 Making sure I was recording too because knowing the week we've had I would have gotten to the end of this video been like We were talking to ourselves Hello everybody, welcome back to our next Stallment in the shadow work series and I know the three of us have had quite a week quite a week a lot of Frustration a lot of anger. I know Stephanie and I did a video a couple days ago And so I think a lot of people are feeling the bubbling up But with that being said before we get into the topic at hand Stephanie you got some courses coming up We want to talk about again. Yeah. Yeah, just a reminder You can go to my website which price you'll link below, right? Sorry if there's like this weird Ripley sound that you can hear the wind is really strong and it's like Doing a weird noise on my window anyways. Sorry. That was just happening. I don't know if you guys can hear that or not So I'm offering my next beginner's tarot course I'm offering beginner's pendulum intermediate pendulum dousing and two herbal courses if anybody's interested in those you can go sign up There's still plenty of spaces left. It is limited seating. So offers come first serve All the payment information and prices and everything like that are in Or are on the website? Bold you can see it along with my policy my payment policy and all that kind of stuff So go check it out if you're interested you can sign up looking forward to Running more courses as my first course went very very Well, it was a success. So I'm going to continue to go ahead and do that. They were very brave test and I don't want to say the word dummies because they weren't dummies at all but It was my first What's the word? I'm looking for someone help me out here. Oh, it was your premier online course Your maiden flight. Yes. Well, yes, it was Bottle over the ship. There we go Sure sure, Bryce sure as I wear red You almost spat tea all over my computer So Anybody who wants to go sign up for those courses go ahead go check that out Also, never mind. I'm gonna leave that next announcement out of being told not quite yet. Never mind I'll okay And me and I are yoga course Of course Emmy is gonna be a part of that yoga course from the Reiki and I haven't I've kind of kept you abreast Emmy But we're selling out of spots really quickly There's only a few spots left So I just sent out the last of some of my emails today welcoming people sending them the link to the yoga sutras book So that's something you're interested in doing go ahead and book that spot I'll send you a link to the sutras book on that. We're gonna be using again that that starts on November 20th When we do run out of seating I will just take down that portion of the website so people won't be able to book So if you're able to book right now that means you got a spot, okay? So don't be worried. Um, we're not gonna take your money and then be like no too bad No, so um, so if you're able to book you got a spot guys, and I'm super excited November 20th Sorry, the blow my nose. I'm now finishing up to on top of that. We have a 30-day Shadow work challenge coming up for the month of November, and I'm just finishing that up as well I was just working on that before we started today That is free That's for a lot of you guys who have expressed interest and jump starting this you're seeing exercise In a whole different light, which is amazing. That's what our And so people need some people need some guidance And so what I'm doing is I'm putting up a calendar for the month of November with a 30 days and each day There's gonna be an activity for you to do first day 45 minute bar exercise and then some journaling there's gonna be some other YouTube links to other things It's not gonna be just yoga. It's gonna be all sorts of different exercises for you And there's gonna be some journaling activity involved other stuff like that and if you sign up if once I have it completed I'm gonna put another email address up for the challenges. You'll email me. I'll send you the whole month It's free of charge. All you need is the internet and a journal and every single person who does the challenge Your name will go into a raffle And a few people will win some prizes for just doing the challenge and this will be a way for You know, we'll have some bonus challenges like one of the bonus challenges is going to be if you're not a vegetarian To be to take like five days out of the week to not eat meat only eat on the win day The weekends and see how you feel changing drinking No, eight glasses of water a day all that kind of stuff just some different some bonus challenges as well But it's just for you So if you do the challenge, you're not going to have to share your journal entry with anyone No one's going to watch you work out. This is just something for you to do by yourself And to explore yourself and give you kind of a guide to help you because We can sit here on youtube all we want and talk about this shadow work and the journey and exercise, but You are the one that has to pick up pick it up and actually do it and you can bring out Take a horse to water, but you can't make it him drink and a lot of you guys are doing it And so um and that's amazing and i'm so excited that people are taking a different perspective of exercise Because that was one of my main goals of really talking about this aches and pains are okay And what we wanted to cover today I actually was reading in this uh the return of the divine sofia for next week and i thought this was so fascinating Because she talks about ritual and ceremony and she says in the book ritual and ceremony are both ways of calling in Spiritual energies in order to communicate with the divine Ritual is something that is done the same way over and over pass down from generation to generation like a sacred formula So that's like the ashtanga practice. It's been passed down from generation from generation. It's the formula That's the ritual every morning. I get up and make my bed. That's a ritual. So things we do repetitively become ritual Now ceremony is different Ceremony however is an ever-changing living vehicle that is never done the same way twice It rises spontaneously from the needs of the moment and thus can be powerful heartfelt and directly inspired by spirit So the ashtanga practice itself is both ritual and ceremony. So what do I mean by this? The practice is the same every day But the relationship with the practice changes Yep, it's a different practice every day because you're a different person every day. You're experiencing different things relationship Yes, so so but that is that's where the information lies and that's the beauty is that two people Can be doing the same practice every single day and every single day have different experiences Depending on what god and when they say spirit shanti said this this morning when they say spirit They're talking about god What god is trying to show you about yourself that you need to you need to um to look at this also brings about I've talked about this a lot this week on my channel and I think we're going to kind of bring it into this conversation as well transcendence and immanence Is what the christ yasha was taught Eminence is what yoga teaches Eminence is what buddhism teaches Transcendence, however, is what the abrahamic faiths teach. What is transcendence transcendence means that you are taught That god is outside of you And far away from you and nothing around you is holy everything satanic and ugly and gross And you have you need something to get to god that you by yourself can't can't get to god because you're so low You're such a piece of shit that you can't you have to hope and pray that just doing these things are accepting Jesus is enough to maybe see god When you die and they teach you a schizophrenic Like you have this jealous god that also really really loves you that causes mental imbalance that causes jealousy it causes Shame it causes guilt Can I bring up something really quickly that I found out this morning that kind of goes with this now most subscribers are I don't like to call you guys subscribers. We don't like to call you that but audience. Okay the audience Have not doused on my dousing board and forever. I hardly ever do today I'm I just was just for shits and giggles like why what's the biggest reason I've lost my hair because I've lost my hair three different times in my life And I said fear Well, my biggest fear used to be death It was such a driving fear literally I could not drive at times. I've talked about this before it I was in a prison cell of my own mind Trapped by this fear and that fear came from the church Absolutely, and I do it on purpose You know, um, they they they need you to need them They need you to need them Right, and this is not what yasha was taught yasha taught eminence. Well, eminence also is this this idea that god is everywhere He's omnipresent. He's a loving god. He's in the trees. He's in the animals. He's in us You know, and so when you live with the idea of eminence That you're not separate from god. You never were separated from god You treat people better. You treat yourself better Now let's talk about the law of karma and all karma is is cause and effect That's all it is Because I turned my computer on the karma of me turning my computer on means I can film with Stephanie and emmy. See how simple that is. That's what karma is. It's not some bibbidi-boppidi boo who boo-joo boo word. It literally just means cause and effect So cause and effect with karma also means your work And so when things arise in your life that give you that friction that heat that plot twist that interesting moment in transcendence You are taught to believe that god is punishing you for something but in eminence You see that friction as a gift in order to learn more about yourself And so you don't carry the shame Or the guilt About being human because every no one's perfect. We're all gonna fuck up like that's just that's that's what being human is about It's about well you start to wonder too when you're walking into church every sunday you're like Okay, so it says I'm not going to be perfect and I am born in a sinful nature and stuff like that So this whole born again concept is how I make it to heaven. So What is the where's the line that god draws if you go to heaven or hell? You know what I mean and do you know how many times I asked pastors that and they really couldn't answer me Because we aren't born in a simple nature. Yeah, you guys hear that No, okay, good. It's really loud No, no, we aren't we are