 black boy tell me how you really feel i just want to build with you black girl tell me how you really feel i just want to keep it real with you i want to live better eat better i want to love better sleep better i want to feel so aligned it's a blind one time for the state of mind two times for elevated rhymes know i architected when i lay design i drown noise out of the clear blue i sit twist the threads of said silence that's an heirloom i am the shepherd i share still fleece funds from the havedolls to the matadors whose side step the bull beautifully to that applause around rappers a higher caliber catalog shines reminds i ain't coming to flatter y'all i spark chatter dark matter the sharks scatter on these dark waters who walk taller who barks orders god body garden what all the laws taught us not appear it's really fear near i pierce deep i'm revered my steps remain clear with fear sweeps not a man here who could sense me i want to appear elohim with the energy black boy tell me how you really feel i just want to feel with you black girl tell me how you really feel i just want to keep it real with you i want to live better eat better yeah yeah i want to love better sleep better yeah i want to feel so aligned it's all the olive here it's a blind one time for elevated rhymes two times for showmanship three times for black hands and land ownership revolution i bring to you where they ring bling to you nissy blues on war tunes to sing to you i am a rebel without a pause no applause trust me i must be chuck d getting mine off many fools been clock watching my moves and i needed to reappraise the flavor to the time off now back jesus black feed is slumbering unborn all kind of covering the curtain untaught i'm a rose that rose to etch pros and rosetta stone yelling to do a megaphone always rapping baby forever home i ain't the pond calling the kettle black i'm the flame keeping the kettle warm and i am the blame for the renaissance is cold had to write and recite it with down feathers on black boy tell me how you really feel because i just want to feel with you black girl tell me how you really feel i just want to keep it real with you yeah i want to live better eat better i want to love better sleep better yeah i want to feel so aligned it's a blind one time for elevated rhymes two times for showmanship three times for black hands and land ownership revolution i bring to you where the rain bling to you me see blues on war tunes singing to you i am the rebel without a pause no applause trust me i am chuck d getting mine off many fools they clock watching my moves and i needed to reappraise the flavor took some time off now back jesus black feed is slumbering unborn all kind of covering the curtain untaught i'm the rose that rose to etch pros and rosetta stone still yelling to do a megaphone always rapping baby forever home i need the park calling the kettle black i am the flame keeping the kettle warm i'm the blame for the renaissance is cold i write and recite it with down feathers on i love you and write and recite it with down feathers on that mean that shit cold and i'm the coldest listen it's the message right here black boy tell me how you really feel because i just want to build with you black girl tell me how you really feel i want to keep real with you i want to live better eat better i want to love better sleep better yeah i want to feel so aligned y'all give a round of applause to this band right now when they tell me they want to feel the cause a little more than we got to do that again i wasn't in the rehearsal we didn't do that that was not a part of the set list roger was just in my ear like yo let's do it again so we gonna do it again so we did it again this next record we're gonna get into it since we have a message to my black boys tell me how y'all really feel i know y'all going through it we going through it black women tell me how you really feel i know y'all going through it y'all been going through it so we're gonna keep that going we're gonna talk to y'all directly because i love y'all i love y'all deeply and i love y'all forever and i'm unapologetic about that love you'll be like yo well you know i'd be like yo we're gonna do this right now for the black women we're gonna do it for all women like no that that ain't what i said i said we're gonna do this for the sisters but well what about all of us you just be like no i said we don't you know they say a rising tide lifts all boats but see that's that the thing about that is a rising tide lifts all boats but some people swimming treading water you know i'm saying you can't not acknowledge that you can't acknowledge what the history and what the present the chain that connects it all so we're gonna keep going into that we're gonna bring chenique on the cans back out here we're gonna bring a wonderful guitarist jimmy this guy right here we hey listen he looked nasty don't he right so we're gonna get jimmy showed up in the backstage with three his buttons on button i knew he was about to tear shit up tonight when he had he usually pretty clean cut so when he had the three of them on button i was like oh we about to go in okay we're gonna get into forever love y'all ready for that if you ready for forever love let me hear you say yeah check check check fuck it can y'all hear me anybody somebody all right this is actually coming