 enjoy travel. I can't say it, I was like, oh, I just can't wait to get out there and start talking about God all over the world. When you're shy, and you basically live in the same city your whole life, you don't, and you're, even when you were a child, and your parents would take you on the summer vacation, I was one of those kids, are we there yet? My sister and I would, when we would hear about these long cross country trips, it's not like we're traveling across Italy or something, this is United States, Canada, we have, you know, some shorelines and some long open spaces in these countries, and my sister and I would demand there would be a swimming pool, we were not going to take like 8, 12 hour drives, unless there was a swimming pool waiting or something, when you get out, you know, because it was, I was not really into travel, I didn't really enjoy travel, but then again, this is God's mind, the salvation, not David's, it's not the personality self that says, okay, I know the way, the personality self does not know the way, it's the denial of the way, it's the mask, that's what personality comes from, persona is mask, you can't expect a mask to tell you how to live down, a mask, it's a mask only does itself, so anyway, in 1991 began lots of travel, kind of by the Holy Spirit, hmm, it's interesting when you don't really have an inclination to travel, and then when you're told to go, all you're told are, trust in me, I will lead you, I will lead the way, some of us read the Bible, look at the lilies of the field, they neither spin nor toil, and yet all of us, as it was at Solomon, it's not, it's the whole thing about the rain, you know, it's so taken care of, or I seek you first, the kingdom of heaven, and all things will be added unto you, and then in the Course of Miracles, it's kind of like Jesus is like, in case you missed it, I've been telling you this for centuries, but just in case you missed it, he's got a little paragraph in there that has kind of become known in the Course, it's the promise, you know, once you have accepted his plan as the one function that you will fulfill, there will be nothing else, it just goes on and on about, without your effort you will go before you, making straight your way, leaving in your path, no stones to trip on, no obstacles to bar your way, nothing unique will be denied to you, not one seeming difficulty, but will melt away before you reach it, you need to take life from nothing except for the only purpose that you will fulfill, it's basically the limit of the field, all the good stuff, saying, if you trust, I will take care of everything, and that's a pretty good promise, you know, when you think about it, if you just trust and follow the Spirit, every name that you seem to need will be taken care of, he even says, not one seeming difficulty, but will melt away before you reach it, not really talking about challenges and trials and tribulations, he's saying, you will be totally taken care of, completely taken care of, if you devote your life to this one purpose, to forgiveness, to yielding and being in flow in the Divine Will, so basically, that's what I really felt to do, just kind of take him up on the promise, so when I was a guy that traveled, and I was impelled to travel, I was like, hey, you understand that I don't have a lot of money, so how do you travel in this world without money? And at the beginning, I don't even think I had a vehicle, I had some money, so I was guided to purchase a little three-cylinder Chevrolet's principle car, but I said, you know, I'm now a member of a church or an organization, so I have no organizational support. I have left my job, I have left my family, I have very little, I don't have CDs and money markets, I do not have a stock market portfolio, Jesus and I have some interesting talks, I was saying, let me tell you about how it is in this world. And he says, oh, yes, I know that, I've been there. And I said, yes, if you know money does not grow on trees, I can't just go and buy hundreds of bills. And the Lord in Canada said, oh, look, a tree of loonies and toonies. They're breaking down coins. Jesus said, I know that's what you believe, and I will show you another way, I'll show you beyond what limits that you have. What limits, at least in scarcity and lack and survival. I got on the head of kindergarten, grade school, junior high, high school, but I stacked on, yes, ten years of university on top of all that. So I had about, let's say, about 22 and a half years of education going against me. And Jesus, you have learned this world, you built this world with learning and not one point did you stop to try to ask what was this for. You just continued layering upon allusion, upon allusion, complexity upon complexity. Now after 22 and a half years of this, plus your parents conditioning on top of that, you are not in a position to know anything. You have wound yourself so dark, deep into the darkness that you really think you know something, but you don't. There's nothing more arrogant than thinking you know something when you don't. Jesus calls knowledge heaven, and this world is just a layer upon layer of what the Shakespeare say, much ado about nothing. You have learned nothing and you spent a long time doing it. Now just 22 and a half years, you've been at this for millennia, and it's got to stop. Reverse, and you've got to unlearn it all. So in one sense, when people tell me, you know, I'm just, I'm going to do the course after I get my master's degree and my PhD in business. Let me save you some time. I've been on that road. You don't need to go that direction. But you start to go deep enough with it, and you start to realize that this is a course of unlearning. You really have to empty your mind with the Buddhists, empty your mind with everything. And