not born in a sinful nature. Sin just needs to not know who you are Like to forget who you are So we've forgotten that we're a soul and we need these things and so let's let's relate that back to exercise now Why I believe and what I feel like our ancestors knew That the human body was the greatest tool we could have possibly have to teach us these things And this is why in my opinion The church teaches against yoga Because if the church supported the practice of yoga They're on the transcendent business model The eminence business model is not good for business Having people do yoga and understand actual liberation And feeling the love of god is not a good business model for the church Follow the money, but let's talk about the karma we experience within our own bodies And this is what I'm so excited about because so many people are now realizing that it's okay To feel pain in your practice that you're supposed to it's okay to be uncomfortable How many times ladies before this did you think if you felt uncomfortable or pain in a workout you had to stop working out? Yeah, all the time All the time I was always told I was always told to listen to your body And so any when what that meant to me without explanation Is that oh, this doesn't feel good. I need to listen to my body and stop But what really needed to be done was There's in yoga they say there's two teachers. There are Right Bryce. There's two teachers three teachers. Okay, so muscle soreness tendon ligament soreness is good pain Joint pain Take a step back. That's different. It's a different teacher So once you understand what is okay And what is not You can accept that and and push through it One thing that's been coming up for me I've been having a lot of pain in my shoulders a lot of pain now. I have consistently been going to a chiropractor and getting uh 15 to 20 minute massages before my adjustments to work on my upper back and shoulders because there are so many knots and it's so tight that um It's practically immovable and another thing too I can't do the upward dog pose just yet because my shoulders are so weak And my back is my upper back is so immovable that I can't Form the curve and my neck and my lower back is overcompensating and collapsing And so until I get my shoulders strong enough to be able to Hold my body up in a manner where I can get that curve in my upper back um I just have to work through that and I swear you guys my shoulders have hurt so bad. I swear they were going to bleed I've had bruises on them. Okay That's okay. That's okay. I can still move. I don't have joint pain It's just muscle and ligament and tendon and in my journaling and in my meditation after my practice is what's coming up You're holding too much. I mean you're holding too much. You're holding too much on your shoulders And at seven years old. I had I was in a car accident and I I broke the um left side of my collarbone Ever since then I have had posture and shoulder issues so there's I think that's when it started actually and I've done shadow work for five years I've been in 12 step recovery programs. I've been in other classes. I've read so many books. I've been to Counseling I've done edmr. I've been I've done trauma recovery like I have done a lot of work on myself Not until yoga Did this stuff come up? Okay, so Guys, there is so many things you can do for shadow work. Whatever you feel drawn to or led to Pursue that there's no one right way. There's no one recipe That is what you're supposed to do and I know it's hard, but try not to look outside of yourself for What to do look outside of yourself for guidance You know, we all need to help each other and guide each other But go within do the meditation and the journaling and ask yourself ask god What should I do? Where where should I go? What path should I follow and People will come into your life a video will pop up some kind of website will pop up somebody You'll say something that triggers something and then just just follow that that's using your discernment using your intuition and It's it's beautiful. It's been painful The my yoga path so far has been painful, but I would not trade it for anything So much stuff has come up so many changes have already taken place you guys. I'm remembering my dreams again I haven't remembered dreams since 2018. I've had the same thing start to happen to me because I've always remembered my dreams, but in the last I would say seven eight months. It's almost like Plank once in a great while I'll get a profound dream where I'm like I always text Bryce what those dreams are But anyways, uh, I've been getting crazy lucid dreams I mean sometimes I remember them sometimes I don't but I still kind of can feel them after I wake up Like oh, okay. Got that. So, um, that's interesting. You said that I'll tell you too. I don't know if you guys girls have experienced this yet So there's a phenomenon that happens within yoga practitioners Well, where you will start to dream about yourself doing yoga asana while you're just like Well, what typically happens is sometimes you'll be dreaming About a breakthrough about like all of a sudden your leg goes behind your head Or all of a sudden you do a jump back jump through no problem And what that's telling you is you're about to break through and that's happened It's a phenomenon that happens. You start to dream about it starts to show you It's like it's like spirit is showing you in your consciousness What's about to happen? What's about to break and hunt unhint unstick itself and from from whatever stuck in the body And and I you know That's uh when you say listen to your body So as someone who's from traditional yoga when I hear that that tells me to listen to the pain because the pain is a message Doesn't mean to stop and I tell my students all the time There's a difference between an unhealthy pain and a healthy pain And a healthy pain. It's a vicinity. It's around the knee. It's around the shoulder. It's around the hip But when something is wrong and you need to pull back you can point to an exact spot where it hurts Yeah, and that's when you talk to the teacher. You don't quit you modify It's like in the video I did with um emi and stephanie. They're the after the second posture of primary series ar debata Padmo to nasana and they were standing and I had them pull their foot in I say if you can reach your hand around and catch your foot Then it's okay to do the fold portion of it that I showed in the video if you cannot catch your foot yet That means your knee does not have enough space To take that fold and so don't fold now when we say the injury is part of the teacher people who have an ego issue Will fold anyway ignoring The teaching and then what happens? They blow their knee out And that doesn't make you go That's that's him showing okay your body saying this is what happens when the ego takes over And I think sometimes when people hear that term listen to your body They stop listening to their body and they start to listen to their ego instead Yes Either that or I know this it's true for me either that or they'll use it as an excuse not to work Yes I I See it all the time people come in and they Define themselves by whatever health issues or injuries. They think they have And I need to know that as a teacher in my life classes. Yes, of course I need to know those things because that's going to inform how I teach you but When you define yourself as having these things like and that's it That's just why you can't do something and there's only going to be so far I can teach you because you're holding on to the illusion You're holding on to the illusion That you have knee problems. Well, what do knee problems represent for most most people it represents a fear of the future So the knee your body is telling you you have a fear of the future that you need to deal with And if you don't deal with it, the knee is just going to get worse and worse and worse and worse until you finally do deal with it You know if you have a shoulder issue it depends on which side it depends there's all sorts of What depends on what's happening But it's it's telling it was telling her emmy's body has been trying to communicate with her an imbalance And yeah, just because so that's a good example just because emmy's got some shoulder issues going on I'm not going to push her into postures that her body Isn't ready to take on yet because they need it needs to course correct some things And so we pull it back and we work with it's like it's like putting a puzzle together We work with one puzzle piece and then we pull the other puzzle piece in and connect And then we pull the other puzzle piece in and connect You know if a student comes in and just haphazardly wants to just You know rambo through the practice and Then there's nothing there's no teaching there's no learning happening If they're just doing stuff just to like pull their arm off to take the bind and that is the ego again That's not the that's not the soul You know and that's why and that's why it doesn't matter what level level your asana is because you you're where you need to be To work on whatever issue you're working on And that's what the yoga school is providing you no one in the mysore room gives a shit If you were a gymnast at one point or if you were a cheerleader It's not a competition. Well, it's not why we're here. Anyway, we're not here to work on the body's just the tool That's all it is is the tool And that's what it's a way to Bring yourself back into yourself and focus on yourself It's a clear what needs to be clear. It's not you're not going to An event and in demonstrating and showing off It's not a show off thing at all. Nobody's looking at you anyway. That might surround. They're too busy I like to say this too with with um Being successful in life and this this isn't just for exercise or whatever This is this is any avenue you take in your life in order to in order to succeed You must fail First and it's like a baby a baby crawls And then they get the guts to to stand up for the first time and take their first steps Well, they're not just gonna walk. They're gonna fall a couple times. They're gonna fall several times But the baby never gives up. They continue to fall Get themselves back up And the more that they do it the better they become it's the same with yoga It's the same with a business. It's the same with anything that you go into in life, right? So expect to Suck at At a pose or asana, you know, because that's part of the journey is you know Working through it