in through my phone for whatever reason my microphone is it working you know but i appreciate y'all bearing with me does this sound a little better check okay i hear me all right this is a laptop audio so it's uh it's gonna be bad but um yeah i appreciate y'all pulling up um thank you for all the birthday wishes i am 30 years old today which sounds weird to say out loud i've always been the uh the young guy but i ain't young no more but i'm thankful man i'm thankful being here three decades um learned a little bit obviously i have more to learn but um yeah i uh i thought i would do this this stream if uh you guys who are over 30 had some advice to give me to uh you know add some tools to my toolbox um suggestions even for for this uh for the ministry um i just wanted to provide an opportunity for you guys to do so you know because this starts and ends with you guys if only my technology will cooperate all right i've got the link in the chat please do not hesitate to pull up or if you just want to talk current events anything that's going on in the world pull up on me if you haven't already please get your tickets for the hundred uh we'll be in atlanta georgia june 24th there's a link in the about page um you can scan the qr code on the screen if you're watching on a larger screen you can dm me for the for the link if you like um but uh yeah we still have a good bit of tickets so y'all please y'all please pull up if you can uh all right so like i said the link is in the chat um let me see what's going on in the chat king isa appreciate your brother he says happy born day playboy wish you many more thank you man i appreciate it uh godiva baker happy birthday thank you thank you james backwards happy solar return young life wishing you many more thank you brother s as as always i don't know if i could clap because uh yeah that probably didn't even work but thank you so much s as i appreciate everything you do couldn't have made it this far without you uh on this youtube journey so thank you paul appreciates you my brother paul was our very first channel member so shout out to paul um paul is gonna be in atlanta you know i'm a i'm a i'm a figure out a way to uh you know to highlight you my brother i appreciate you uh soca black he says today is my wife's birthday yeah i don't find too many maybabies man it's it will i've come across maybe three in my lifetime and my daughter is the third my daughter is may 16th so her birthday is next week um we're just cool because um i'm i was talking to corny early i'm not a big celebratory person i i i find it easier to celebrate other people so with mother's day around the corner my daughter's birthday around the corner um you know i'll i'll celebrate through celebrating them uh let's see elias i appreciate you man thank you nigele he says happy birthday youngster i wish you the best i love what you're doing keep up the excellent work i appreciate it man i appreciate it uh friendship he says man happy born day bro thank you thank you thank you uh as ed says let's get the party started if only my technology was working it would be more uh party-esque with the sound effects and all that good stuff um but yeah um as ed says please consider becoming a channel member it really helps keep this thing sustainable or make this thing sustainable because right now it's kind of not but um that's what's going on these update um but yeah yeah yeah please consider becoming a channel member consider donating to the channel um every little bit really helps what we're trying to do here kyan say i see you miss jiggly boobs shout out to you shout out to you and um her um one of her clips is actually doing some numbers on instagram so if you haven't already please check out kayla's interviews kidding boy appreciate you brother oh hey yeah man uh i'm usually the young here but now i'm old so i'm still trying to uh figure out what that means for my for myself um it's it's weird honestly i feel like i was just a kid two days ago now i'm a full grown-ass man and uh that is terrifying but also exciting in a lot of ways um let's see stacks black appreciate you man cp the artist i see you my brother i see you i see you let's see who haven't i read chaos rain appreciate you brother yeah 93 may 10th 1993 yeah it's uh it's crazy to think it's been 30 years since 93 that's that's wild time time really waits for nobody um yeah mr t yeah the uh my microphone isn't working for whatever reason i moved it and then it stopped it stopped working so i have to uh figure out what's going on as a i appreciate you my brother tanisha thank you so much darling uh let's see who am i missing i am corny michelle i appreciate you yeah it's how do you i don't know yep so cb says why are you saying on your birthday it's not it's not sad it's uh it's uh pensive i think that is the right that's the right terminology or am i appreciate you she says happy birthday allen enjoy that we need to talk thank you so much uh mr smith happy birthday my god appreciate the super chat man thank you uh corny says 30 30 where's your drink man listen i got no drinks i gotta go to the grocery store i'm gonna get some drinks this weekend i promise i promise send you a picture of my drink this weekend but my birthday is on the wednesday i mean i can't really do much jay jay me thank you so much jay me i appreciate you also if you guys