 Quite strong because the special love relationship is quite insidious. Basically everything that we can say, the total experience of love and oneness in heaven, the ego has tried to make a replication for it or a substitute for it or a replacement for it on earth. So just like heaven has all this sense of love and the truest sense of energy, in this world we have hydroelectric power and solar power and nuclear power. We have all these replacements for true divine energy or divine power. You can say the same with that basically God created Christ with free will and in this world freedom takes the form of freedom of mobility or freedom of speech or having certain rights as a human being. But they are poor substitutes for free will as it was created by God. And so it's the same with intimacy that in the Kingdom of Heaven there is this deep sense of joy and everlasting gratitude and love like an eternal song of God which is sung over and over the song of gratitude. And in this world the ego made up special relationships as a substitute. Kind of saying if you could give the words you've thrown away God's love so now you've got to make the best with what you've got here. And that's where the substitute comes in. And so all of the world was projected out and all of the relationships were made almost like a web that was spun out like a cobweb or a spider web almost spun out with specialness as a way to take the place of this divine love. So these special relationships are based on lack and need. So that's where the expectations enter in. Without a sense of wholeness and a sense of completeness and fulfillment then you believe in lack and that includes a lack of love like there's a hole in you somewhere that you just aren't whole and complete in yourself and therefore the search begins to find that wholeness and completion in form and search as the mind may look into trying to find the perfect form. Again it's not a matter of finding it in form it's more of you will find all of the blocks and the obstacles as you search in form because they will be reflected back to you in a very very direct way. So we could say that relationships are like mirrors and everything that you still believe in your unconscious mind that you have not exposed and raised up to the light will be mirrored back in these relationships. So in one sense you should have a sense of gratitude for all relationships because it's like the fast track of looking at unconscious guilt and I frequently will say that the fast track to God is silence and relationships and especially if you have a combination of the two. If you stay through meditation time and you have a relationship then it's going to be quite an intense process of reflecting back these unconscious thoughts and beliefs that are still there. So just the idea of coming to this world you might say that ego spun out special relationships and as you begin to release the guilt at every single encounter that you have there comes a point when you feel that wholeness and completion comes back into awareness and is always there which just comes back into awareness and you might say that all of your relationships in this world will then reflect your relationship with God when you're in alignment with God that everything and everyone becomes part of that holy relationship. It's not so much that you have a special relationship with just one partner or one person and then you find a holy relationship with that one person or one partner, it's more that really you have it with everyone to start off with this specialness and then when you open up the holy relationship you will have it with everyone. Maybe not in form, I mean obviously physically you can't be with everybody you can't locate yourself in six billion places six or eight times but you can do it in terms of attitude that's the main thing about the holy relationship and holy relationship is also it's a state of giving and extending so the expectations are gone and what else you could say about it is that it's your purpose that really instructs and orchestrates the relationship so typically we're used to thinking of relationships as being between people and I know because I'm going deeper into this journey myself I find that it's more my relationships are more in answer to the question what will serve the whole so for example when I go to countries like South America or Sweden or France or Germany different places I don't speak all these languages but there are translators that show up that are a part of what I call a holy relationship it would be the same if I showed up in these countries and spoke these words without the translators and everyone there knows it I know it for sure and everyone feels it so it's like an orchestration of what serves the whole I find that I've done a lot of answering emails on the internet and then people in South America would take the teachings off the internet and then translate them to Spanish and then start passing them around and then I would go down there and the translators would join me and the same thing happened with different parts of the world it's constantly happening it wasn't too long ago where I got my first phone call from China and the man on the other end of the phone we had a very nice chat and before long after several weeks went by he was very interested in my materials he was reading lots and everything and invited me to come to China and at some point he said his name was Albert he said, you know, there are quite a few people who study A Course in Miracles over here in China but we don't have a lot of materials and the book has made it from Taiwan into communist China but people are really thirsty for this and he said, I would like to start translating your materials into Chinese and I said, yeah, great, I'm very honored I'd be glad to work with you if you would need any help in making the translations and then several weeks ago he wrote and he said I so much want to do this and I want to do this full time but I have the basic things to handle for a job, I have rent, food and the typical utilities, the typical expenses he said, do you think you could help me out with that and I said, well, I'll put it on my global mailing list and just throw out your idea that you'd like to translate a full time and then two people, a woman from Switzerland and a man from Ohio the United States offered to donate his monthly needs and so he could translate full time all of the teachings with my writings to Chinese and start putting them up onto Chinese blogs and start doing some distributing as well and the same thing happened with Portuguese there was a woman down there in Brazil named Cecilia who stumbled upon we have a website called teacher of teachers in honor of the Holy Spirit it's like the stuff that I have on there from working with students back in the 1990s and this woman just started translating the whole teacher of teachers website into Portuguese