Yeah, that's why it's really dangerous to try to choreograph your own Yoga practice now first of all, it's dangerous because if you don't know counter pose Pose counter pose neutral if you don't know that patterning you're gonna come out of that yoga practice Wackadoodle because energy is not settled. So my word Well, and Yes, express Um, and certainly if you're choreographing if you're choreographing your own practice You're not going to put in poses. You don't like Yeah, all the poses you like And what you're good at is not what you need to work on There's there's also other things about the practice too that If you're not educated and you like for example the time of the day You do it really early in the morning. It's cooler. You know, you're lighting that fire You're working with your internal fire energy And here we got people out on the beach in the middle of the day doing yoga. It's like You're gonna end up I think this is why They do what what they do with the yoga alliance and and the lack of education around traditional yoga is because If they can get people Doing it without understanding What it is or what it does with your body It's going to end up having negative effects and then they're going to say, oh, look at this Yoga has all these negative effects on your body. Well, it's because you're doing it in the middle of the day out in the sun You're you're not following the protocol. What brace just said pose counter pose neutral You know, it is it is a A very specific Um pattern for a reason and Yeah, and if you love Yeah, I'm reading like three or four books on ash danga all at one time and watching all kinds of videos and I learn more stuff Every day, you know, when I'm not practicing I'll go through it in in my mind and read some and you know, like half an hour a day Do what you can I'm I'm really busy. I know a lot of people are really really busy But you can take half an hour and and read Or watch a video or whatever and Education is just so incredibly important because Otherwise, I mean I watched a video the other day on someone who who is concerned I forget who it was who was concerned about what's going on with yoga and was saying different things and how there needs to be um Much better education on it and you know, he was going through and listen all these different things that over time will make a person delusional Yeah, but you have when you have this very very powerful very intense energy flowing through your body in an improper manner and your nervous system isn't ready for that or designed for that it's it's designed for a certain Pattern or sequence which is what ash danga offers it just I see what they're doing. I see it and then down the road people are going to have, you know Doctors and blood work and all this stuff, you know spirits in you you summoned in spirits that one pisses me off I remember listening to this this fundamentalist girl When I was a christian at the time a devout christian at the time back in 2020 and I Was studying I was trying to study books on reiki And I remember watching wonderful lives and she was telling everybody how to release demons out of them They because everybody has demons in them, which is false by the way and She was saying she's saying how she used to practice like witchcraft and everything before she became a christian And she got saved. I think she's a plant from the cabal to be honest. Oh probably yeah Yeah, but she was saying um avoid yoga avoid reiki of don't have statues in your house of anything like all this like don't have crystals don't have divination tools all these other things but What struck me weird is not even the whole reiki thing what struck me weird. I'm like yoga Why yoga? So I started to research on my own. It's um, I thought it was 333. It's 233 But You know, I started to research on my own like what do christians have against yoga? I had actually never heard of that before I had been in several churches never heard of that And um, I was looking and I'm like summoning in demons This and honestly my rational brain was like that doesn't make any sense to me it was just A type of officer size propaganda Well, if you if you're going around and this is one thing that's really pissing me off within our truther community lately Like really frustrating me They hear someone we know 90 percent of Of the truther community is infiltrators most of them are are parading around as fundamentalist christians Most of them are in their infiltrators. I'll just say that not to say who They'll tell you oh yoga is demonic It brings in demons and then you go and you regard to take that instead of actually pausing And saying yeah, let me go research Let me read the yoga sutras because if you read the yoga sutras, which is the 5000 year old text That is like the mac daddy Older than the bible. It's older than the bible Um that talks it's patanjali. Basically talking about how our thoughts Fuck us up And our thoughts are what's nothing demonic about that. There's nothing demonic about that Your thoughts are what's screwing you up and here's a way he was a scientist He says in the beginning of the first suture that he's a scientist And he's studying the human brain and how our own thoughts and our own fears again back to that transcendence and eminence If our thoughts are telling us i'm a terrible person. I'm a piece of shit. I'm a sinner I'm never going to get to god then that is going to separate us from our arc from god because we're pulling ourself away But if we're in eminence and we realize the mind is a fickle beast and we have to start to control our own mind Then we're back Knowing god isn't going anywhere. It's us And that's what patanjali is saying and that all these things that happen to you in life are giving you chances to heal Where you're not aligned with god. So again, I tell you This yoga these yoga sutures is a really bad business model for the church Because if everyone practiced this They wouldn't need the church They are the church You are the temple. Well, what's church brice? What's church? Church means mind comes from the original word is kirk Which means mind is mind control and yoga and then savior savior means Oh my god One who has one who has complete enlightenment one who has enlightenment. So it doesn't have to come back Born again. That's what the actual word savior means. So when they say jesus is a savior They're actually saying that he was in he was an enlightened one and he didn't have to come He doesn't have to incarnate again. That's all that means that's all that means And um, and so so let's think about that if church basically means mind control Yoga is the opposite of that. It's as garuji said yoga is mind controlling capacities you controlling your own mind So nothing else and no one else can fool you So the practice of yoga is in direct opposition to the church Yoga is saying you don't need all of that You're good as you are. Well, yoga means a really what's the word that yoga actually means? I had read it and I forgot what it was, but I love it a lot of people think it means to yoke But that's not what it actually means. No, I read something else about it means mental focus To focus the mind So yoga means to focus the mind Yeah, trust me when you're in a certain pose you're only focusing on oh, shit. I can't wait for this to end You're having a come to jesus moment on your yoga mat You're having a come to jesus moment. Oh, yeah, you are And I will say like my and I said this for that I don't know Stephanie if we were talking about it. I was talking to shanti with about it So like when I'm in india If I have an issue in my life going on That's a hard thing that I'm going through and I I want to go talk to my teacher about it and get his advisor And I know this for myself and I know this for my friends who have had private meetings with charot Do you know that he never tells you what to do? So I could go into that meeting with charot and say I'm just going to make up a story Let's say you go into the meeting and you're like, you know charot. I'm going through this divorce right now I'm really missing my spouse. I just I don't know if I'm going to get over his heartbreak like all this stuff He is going to give you a metaphor One of my friends. I'm not going to say his name was going through a divorce his wife left him And he was really struggling with it And he was really struggling with holding on to her And charot said the most he came back and told the story but and it was like one of the best metaphors charot said You know sometimes it's like holding sand in your hand You hold it but the sand still just slips out And you hold and you hold and you hold but what would happen if you just let go? How would your hand feel if you just let go? I need that metaphor in my life. I think sometimes thank you. We all do we all do if you just let go The sand's going to fall away anyway The sand's going to fall through the fingers anyway and you holding on your nails are pressing into your skin You're holding blood, but if you just release and let go Just let it go And and he was like that was and I've remembered that ever since You know with the jump through jump back. We were in a conference. Um Some teachers teach jumping through with straight legs Some teachers teach jumping through with cross legs and someone asked charot Which one is correct? Straight legs or cross legs and short sat there for a minute He goes My western students eat with cutlery My asian students eat with sticks And my indian students eat with their hands Which one is correct? I like that analogy and that's was just for the jump back jump through how many How many can you know, how do we say that we can apply that to so many aspects of life? Which one is correct? It's just cultural. They're all correct They're all correct You know, it's funny people talk about like, you know, there's there are there's a small percent of christians in india and there is a church in uh mysore st. Filomena's church And I know the christians in america would hate this church. They would want to burn it down You know why? Because it's set up on the inside like a hindu temple They set it up like a hindu temple And I thought it was fantastic when I went there because that's their culture That's what they know to do. Yeah Which one is correct like that's what they know to do even though they had changed religions They're still working in the manner of their culture But uh christian from america would come in and tell them they were all going to hell because they set it up