as Jesus says in the Course, all your time is spent in dreaming. Not just some. All of your time is spent in dreaming. You can't complain that you're not getting enough dreaming in at night because you've got plenty going on all day. You know, you're dreaming 24-7. So don't, where's the complaint about, I need more dream time. I need more REM time. And REM sleep, and Jesus is like, it's all the same. You're REM sleep, you know, there's not, there's all science that tells you exactly what the sleep is. Scientific mind trying to figure everything out and get it all analytical and everything. And he said, no, you're dreaming all the time. And then think about the relief in that. If you're dreaming all the time, then you're sleeping all the time. So these artificial constructs of nighttime dreams and daytime dreams, it's just a construct. You know, there's no difference. And there was a woman, Kirsten, who came from New Zealand to work with me and everything. And that was one of her biggies. It was the sleep thing. She had had a couple head injuries. She was told by doctors and therapists that she needed like 12, whatever, 12 to 14 hours a day. But she came over and she started like traveling with me. It was like, ego was roaring. It was like, I remember going on some of these trips where we were traveled together, we were heading up towards Vermont to go to this spiritual retreat center in Vermont. And we talked to the man, Miles, who ran the thing, who's going to meet us there. And we're driving along, we're heading up there and we have a gathering scheduled, spiritual schedule together for us. Just enough time to get there, relax a little while, have some supper, some dinner with everybody, and then have the gathering. And we're driving up there and I remember her saying, pull the car over now. Turn the car, pull the car over immediately. I must have a nap. And I was like, well, we'll go up here and stop the car. I have to have a nap. So we stopped the car. She said, this is not comfortable. I can't sleep here and everything. We're going to have to find a motel room. So all the spirits taking us up to do this gathering. They've got dinner ready. We've got a gathering scheduled. The spirit gives you plans or things for the whole universe. They're not for one person here or there. Integrity of showing up, integrity of doing the gathering. It's all part of the spirit's plan of shining light. But she had to go through a lot of emotions, intense emotions, because there was so much protectiveness around the sleep. It really felt like a violation to not get that. Then we finally got up there and she took a walk in the woods and she just had a lot of rage coming up. I had dinner with the people, just sharing, sharing. And she did come in. She kind of worked through the rage and came in and just kind of joined in the gathering for that evening. But that was a pattern where over a period of quite a few months she really had to look at all of her thoughts around sleep. What it meant, how much she needed, how much quality sleep she needed to function, and so on and so forth. And she actually wrote about that on her global mailing list maybe like a year or two later about how that was one of the biggest resistant points, resistance that she had to the light was this quite strong addiction to sleep and all kinds of conditions around sleep. And the answer is always trust as we move forward. We can feel our resistances loosening around things like food and relationships, travel versus stationary, temperature. There's all these areas where the ego really feels like, I know what's good for me. I've already figured it out. Thank you very much Spirit. I don't really need any more input on this. And then as you move forward with this, you find that this is a soft loosening. You find yourself taken care of. You find things even more joyful and spectacular than you ever had ever experienced before. You find that there is one within you that knows the way and is the way the truth in life and that is guiding you to this glorious, glorious experience but every little step of being with the intensity of the resistance or whatever is part of that loosening. Because the ego, it's kicking and screaming. It's not wanting to go into an experience of love and light. Its very existence is the denial of that love and light. So it's really beautiful. The faith that it takes, the trust to keep going in the face of this is when we were talking out there in the yard about what is the marital status of the number 5 that they bring up in What the Bleep. There's a movie What the Bleep and it's called Down the Rabbit Hole and there's this quantum, this physicist is talking in and he says, it's not like there's right or wrong answers but it's just like they're like, to the Spirit the questions don't have any meaning. Like what is the marital status of the number 5? He uses that kind of as an example. So when we have a discussion about sleep and we say that it's all sleep, it's all sleep and then when we start to divide the human condition into activities, sleeping, walking, eating, drinking, sex you could go down, there's like a gamut of things we take this one thing which we'll call sleep, mind asleep and then we start to project on these separate categories and what the problem is is the mind that starts to take these categories on is actually real and then we ask questions about the categories like you don't sleep or do you sleep much in this night you see how we're taking a little bead on the necklace and we're saying, now tell me about the bead and the Spirit is like saying well we're working on a unification of the mind that really starts to see that the beads and the categories are meaningless. Well does the mind sleep? I mean the body sleeps but does the mind sleep? That's what the human condition is, is mind asleep so we can say that the first step in the waking up process is acknowledging the problem just like in 12 step programs, you know, if somebody seems to have a drinking problem but they say, I don't have a drinking problem I don't have a drinking problem I really don't have a drinking problem Gobble, gobble, gobble I do not have a drinking problem The first step in the healing process for someone who's identified with this alcoholism or whatever is to admit the problem and this is what happens spiritually is that we have to start to begin to acknowledge the problem we have a sleeping, we have a sleep disorder kind of major sleep disorder going on here and anything to do with the length of sleeping I was watching TV several weeks ago and maybe it was a little bit longer than that I was down in Australia and they actually had this news item on of this young woman this girl who basically sleeps for days and days and days at a time it's like, what was it? What was it? Ropel still sleeping What was the one that... Ropel sleeping beauty? Sleeping beauty was one of them That's the other one, the Rip Van Winkle Didn't he sleep for like... 100 years 20 years, 100 years 100 years, she says 100, that's good that's good for the story So, Rip Van Winkle sleeping beauty and everything it's like, talk about a sleep disorder I mean if you're asleep, this young... she was like a teenager, her dad said she doesn't live the average life of a teenager because she will sleep for days she will just go out for days and days and days and people say she wakes up and as far as going to school and doing things with her family she will sleep for days and sometimes wake up for an hour and go back to sleep for days and people will say, talk about not being able to sleep kind of the flip side sleeping beauty, sleep sleep sleep so we start to see it on the surface where the ego says, that's a problem that's not normal to sleep for days at a time that's going way over that's a disorder, that's really a disorder and again, if you might classify the view and say insomnia not being able to sleep for days is a disorder and then you come back more from the spiritual perspective which is this sense of all things work together for good and don't be calling things and trying to label things as disorder let all things be exactly as they are you know, it does take life you're feeling though, it's like a surrender it's like, the ego can say, oh great time to not have any sleep and you've got 25 people coming to your house it's a great week to pick, to not sleep and again, what you did was so beautiful you just made that and said here's exactly what's going on and it's almost like this is the scenario that's playing out where it's the undoing of the noel that's completely in charge the noel that everyone can count on the noel that's always going to when everything else falls through for everyone else, there's noel and now the scenario is playing out where it's like, I'm not even sleeping how can I possibly fulfill my noel role when I'm not sleeping now everyone's going to see the noel fail almost like there's a fear of failure what great in rows towards this