 So this is very unexpected, today is May 26th, first day of my 36th week, and I'm in labor. I know. I'm at loss of words. I was on the toilet, taking a shit, and having contractions, but they weren't persistent. I was having contractions last night too, but I thought they were just wrecks and hicks as always because they weren't consistent. They were like coming and then taking a long pause. The only difference is these were actually painful. The wrecks and hicks that I was getting before weren't painful, so I knew this was different. By the same time, I thought that it would pass once I lay down, get some rest, which for the past few days, ever since my event, I have not been doing anything. I've been relaxing, but this baby is like I'm coming, so what am I supposed to do but to welcome the baby? I don't have anything. Oh gosh, I'm getting another one. I'm about to go into shower. You're doing the same thing. Yeah. Focus more on your breathing and everything else. Let's do this. We're eating at 5.30pm. We have to go back home. I'm going to see her. She's going to see me and come home by then. Open up. I'll ask this kid to go to the meeting. I'm going to go see her. That's what I'll do. Yes? Yes. Just going back to back. Okay mom, another one. Okay. I'm going to start. You didn't find it? I don't know. I don't know. Pretty face. Pretty waist. Pretty eyes. Pretty face. Pretty legs. Pretty legs. Life ain't really pretty. But you're pretty babe. Pretty flower. Pretty flower. Pretty rose. I want to grow up. I want to grow up. Pretty flower. Pretty flower. Pretty rose. I want to grow up. I'm going to clean it out. I don't want to be a real black. I just know. And more legs. I'll put some damage. It's super hilarious! I like it very much! It looks very itselfy in the eye. And they gave lots of中類 good reviews! I was just trying to call you. Oh. Was that happened at... 3.20? 4.20? Yes. Oh. Oh. I thought you said it was a cool song. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. That was a factor back then. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. No, I have... Oh. I can just go in the water. I have this. To this start the 36 weeks. Yeah. So, it's going to be a... a preemie baby. Mm-hmm. Do you feel any like you need to push or anything? A little bit. Yeah. A lot of pressure. A lot of pressure? Yeah. I need to put some. Do you have any chucks pads to put on the bed? Oh, yeah. Yeah. Made it up. I need to make up this. Yeah. It's a good thing I left that in the car from another bird. She's on her way to bring me the things that I left at her house. Because I couldn't find her. She had gone out to get something from the children. One is the longest one. She had two minutes. Oh. But... I don't even matter right now. I think you have time. No, it's alright. Just come and lay down. I think she's pushing. You push her? You're still set up. You don't have to lean down. You feel uncomfortable like that? No, just put her leg on her back. I'm just going to sit here and give her a hug. She's having another one. I can go to your mama? Oh, okay. Alright. You can get the thing back. Thank you. There's me. It's chess. Never mind. That's good. That's one of the reflexes. Yeah, you have a call. They're about the same, right? Yeah, they should be the same. Not yet. They see how long you are. The chess on the head. The head circumference and the chess. Huh? The head circumference. When your mom comes. Mom, could you hold that? Could you take that for me, please? That doesn't start from one. You're on the wrong end. No, no, this. I had it the wrong way for the next one. Like 45. No, that's why I was looking. That's not possible. I know. Never mind. Okay. 19. I have to remember these. 13, 13, 19. Never mind. Don't pee on me. Your mother is going to put on her pad and then you're going to suck all you want. Huh? That's good. That's the moral reflex. That's what you want. And this is another reflex there. And then check the hairs. That's the... I just rub this in. I just rub that in. And then now you go like this and you're not supposed to hear a click. And we don't hear a click. And then we go and we make sure that this is skewed in the back. I'm sorry. Never mind. Never mind. This is skewed. He is at home, right? Yeah. And then... He is at home. And you see? Yeah. He's got a pee pee hole and he has two balls. I shouldn't say balls. Testes. They don't tell us balls, but I call them. I know this is the first time I ever see this point. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, because he slid. See, but it's the second time. You know that part, that bottom part of your... This is not... I've got to get my phone. Yeah, it comes right up. And this line is perfect. He's just... As you start to be able to see it. No. And he's not that thin. Six pounds, right? How much is he? Six. I mean, for a preemie baby they have to turn babies that way. Yeah. And this is all normal movement. And he has the reflex. That's a reflex. You want to know when I touch him that he moves towards that thing. Yeah. He's perfect. And his head is... You take the circumference of his head. And it should be... This should be the same or maybe two inches more or less. And it's almost the same. Did you still want to check? Yes. That's why I didn't put it on yet. I just want to make sure that she was detached. And then now the bag is perfect. Right? The bag stays on like that? Yeah. This was attached to you. Yeah. And this was like this. This was attached to your uterus. Right. In the back. He was in here like that. He was in here. Imagine how that thing stretch out so big. Yeah. Yeah. It doesn't seem like it, right? This has nothing to do with... This is nothing to... But it's not. It's strong, right? But when it comes out, it looks fragile, right? Yeah. Yeah. That's why I said when