 What's up you guys the Donna welcome back to my channel for those of you What's up you guys? It's the Donna welcome back to my channel for those of you who are new if you haven't already done So take a look around if you like what you see go ahead and subscribe So I wanted to make this video Yeah, because Although I'm fairly private I have brought you guys along on this journey and if I did not You know do this, then I don't think it would be authentic to Inviting you on this journey with me. So That's why I'm making this video So I Took my boards a week ago and You know like all week like when I walked out of it. I was like man like I changed my answers I knew certain things were like Wrong and you still choose it just because you're not certain But yet like I don't like I don't know if any of you will do that But like you still choose the wrong answer even though, you know, it's wrong just because it's familiar to you And so like I felt like that after I took the boards and I was like I Was optimistic but at the same time I was like man like I don't know if I pass and this morning The email came through like they say that it's gonna take about two weeks or you'll get your scores within two weeks But I mean mine took literally seven days and The email came through and my heart dropped because I was like oh my gosh. This is it I'm gonna see if I passed or fail and you know, I was like what like like what am I gonna do in either Situation right and like I have all these people that were like praying for me and rooting for me And I don't know depending on me. It's like really like the best term, but You know, like you have all these expectations on you. So It was really stressed like honestly like all week But I was like, okay, it's here. So let me let me open it And so I came to room. I told my husband. Hey, I I got the email But I hadn't opened the ads. Oh, I dropped my kids off to school and then I came back and I was like, all right He was like, do you want do you want to do it now or do you want to do it later? And I was like, let's just do it now and I opened it and When I pulled it up I was like, okay, I don't even know where to go. Like he was taking a long time. He's like, I don't know where to go So I went to exam And on there it was like you're eligible to register for the pants and I'm like Yeah, that doesn't really sound right like if I pass Why would I need to register for the pants again? So there was another tab that says be your score and so clicked on that and I Comes up it shows your date and you know the exam that you took and then it says like pass or fail and so mine said failed and just like guys, I just I'm pretty devastated honestly like And it's not to say that I had anything lined up with respect to work or anything like that but a A lot of like what I went into the test with and like just everything that I've been dealing with is You know, I didn't want to disappoint anyone So like I've been doing this and like you guys have seen me like, you know succeeding in things and It's hard to show When he told succeed in something that you've been working towards and so For me Like I was way heavy on me and I like I like I didn't even know like the the stress of like, okay So like, you know, how do I tell my mom and How do I tell my family and the people that have been praying for me? I don't want to be in disappointment to anyone and I Don't want to let you guys down or you know feel feel like Really like a failure Honestly, like if I'm completely honest about everything So So it's tough and so I wanted to make this video because I wanted to be Authentic and real with you guys just like, you know, like where I am In this path to becoming a PA like there were so many things weighing heavy on me like all those like Negative and racist people are like, yeah, like talk to me when you have to take the pants five times or something like that And you know, like I just like I so badly wanted to like prove everyone Wrong, I guess you could say like I just wanted to do this and be like look like God did this for me And you know, it's oh Like all for his glory and this it still is, you know, like obviously like this is a learning experience And there's I can't sit up here and be like, okay Like God left me or anything like that like it's nothing like that. But I really You know, I just have to take some time because I did not fail like by much and like in my head I'm like, look, you you shouldn't have even failed period like it. You shouldn't even be that close to the cutoff but I Was only like a few short points away from the cutoff, but even still I think a lot of what I went into the exam with like the whole not knowing Just being super nervous And just kind of feeling like okay, like I have to do this. I have to make sure that I pass I don't want to let anyone down any of my followers or subscribers and my family members Not even really thinking about myself per se, but like I didn't want to I Don't want any of that and like I didn't want to I feel like so embarrassed that you know that I didn't pass on this first time but I'm gonna take it again. So I have to wait 90 days ish before I could take it before I can register for it You know, obviously you can My dog's barking about we have a package. But anyways, like obviously you can take it any time after that 90 days, but I Don't know what I'm gonna do like how long I'm gonna take I have three months obviously to study For this exam and retake it and I will let you guys know how I do on that as well, you know I'm gonna always be authentic with you all. So at the end of the day, like that's what this video is about like I Was hard you guys like it's hard I mean this just goes to show there are ups and downs and you know like not everything on social media and Instagram and stuff Like is just about the happy times, even though that's what we typically post And so I just kind of wanted to be real with you guys and just kind of let you in on where I am right now and You know, you know, I'm gonna keep on with this journey and and bring you guys along Throughout this process that I'm gonna go through next I Guess if you have any questions, please leave them in the comment section below and Thank you guys so much for following me on this journey as usual, I will talk to you guys Next time Bye