like like a hindu temple Which one is correct? Again, I ask you why it's it's just it's unbelievable and I I know I said um, you know, I was talking with shanti about this I was just so upset with all this this propaganda And I know I know why these infiltrators are telling you not to do yoga guys because yoga's going to liberate your mind They can't control. This is the antidote to mind control. This is the ultimate antidote to mind control Right and I was and I said, you know All the hindu people that I know in india, I know a lot of them Most of them are not affiliated with the school. I've just met them. I've become friends with them They've had me in their homes. They've fed me meals They've loved on me. They've invited me to their families weddings not once did they ever try to convert me to hinduism Not once did they ever tell me I was going to burn an eternal hell for being raised a christian not once Do you know how many christians have told me I was going to go to hell for practicing yoga? So the hindus in my opinion as a generally speaking Are carry more of the christ in them And behave more like the christ Than the christians do generally speaking. We there are some good christians out there Yeah But you know, it's just it's in that that teaches you a lot By the way people behave actions. Um speak louder than words And regardless of a title I don't like titles It's all what's in your heart and what you're projecting out to other people if you are of God and of light and of love and You just want to help people and you really have pure intentions Your actions are going to show it. Yeah, but if you have darkness in your heart And you are very hardened as a person And you're very rigid and you're very hateful It's going to show in your projection and I have never been so I've always been like not threatened by Christians, you know, I I went to church and I would be told Oh, you're living in sin too much and it to me is like, well, what's too much? You know what I mean? We're all living in some sort of to at the time my brain is like But you guys aren't perfect either. I'm not understanding this. So at the time now I understand more and everything my eyes are wide open But this last year I have been attacked not as much as you Bryce, but I've been attacked a lot. I mean On the dark outpost. I can't say how many times I get called a witch from hell All because I'm trying to help people and I'm coming from a place of purity and and and love and good intentions and everything like that The last thing I want to do is harm anybody the the one of my Priorities in life is to make sure I am a beacon of light to others who might be lost and are hurting or in pain you know to be helpful and to um Be that person that maybe can make that one person smile. You know what I mean? that's That's a god that's not of evil because The devil doesn't know how to shine a light. He knows how to imitate a light, but he can't shine a light So it all goes to action speak louder than words Well, and it's and I'll say my yoga teacher my hindu Friends have never told me I was a witch from hell Never I take it as a compliment Just saying you call me mid a witch from hell. I'm just gonna be like, okay. So that means I'm doing my my job right Yeah, and it's that you know, it's that judgment too and the bible says judge not least you be judged Yeah, and just don't have a right to judge anybody We you know, you do have judges like actual judges that might need to judge on certain crimes and stuff like that but as Spiritual beings we don't have the right to be Judging where we go after death. That's that's not the individual that's on their own contract With god in in my opinion at this point in time. I really think That I don't know if it's fourth density negative or third density. That's really the hell I don't think there is burning for all eternity at the point from all all of the research I've been doing and You know all the I'll never I know I've mentioned this before but for those that didn't hear me say this I haven't said it in a while. I just remember before I really truly woke up to everything this might have been a couple weeks right before Us driving I got into my driveway and all I kept thinking is You know book a revelation doomsday Like god is going to send all these people to hell the people that I love the most and it didn't make any sense to me And I was really really struggling with that concept and I I hit my steering wheel and out loud I yelled god are you really sending all these people to hell And god answered and said well, what do you think? And I said I don't know he go he she whatever god said Okay, well, I want you to think about it and then you let me know God wasn't like. Oh, yes. I'm a wrathful nasty Judgmental god and their people are gonna burn firing ferno You know I was expecting that as an answer, but instead god didn't just say yes either god allowed me To use my Intuition and use my rational thinking To formulate the answer and finally I said to god No, I'm getting a no Okay, well, there's your answer Yeah, very clear as day clear as day and of course I doubted it for a while I'm like am I really hearing from god and but that's that doubt that I had about hearing from god really actually came from the church And and time and time again. I got the confirmation in my dream space where the ego was not involved You know what I mean? So pay attention to that those who are still, you know indoctrinated in this because literally it puts you in a state of of fear and that's holding you down into 3d Where you your consciousness will not be able to rise up to where it needs to be We're not meant to fear fear is for like Don't go near the hot stove fear to get burned. So you keep safe from the like that's what ego is for right? Yes, the ego brings in the fear we're not supposed to Fear things like death. We're not supposed to fear things like You know what I mean? Well, that's she brings up with eminence in this book. Um people who practice eminence don't fear death Yeah, I mean I went from really fearing it to like whatever It's it's just a passageway and I will say um One of the subscribers made a comment that I thought was brilliant and she she's been harassed a lot by by christians And she said it's almost like they want us under one world religion Which is the new world order That you have to believe this particular way or else we're going to burn you off the stake Yeah, that's that's the new world order and I will say I my first trip to india The first couple of months were really rough because you're culturally like shocked and your body's out of whack And you know, it's a lot of getting sick and you're in this new environment and you're learning and But after that it was christmas um and christmas day fell on a moon day that year So normally um christmas day, we would still have class because it's not a big holiday in india But because we're a bunch of westerners and christmas day happened to fall on the moon day A bunch of us went out on christmas eve and went to go We went to a chinese restaurant and we went to go have a big dinner together because we were resting the next day In my roommate and I we ordered a bunch It's all vegetarian stuff there because 80 percent of india is vegetarian So nothing to worry about we ordered all that we asked no spices But it was still just incredibly spicy like to the point where we were just like crying. It was so spicy So we got it all to go, which is funny because they didn't really have to go boxes. They had to put in packs for us Um And we were in the rickshaw going home and we were like we should give we should donate this food because we're not going to eat it It's too spicy And there's not a lot of like homeless people there are but it's very weird like in gulk alum There's not like homeless people So we started walking around it was dark outside christmas eve where we're trying to find like a person to give this food to And we passed we actually passed on the street walking our philosophy teacher arvid And we asked arvid like hey, where do you know a place where we can donate this food? He pointed us in a direction So we walked over and we were at the edge of the slumps And there was this like hut Trash house with a light like a fire lit and we like, you know, excuse me Of course, they didn't speak english only spoke canada, but we were like here and we just kind of gave them the food And the father the mother and the little kids ran out and the father was like touching our feet. It made me so emotional For giving them this this gourmet food And I sat there and I was like I feel like such an asshole For being upset about not having the newest ipad or not, you know Getting the best plate on the airplane and literally these people are just so grateful For food and we were on the edge of the slums. It was probably pretty dangerous It was supposed to be there was dark at night But we went back home and both of us sat there and we were like, we have to do something We have to do something like that. It affected both of us very deeply And so we started what we call the mice war foundation We started a foundation where every time we go to india We raise money And we bring all that money we raise we don't touch any of it for ourselves It all goes in and we go directly and buy rice by school supplies by toys And we take it into those slumps And so every time i'm in india raise money If kids do need some type of medical care, we make sure we cover it for them And between my first and second trip when I was getting all the paperwork done To do this I asked a few people To donate because literally ten dollars will take care of a kid for a whole year in india So it's not like you could the little list of money Goes a long way And I asked some people to be on the board who I got the same response From these people Why would I donate money to save a bunch of hindu kids who are going to go to hell anyway? That's the response I got from christian. That's disgusting Disgusting and one person told me we'll all donate money if you promise to tell them about jesus I wanted to smack them because in this process. I also found it got in touch with the person who owns a safe house And this is before I knew about the sex Room room carpooling have to be careful because you guys know what the starts with the tea But I knew it was big with slum kids Because a lot of the slum kids are born in the slums and there's no paperwork on them. They have no identity And so for example with the parents