I was... I'm sitting there. You know, only two black people in the class. And I said, oh, this has to be God. Everybody... I was just so in awe of fetal physiology. You and I couldn't create anything like that. It had to be somebody bigger than us. You know what I mean? But you don't say that in Babylon school. That's what you see. Yeah. Yeah, those are plots, yeah. That's a plot from this side. You see? Yeah. So which way should I keep it? How did you keep it? The last time I thought you had it open, right? Yeah, I don't know. You had it open, if I recall. This side, yeah. Yeah, and you were sprinkling stuff. This is how you had it, if I remember. Yeah. And then... It's going to be sensitive, and I'm going to... I'm going to just put on some gloves to protect you. And then I'm going to get some raw, raw gauze pad fresh, that sterile. Just a look. All right? Let me just go wash my hands. Huh? So... So the line-in is just going to be a little bad right now because where I'm sitting, but life isn't really a movie, okay? A whole movie. I believe I just gave birth. I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything. He's just here, snuggled up to his mama. I'm trying to keep him as warm as possible. Where do I even start? Okay, so I'm a holo-camera like this as long as my arms allow me to, but... So, um... I think I mentioned in my first flip today is May 26th. This has been a crazy week. After my event, I decided to take it real easy. I stayed off my feet. I wasn't doing much. I still have... I'm going to have to lay down. Give me one second. My lips are dry. But, um... Yeah, I wasn't doing much. I was taking it easy. I really spent most of my time on my laptop trying to get my labels ready for my products. I had literally a schedule for this week to finish up some last-minute things so I could be ready for Agfair. And, um... By Tuesday, I was out... Not Tuesday. By, yeah, yesterday. Yesterday was Wednesday. So, um, Wednesday, which was yesterday, May 25th, I was actually out of it. I caught a cold from my boys and, like, I couldn't even stay out of bed. I pretty much slept the whole day. I was coughing, congested. I had a migraine that would not go away. Like, from my waist... No, from my hips down was just aching me. Aching so bad. So, I pretty much stayed in bed all day. When I did get up, I just rolled over to my laptop trying to update a few labels and then I would just go back to sleep. I was just out of it. And, um, yesterday was actually supposed to be my day for doing my photo shoot. My, um, pregnancy photo shoot. Of course, that didn't happen. So, um, during the day yesterday, I was also getting a lot of Braxton Hicks. Like, just constantly. They weren't painful yet. But I was getting them a lot. So, by nighttime, like evening nighttime, they started to get painful. Like, I could feel it in my lower pelvis area and my lower back. I just thought there were still Braxton Hicks and all through the night, I was getting them. Like, at one point, I woke up and I was like, okay, let me time it to see if, to see how close they are. I timed three of them and they were like two to three minutes apart and then it would take a break. And then they would come back and they would be two to three minutes apart again. And I was like, this is kind of sporadic. So, maybe it's not labor pains. So, I went through the night dealing with that. Then this morning, this morning, I was still getting them and they were even a little more intense in terms of the pain. But, very manageable. It wasn't anything that I was like alarmed about. My mother actually came and she was like, do you sure you're not in labor? And I was just like, I can't because I don't want to go to the hospital. And, what do you want to notice? So, let me fix him. So, yeah, just more initials. I was like, I better not be in labor because I don't want to go to the hospital. I'm not considered full term yet. Today is my first day of my 36 weeks and they don't consider anything full term before 37 weeks. So, I was pretty much in denial as usual. And this time I was only in denial because I was too early. Like, I'm not even past the date that would consider me full term. If it's one thing all my babies always knew how to do is latch. They do not play when it comes to sucking to Tina's son. I even still have like a little reminence of the cold from yesterday. But, if you saw me yesterday compared to today, you would not believe that I was sick. It was bad. But all of that was probably just part of it, the whole everything because your body tried to get rid of as much stuff as possible when it's about to get burnt. It doesn't want any mucus in the way and it just tried to purge, get rid of everything. And that's pretty much what happened yesterday because I literally cough up and cough up a lot of mucus yesterday. And today. Anyways, what was I saying? So, my mother had a workshop to go to this morning at 8.30 and she would just like, listen call me if anything. So I was pretty much home. My father was like in and out but I was pretty much home all day with the boys. And the two little ones are sick as well especially the baby because not the baby but my youngest, he's not my youngest anymore. Because he usually doesn't get sick. This is really his first time actually being sick. So he's taking it pretty hard and he doesn't like it. He just wants to be on me by my side all day. He was literally glued to me. Yesterday we were both in bed all day and then again today he was just stuck on me like every minute he wanted me to lift him up he wants to lay on me, he wants to sleep on me. So that was my day. Pretty much juggling him, juggling these contractions and trying to update my labels. And I don't know what time it was exactly but when my mother got home I was on the toilet taking a shit. And