 All right guys, I didn't think I'd make another update video being here in Rockampton for another couple of weeks yesterday's video was very emotional it was very depressing honestly, it was a lot it was it was down and the attitude that I like to have the attitude I like to bring to this channel is is up it's not down and I'm glad I made that video because it allowed me to work through some things it allowed me to talk some things out But I've woken up today the next day. It's Tuesday and I'm feeling a hell of a lot better. I'm feeling appreciative. I'm grateful for where I am. I'm grateful for my kids. I've spent the whole entire day with them having fun laughing and You know, I'm I'm I'm simply not feeling the way I was yesterday And the way I felt yesterday was was desperate. It was depressed. It was not happy with the way that I was living life Not happy with my mood not happy with my inability to control my mood and I must say that I've woken up today knowing that I've made that video knowing that that video will come out on this channel and I've told myself, you know, get real I've told myself be appreciative for what you do have in life, which is a hell of a lot And and you know, it's it's five o'clock in the afternoon my two kids have have just had a wee nap we've we've just got up and We're gonna go to the skate park. So this video is a prelude to the next one Which is gonna be Tate and dad go to the skate park So we're gonna take the scooter. We're gonna take the bike. We're gonna take the skateboard We're gonna have a bit of fun in this, you know, absolutely Beautiful weather, you know yesterday was was hot. I mean most days are humid as fuck But I will say that in the morning and in the late afternoon that the weather gets absolutely beautiful So I have I have so much to be grateful for I have so much to be thankful for and yesterday You know, I just needed to work through work through some things I said in the previous video that I needed to to go and talk to someone I needed to go and get a therapist But I feel I feel honestly, I feel like I Have the ability to work through things myself. So I'm not gonna do that. I Know what I need to do and let's be a dad I know what I need to do and that that is be a present 100% present dad. Okay, and I can do that and I can do that with a smile on my face You know, I don't need a substance. I don't need weed. I don't need I don't need alcohol. I have been using alcohol and and I will stop that but today I Needed to make this video because you know, I'm feeling I'm feeling thankful. I'm feeling good I'm not feeling the way that I did yesterday and I feel like I Feel like the attitude and the mood that came across in that video is not true I feel like it was yesterday and and you know at the end of the day Doesn't matter where I am doesn't matter what time of day. It doesn't matter who I'm with I'm always going to be open and honest and transparent and There are some things that I I feel like I probably shouldn't share and I guess I'm making this video because I feel like I Feel like yesterday's video probably could have been cut a little bit shorter but This is this is me and I am in a transition period now I I I Put up a video recently talking about Applying for an internship the Jacksonville Jags and that means that I'd have to leave my my kids It means I'd have to leave here at that point that night I was feeling completely nuttily desperate because I'd gone into a job interview that I knew just wasn't for me But that doesn't mean that every job here in Rocky is not going to be for me And in fact, I've joined a gym I've joined world gym and I've told them that I'm a qualified personal trainer which I am and they've given me an opportunity to possibly you know use their space rent it The more people I meet here in Rockhampton I could possibly have his personal training clients and and help them on their their own fitness journey and that that's why I Got into personal training was to help people and I can do that doesn't matter where I am so You know, I Guess all I'm here to say guys is that Everything's okay You know that video that I made yesterday talking about how I was feeling after being here for two weeks Talking about you know, obviously living my current living situation, which is not not completely ideal But it's good enough. It is good enough. I'm here to be a dad to my kids I'm living in the same house as them and I'm happy with that I need to Work on my ability to control my mood I need to work on my ability to know what I'm grateful for in life And when you know what you're grateful for when you when you know deep down that you are You know when you know that Life could be so much worse Things start to improve and that's how I'm feeling today. So We're about to go to the skate park. I'm gonna try a kickflip if not I'm gonna at least try and drop in So guys and what I will say is that we've watched we're watching YouTube kids a lot at the moment, right? So my kids, you know, both of them enjoy YouTube. They don't really know the concept of it and they certainly don't know that their dad Has a YouTube channel himself But the piece of content the one piece of content that I'm gonna focus on bringing to the channel is Believe it or not at a Roblox video. I've played Roblox today for the first time in my entire life I absolutely loved it. It was a great time And we're gonna go Tate versus dad In Roblox Okay, I'm competitive. I'm assuming if she's got any, you know any inch of of my genetics in her she's gonna be competitive too and You know, she's probably gonna be not bad at at whatever she applies herself to so whether that be Roblox or whether that be becoming a NASA astronaut Which I told her she should be yesterday we'll see But I'm feeling a hell of a lot more positive today. I'm feeling a hell of a lot, you know happier and You know the setting Sun is is on my face right now This is the backyard that we have at our disposal literally the backyard That's it's good man, that's good. I came here in the fucking middle of summer As a person who loves cold weather that was never gonna be easy, but it's six o'clock p.m. It's beautiful weather I'm feeling positive. I'm feeling good. I've spent my whole entire day with my kids and Look, I really couldn't ask for anything else at the moment. Yesterday was was a Fuck a pretty intense video, but You know What goes up must come down and what goes down must come up and my mood was down yesterday But it's certainly up today. So guys, I'm working on it. Thank you so much for the support as usual I have to be open and honest with you. I have to bring this video to the channel I don't want to leave it another two weeks after making that previous update and not tell you how good I'm feeling today Simply has to happen. So Thank you and peace out