 Hey guys, what's up? It's Kinsey and welcome back to my channel. Welcome to my channel if you guys are new here. Today, as I'm filming this, it is my first day of summer, which we are here for summer break 2019. Very exciting. Also, I know my hair has seen better days. We're just gonna like, I just didn't want to do it and it's to the point where like even I can't make it look good in a bun. Like it's just not happening. Comment down below what you guys think I ordered from Starbucks as well. And if you guys are new here, hit that subscribe button. We're gonna be talking about lots of things. Very, very excited about this. I realized I'm like, what do I have to lose? Some of the answering questions that you guys asked me on Instagram. If you guys have not followed me on Instagram, you guys should. It'll be linked down below. Also, I will have this hoodie in these earrings linked down below. Aritzia, H&M, love them. Some of my favorite things in the world. So, this is gonna be a Q&A of like questions and also you guys are sending in assumptions and you know, whatever. It's fun, okay? Also, my phone case is from Don't Another Bill. I had it made. Isn't it so cute? I love anything custom. Like, I'm obsessed with it. And my rings are from the Indrillers. I feel like I'm just, why am I, I don't know. I don't know, it'll be common stuff. Top 5 songs of the moment. Okay, I love Olivia O'Brien's new album. I'm gonna say Carol Usmore and We Lie to Each Other. Another of the Fire, Healstone United. House on a Hill Amanda Cook, loving that right now. Homecoming, loving that right now. Now I'm not doing songs. I'm like, okay, one of you guys made me a playlist. Like, named Kenzie because you guys were like, we have so many to taste, whatever. That is literally the cutest, sweetest thing anyone's ever done for me. Also, Nasa, Ariana Grande. Fine, are you looking for Olivia O'Brien? I'm not really branching out right now on music. I need to like, I don't know. I'm kind of not very like, I don't know what I want to listen to in a mood. It really affects me in the car because it's really bothering me that I'm not like, hitting like, it's not like the right playlist, you know? Leave, send me your playlist, send me song recommendations down below, send all of it please. Do you think Sal and Dom are your forever friends and your only friends that you hang out with? Um, yes to forever friends. Um, we're no- Well, no. Okay, they're not the only people I hang out with. They're like, definitely my best friends, but we all also have like, our other friends and our own friends and I and the YouTube friends and even like, other friends in LA. But like, they get along. We pretty much all get along with each other's other friends though. Sal and I always joke about how are each other's only friends, but like, that's not actually the case. So yeah, I mean, we definitely hang out with other people. I think as like, a friend group as a whole, the people that I'm with all the time, like Ryan, and then like, a few other people that aren't in the vlogs as much, it's like, we're all like, BFFs, you know? It's like literally the happiest of everyone with friends in my life. Like, I could cry love them so much. A lot of these are like, assumptions like you're dating someone, you have a boyfriend, you guys just assume something with them. I feel like a lot of you guys have assumptions that I'm seeing someone or dating someone or like, it's a certain person or whatever. No, I'm not seeing anyone. That is it. That is the end of that. You guys are like, really good at this stuff though. Like, you pick up on things pretty quickly. Okay, do you feel just of your other YouTube friends and so how do you get over it? And then there's a lot of questions about like, how have you been traveling as much lately and been with them as much, blah blah blah. I hate that I'm not with them. It sucks. But the reason that I'm not traveling as much lately is because with my program, like, it's a requirement to be there Sundays, but also like, with my life, it's like a requirement for me to be there on Sundays. Like, I don't, I get so much FOMO missing one Sunday as always. Obviously, like, I want to go and whatever. With that being said, like, I will be going on more trips and seeing them this summer with a program like, I could go more than I do. I chose Big Bear over Coachella. Like, we had a retreat for my school. I chose to go there over Coachella. Taylor just texted me, what are the odds I can go with the Red Princess Polydress in Vegas? Of course! I feel like my priorities have definitely shifted. I get asked this question a lot because like, I understand that a lot of my friends are out doing cool things or whatever and I'm in LA majority of the time, which I love living here, so it's not like I'm in LA and I'm home. I don't know. I just know that I'm where I'm supposed to be and this is like, especially these few years in this program that I'm in, in like school and everything. If you guys don't know, I got a Zoe Leadership College, which is accredited through Southeastern, so I'm getting a business degree. I actually have some business administration, but it's like basically an intensive like church internship thing, whatever. Very leadership based, whatever. I have grown more during this than anything in my life. I've never been happier with like where I'm at while it has like slowed