and this is these are like trash houses like these are not these are Like trash houses made of trash. I've been in them there. It's rough So a lot of times these men and these women's like we'll get married and have kids but then the man will run off And they can't there's no family court. There's no way to hunt. They're the untouchables There's no way to for the woman to then So she has to then borrow money from the slum lords to to take care of our house and our kids And then she can't pay it back a lot of times then the mothers will off themselves one woman. I got to know Let herself on fire So then the slum lords will come and compensate the kids and we'll take them into The enterprise of you guys and I'm talking about and so I started moving kids into the slum house My or to the safe house myself when I understood that there was a child who was at risk especially girls I would be the one to then go talk to the owner And try and Personally take them and put them in the with the with the guardian the new guardian's permission Which was usually an elderly parent and so when somebody's telling me this that I'll only donate if you tell them about jesus I wouldn't be like at what point am I supposed to sit down and tell them about jesus when i'm literally trying to get them into a safe house And they're three or four years old Literally they're about to be put into the most horrific enterprise That exists in the world and you are narcissistic and that much of a psychopath That you won't donate ten dollars To pay for the rickshaw to get them to a safe house because your narcissistic psychopathic ass Is that fearful that your religion is wrong? That you want to project that onto a three-year-old child? Slum kid There's something wrong with your faith then There is something wrong with your faith Because I guarantee you if it was flipped and it was us in the slums and those the hindus coming to help us that wouldn't even be an issue Wouldn't even even be thought of And if that's what your faith is dictating from you then that's sad It's sad and you've lost touch with humanity because you know what the same god that created you also created that child And put that child I'm at a loss of words. I even want to say to that So if you want to call me a witch or call us a witch for doing yoga So be it at least i'm not at least i'm not damning little hindu kids to hell Because i'm going to tell you right now if that's the god you believe in then we are not serving the same god My god does would never do that Child is a child of god regardless of religion race creed whatever you want to call it Religion's man made anyway. Yeah, it's man made to keep people in a box It's as gondi said god has no religion God has no religion God has no religion He created the people of india with the same amount of care That he created the people of america or europe Or israel or egypt or asia We're all so unique and different and our cultures are beautiful things the indian culture is very bright colors The dancing of the way they dance is just so beautiful. I can't do it as a white person. It's I mean The way they move. I mean, it's just it's just so beautiful But to think that some somehow your culture and your belief system is better To the point where people don't believe and behave like you do they're gonna go to hell. That's the new world order, honey Yeah, that's not freedom. That's what they're just what they're programmed to believe and I mean Why would god need to use fear to control and manipulate his children god doesn't That's a narcissistic trait and the god is not narcissistic at least the god. I serve isn't exactly I really like What the what a course in miracles says about sin Sin is a lack of love and it also talks about what's real and what's unreal What's real is anything that can stand alone by itself light Um darkness is only present in the absence of light. Therefore. It's not real Um evil is only present in the absence of love. Therefore. It's not real. It's an illusion. It's a distortion and I I'm I'm just flabbergasted at what what you just said brace Same it's disgusting. It's literally disgusting. That makes me just want to go into india and go with you and just help those kids Oh, I can't wait to go back. That's the one thing I'm missing. That's the highlight. I'll go with you Shirat knows I do it like it got word got spread that I was like in my off time when I'm not in school I'm in slums helping the kids and Shirat got word that I was doing that and he um He has a foundation too called the doys foundation where they put money into help as well And I he called me to his office one day and he was talking to me about it He wanted to make sure that I had like I have to bring I have a rickshaw driver that I've got to know that comes with me because he has to translate for me too because the slum kids don't speak english even though english is one of the languages of any of They only speak canada but also to keep me safe because it slums. There is there is slum lords There is a mafia situation happening. And so the guy also makes sure that I'm not I'm protected too So I'm not kidnapped or anything like that Um, but yeah, and I work it out with Shirat like when I'm there if I have funds left over I usually donate it to the rest of the funds to the doys foundation So if people donate money then the rest of it that's not been used Goes directly into another foundation. That's also supporting. I mean the government of india is obviously very corrupt as all our governments and the slums in In my sore in gokallam. They have a temple like all these slums will have a temple in them And they're supposed to be a person that comes and like Unlocks the temple every day for them to come in and do their pujas And this gokallam slum the guy collects his paycheck, but never comes and unlocks the temple forum ever And so shirat was telling me all of this and like how the government treats the untouchables and like You know the fact that and once once I started doing a bunch of other people in and in at kbj My my colleagues my fellow students my peers started joining me And so a bigger group started coming with me into the slums And one day I had such a big group because they always want to always ask for a country coin Like what's your country coin? They want to see your money your money from your country Right and so one day what I did was I went and got a huge I went to one of the stores I got one of those big maps And I asked a bunch of my friends who are from all over the world to bring like a coin from their country And we went to the slums and we had the kids all set around and we each took our coins and put it on our home countries So the kids could see like where the money was from then we left it with them Now here's the real sad thing when we go buy them toys because they don't have a lot of toys We have to damage the toy before we give it to them Because if we don't damage the toy before we give it to them the slum lords will confiscate it from the kids After we've left and resell it So we always have to there was this one little boy. I'll never forget We had just the the government's also some supposed to Provide rice for them each week because that's the main the main meal and sometimes they forget And so what we do is I go to a loyal world which like at their big grocery I get pounds and pounds and pounds of rice which is so cheap for me It's like five bucks and we put it in the rickshaws and we have the ladies Go and get their buckets from their house and they line up and we pour rice into their buckets And as we were leaving up getting an emotional Todd was with me. He'd been the one doing the the the rice and we were leaving. We were just leaving And this woman ran out of her hut and fell to the ground and hug Hug Todd's feet And was speaking in canada and our rickshaw art mahash our friend was translating and he said that that morning She was stressed. She wouldn't have enough food to feed her family And now she has enough food to feed her family for the week Wow And that was just just and that was five dollars. It was five dollars You know and that and that that love She didn't care that we were white christian westerners We didn't care That she was Well, they put this way she didn't care that we were white christian westerners from upper middle class america We didn't care that she was an untouchable Slum lady and that moment was human connection and human love And that's what matters That's what matters god has no religion Culture is just man-made religion is man-made But our souls are all fractals of god Regardless of whether that's the soul in a multimillionaire here in america or a slum kid in india It's the same fractal of god And it is my hope that that's why I think i'm getting so upset because it's like In the truth or community. I'm watching Let's go from one controlling group to the next controlling group When are we going to realize that at some point it's not doesn't even matter about intel anymore How many more how much more intel can we take we know what's not even accurate If if if you guys if you guys want to help if you really really want to help You can't Wait for them to come and arrest all these people and put new people in office and all of this stuff because what what that is What that is like It's like looking in a mirror And seeing the distortion in the mirror And trying to change the mirror if if we don't Each of us look at ourselves and work on our shadow The collective shadow of humanity Is going to stay the same we could arrest everybody put new people in and it's still going to be the same If you're taking a sidelined seat and not doing anything You're contributing To the collective shadow if if you want to help Work on yourself just do one one little thing and then do one little thing more And and tell people about that and help people and encourage people just just keep working on yourself If we all work on ourselves This stuff will go away. It will heal Yeah, i'm so glad you brought that up and yeah exactly It doesn't matter. It doesn't I love that mirror image Yeah, that was a really good analysis. We're not replacing one boss the new boss If we want to get rid of this cabal It starts with us We're the storm. We're the storm Why don't we haven't I firmly believe that we haven't flipped yet because we're not ready to flip yet Because we're consenting by not doing our own work We're consenting to the cabal Yeah, when you're when you're watching or talking to somebody or you know, you're