haven't already please check out jay me's interviews and also jay me uh came through to was it last week i think it was last week we did a live stream um i think we uh we strong armed her into checking her dm so we got to follow up and figure out how that's going um nini i appreciate you thank you so much she says happy birthday thank you for extending kevin samuels conversation i appreciate that i appreciate that timeless ascension says happy solar return brother thanks for all that you do thank you man i couldn't do it without you guys um all right cp let me pull you up man uh let us let us converse i'm gonna put the ball in your court and you know i'm saying you can take conversation wherever you want to go what's going on brother turn up young man turn up come on bro when i was 30 i will i will i promise when i was 30 i was eating hibachi with my ex-wife and and two of my co-coastal friends with his girlfriend you know i'm saying turn up be happy that you made three decades you know i if you don't know i'm 47 years old the birthdays they get kind of sadder but they kind of get better you know what i mean you know and when you when you're when you're 47 years old you know you kind of appreciate longer but i think i know what you're going through a little bit you're probably you know what yeah this is weird you're like goodbye to the 20s but here's the thing man here's the thing you're in your midlife crisis i know but this is the best thing the best part of your life is going to come uh at at 40 but you're setting yourself up right now for a better future and you should be happy that you are where you're at right now and where you're going in the future man happy birthday alan i appreciate your brother thank you i appreciate so what's some advice you got for me man what uh what's the best way to approach this uh this next decade well like i said man like you you you built up yourself started your your channel you're going to be uh launching yourself into your 40s your your mid 30s you're way ahead of a lot of people um your age you know so thank yourself for that um make sure you have investments make sure that uh you know you plan for the future uh and look forward to 40 because 40 that's when a man's life really really starts at 40 you know and uh you know you're still young bro you're still young keep yourself in shape yeah i don't know what your love life looks like you know what i'm saying but you know uh stay all the clubs yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah you know it's funny i was talking about this earlier today but i think clubs died for me at like 20 the problem is i got into clubs too early like i was in clubs at like 15 me too so yeah yeah because uh all my all my um my boys were older than me so the the pompous circumstance of like drinking and smoking and because i had seen it already right so even though i'm 30 i do feel like i'm a lot more stressed out than i should be about life you know no don't be man don't be man i mean look look look i i i think you i think you probably have like a a plus uh personality where you're driven and you keep everything in front of you you're probably an analytical person you're probably a pragmatic person you know but sometimes you just got to like you know smell the roses you know uh be happy about some accomplishments a lot of accomplishments you know i'm saying whether they're big small or whatever don't take yourself too seriously you know i mean because you because you don't want to be an old man like me and be like man i should have uh i should have i should have spent more time enjoying myself and then you turn 40 and you're like man maybe i should should enjoy myself and then you find you're the old dude at the club and you're like what's the old dude doing at the club he's like well he's trying to live all the life that he that he missed you know but you know you're in good company my guy you know what i'm saying you're in good company my guy man so uh i'm gonna keep you i'm gonna keep you long enjoy your birthday uh and uh you know keep on doing what you're doing my guy absolutely man salute my brother thank you all right enjoy all right sir all right y'all um shout out to uh cp the artist good brother right there um also fantastic artist jesus christ that brother is talented as an understatement you know some people you just you see their work and you're like i regret everything i've ever drawn in my life everything i've ever painted that's one of those brothers like he is that good uh shout out cp the artist um if you're just joining us my audio is trashed today bear with me um but um yeah i've got the link in the chat i didn't even pin it shout out to s ed she already she already has it in the chat so i just pinned it if you want to come up you want to talk to me current events life advice channel advice um questions concerns smoke even you know you know pull up um but yeah while you guys do that i'm gonna see if i can figure out this audio so please bear with me so i was working on a project entitled and what what inspired that project is because i learned that the name nigeria was given to us by lord lugard's side chick she later became his wife but at the time she was his side chick she was the one who named nigeria nigeria part of the reason we haven't been able to work is because we've been flawed since our