 I have a question for you The industry acceptance when you were like on your mountaintop The industry you especially because you worked your way up through the industry and that's the only way to get in in the industry you were The darling everything this guy does is amazing groundbreaking, etc Is that addictive because after 2017? It's not there anymore, but you're still putting out the same product The fans still like it the same. So is that something that you feel like? Man fuck. I miss that or is it like now. I'm still putting out the same product Good question, and I was so I it was actually a great discovery for me Because I didn't know what it would be like because when you're there and we're taking private jets to do stadiums, which is kind of a grind It's not it's not really what got me in the comedy. Yeah, the big stuff, and I'm also never been comfortable with Big fame the big like oh my god fame is just it doesn't make me feel like a person Yeah, so when somebody to treat treats you bigger than that or less than that both stink to me Yeah, it just makes me uncomfortable. I don't I can't I don't identify with that and the industry I knew it from I mean it's I've been doing this for 37 years. So That I was in it long enough to know that when I was getting a lot of acceptance from there I was like, yeah, right like I know this is Short-lived I know this is conditional. Yeah, and I know a lot of it is just wind You know, it's not really but again, it's there is actual human beings involved I had partners in the industry who had really meaningful relationships with one really grateful to like a fat like FX Yeah, I mean FX even after my series Louis is on my website now They let me have it. Yeah, and I mean I paid for that I paid But they did that's an unusual thing I they took it down from every other service and they gave it to me and I you can only get on my website now That was a really great thing and they did that for me. So there's a human thing to do Yeah, but anyway what I found out was when I just needed to just work again and sometimes just comedy clubs There is this fear when you're up there if I ever had to just go back to the funny bone Sitting next to the soda machine is it out into the room the smell of fried food What it I may just have to kill myself, right if I go back, but I got back there and I was so happy Loved it because I just love telling the fucking jokes Yeah, and I'm closer to the crowd and the money you make as a stand-up selling out a comedy club over a weekend is Ridiculous, it's that it's close to my that's enough point. Yeah, it's just so I mean they give you the whole fucking door Yeah, and it's insanely good money. So money-wise. I was like I can live on that Yeah, I and then make it and the fans pay less which is something that's right And then when you make and then you make and then when you get little bumps like hey, I'm back in the theaters This is so fucking fun didn't know if I'd be back in the theaters, but it's just doing the work was plenty I don't miss that shit at all the being the mountaintop a mountaintop is a place you visit You don't fucking live there. You don't live in a tent suckin oxygen. It's actually not fun up there It's a goal. Yeah, but it's not a life It's a place to visit and it's a place to be seen from miles around so you can collect I have fans now from a lot of different plans all over Europe I play all over the world's because of the opportunity I was given by those people in Hollywood to get up high But now I've got I've there with me I was smart enough to collect them on my own to find a way to get directly to them Yeah, did you know miss being like shit red carpets and being in on lists and that kind of stuff I think comments are too self-aware to enjoy that to enjoy that stuff that like red carpet Love it a lot of them love it some people need that they like that's their indicator that they are live That's their indicator that they're going that they're doing something. Yeah, I think that's sad That's not that's not sustainable and it's also not based on you. It's based on a trend I got a lot of attention that didn't I didn't have come into me. Yeah, I'm proud of the work I did but I'm it's got it was like are you kidding me? Like when I saw comics looking at me going like dude enough I agreed with them I'm like it's yeah, I'm sure you were just like it was enough already Yeah, and it was like oh, you know, you don't want to be that guy, right? You know, so there's a Jerry Seinfeld to quote your boy Jerry Seinfeld was accepting an award my boy. Yeah, we set the award for something I forget what it was me peabody word on something. That's a great video. So it's like the Philly birthing It was and he's up there. He goes. I don't want to be here I want to be in the back with a bunch of comics making fun of this whole stupid thing that we're all here For yeah, and yeah, that's that's what you have and I think that's what we have I mean stupid the red carpet thing is dumb all of it is done It's the people who love you what the fuck else do you need? Yeah, I need these five guys You don't need that you don't need the press you don't need them saying that there are good versions of all of that Yeah, it's cool to read a review of your work. That's well-written. That's thoughtful. That's positive Sure, that feels good But I would if it's between that and the audience getting off on it not even the audience Loving and coming but the audience get knowing that you're hitting them Yeah, then the rest of it can go fuck itself. It's meaningless I have a follow-up based on what you said about getting your own emails and not liking them out on top Did you do that knowing I don't want to be here for long Did you do that with like I'm getting the fuck out of this whole thing that I'm in well I know that people don't stay up there. That's always been clear to me So I always knew that was temporary. He said it in an opiate and Anthony interview They're like, you know, like you're doing your private jets. You got all this kind of stuff And you're like, yeah, it's not gonna last for a while. It's not if it can't. Yeah, yeah, when I first got my show at FX When I first got my show at FX John Landgraf would became my friend who runs the place He's just sent me he asked me if I'd ever seen the shield. What was their first big success great show So he sent me ten it was DVDs then send me all of the ten seasons and I lost my mind watching the shield Yeah, I watched all ten seasons and I was obsessed with every character and every actor and you can tell when they're making the show The way they walk on the set. They're like, I'm on a hit. Yeah, I'm on a hit. Yeah, I can do anything after this None of those people are working None of them Michael chick list is a monster. You can't even see a face And all those other when they were like, you know, I mean that's some of the Walton Goggins It's like fine keeps fine and work and he's a great voice Yeah, but the but they're not what they were on that show and they were winning everything and they were all Anybody was talking about and that's not a bad story. That's a good story. You get to be this shining thing Yeah, but you got to give it out. You got to be willing to give it up and dismount Like, you know, I was dismounted And I'm grateful for that because I don't know I don't know what I I don't know what it would have been like I don't know I did prepare for it. Well, that's yeah, I did but But the trip down no matter how it's done. I think it's rough. That's right. Anybody is it cool Nobody gives it up on purpose. Nobody goes like that's I've had enough. Yeah, only George Washington