you're listening And you say well this person told me, you know, this has been taken over by white hats and in And and all that kind of stuff and I don't care if they're a truth or non-truth. It doesn't matter and and I'm like, okay So where are you getting that from? You can't just take people's words for it. Okay Really have to just You know this whole truth or movement thing Especially being that It's definitely been infiltrated heavily infiltrated heavily they have literally Gone from hypnotizing you with msm to hypnotizing you with truth or videos and there is an obsession There is an addiction to it. I can't say how many times I've had somebody on the other side of the computer screen For a reading and I'm not going to see names because this has actually happened several times And I ask them how many videos of truthers are you watching a day? And they'll tell me oh 10 or six or I'm like, okay, you have a problem done But what do you mean? You're not working on yourself. You're just listening listening listening To somebody that's not you Yeah, you're not doing your work. Yeah, you're you're all questions like what am I supposed to do right now? What's my purpose right now and my and then the cards are literally saying We're not gonna say and I'm like, I'm not gonna say because You're not ready to hear what you're all about. You're not ready So you understand you have to pre game. You got a healer. Yeah, you got it. You got a fiction You got to do the pre preliminary stuff. No, that's why I get frustrated with the whole Financial system too sometimes. Yes, there probably will be a new financial system because the federal reserve is part of that group However, people are just sitting around waiting for money to show up. Yeah, what? Like what? Yeah, I that yes, that's a whole another thing too. Can we talk just real quick about How poverty mindset Um keeps you stuck in your shadow. Yeah, okay. Take it over. Let me give you an example. I'll use myself I grew up in poverty. We were poor. We were so poor My dad left when I was young. My mom went to school and worked. We were on assistance I got pregnant young started having children My husband at the time Chose not to go to school Had dead-end job after dead-end job after dead-end job We were on government assistance. I've been on government assistance my entire life Up until about three or four years ago And this poverty mindset is such a prison. It is so difficult to get out of When I started doing my shadow work And getting rid of that stuff and my vibration was raising I attracted more income It blew my mind how that worked It absolutely blew my mind and the cleaner that I get the cleaner that my husband gets The more we attract and and there is abundance everywhere if you look at nature Look at how many blades of grass are out in your yard Look at how many grains of sand are on the beach. There is abundance ever how many leaves are on a tree There's abundance everywhere abundance is natural abundance is normal And this poverty scarcity mindset is something that is ingrained in us, you know growing up And and the major, you know, there are some There are some families who are middle class or are upper middle class or upper class But the majority of people on this planet are poor And and it is it is a prison And if you're struggling and and you're looking at Stephanie and brice and myself and by the way guys, I live in a rundown old farmhouse This is the only room in my house that looks this way and I saved for an entire year And all the stuff in this room is used other than my computer I got it from thrift stores. I got it off of um, facebook marketplace, you know What used everything is used I've had people comment to me, you know, oh you can say this and do this It must be easy for you because you guys have money What We don't have money I dealt with that too this week. I actually text you girls. I was so freaking pissed off like so pissed off My dad used to tell us growing up that when you assume it makes an ass out of you and me and I posted a picture I'll actually show you guys My mom's parents. I was very close. Oh that picture. By the way, that was gorgeous house. I was admiring the house but Well, I This is the one house That I've ever had good memories in the one house I went through terrible Not even going to get into it And I found this picture going through some old photos of my grandparents house and I posted it because when I see that house I see my grandmother maxine and my granddaddy bubby And I still hear my grandmother saying sugar sugar because she was from Charleston, South Carolina So she called sugar. Hey sugar. What you doing sugar? You know, I love that I still I probably threw up in every room in that house when I was a kid Like I I think I remember I actually have a memory of potty training in one of those rooms Because after I was born my mother had miscarriages. So I spent a lot of time there with my grandparents Now, yes, my grandfather was a surgeon They made good money My grandparents my grandfather died in the late 80s. My grandmother died in the early 90s And someone made and I shared this just saying Going through old photos found this with my grandparents house so southern But this is when the house is where I have nothing but good memories. I miss my grandparents. I miss them And I hope they're smiling down on us now. I miss them every day And I posted that to share it because I see love in this house. I don't see the fact that it's a nice house It's my grandparents house And I had a lot of people make great comments actually ended up blocking the person because I just don't need that I had someone making comments that how like basically paraphrasing what they said How dare I post this because there are people who can't pay their bills right now That's not what this picture is about. First of all, that's my grandparents house Not my parents house my grandparents house. Stephanie. What does my house look like? It literally involves a living room with a kitchen net not even a full kitchen A small bedroom and a very small bathroom. It is very tiny her apartment is It's really tiny. I mean it's it's it's warm and cozy, but it's it's very very very tiny Yeah, it's actually kind of hard for two people to even live in it. It's so tiny Um, where am I filming right now? Am I in a studio? Where am I? Where am I? You're filming in Your bedroom and you have a little desk and you have a curtain that is um Is thumbtacked to the wall Yeah, yeah, and my house Can you let's talk about my financial background? What's going on with me right now Stephanie financially? You have nothing I've nothing I've had everything stolen Yeah, like there have been days where I don't know if I can buy food Yeah, so the fact that that person said that Is is disgusting. Yeah, it's absolutely disgusting And what they're even if my grandparents were alive I'm 39 years old What am I going to go run to my grandparents? No, especially if they were still alive, they'd be very elderly right now. They'd be in their 90s So why would I take from them? so Like it's just it's disgusting. It's gross. It's gross. And so that I think people are so programmed to think we're on a screen That we just have it all. I mean, I'll be honest when kovat hit Sorry, I should have said that where you probably one time one time fine. Yeah um And even before that we were struggling, you know, we we bought a house And Because it rolled over into the very next year our mortgage abruptly went up 400 dollars more than what we were told We were going to have to pay 400 to us is a lot And it was either rent a house for more money or buy one Those were our two options because we had to get out of the town we were in because it was getting really like It had a lot of stuff happening. That's not good And You know what? I never believed I deserved a home But I said, okay, I'm gonna just try and if god doesn't want me to buy a home. It's not gonna happen And it happened. Well after that David's car shit the bed so I had to buy a new car And other things started to happen the guy who owned our house prior jimmy rigged everything So we had things breaking all over the house. So there goes savings Okay Connecticut is one of the most expensive states to live in We pay for oil heating here, which is pretty much if you go into the diesel pump At the gas station and filling your tank So for us for three weeks of heat it costs now in the regime we're in 600 dollars every three weeks So that means she doesn't have hot water or hot electricity unless you have oil Which I think connecticut's one of the only places that does is because I never heard of this But we can't even we can't even fill up all the time now. So I have to go to the gas pump and get diesel and pour it in my tank And so they're going to go with cold showers only So yeah, our hot water heater runs off of this fuel And we have almost gone into foreclosure. We didn't but we almost did So if that tells anybody so if anybody is at under my ass trying to say I'm wealthy and stuff like that I grew up in an upper middle class family. I had I didn't need to want for anything except What I lacked was the emotional stuff so We're all we're all missing something. We're all in poverty somewhere in life, whether it's emotional physical You know, so you can't judge somebody by a flippant screen No, and I will say if you're judging us thinking we have money and you're angry about that That's not a reflection on us That's something inside of you that's broken like that person that left that comment under my grandparents house I did block the person because I didn't need that but that was something in them that was broken Most of the people got it got what I was saying like I missed my grandparents So that's something so if you're feeling triggered by that that's a trigger that you need to heal And I don't have the answers on how to heal that that's that's the journey You got to go on through yoga through reiki healing through journaling whatever you got to do to confront that wound I mean, I've had people get really pissy with me because I've only been doing tarot for Not a long time. I'm not like experienced in this lifetime. I know I did it in a previous lifetime I know or else I wouldn't have picked it up as easily But it's like instead of waiting for in the sarge's sar money to come through I had to get crafty with how to make an honest living to make an honest living I mean, I'm also going to be dabbling into things like reiki and stuff like that so that I can