 Hey what's up guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here, hi hello I'm Lydia and today's video is a little bit different. Normally on here I talk about mental health, share my journey, talk about the breading stuff, talk about living with mental illness but today I'm actually surprising my girlfriend. If you don't know who Becca is, Becca is my girlfriend. Her Instagram is here and I'll also link it on the icard of that. Becca is my girlfriend, we've been out for three months now and we live together. We moved in together and I decorated the entire room last night while she was at home. She went back to her mom's so she could see her cat and you know because we used the car today to finish moving me in. So she's on the way over and I completely redid the room last night. I was literally up until midnight doing it so it's ready for her and she comes back in. The only thing I haven't just taken the rubber shower which I'm gonna go and quickly do. The reason I'm recording this is because it's a big step in my life. This is a huge, huge thing for me. I have lived with partners in the past, just right on a short term basis and honestly every relationship I've been in before Becca, I wish it never ended well. With Becca it's different. I feel very different all day. I absolutely love her. I love Becca and I'm not just saying that, I mean it with everything in me and I will literally do anything for her. One of the most supportive people in my life. I don't know what I would do without her in my life. When I was in hospital she supported me so much and even still, like now she still supports me on to health and she is starting YouTube as well. I'll also link her channel up there. She is going to be uploading soon. I'm actually using my camera to do it and the teacher helped to edit. I've made it in this room into Harry Potter, Motivation, Self Care, Cat and just everything. It's like unicorn and I do have the entire moving vlog still to edit and upload. I've got a weekly vlog to upload. I've got a lot of content on my camera at the moment. It hasn't felt right to put out and I feel like this is the start of a change in my life. Like I'm actually, mentally I'm doing quite well at the moment and my medication is still a bit a bit off and I have only just really started the higher dose of my other door. While she was at home she went back to her mom's so she could see her cat and you know because we used the car today to finish moving me it wasn't the door. I'm also have merch now. I'm so excited that I've got some merch coming out like the next week and the first thing I've launched is the t-shirt which is my medication cannot control your stupidity and I just think it's so fucking ironic given all the hate that I got last year. I was lying in bed a few nights ago and I was like I should put on a t-shirt. This is like I did. I knew that I'm for £15 over on Etsy. Design is completely by me. I'm thinking I'll put the Rx thing on which is like the extended relief sign and then we've got pills which says my medication can't control your stupidity. It is also customizable. I'm also doing three different colours. Black or white and grey. This is this is the grey. I don't wear white really or I live in black clothes and I was like I'll wear this in grey. I spent so long doing this. All room is actually like amazing. I'm getting it on camera. Like I'm literally shocked like I literally don't know what to say. Right in bed. Oh. That does look so cute. Oh my gosh. So you think you can be a carry particle on her? So sure. Oh my god. I was going to tell them if I'm like it's fine. I'm sure. The idea is actually capable of tidying up. I love this girl. I could make a tidy room. It's impressive isn't it? I love this girl. I am so impressed. I did tell you I could play here for one or two. I just have to want to. I guess that's a banana nut trick. I'm surprising Becca with the decorated room. Right. And then we've got something with that and also we didn't get blinded by that light anymore. That'll be hanging on. Here you go. Thanks. Are those yours? Yeah. What's that like? So we've been putting this strip light underneath photos and quotes and all of that because why not? Oh my god it's work. That's what I thought. It might be why they're all stacked. I found a whole packet of flocks team. Seriously? Yeah. Wow. Where was it? In my drawer. Wow. I'm going to start recording anyway. Do you like the room? I love the room. Yay. I'll film the rest of the video later. Peace.