 I thought of the last training session which went absolutely incredible and I was really excited. I just started feeling like sick, so my stomachs, especially on the right side was hurting me quite a lot. Overnight, I'd lost 3kg of body weight, I got back from Beijing and then I got worse in terms of my symptoms and I lost about 25kg of body weight in about 8 weeks. I was getting tested for things like cancer and stuff like that, which was quite scary at 19 thinking we've just competed on the biggest stage of all when I got tested for cancer. It was probably in 2009 I got diagnosed with Crohn's, the doctor was very adamant that competing at my level is going to be a huge advantage of the disease. So I decided to retire in point of 7 2009 and focus on my health because Crohn's just getting worse and worse and everything that I put in place just wasn't working. In 2010 my Crohn's was so bad that I got rushed in for emergency surgery to save my life, so that's how bad it got. Fortunately for me that operation gave me a second chance, which I'm thankful for. I guess for me I just needed to try and convince myself that I was strong enough to beat Crohn's and that was just my way of doing it. Within 5 months I put on 70kg on the bar and coming in 5th at the Games at the Commonwealth Games for me was great because this meant that for the first time in 2 years I'd probably won a mini-battle with Crohn's and that was for me a big thing for me because I was losing every battle before I had it. The night before I competed in London I took myself away in the village of a quiet area and I actually reflected on the 4 years leading up to the Games and what I went through and what it took to get there. To beat a part of such theatre as well and such drama was actually quite incredible. Looking back I've always said it, I think we're putting this controversial decision at that Games. The perspective was a good thing and I think at the time I didn't have it. I was so upset with what had happened, I think for me I didn't want my last memory to be me lying on the platform in absolute tears. The cycle between London and Rio were incredible, I literally won everything. Going into Rio I'd literally completed the set apart from that one medal, I didn't care what medal it was, I just wanted a medal just to have, you know, just to kind of erase their memories. I'd done something which not many people thought was possible. After Rio I had put pretty much the biggest flare-up of my career, I was told that I'd literally had exercised all my options in terms of medication and that I've got two options left and one was a stoma bag, so it's a very life-changing operation and the other option was a stem cell trial, thought about if I was satisfied with my career, if I could walk away now and be happy with what I've achieved and the answer was no I'm not satisfied and I think I can push it even further. So I decided to go down another route which at the time was considered something that's not really been done before but now actually two years on it's actually been a game changer for me and I've had the best set of blood results I've had in four years. Hopefully I'll be there, I don't know what shape I'm going to be in but I'm hoping still to be there.