inception we didn't even name ourselves so they all can hear you what's your name toby my name is toby that's a good nigger right and i think that you know some people might say that superficial but i think that is fundamental in charting your own course right some people have said we should go by song guy because of the song guy empire some people you know have recommended other things and then you'll see people like mohammed ali who decided not to go by caches clay or um karima duge bar you know and at the time people thought oh that was dumb that was you know but there's something very powerful about like this was my given name this is not my name right and similarly the black man is fear is just a the black side of a white person's idea because i've been trying to wrestle with how can a space that claims to be a black thing not be pro black and i realized that the genesis of it was never pro black the man is fear didn't care about black people so instead of creating a separate space that was interested in the progress of black people black men in particular we really were just the bastard stepson of the white man is fear and that's why there is so much confusion about what it is that we're doing here right so i think it's time that we search our hearts and figure out what the hell are we trying to do are we just trying to be mcdonald's because mcdonald's is already taken or are we trying to start our own thing and create bylaws a mission statement a vision statement what is it that we're doing here or are we just complaining about women because to your point the reason it's like hurting cats is because we can't get on the same page and we we say oh we're not a monolith as if that's a good thing you should be a monolith if you're trying to get some stuff done you should have a clear structure you should have some kind of hierarchy some kind of seniority but unfortunately we look around and it's just been bickering to my point earlier that's why we're so disappointed by our quote unquote leaders because instead of having the larger conversation about cultural gatekeeping we were having a witch hunt conversation of whether or not she's racist right we're having a witch hunt conversation of whether or not she's intentionally this or intentionally that and my point has always been she is inconsequential she is she is the symptom not the disease right and for us what we need to get in the habit of doing is addressing the macro issues and putting things in place preemptively to prevent things like this from happening so we're not constantly triggered every time a white person white persons because we let them into the door we're so used to white validation that you know and and that's part of my critique of people like mtr right because you'll you'll see their reluctance to come on black people's panels black people are actually working for black people but if somebody has the bag or somebody has you know the audience that you want you'll just haphazardly go over there and you know it's every man for himself that's how we think about things and we we in all honestly don't even have the luxury to do that but for whatever reason we think we do this picture was taking 45 years after slavery was abolished in the united states this particular images is symbolic of our disposition as black people not just in this country but internationally obviously i'm nigerian some people would call me a carpet bagger i didn't know what that meant until like two days ago but my approach to this conversation is very very international because i believe that black progress everywhere cannot happen unless we are tied together in some for some for some shared interest you know for for a common goal and a common cause so i'm a pan-africanist what's so striking about this image is it begs the question are they more afraid of what's behind the gates or what's beyond the gates right because even though the gates are open they are still reluctantly on the side with the gate closed um so that was yesterday's video um it was a clip of my conversation it was a clip of my conversation with um shei sharday um she hosted an interview of me on the channel had to be a week two weeks ago two weeks ago um and i you know suggested a complete rehaul uh overhaul and rebranding of the black bannersphere um i juxtaposed the black bannersphere in nigeria you know as a pan-africanist i i don't think our issues are limited to the americas or african americans i think it's unfortunately there are a lot of consistencies with black dysfunction in the united states on the continent and um i think it's time we start having some of those big conversations um as a yeah i i i didn't know what a carpet bagger was apparently it's a uh matter of fact let me google it so i don't misquote anybody who called me a carpet bagger okay keyboard is not working so it's something called um murphy's law anything that can go wrong will go wrong or something like that let's use this okay that's not working either hold on for me y'all okay so according to this let me see if my audio is working yeah all right according to this a carpet bagger is a political candidate who seeks election in an area where they have no local connections the historical definition in the u.s a person from the northern states who went to the south after the civil war to profit from the reconstruction