 Well, I it had a really difficult childhood and when I got out of school I was just 17 and my dad died and we'd had a really bad relationship. He was very distant and cold and Gone a lot when he was home. He's a disciplinarian So he died just before I turned 18 and at that point kind of in the Bible talks about, you know The Jews wandered in the wilderness and so I I ran to the wilderness And I just went to escape and and got involved with that all the cultural stuff in the late sick middle and late 60s and early 70s and every day was a struggle just trying to blot out reality and that lasted for almost 10 years you know when we talk about Events that happen in our life that don't make sense. I mean it didn't make sense I mean I met Eva and I just Was stunned and I'd never that had never experienced before and I just who is she In unbeknownst to me. I found out later, you know, I don't even know if I found out before we were married But she said the same thing. Well, who's he and so I don't think it was love at first sight I think that I really believe that God can orchestrate events ahead of us that we walk into And that that was all part of my journey in her journey and it came together And we did a lot of things the wrong way, but it was certainly I guess maybe when it wasn't too long And I just said, you know, we need to get married. I think and we finally got married and began this This wonderful journey together. I Was 61 almost 62 years old before I stepped foot in radiant church And we went to church because my son had been going there and he'd had some difficulties And he asked us if we would go and Eva said my wife his mother said, of course we'll go and I went I don't know. What kind of church is it? You know, they got loud music and I walked in they went Because I'd been to other churches off and on and what kind of church is this that people are greeting you and saying hi and the Musics going I'm going. What is this? But once I heard Pastor Lee Teaching, you know, I'd heard preachers, but I'd never really experienced in my mind I wasn't ready for someone to teach the Bible and that's really what Really opened me up Mike Popenhagen, it's now pastor Mike and Jackson was the worship leader and one day afterwards They'd had their prayer team and he was standing there after church and and I walked up and and I told them I said Mike I've lived this life You know, I'm gonna be 62. I said is it too late and he looked at me and had this beautiful smile And he said Jim it's never too late for the Lord to do great things in your life And I just and I walked away there with real hope the second thing was Pastor Lee was preaching and teaching and He was talking about that God will adopt you and you're gonna be adopted into God's family Heavenly father and it was much more than that but he went on and on and all of a sudden, you know, I was crying and Then he did the altar call and then my arm went up and I was crying I just said I can't believe it. You know like God wants me even though I Think I was giving up on me as I got older and I think other people give up on older sinners You know, oh, he's so old and this and that he won't change it And I think that's that's my view in the world's view, but it's not God's view and He wants us and he wants us in his kingdom. No matter what we've done if We'll accept him and his son as our savior You know, the reality is is that you know, we both Kind of got saved at the same time and that was wonderful But I can't kind of take back And you can't like that past we can't we want to close that door, but I still I still remember that and And even though I can be kind of grumpy sometimes, you know That I really don't want to be that guy mean I love her and I owe her all these last years Not as a payment, but to just live as a godly man supposed to live for my wife And I want that I want to be that man for her. It doesn't make up for the past But it provides hope for today and for the future as we journey into into this this next season