 I've been, I've been working till the morning, yeah, I've been sleeping, I swear they stormin', yeah I'm crossing my legs, I feel like I'm, feel like I'm on the mat at primary school Um, guys, I am currently sitting in my van in the corner of it, at the back of it Because I can't get any fucking peace and quiet at home at the moment And I want to make these videos for my YouTube channel And for anyone out there wondering about certain things, certain strategies Certain, uh, questions that have come up about my 2020 bodybuilding prep I did two shows in 2020, I did two shows in 2015 It was a fair, a fair, uh, a fair while between, between, um Well, I'm trying to think of an analogy, but no, between shows Uh, there was a fair while and that is because I lost passion I had two kids, I started a business, bought two properties Uh, moved country, moved city multiple times, fuck man And the whole thing I've brought to this YouTube channel So if you want to go back and check out the last five years of my life, feel free But today's video is about my bodybuilding prep And I want to discuss a few of the craziest things that happened to my body physiologically Uh, during this prep, okay Not only physiologically, but also mentally So I, oh god Um, so basically this video is going to be titled What were the craziest things I did whilst on prep, okay And I've written down, uh, what were the craziest things I did whilst on prep The next video is what was the stupidest thing I did whilst on prep All right, so crazy, crazy and stupid are probably two different things Crazy is more so I want to do it Um, but it's just crazy and people would think I'm nuts You know, stupid things is stuff that I don't want to do It's going against what I want to do, but I couldn't help it Because of the way that my body and my mind was feeling So two different things, two different videos Let's start it with the craziness, all right So me and alcohol have an interesting relationship Um, ongoing relationship I do like alcohol, but I'm a binge drinker And so I decided Okay, I did two shows, one in September, one in, sorry One in August, one in October The week before my first show in August I got invited to a party Now, usually, you know, a person on prep, they say no to things Well, this prep wasn't about, this prep wasn't about, um, restricting myself This prep was about having fun And it was about the comeback And it was about, you know, finishing the journey So when I got offered a party to go to and get pissed I'm gonna go I don't go to too many parties, so I went And I drunk And I drunk a fuckload In fact, I drunk a whole litre of bourbon I was absolutely legless, I didn't remember much of the night But, uh, what I did do, and this is one of the craziest fucking things I did Is at the end of that night, when I realised, right, it's all over Three o'clock in the morning, you know, I've made a fool of myself Okay, what can I do right now to actually make me feel Like, this isn't a drunk state, really drunk But I still thought about my show And I was like, okay, fuck So it's the end of the night I've gotten through a whole bottle of bourbon I haven't eaten anything Which is a thought that went through my head that entire fucking night I was like, nah, I don't want to eat anything If I'm gonna take an alcohol, I've got my show in a week I'm gonna limit it at alcohol, I'm not gonna eat So, that was probably not a good idea It made me get more drunk, more quick And, look So I came to, look, it came to three o'clock in the morning I had the choice, I had the choice of either you walk home Or you call a taxi And, uh, well, I could have called a taxi But I looked at my maps and I saw, okay This is gonna take me two hours to walk home At three o'clock in the morning I thought, I can do that I've gone for two hour walks before Fuck it, I'm walking home So I did I walked home from a party Drunk as hell At three o'clock in the morning It took me two and a half hours I went round in circles, multiple But I got home So I got home at 5.30 a.m. guys A week before my show Wasted But With a funny kind of content feeling in my head Knowing that, okay I've just done some real damage control I've just pushed myself through something that most wouldn't Which is a two hour walk at the end of the night To burn off What I believed at the time was All of the calories, the excess calories And carbohydrates that I took in through the alcohol So I've gone on a crazy binge And then A crazy amount of damage control To try and bring that back And I've woken up that next morning guys At 12 o'clock midday thinking Okay, how did I get home? And number two Have I still got abs? And thankfully I did still have abs And thankfully the thought And that posi- Look, if I had woken up that morning Having not done that exercise I would have fucking hated myself Or would have hated on myself It would have taken You know, a lot of mental strength to get up that morning And go out for another walk and another jog And continue the prep I had a week to go So waking up that morning I was so hungover But I did have that little ounce of positivity in my head That I'd, you know, done some damage control the night before Obviously all I'm thinking about is the show So I, yeah, Sunday morning I can vividly remember I was out on the path there Walking, feeling actually okay And I messaged my coach and I said Look man, I've just binged Last night on alcohol But I didn't eat And Like a crazy cunt I walked home two and a half hours So I'd feel like at the end of the day Yes, I've binged through a bottle of alcohol But I'm hoping it's not going to affect my prep And that was the one time That Steve, my bodybuilding coach Actually came back to me with a pretty stern message He said, what are you doing What are you doing binging a week before your show What are you doing drinking a week before your show That is absolutely stupid So instead of calling this One of the stupidest things I did during prep I'm actually going to call it one of the craziest things I did during prep When really the stupid part is the alcohol The crazy part is the walk So anyway, that was that In fact, that is going to be the story for today That's going to be a bit of a story time And the next one is going to be about Just my extreme level of steps And it was crazy It was fucking crazy But there's a reason for it and I'll get into that So I'll see you in the next video guys Have a fantastic day Peace out from Christchurch, New Zealand It's actually getting quite hot in here I'm getting a sweat up I might have to open the fucking The back door Peace out