another example is a person was perceived as an unscrupulous opportunist so basically um people have called me a carpet bagger are calling me an unscrupulous opportunist because i'm nigerian uh nigerian scammer and i'm trying to take advantage of either men or women of the black diaspora and specifically the youtube space so yeah that's that's what a carpet bagger is but i have no tie to any of this so yeah i think it's an interesting definition but um let's see like i said earlier i don't plan on this being a long stream so if you have anything you want to add anything you want to say advice you want to give me please do not hesitate to call in i'm probably need to restart this whole computer because nothing wants to work but again i appreciate each and every one of you um j phraser appreciate you dre i appreciate you as ed is always thank you so much yeah unscrupulous opportunist as ed yeah i promise i'm gonna i'm gonna do some fun this weekend i promise all right we got a wrench in the building and shout out to wrench for the $30 super chat i appreciate you my brother yeah i'm uh i'm gonna go do something with that let me give me some food let me see if i'm missing anybody all right we got the we got the brother wrench in the building what's going on my brother what's going on bro how you doing man i'm all right man how are you a long time man you've been you've been working man in the pavement i see man you see it i've been uh i've been i've been at it man yeah we got to man you got to what's going on man brother coming up to uh wish you have a birthday man it's a blessing precession man appreciation thank you thank you i turned uh i turned 40 uh last month so we're okay man i was thinking about uh when i hit 30 10 years ago man and you know i was i was just 20 man i don't know what happened bro like this i closed my eyes in 10 years but it's wow yeah man you know uh funny thing about about life and i people told people told me this and i didn't really believe it but um when you turn 40 bro like everything is going to level out like everything is going to let man it's like you catch a second wind because you're not spring chicken of course but you're not old enough to really have it all figured out you know what i mean and if you do it right which i'm pretty sure you will you have good counsel around you know i mean so at 30 it's cool man 40 it's gonna trip you out because you're gonna be like man you know what i'm you know i'm looking back i can say that at 30 uh in my head i was like because people tell you 30 is old but 30 30 is not over the least bit bro um yeah you know it's it's a blessing it's a blessing to see it you know me yeah i appreciate you brother i appreciate what what advice man what's coming up this decade i need to be uh you know conscious of or like look out for bro i can tell you from experience man i feel like i got a late start right um um between 30 and 40 bro um just make sure your finances in a row you know i mean try try all of the different ideas that you want to try or uh focus completely on your finances and then you know as you kind of get into your late 30s early 40s um you want to either already have it figured out or you want to already be the major mistakes along the way because you're still young enough to bounce back at that point um at and and at 40 now um i've failed enough to learn a lot to be able to do some things you know what i'm saying but between that 30 and 40 that's what i did i focused solely on my career bro like 100 percent um and and and enough to fund the ideas that i had and the stuff that i wanted to do and you know what i mean but yeah this this time it's gonna be fun though bro 30 to 40 watching to what i tell you yeah man i'm like simultaneously excited but also terrified how did you balance like fatherhood and and chasing your career because you know we hear so many stories of uh people especially women like your daddy didn't have enough time for me because he was doing this he was doing that and you know you got a daughter too so like what how should i think about that and conceptualize making time yeah like what i what i what i my mentality going in bro was i knew that i was young enough to put my mind and body under under a lot of stress um i wouldn't dare do it now at 40 but when i was 30 i would just work like a dog and then block out time that's solely dedicated to the kids in my case um like i was i was working doing the work that i do now bouncing that night uh coaching football in the evenings and then uh bouncing on the weekend saturday and sunday but what i what i felt was uh i knew i had to block out the time for the kids so in your case make sure you call about that time for her and then everything outside of that just worked like a dog now bro and if you and if you can sustain it for 10 years and at 40 you can kind of let off a little bit then cool but i would definitely carve out that time that's for her um but also and this is another thing to carve out time that's just for you too um but but that's that's how i did it i was like i want to make sure they get that time um i want to make sure i get my small bit of time mine wasn't there's nearly as much as theirs right i would get six hours on the sunday six hours on the saturday sometimes if i wasn't bouncing but um carve out that time for her carve out a little bit of