even go into other modalities to help people But like to further my education and things and I read a lot of books and stuff So I'm not just sitting on my butt just waiting for money to come in. I'm literally Trying my absolute hardest to use the gifts that God gave me You know to to help other and I know like you too ladies are doing the same thing Bryce, you're helping people with the yoga. I mean, you're helping people with your reiki, you know, so I mean you got to Everybody has a time and place when they can remove the matrix jobs and they can start dabbling into something else If it's not your time, it's not your time and that's fine But you can't just up quit and not just work on yourself somehow, you know, I mean Money is just not going to grow on trees. You can't run away. That's one thing too I think people confuse like, oh, we're just going to run away to the woods and just live there Let me if you got the money to do it do it But that's also running away, you know, we can't run away from the matrix right now But Sean stone and I spoke about this a while ago and I loved what he was saying too and cliff high Just kind of alluded to this as well Well, what's happening in the macro what's happening outside of us is also a reflection of the shadow within us as well That's what emmy was pointing out the underbelly What we're seeing with the controllers is really the underbelly of our own wounds No, none of us are out there doing whatever with the you know with the little ones but But it's an underbelly our wounds and not healing our wounds is what has allowed that to continue That's the responsibility because it's all energetic I give me you said it beautifully the other day energy doesn't know time and space It's just energy I say that to students all the time when we think about the emotions We're trying are the thoughts we're trying to control and observe and learn from in our practice The thoughts aren't going to be a thought. Oh, I had a bad experience in kindergarten No, it's going to come up as an emotion of all of a sudden anger is going to erupt Sometimes the memory isn't even there, but it's the emotion And so you think about harnessing all of those wounds That anger that aggression that jealousy that shame that poverty mindset and not dealing with it Well, that magnetizes And if the whole world is doing that the whole world is not confronting that then that shadow side almost Conglomerates and allows things to fester like the controllers And so if you really want to give the controllers the middle finger work on yourself Go take a bar class Go take a yoga class start journaling That's giving the controllers the middle finger Take your power back Yeah, now you know what it feels like if you if you've experienced abandonment issues a thing Shame fear we've all experienced it. Okay. Good. Now, you know what it feels like to feel powerless You know how you feel that we should do to to feel powerful You take it back And remember guys if you are If you are called to the the yogic path All of our trauma and experiences and wounds and issues Are in our tissues They're in our muscles. They're in our bones our ligaments our skin They're in us and when we start to move And the energy is flowing and the fire is ignited that stuff comes out of your tissues And it has to be sweated out has to be eliminated. It has to be vomited out. It has to be felt You know, these feelings will come up and you're like, where did this come from? You know, don't try to escape it lean into it. Feel it a little bit more and it'll pass Um, but just don't don't be afraid when that stuff comes up because it will it can hit you like a wrecking ball Like I was this past sunday. I was a hot mess I mean I was I had to take pain medicine. I was in so much physical pain I had so much fear and anxiety and paranoia and panic coming through Um, I felt like I had this overwhelming urge to like arch my back Like I wanted somebody to take my shoulders and put their foot in the middle of my back and like Pull it back. So I was just like You know, and it had it was related to these emotions and I had healing going on in my heart space You know, the arms shoulders All connected to the heart space and it's so rigid right here That that stuff had to to come out and it's got to come out little by little. It can't all come out at the same time you know, so Whatever kind of shadow work you're doing the emotions are going to come up The wounds are going to be festered and triggered and and don't be afraid of it Allow yourself to feel your feelings are not going to kill you A lot of us have this really irrational belief that are if we allow ourselves to feel our feelings that we're going to die Yeah, I had that I had that as irrational as that is I felt like I had to protect myself for my feelings But once I started allowing myself to feel them and let it flow feelings are just energy to let it flow It subsides this too shall pass Nothing lasts forever And the more you for mantra is this too shall pass. Yeah I was pentacles Temporary but painful Well, and that's why so that's why so many people get addicted to television get addicted to youtube Get addicted to watching all these truth or videos. That's what that's what the controllers know is because you'll do Escapism you'll be to avoid facing your own demons is that Simon and Garth bless you Stephanie Is that Simon and Garth uncle song? Hello darkness my old friend? Hmm. I've come to speak with you again So that's all the pain and anxiety that you feel coming up is coming to speak with you You know and in indian some schools of thought the word demon means Teacher demonstrator teacher Means teacher You know, I did when I did my healing with shanti She had me go into a space where I had seen a demon because I've seen them actual demons And she had me go back in my mind to that memory And usually when I see a demon I kind of back away and like and she goes No, I want you to get up and I want you to go and ask the demon what it wants What does it want and so I got up into my mind's eye and I went into The closer I got to the demon in my mind's eye the smaller Coward down a little bit and I said what do you want? And it just took my hand and it just pointed to my hand And I told shanti. I was like it's pointing to my hand and she goes. What do you think that means intuitively? And I said my power Who's what comes out of our hands It's creating So it was showing me And maybe at that moment when that that memory of that demon maybe that was a time in my life Where I was feeling pretty powerless And so let that let it hello darkness my old friend I've come to speak with you again Let that stuff come up and tell you ask it when your anxiety comes up because I struggle with anxiety too. So, okay I recognize I see you anxiety. What is it you want to teach me? What is it you're trying to tell me? I see you abandonment What do you want to why are you coming up here again? What what message do you have for me? Because as you said darkness is just the absence of light And so if you feel these dark feelings and you engage with them you are bringing light to it and what if What if all these energies of shame fear guilt jealousy are literally just energies trying to heal you What if the pain you feel is them wanting to leave your body? What if they want to leave? Yeah, but you're too afraid to open the door and let them leave. That's what Marnie Alton said that one of her videos We think we're locked in these cages And then one day we realized the cage wasn't even locked We could just open the door. That's what the controllers want. They want us to be locked in cages Not that they set for you. It's you do it to yourself I mean if you're looking at the eight of swords Approaches the hero deck the eight of swords. I mean, I wish I can find it like right immediately I'm going to look through this as I as I talk here But the eight of swords as I'm looking here Is all about a self induced blind spot a self induced prison Scales on your eyes. You're not seeing the big picture and you're doing it to yourself I'm hoping I do find it here in a second because I do want to show this so that people can understand because the illustration in this deck is just absolutely Absolutely brilliant to the gilded tarot No, I'm I'm using the light seers. My gilded tarot has been a bit wonky Yeah, but it's literally a self-imposed prison and so When we don't deal with these uncomfortable emotions and I know that feeling Emmy's right like when they I mean I still have to like coach myself through it when those feelings come up I'm like no no no no no no like I don't want to deal with it, but I have to allow it Yeah, there we go. See she's looking in the mirror And right here there's nothing on her right But she's looking at her reflection and she's tied up and she's blindfolded So it's like saying she did this to herself Right She's looking at her reflection And she is putting herself in her own prison That's the biggest prison. It's not anything to do with metal bars. It's your mind your mind does it to you Your programming does it to you? Which is what the yoga sutras are all about. Yeah 5000 think about that 5000 years ago these sutras were written And we're still as human beings dealing with the same suffering And that's what my friend Cindy said that uh that Stephanie knows You know when you think about the path of the mystic there would be no mystic without suffering Because when you suffer that's when you ask questions Well, I have a saying that I've been I think I've been saying this since I was in middle school And I I don't know if this exists anywhere else. I made this up not hearing it So I could be wrong. I'm not saying it's original But I always say the one with the greater path suffers the most and goes through hell more than anybody else So if you've gone through hell And you've gone you come back out of it and gone through it again and come back out and gone through it again and you keep doing it You there is something there that You hold a very important remarkable path. Okay, because you cannot be a healer you cannot be A yoga teacher you can't do any of these things without going through the suffering first because you would not appreciate it You wouldn't understand it. Yeah One and you and I will say too. So when it comes to that suffering and that hell you're going through You have a choice though, and I'm not going to say what happened this week Stephanie But Stephanie Was at a point where she was at a crossroads this week