 But it's also dumb. It is so fucking dumb. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of the constant adjustment. So angry. I'm so angry all of the time. It is exhausting living in a body that is a piece of shit existing in a vessel that is so unreliable and so painful. Like sometimes I can absolutely handle it just fine. I just do it. It's okay. But sometimes it just fucking builds up and feels like too much that I don't want to do, but I will because I don't have another choice. And I'm very, very angry at that.