time for yourself and just work like a dog bro um and if you do it right which i'm pretty sure you will you do it right bro i'm telling you about 35 you're gonna you're gonna really start feeling yourself because you're like man i got this i kind of got this shit figured out you know what i mean okay okay but yeah just just solo everything man hey this is her time uh i would even turn my phone off like this is this is this is the kids time for me i had to do choir for my daughter which i wasn't necessarily a fan of i would do like choir for her so i was sitting choir recitals and trying not to nod off and i don't want to be that that parent right for my son it was a little bit different i'm a football coach uh i'm getting a time i'm getting a chance to spend time with him and my daughter uh because she would be out there at the field and all other little kids had sisters and stuff like that um but i wouldn't i wouldn't really club or party or not like that because i i was a bouncer you know what i mean um but yeah man just just solo your time you know what i mean delegate your time accordingly yeah let me ask you something what are what are what are some of the things that uh you've accomplished up to this point that you are that you are proud of like as you turn 30 and you look back between 20 and 30 what are some milestones what are three milestones that you're proud of uh that you that you've accomplished um man that's i i struggle with um giving myself credit but if i had to you know i'm proud of what i've been able to achieve with what we need to talk even from college you know i i remember when i got the idea and i saw what it could be but you know a lot of times even when we're optimistic there's still that little bit of like it shouldn't go happen but fucking i'ma try anyway yeah so you know the fact that you know i don't know 66 thousand people notice they exist that's crazy to me yeah um i uh i've gotten into pretty much every career that i wanted to be in i was a mortgage loan originator i was a ux designer i crossed a six figure mark you know so that's that's something again i didn't think i was gonna do before 30 but some way somehow it got done so now i'm just trying to figure out a way to control my destiny man like now i have to because on the career tip you know even though i was making six figures at the time i would wake up every day anxious of like yo what if they decide they don't need me no more especially in my position because it was a vanity position um but you know with this what i'm trying to do is i'm trying to leverage it into opportunities that are going to be able to be sustainable it's something i can i can be uh i can have agency over um but yeah i would say those those are my top three man and my daughter obviously my daughter obviously like you know she's uh she's a girber baby you know so i make some cute kids apparently yeah you know saying so yeah yeah that's that man yeah man those are uh those those are really really good feet man like those are those are really good feats um what i can tell you and the reason why i say i started late i didn't really i didn't really start taking shit serious until late 20s you know what i mean um but i mean i say between 30 and 40 bro you probably hit your you're probably hit your stride as far as your business ventures and things that you want to accomplish you hit yours well before i hit any of mine like i said i bullshit it for the longest um but yo man i'm super proud of you man super the platform super proud of your other platform that you've built it's not easy um thank you you know if you see any of the any of the content i put up i'm trying to bore the wrong crowd up off my channel you know what i mean i i you know they don't want to hear about your growth they want something juicy you know listen yeah i'm i'm trying i'm trying to bore them into the spaces where they can go and get everything that they need and i'm not gonna sit there and act like i'm a holy of them now i start swinging about them spaces and listen to a little bit of bs while i'm at work um but for the most part the content that i put out i'm trying to bore the wrong people off of the page if there are any there um and just provide value to the ones who really want to hear about leadership or probably what their boss or what their supervisors are thinking so i mean so talk talk to me about that man like what's what's the because i know right now it's a struggle because you're working so many hours but like once you're able to transition or at least allocate some time like what's that what's the north star man bro i have a uh you are you're an it so you'll understand this bro i figured out and i've been thinking about this i've figured out an inconvenience that all of us have all of us i figured out a really simple app to address it um right now um i have my nda's i have my uh my patent pending uh and it's i threw the idea out there to my boss actually who is who is who he's a millionaire you know i mean he he's a he got he got money um and not only him to someone else and he said hey are you looking for investors and i was like no you know what i mean so um i know that he's a super smart guy anapolis graduate really sharp and he was like hey man uh you're looking for investors you know hey let me know so i think it's a real good idea it's just a matter