Where she could either stay in old patterning That was going to just give her the same tested I'm being tested or she could choose to take a chance on a new patterning of and it all came down Now it was an action, but it came down to the way she thought about herself Because all actions you have to have the thought first before the action happens, right? So these old patternings the way we think about ourselves. I'm not good enough. I'm not worthy enough That's what stems from a childhood wound. Yes, but she made the choice Now before she had been doing all the shadow work I don't know if you would have even realized you had a choice. So there was another path But you know and she made this she did something really hard this week. That was hard for her to do And it worked out beautifully because she took a chance on a new way of thinking about herself a new patterning And close the door on the old patterning doesn't mean the old patterning isn't going to reach its head up every now and again Oh what I already did But she made it she was at a crossroad. So if you're suffering if you're feeling aggression if you're feeling these wounds come up You have a choice to make The choice is yours You can either stay stuck on that hamster wheel Or you can get off the ride And come off the hamster wheel into a new unlock the door walk out into a new A new world a new timeline And that is what I believe personally that is why I think we haven't flipped yet Because collectively we need a bigger collect collective percentage of people to make that choice At the crossroads to heal themselves doesn't mean you have to be fully healed You're never going to be fully healed even if it's a stop projecting on other people our wounds So too many people are projecting It's saying oh you shouldn't do this. Okay. So what what what you shouldn't you be doing? Yeah, yeah, well Stop accusing people of things and start looking within There's so many people that are just getting like They're like sharks They're just waiting to latch their teeth into the next thing that they don't agree with What do you got strolls that are just like The troll sitting under the bridge just waiting for that person to cross over so that they can Hurt that person That is not 5d thinking That is evil Yeah, if you are sitting there waiting for the next person to challenge, you know, you need to rethink Your your intentions in this life When you need to heal yourself because collectively we need a higher percentage of people to start doing their work Just just by starting to do the work You're going to already start to change your vibration as emi was saying it just starts to And then when the energy of earth has gotten to that certain point then we can flip It doesn't mean when we go to fourth density positive We're still going to have work to do fourth density positive doesn't mean we're all going to be sitting around Writing uniforms. It'll be a different thing that different things will be facing Yes, we're never going to be done learning and evolving So don't think that once if you're just waiting for a timeline that flip to the world for the world to be great You're going to be waiting forever Because the world can be great right now to even in this We're still going to be dealing with things. You're just not going to have that polarity of like dark dark evil beings Trying to program Law one says in fourth density positive. We're going to have what's called a collective memory bank So that means that what work there will be no dishonesty Because we will be able to tap into each other's memories So if I wanted to experience something to grow that I never experienced in my life I could tap into somebody else's memory bank to have that experience in my memory to then learn from it So if you've never been raped for example And you're in fourth density positive and you want to know what that experience is like to learn from it You'd be able to tap into it So it's a different it's because there is no Negative polarity You're then tapping into the memory bank of people who went through the polarity of their density You're also going to get your memories. Some of your memories back from past existences as well So it's going to be a whole different playing field of work to do Of work to do and so if you if and it's and even in third density like albert einstein I know people talk about whatever but this quote is good. He said you can see the life in two ways Either that everything's a miracle or nothing's a miracle. It's your choice Is everything a miracle or is nothing a miracle? And when you start to do the shadow work when you really work through it You start to actually become grateful for some of the bad experiences that you had because it brought you to a new place of understanding And that that is kick-ass power I wouldn't be where I am today if I hadn't gone through the stuff that I had gone through So yeah, I think those things that have happened to me. They suck It's not doesn't feel nice But you thank it because it taught you a certain lesson to get you where you are now And you know, I just I don't know why I'm being um led to talk about this just very very quickly When it comes to things like waiting around for money for instance Do you really think you're going to get this huge lump sum of money all at once? Think about what the human Collective would do that has no idea how to manage wealth or hasn't done their shadow work Because you know what else people who avoid shadow work do they drink too much they eat too much. They do drugs That's a root shock for problems. They shut our shop of holics. Yeah When you have a root chakra blockage, you could literally have either spending you could be having spending habits Like a shop of holic type of thing Or you could be a penny pincher where you don't even Want to spend anything so you hoard the money It depends if it's hypo or hyperactive you read that what eastern body western mind book it talks about this And where does this stem from as your security? You know so money has a lot to do with the root. So if you're not healing your root chakra You might not be able to manage wealth. Yeah So again, I tell you I on my opinion we haven't flipped yet because The infiltrators into the truth or the 90 percent of the infiltrators have hypnotized people It's not working on their ship convince them. So how many of these infiltrators are convincing you that money's on its way They're convincing you you don't have to worry. It's coming. It's fine Don't worry. You're gonna get a med bed and all of a sudden you're gonna be a size zero. Yeah Don't worry. Eat the chocolate. Eat the bad food because it's okay. The med bed's gonna fix it No Yeah, if you're looking if you're waiting and looking for something outside of you to save you You're gonna be waiting a long long time Yeah, absolutely And you're not ready for a free world because you're still waiting for another controller to come in Hmm I tell you what to do We need to take control of our own selves. Yeah We've been talking for hours I know we're like, let's just do an hour today. I mean So Anyway, guys, it's all important stuff We need to talk about and I'm hoping I'm hoping that the 30 day challenge we're gonna do in november We're doing the yoga course, which is a private course. That's gonna be intense But then I have a 30 day again, like I said in the beginning 30 day because there's 30 days in november I'm working on the outline right now in the next week. I'm gonna have the outline done and I'll create a new email address For anybody who wants to do the 30 day challenge. I will email you the schedule with all the links It's this this 30 day challenge is really for people who would just want to start shadow working They don't know where to start because it's gonna be a guide You're gonna have to exercise like four or five days a week I want to do different modalities of exercise from bar to yoga to dance Some kickboxing so you can experiment with different modalities to see which one works better for you We're gonna have journaling exercises to do every day And you're gonna have some meditation healing to do every day And this is going to be all for you. And so no one's going to be watching you do this No one's going to be reading your journal And it's going to be a way for you to challenge yourself to do these things these activities every day To get you through the months of the month of november. So hopefully we can Push this timeline over the edge and get us all healing ourselves Right and so at the end of the of november though, if you register for the challenge I'm going to take your name and put it in a raffle and maybe three or four people will I got I've got a couple of gifts that have been donated Um, just just something fun. It'll be at random raffle So um, so that will be coming up soon and then of course the yoga course We've only got a few more spots left I'll put those links down in the description box as well as well as Stephanie's courses are going to be down in the box too so If you can't get a description box, I have this a couple times to be like, where is the link? Look at the down arrow button press it or the more button and press it in the whole description box Well box will pop up. So, you know, it took me about a year to figure out where the description box was When I before I had a channel I'm gonna get it. I'm terrible at technology Talking about The fun thing right underneath the video before the comment section is the description box Not as obvious when you're watching youtube on your cell phone because I never watch it on my my computer I always watch it on my cell phone. So yeah, that goes to show you how uh savvy I am with technology I mean if that's what just hit down arrow hit the more button guys That'll show you the whole description box. So I get so many people commenting It's not in the box. I'm like, oh, you're just seeing the top of the box Hit the down arrow and it's right there. So anyway, all right ladies Well, I love both of you very much and I love all of you guys watching right now Most of you guys are doing this. I know we're preaching to the choir, but go encourage your friends and family Just to start looking at brad's a word. We all got to work together doing this It can't just be one person. We got to all be doing this We are we are all literally walking each other bring in the storm become the storm join the storm Let's make a let's make a freaking tornado out of this. Okay Yeah, all right guys. Bye everybody. Bye. Bye