she came in the room to check on me. And I actually was in with the one year old because again he was glued to me. So I'm holding him, I'll take in a shit and as she came in to check on me I was getting a contraction. So I called her and I said take him and right after that contraction like shortly after I got a next one and then right after that I felt this gush just just gush and I was on the toilet so of course I was on the toilet and I just knew it was my water breaking. It didn't fully break but that was part of it. So at that point I was like yeah this is it, this baby coming today like whether I want it to or not the baby is coming. He's so tiny I hold a tiny baby and it feels like forever so tiny and he just sliding all over the place. I think he just wanted to be on top of me and not on this side of me. I'm after birth pain especially when they nursing y'all and it'd be worse when you have your second and third child. But so yeah once once my water partially broke and I called my mom back into the bathroom I immediately told her I said call my call of my wife now, like right now. Yeah my lips are so dry and my lip balm is out of reach right now. So where was I? Yeah she called my Kata and I got off the toilet I went straight into the shower and I was in there for a little bit which you see in one of those clips and listen the contractions were just coming. I was just telling the baby like at least just wait for the midwife to get here although I wasn't scared or anything because my mother wouldn't know what to do too and I'm very confident that my mother would have been fine here by herself doing this with me but I still wanted someone else here because literally nothing here was prepared like nothing that I had in my mind for my birth plan was in place and I just have to let go of all of that and accept the fact that I was having the baby like even to record everything I picked up the camera and tried to do as much as possible when you're in labor it's only so much you could do and holding that camera to record your own birth is not one of those things so like I couldn't have none of my sisters here to hold the camera my mother was busy my Kata was busy so it's not like it was literally just us three so it's not like anybody could really record anything and I really wanted to record every single detail of this birth but I I honestly don't even know what I captured on what I didn't capture because at one point my camera kept turning off and I didn't realize why until after that my mom memory card was full yeah that's how out of it I was I was supposed to bend delete some of the footage I already took off the memory card and I didn't so I don't know what I captured and I think as soon as I started pushing the camera shut off so I don't even know if it captured that or not I gotta go back and look so for anybody that was actually looking forward to a nice detailed birth video I'm sorry but it happened how it happened and I can't change anything about that now all I could do is share my story verbally and put whatever footage I did capture so yeah so once I got out the shower shortly after the midwife came and I'll say about 15-20 minutes later my body pushed it was not forced at all my body literally ejected him out the first push his head came out the second push his body came out and that was it he was born at 340 or 342 it was quick it was very quick I laid down on the bed they put him on top of me all of that I wish I could have reported but at that point like if I just had a little bit more time I could have set up my tripod everything happened so quick and that's the thing when it's your second third baby the chances of you being in labor long is very slim that baby is ready to come I'm still wrapping my head around everything first thing I'm still wrapping my head around is the fact that I have another boy he had everybody fooled we all thought that this was definitely a girl but as y'all know I did not find out the gender so it was just all speculations and this is the perfect example of how everything they tell you is a myth based on how your belly is based on your cravings your this, your that it's all myths like you just never know I was sick throughout my whole pregnancy with my first two boys and not with this one so that was one of the reasons why I thought it was a girl the next thing is I crave sweet things instead of salty things I would just way more like up and about felt good, felt pretty dressed up for the reason when I was leaving the house but all of that really had to do with the fact that I was just in a better place and a happier place ever since leaving my situation is, I'm not upset at all I'm happy for another healthy baby I did want a girl I'm not gonna lie but I have me and little boy and I guess I had to have been carrying a lion in order to get myself out of the situation I was in because it took a lot of strength and courage not saying that a girl couldn't do that but she truly protected me and was definitely my strength through all of that so I'm gonna be very upset when I edit this video cause there's gonna be a lot of sniffling and I hate that but I am actually a little congested right now so I apologize in advance so here I am May 26th, my due date was June 29th although I didn't expect to until June 29th I thought I would at least have until mid June about I'll say June 10th the latest but this baby was ready and feels like ready or not here I come pretty much and he's here I don't know what's gonna happen this weekend with the act fair but the boot is paid for so I'm gonna see how that goes and I am a little disappointed in that because I was really using this to relash my business and like even if my sister does sit in for me like nobody can sell your products the way you sell it and everybody know me