me. I've been slowed down in like other aspects and stuff and my friends are all like going and doing cool things. Like I'm just genuinely so content with where I'm at that I don't feel any jealousy if that makes any sense. I just am so secure and content with where I'm at that I just want the best for everyone else. Does that make sense? I feel like I would get FOMO either way, you know what I'm saying, but I've like made my like commitment. So I feel like for like the rest of my life, though trips I'm still going to want to be home for Sundays, so gotta freak that one out. How often do you use face masks? I feel like a couple times a week, it really depends on my mood. If I'm in like a super home, self-care mood, whatever. It's so funny because my guy friends are like obsessed with face masks, so we talk about skincare. I talk about skincare more with my like best guy friends than I do with, I don't talk about skincare with girls really at all. It's just funny because they're like the guys that you wouldn't necessarily expect it from, you know? You see a lot of influencers and celebrities in your day-to-day life. This is another thing my friends have been talking about recently and we're like it's really weird because like here that's just so normal so like yes, but like you don't think anything of it. But it's so weird because someone from like Kentucky is here like that's not normal there, you know? Okay, an assumption. You get annoyed that social media is your job because you value time off socials. I don't get annoyed that social media is my job. I think I definitely want to do other things. I don't really want this to be my main thing for forever. I want it to be like something that I do. But like, yeah. I wouldn't say I get annoyed. I think that sometimes I feel like if I didn't do this though I don't even know if I would use social media as much. I don't know. Like, I feel like I've always loved like creating and stuff and that's like what social media has become for me. But I don't get like annoyed. It's just sometimes I'm like okay, there are times when I'm like with my friends and I'm like okay, I don't want to be vlogging. But then, which like I don't but then I'm like oh I wish that I had those memories because like a lot of the reasoning behind when I'm vlogging especially when I'm with my friends is to like have the memories. What's the hardest thing to deal with when balancing YouTube, school, personal life, et cetera? Okay, I don't think balance exists and I also think that there are times this is like a lesson that I've learned. I don't think balance exists and I think when you're striving for balance you're actually holding yourself back. So like I feel like in every different season of your life you need to like identify what season you're in and you also need to understand like what you need to be focusing on the most. So like when I started ZLC for instance like I was doing a bunch of things like I didn't feel like YouTube was like my number one thing, right? And there's some times since then where I felt like no work is my number one thing or this past few months I feel like I've been going through a lot of stuff so it's like I've given myself more leeway to like invest more on like my personal life and whatever. I don't know if what I'm saying makes much sense but I think for instance like if you're trying there was like a lesson that we got in school about this that was so good I wish that I could like remember it but I feel like striving for balance actually sets you back so much. There are times in your life like nothing is ever going to be 100% balanced and there are different seasons in your life where you need to be focused more on different things, right? So like I'm really lucky that I have the like leeway as far as my job. Like when I say that I'm not as focused on my job I just feel like I'm not as crazy as I am about it. I'm still like obviously working and I'm also not going to do anything. I think for me the hardest thing would be if I like identify like what season I'm in like what I'm doing, what I'm learning, whatever and knowing what I need to focus on the hardest thing for me is if like it's not it's been kind of letting go of being so crazy overproductive and having to work all the time and whatever it's been hard to like kind of let go of stuff like that but it's like good and it's healthy, you know? I'm really a hand talker in this video guys. How do you stay motivated to work out? And since mid-December I have not missed like I've worked out minimum three times a week but normally like five times a week and this week it's Friday and it's the first time I worked out this week and I was so unmotivated and I would just come out from traveling and I'm leaving again, I was finals in commencement like really crazy and whatever so I was like off my game but I was also very unmotivated and I made myself go today I didn't want to go and then I left and all of a sudden I feel so much more motivated so the thing is if you just got to do it like that's basically what I'm getting at and then once you get into a routine you want to like I like crave working out and I also like I crave healthy food, you know? It's really weird but it happens In what ways have you changed in the past two years? I feel like at the core of who I am I'm Kinsey, I've always, will be Kinsey I've always been me but I've grown so