of putting it in play uh i have i literally had a roadmap to take it from this idea that was in my head and all the way to the ending stage so whether that takes one year or five years whatever the case um i want to package it up real nice sell it listen anything i could do man let me know you know you got you got my contacts so we'll chop it up offline man yeah so yeah straight up straight up man and like i said as always if you need anything from me brother reach out uh you know i got you man this is don't let these uh don't let these youtube spaces uh give me too much of a headache man well you i'm trying to get off you too man i'm trying to get back in the real world man straight up straight up but i give you a bro if you need anything man let me know i ain't gonna hold it up but as always man uh well done i'm building the channel congratulations on hitting that 30 mark we know a bunch of people that didn't make it you know what i'm saying but uh keep pushing brother appreciate you man salute my brother all right boss that's a good brother right there man shout out to rich turner again my my sound effects ain't working but i'm i'm i'm definitely you know i'm definitely pondering that that that advice man those are those are gems i think uh you know the ct's point earlier i think i'm going through like a quarter life crisis trying to figure out what the hell i'm doing i know it might seem to some people like i got things figured out but you know i'm human just like everybody else i'm trying to figure things out i'm trying to anticipate problems and not allow them to occupy all my thinking but as a man like i've talked about before i think part of our job is being pessimistic in order to anticipate problems but sometimes we get lost in that anticipatory mindset i think that's probably where i'm at thankfully i'm aware of it so i got a little heads up i'm in a you know advantage but um yeah but um again this is the first time i say this gonna be a short stream and it's gonna be thank you guys so much i appreciate all the birthday love let me make sure i didn't miss any cash apps okay i got a few shout out to s dot where appreciate you my brother cordy michelle thank you so much darlin i appreciate also make sure y'all pull up tomorrow cordy michelle and i are going to do a part two to the let's talk about sex conversation i will be in uh i guess we can't do it now hey cordy michelle how you doing hey can you hear me i can't let me turn on your arm we don't do it now yeah okay okay you here what's up darlin this is the most snooze fast party i've ever been to it's not a party it was uh it was uh it was a reflection you know it's kind of like the opposite you know when you go to a funeral it's a celebration of life but a funeral is supposed to be sad this is a reflection of life you know both days supposed to be happy yeah but when you have both in the funeral you celebrate life you are alive and this is as somber as a funeral for me let me tell you about yourself okay you are 30 and you act about 75 okay you act like you walk around with orthopedic shoes on like you have bunions you got a hurt back a broke hip stop i think and this is what i see of you right is that you're in your 30s and 30s is an amazing year and they're right when you turn 40 that bug of i don't give a damn hits you and you just like whatever but you need to start creating some memories and not just memories of just career but doing things for you to really experience life because the older you get once you hit 35 and 40 you do see what wrench turner said that you um should be happy that you're seeing three decades because the older you get people be passing away and i never knew hitting 40 how many friends that i would have that's had heart attacks at 38 has had strokes at 39 and i'm thinking that these these are like old folk problems and who has a stroke and heart attacks but then you the longer you live the more that you see that and i don't want you to just work yourself and not be able to enjoy the the fruits of your labor and i don't think that you're doing that i could tell right now you're not i'm over here have been asleep i don't got but i said let me brush my head for the okay i could have came over here in a bonnet and would have been more lit than you i mean it'll be lit it'll be lit tomorrow so a lot of people are anticipating our conversation i got okay i'm gonna work on that and i'm gonna work over there okay that's gonna be spicy and since you don't have a cocktail right now we'll still be in celebration of your birthday and you're gonna have to get something to drink tomorrow okay all right okay so tomorrow go ahead and purchase you some Henny give me a little borrow some mad doll i'm 22 and i don't care what it is okay saying hi what's up with some good old oh get over that's the right because that's the type of conversation some gas station so that's what we're gonna do tomorrow but okay i want you to um hold on i want you to sell her she's popped in on you you're not having the chore no i'm glad you put on a shirt uh i want you to celebrate i want you to start thinking of things to do for you what name three things that you want to experience for yourself they ain't got nothing to do with nobody no true and no no relationship just i don't know i really want to experience this and whether someone does it