it's very practical, because when you do empty your mind, your intuition, the spirit that you will offer you everything that you need. You won't be gullible, you won't be left just blank and deserted and empty, just left to be nothing. You will be guided while you still believe there's time and space that moves through. You will be guided beautifully, graciously, easily through time and space. And then it's like the sense of being off where the mind just kind of recedes into the stillness that it always was, just sees, you know, be still and know that I've got it. It's really that simple. But there will be kindness. Nothing, you're not going to be hurled back into reality. You know, it's not going to be traumatic. It's going to seem like a gradual loosening from the ego. Nothing's ripped away. In times you can see, you know, in the dark night of the soul, you can see quite intense to the ego that nothing gets ripped away. So that's really good news. It's really about tuning in to that guidance. I think I was, I had this feeling like, what the hell are you used to? I had time. I'm here to heal. I'm here to awaken. I've had the time for dilly-dally. I'm not going to try to distract myself and get caught up in all these distractions of the world and waste time. It's no two questions. I don't want to waste a moment. I remember when I was in graduate school and I was sitting around talking to other graduate students and graduate assistants and people I worked with and I'd say, you know, there's something fishy about this world. I'd say, you're in graduate school and they'd say, yeah, right, it's okay. And I'd say, and I'm going to get to the bottom of it. I'm going to get to the bottom of it. It's the last thing that I do. I'm going to get to the bottom of this fishy world. And they'd say, well, I'll go about it and talk about it. And, oh, the people did not like coming around me. I was questioning everything, absolutely everything. I wasn't going to assume anything was true just because somebody told it to me already. I didn't care who said it. I didn't care if the Buddha said it or Jesus or Hitler or whatever. I mean, I'm going to question things. I'm going to question the heck out of this world because there's something fishy about it and I'm not just going to take it on a silver platter, you know, just swallow it. So after this went on for a while, we started to question things. I remember my friends and associates that I remember saying, David, this is no way to live. Get a life, get a life. And I say, get a life, get a life. Okay, what do you mean by get a life? And they say, relationship, get a good debt, get more money, get lots more debt, get into working to pay for that debt, grow old, get sick, and die. I said, absolutely not. They said, be practical. Do you know how many billions, billions have come before you that have done just that? And you think, what? I said, that is absolutely not acceptable. But you just described it. Is that what you call life? That is to get a life. I'll get a life, but I'm not getting that life. I will not succumb to whatever that is. Do you know how many generations have gone through this? I am not interested. I don't even care how many generations have succumbed to this mesmerism, to this hypnotism, to this suggestion of scarcity and lack and death and sickness. That doesn't sound good at all. That doesn't sound appealing at all. When I was in high school, they'd make you take those aptitude tests. And I had my aptitude, they'd say, oh, very good, you're good at this, you're good at that, you're good at mathematics, you're good at analytical lines, and they'd give you the spit out, the print out and everything. And then they'd try to match your aptitude with what you like, with what your desires are. And they'd try to, oh, the math came out crazy for me. The guys' counselors, they were like, what do you say to the parents? I mean, nowadays, at the time I'm not, that is a mess. But then, now I think it's like, it was simply the Holy Spirit saying, you are not of this world. You aren't going to grow up to be anything. And when you're in high school, that's kind of concerning. Just try to go home and tell your parents that. What are you going to do with your life? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. 20 years, 40 years from now, are you proud of you? Probably not. Probably not. Are you going to make me proud? Doesn't look like it's going that way. But you have to have a vision. You have to have a vision. Well, there's nothing there. I'm not really ambitious to become anything. I'm not interested in becoming a fully functioning human being. I'm not interested in leaving behind a legacy for my children and grandchildren. I'm not interested in making the world a better place. I'm not interested in anything of this world. I would like to be happy. I would like to be joyful, free, peaceful. But I don't have a vision. I'm not going to try to make this happen in the future. I'm not going to go for something. So, of course, this is not what the world wants to hear. If you had any friends who stayed with this pad, you will find that the friends will desert you. You will find somebody else who's a little more normal, a little more popular. But peace of mind is not a small goal. It's not a small gift that you can give yourself. Peace of mind is like everything. There is no other goal. At one point, Jesus talks in the Course, can you imagine to know what's like to be perfectly calm, peaceful, tranquil, always? That is what time is for. To learn just that and nothing more. Peace of mind is what time is for. Holy Spirit, use this time to undo the belief of in your time, to return us to the eternal, to the eternal nature. It's so simple. It's absolutely so simple. It was like right under our nose the whole time.