much I think I'm, I think I've opened to doing other things with my life or I think I've grown as a leader I've grown in like security in myself I've grown so much in my face I've grown so much in maturity in relationships and like how to handle that stuff What else? I was just thinking about more things before I think dealing with like grief dealing with just so many things like and I also think I've I think I've like given up a lot of control over my life as like the big overarching theme but I've like I've literally grown so much I'm a completely different person but I'm also like me at the core like I don't mean like I don't recognize myself I think I just have like grown and matured and whatever How do you do with grief? I get asked this a lot um this is something I like I really don't talk about much I feel like I've mentioned it briefly in videos and stuff and like I don't I literally get emotional every time I talk about it still um but I posted like an Instagram post here if you guys want to see it um I'll link it down below but um within like four months of each other my step brother passed away in December so like that's why I was home for forever and like really going through a hard time and then my like step-grandpa which we don't call them step I'm just saying step to like differentiate um passed away like this past month that I was home and like I don't talk about this because there's like so many reasons there's literally so many reasons why I don't talk about it but I feel like it's not my place to talk about it I don't want to like overstep it's been very hard to like walk through that and like watch your family and your parents go through that like I it's the most like heartbreaking thing um and like I don't necessarily even know how to deal with it like I need to go after therapy I know that but like I don't I don't know I think it's just something you don't really like know how to handle it and it's like I am like super anti-time heals everything I think time can help things feel less painful but I also think that if you don't deal with things in a healthy way time a lot of the time just makes things worse because then you're just like holding on to this stuff that like you you're like holding on and grasping things that you didn't deal with so they like later on it's like really bad baggage or it affects your relationships or whatever I don't I don't really have any good advice for this I think um if you guys just read the Instagram post I feel like I like talk I speak about it a little bit better but um yeah it's been like really hard like obviously it's like not an easy thing at all so that is it we're gonna change the video and go to a linear question what made you decide to start your own podcast I had wanted to start my own podcast for so long people that I was working with at the time were like not supportive and like of me just basically in general and so I was like given bad advice basically they were like don't do it you need to focus just on YouTube whatever like you don't have the numbers you don't have this you don't have that whatever it's don't if you like know that you need to start something don't listen to that like I wish women anything I would have started a year before but actually no I'm like glad I started when I did but I was already talking about this last night he also has a podcast and I was and he's like talking we were talking about how like YouTube is trying to like podcast and blah blah blah whatever I was like if I would have started a year before I wouldn't have started whatever it all started but it's like not really a big deal but I love podcasts I listen to podcasts all the time I'm like overall I love I'm like such a geek with like leadership and growing and learning and whatever and I get so much out of that from podcasts so yeah I don't know I just genuinely love podcasts and it was something I love to do it Are you planning on moving around LA? I want to move back in I live in the valley right now I love the valley but I'm like ready next year to move back into like West Hollywood I never thought I would love West Hollywood but like my whole life is in West Hollywood and I actually love it now so probably move back over there hopefully Who in your life understands you the most? I feel like we have different people who get you in different ways I hometown friends obviously like know me like back in the hang they've known me since I was like 10 but like SAV I feel like really good things SAV are very similar my friend Kat I feel like faith levels like we really get each other it really just like so loud it really just depends on like why is it so loud I think it really just depends okay I get so many questions about sex it's like unbelievable and like not about sex in general like my sex life I think it's very weird that I will ask that all the time my views on it for myself have like changed so like things that I've done before I don't plan on doing but overall like I just don't really like talking about these things one because it's like private and kind of weird and two I guess it's not weird it's just like not something like there's certain things you put on the internet for yourself and like you know but it's also like I you can do whatever you want and like I literally I wouldn't even think twice like I don't care anyone can do whatever they want okay I say the word like 15 