 So I kind of had a difficulty in feeling safe. And I think that was a huge part of my growth was to feel safe being me. Wow, yeah, I understand you had a really tumultuous past and childhood mostly connected to your gifts and the trying to beat the gifts out of you and get you to be sinless in all of this. Very, very traumatic. Do you feel like today everything you're speaking to has actually, au contraire, created who you've become with even more potency that all of that was just like boiling inside of you waiting to come out even greater than it would have maybe if it had a smooth path?