for my products so it's just gonna be different and I can't stress about it now it is what it is but I will make an announcement on social media and we'll see how that goes it's just I just know that I can't leave the house and I'm definitely not taking him out the house and I'm kind of doing a little spirit too so there's no way he's coming out the house it's just it just goes against all postpartum healing protocols like you do not leave your house days after giving birth especially when you have a home birth hospital births are a little different because you're in the hospital but home births any any season midwife would tell you not to leave the house and not to be up and down within days of giving birth and as a doula I wouldn't even do that or encourage anybody to do that so I just had to come to I'm still coming to terms with it but I have to come to terms with the fact that I'm not going to be able to really be at agfare at all and I hope it still goes well but it is what it is and these after birth contractions right now I just need to do some rest and cheese and bread if you know you know that's all I could say anyways so this little one for me is considered premature just because he was born at 36 weeks and literally 36 weeks in terms of one and 36 how did they count it 36 weeks in one day I think that's how it's counted I'm actually going to look it up real quick they actually called this, this is actually considered I'm at 36 weeks but in terms of counting it to the day is actually 35 weeks in one day yeah so he's considered premature but I'm happy for my midwife because any other midwife would have sent me to the hospital and that is not what I wanted and I'm always confident in my body that if I'm healthy I can do what I need to do and it's not like the baby was in any type of danger and my midwife knows me well so she was confident during what she did everybody is different so it's not something that she would do for anybody and it's not something that I would recommend that anybody else do but he was born happy and healthy and all his vitals are great there's no signs of any issues he was kicking and crying and moving and he's not struggling to breathe or anything he lashed on perfectly from the first time and he weighed six pounds 18 inches long I believe and he was born at 340 oh boy mom still regardless I'm happy and I love that relief because I was getting into the point that in my pregnancy where I was just tired big and just over being pregnant and y'all know how we get in the third trimester it's rough so I'm a little bit relieved in that sense a little bit disappointed because of agfair but overall I am happy that I was able to give birth to a healthy baby and that I am healthy and that I was able to have another home birth this is life no matter what you have planned you're not always in control especially when it comes to these babies they'd be the one in control he just wants to be skin to skin right now which he should be so actually Loki needs a pedo so gotta figure out how I'm gonna get up I cannot believe this I just gave birth five days after my birth but in all in all it kind of takes the message from it do you wanna latch again okay look at him I want to teach him a lot to be honest being that he's been such my protector throughout this whole journey and just based on how everything happened with this pregnancy and given that May the month of May last year for me was so traumatic and just not the best I guess ending off this month on a good note was his way of giving me that gift of life back it's something to change the narrative of what the month of May means to me because last year really ruined that for me and now this year I get to tell a different story and I'm very appreciative for that other than all of that I'm just gonna rest up and start to get things for myself and the baby I literally had nothing I don't want to say nothing but like nothing for nothing that you would have knowing that you're about to have a baby I didn't even have campers thankfully the midwife had a bag of things from another mom who gave birth but she gave birth to a girl so my mother just went through the bag and took out some gender neutral stuff which wasn't much but at least it's something and I got a whole bag of campers out of that so so I'm grateful for that and I'll just get things little by little as I need them I'm really I've really learned how to just let go and not force things and life works out a little better that way when you don't get too attached to what your expectations were because so you get disappointed very easily I'm not saying that I'm going to lower my standards when it comes to other things I'm saying that just if generally speaking sometimes you're not always fully in control and that's okay at those times you learn to let go and let the universe take its course and things seem to work out anyways so that's where I'm at right now anyways I do hope you all enjoyed this video I wish I had more actual raw footage to show you all but I don't I don't even know what I captured and what I didn't capture so I'll only you know when I actually start editing these footage and put it in together I hope I got the part of me pushing but I I recall looking over and hearing my camera shut off while I was pushing maybe next time no wonder it'll be the next time because your girl is dumb I ever have another baby and I'll have to be for somebody worthy of it worthy of me getting pregnant again worthy of everything and right now I see no suspects so for now I'm done I'll just be a boy mom until for a new mountains anyways thank you all for watching to all my melanated women out there protect your room by any means necessary and to everybody watching protect your feet by any means necessary you always see me in my next video