times in this so I'm just gonna you know redo it myself basically what I'm saying is that I don't like speaking about it because I don't want anyone to ever think that I like it's that deep for me as far as like it's not like I don't look at anyone who does something differently than me in a different way just as like people I do things that are different than other people and like it's whatever like it's really not a big deal this is like such a personal thing for me personally and it doesn't change my view on like anyone or anything and I feel like this is a topic that I don't get like really offended by or yeah I just honestly don't care like it's just it's to each their own kind of thing is what I'm trying to say but I love you guys do whatever you want I just get asked about this all the time and so like yeah love you guys I don't care do whatever you want do you struggle with anxiety yes I don't like how automatically I say yes just now I feel like I'm someone who people deal with like seasonal summer person like I don't know what it is just not it really really affects my mood I definitely do with anxiety I feel like it comes in way it's like anyone else but I have been I was on meds at like 12 like I've been throughout all this whatever so yes I definitely do do you work out to feel good or to look good I would say like 80% feel good 20% no 70% feel good 30% look good you know I don't know what people around me do but I feel like it's because I'm not really looking for that and then you see yourself everyday so you don't really notice it I don't know does that happen to anyone else let me know when is the last time you drink alcohol there was another question that's like you talk about your wild phase a lot but like how wild was it whatever my wild I don't mean it this is like oh my God I'm an angel now like it's just kind of funny I'm starting a lot and like drinking a lot and I was very unfulfilled but I was having fun but I was like very unfulfilled and it lasted for a while I made some like friends that I'm so close with now I learned a lot that was like really it but like I'm not anti-drinking by any means it was just okay I feel like I didn't explain this well either basically I was drinking pretty heavily it wasn't really the best time of my life and it was a big downer for me so it was like making me very depressed and slash I was already like not doing great on top of that so I feel like I associated two together so for me when I drink it's a big downer so it affects me very negatively and it didn't always do that like it used to not be like that it just kind of switched one day and then I started getting really bad hangovers so like if I drink the next day I'm really really off and I really don't feel good so I couldn't really do that anymore because like my schedule was just very full so I couldn't do it and then over time I lost desire to drink and it's very rare to have a drink from time to time and who knows maybe later I'll drink more but um yeah that's pretty much it I really don't care like at all trust me Tito and I go way back big fan of that guy but like I just don't care do whatever you want it's essentially what I'm getting to okay so like when you're out and then you're not drinking everyone's like why aren't you drinking whatever I don't want to be like oh I don't drink and then um feel weird and then like you don't say like that's not the point and it's also like drink I literally don't care so what I do is spray or something they have no idea there's an alcohol in it so they stop asking you it's really brilliant are you open to day to day or when's the last time you dated someone get that a lot um fairly recently how are you doing good so I will say like this semester's ending really has just put things in perspective this has been a really good hard year very good year I cannot believe it's only like we're only in the fifth month like I look back at every single month this year and every single month has been so so drastically different from the month before but like better but crazy drastically different like actually bizarre I can't even like I think about like people and things and I was like hanging out or doing whatever this year and I'm like I can't that doesn't even feel like it was this year like I feel like I have grown so I've never grown more than I have really specifically like more in the past like six weeks I've matured I've grown I've learned my worth that's a huge thing which I feel like I always knew my worth but I feel like it's really easy for me to get like I'm a very like loyal person and it's very easy for me to like get emotionally involved with someone and then I don't know how to say this like and then like make excuses for them and stick around because I'm like no I'm here like I'm in this like I'm here for you whatever and like it's really good to do that for like friends when anything past that it's like you deserve so much more than that you know so like I've just like matured in the way I view relationships and like what I will like not put up with because obviously like you always see people grace but like knowing when is too much or like knowing what boundaries to draw I think so yeah I don't know I feel like I like myself a lot more now I feel a lot stronger now I have like very strong non-negotiables and boundaries I really like my becoming I just I don't know I feel