with me or not i don't care i want to do it name one i want to get my pilot's license really yeah i always did i just never found time to like because you got to fly a bunch of hours and go to the plate yeah that's one that's one of my bucket list islands wow you know i know a guy you know god damn you god damn you know everybody i know i got he's an instructor he just owns a plane like what does he do well i have i have a friend that owns a pilot well he is a pilot and i have a friend that owns a plane and he just got his pilot so he now flies his own plane see i want to do that type of shit well man that would be a great experience is that you fly up with him but he could teach me now show you a little thing or two which is time all of it today i'll pull up okay well i got you i'll hook it up okay that'll be my birthday gift for you but i need you to do it and i need you to have some excitement about it i want you smelling i want you in the air i'm gonna do i'm gonna do all that it's been on my bucket list for a while it's been on my bucket list for a while okay it was that and boxing i already did boxing so now it's uh it's pilot okay pilot license name something else that would name something that would shock the people if the people knew that you were interested i wanted to do they were like what not not old man not um something i haven't done i've done a good bit of shit um damn i can't i can't i'm gonna have to get back with you because i can't i can't think of nothing i'm being honest i can't think of nothing well you name me tomorrow i'm gonna ask me tomorrow i got you okay so yeah think about that yeah start doing creating create some interesting memories like yeah because i know you guys done but like i said if it's something like this party i've done that already you know what i'm saying i've done the party and that's probably why i was born i've done the vip stuff i've done the strip clubs and then the thought of like tipping a woman to dance with me when i get that for free it just never sat well in my spirit so you know okay well you know i guess you don't have to get lack dancer but you know maybe we can get some midget strippers i mean have you had that before we can let me just let this party up i know a couple of them soon they're about three foot five but what i said you they know how to work a poll i would want to see it from far away i i would just want to want to spectate that's it yeah that's it but uh tomorrow you you have a preview of what we're gonna be talking about we're gonna be discussing or elaborating on from the last one right so if people are not okay they got to see you now please but if people are not familiar with our part one that we had of the was it let's talk about sex then we're gonna do a part two and this is you're in charge of this one i'm gonna be in charge of this yeah and we're gonna have a conversation about fantasy okay hey marcus i'm new here uh this new here this is just a bond because i got on here trying to celebrate so i decided to brush my hair but apparently i didn't have to do that this party could have been had in the library as much as you're having fun okay like i'm reading a psychopedia on your ass but yeah we're gonna be talking about fantasies and we're gonna have you're gonna have a cocktail me i might have it yes yes okay okay that's right that really i mean so so to to be fair i think you know to the people wondering what my disposition is about part of growing up or how i grew up like it was always about what what what's next i don't know how to it's like wrench's question like what are three things you're you're proud of i've never sat with that because i'm always thinking about what i don't have or what i haven't done or what i haven't accomplished right um so yeah it's something i'm trying to undo because i don't want my daughter to be the same way but it's a process you know i'm saying so i'm at least i'm aware of it that's that's the good thing i'm aware of it and it's something i want to fix yeah my default setting is to be this well i told you you need to let your hair down i'm growing it it's just oh i thought you are growing it a little like a little S curl but you need to let it down and you need to join then you even you've even told me this you told me that you know a lot of things that we over here in the states a lot of times of what we worry about and even what we argue about how blessed we really are to even have the things to argue about yeah like how blessed are you yeah yeah celebrate yourself alan obi celebrate you i'm tired of being your cheerleader i i got bronchitis continue your celebration today it's about you happy birthday my darling you know i love you i care about you thank you and um we're gonna get this thing party pop it let's go tomorrow and then in Atlanta okay now you already know Atlanta you're gonna bully me take this we go okay after after party after the show it's the after party please believe i got one and bottle okay all right i'll be ready all right you too all right okay i appreciate y'all um we hit the one hour mark so i'm gonna end it here i gotta think about my life um but thank you guys thank you guys for all the birthday wishes shout out to marcus appreciate the super chat brother um shout out to wrench and shout out to marcus again thank you guys so much y'all have a good night peace