good like I just feel really good yeah finished my junior year of college which is crazy one more year I have three summer classes I don't want to talk about it I just feel good I'm the happiest I've ever been with my friendships I am worried about this summer because I don't know why I feel like sometimes my house just gives me anxiety because I I don't know advice on that let me know because just working from home and being here all summer just drives me insane sometimes so also I feel like in the past I don't know how I am in filming I feel like I definitely know more of what I want to do with my life which isn't necessarily I don't think anything anything that people would like guess not necessarily how to get there but I feel like I just have like more of like a okay like I know it's in this general area but I will say there was something I was listening I mentioned this in a podcast but there was a video I was watching it was Steven Friedrich and T.D. Jakes really good video I think it was on Sorry Nog Crush I don't know there's two of them Q&A is on YouTube look them up T.D. Jakes is talking about he's like a pastor a filmmaker like he he's like a producer author business like he does so many things like he wears so many hats basically and he was talking about the idea those are all things that I want to do basically but I don't want to only be one thing and I don't want to be confined to one thing and I want to be able to do a bunch of stuff without feeling suffocated and yeah I don't know it's just really good so I feel like when I say I've learned more than ever I've learned more than ever it's crazy what are you looking for in a significant other this is a good one um well Dom and I literally okay guys Dom basically was like Kenzie I'm tired of this we're gonna sit down and we're making an audio negotiable list of like these are the things that we want in a relationship or in a person or whatever and it's like not negotiable and she's like we're putting on a maybe this is my idea because it's a shared Google Doc we'll make a shared Google Doc basically so we literally have a shared Google Doc of like qualities that were not like standards basically so we're not like oh this is a really good friend of mine and like we have finished each other I'm saying she's being logical so we made the shared Google Doc and we actually recorded an entire podcast episode on it so let me look at my Google Doc and I'll give you guys like two qualities but if you guys want to hear the rest of them listen to the podcast episode it's gonna be good see literally I'm not kidding mature all around I want someone who's like very very very mature and then very very very secure in themselves and their calling and their relationships and their friendships and their relationships with me all of it like that's really important leader and also this is a big one and this is the last one and then you guys listen to the podcast episode but I want someone who's very like self-disciplined so like in their routines their habits like I think it's so attractive when someone is like trying to grow so like they're listening to podcasts they're reading books they're like constantly in their fun that is big for me so that is it I hope you guys enjoyed an assumption was I assume you don't like answering questions about your faith okay that is not true I say that but I feel like I don't want at the end of the day that is like the main thing that matters to me I really don't care about my gels but I also don't want people who watch this channel to feel like that's all I talk about like it is such a huge part of my life and it's like I would not really have a channel or like because it's like such a huge part of my life but I don't want it to be in the way of like if you don't believe what I believe you can't watch my videos does that make sense so I will talk about it obviously as I do and I feel like and there's some that are like you never talk about it I feel like I talk about it a lot like very often if this is my podcast like it comes up but I feel like in the way that I talk about it it's like anyone can apply any of this stuff to their lives regardless of what they really like believe obviously like would love for you guys to like whatever but yeah so like I don't I love talking about that stuff but like also this is like a lifestyle channel where I'm like talking about a bunch of things and like I don't want just because like you don't believe what I believe for you to like not feel like you can like be here and like watching these videos and like in this community and whatever like that's not the point at all so I'll talk about it because a lot of people ask me questions and like whatever but also a lot of the time it's like talking about like my sex life like you know what I'm saying it's just like I feel like the questions that I get are just kind of like annoying you know about like I love talking about it but also like this channel is like it's everything you know so much is why it's talked about but why I feel like I can't win I either talk about it too much or like not enough you know what I'm saying so hope you guys enjoyed this video I love you guys so much if you guys did let me know by commenting down below scrunchy if you made it to the end really hope you guys enjoy this video so freaking long but I love you guys so much and I will talk to you soon bye