 Ex nihilo nihil was written by malice a forethought you can find it on the scp wiki and a link in the description below It is under a creative commons attribution share alike 3.0 license. I wake up and I wonder once again what I am What I was meant to be I? Move though I will my limbs not and as I walk through the darkness I feel them scrape upon one another and crunch on On the brushed concrete floor This is not life They open the door and my body freezes The light is so bright it burns And although I have no eyes to see I know it is there They move slowly around me and I cannot run I Can never run even when they can no longer see me I'm a slave to myself to my shapeless limbs Sometimes before I kill them I look at myself at my gray Formless hands at my misshapen head at the walls of my prison at the floor Stained red and brown by the substance that I will into being I Am a statue, but I have no beauty. I move constantly, but I have no purpose I am a thing without form or function I am not art They come and they look at me. I feel their stairs bore into my hollow body Probing for any hint at my tormented mechanism. It continues for days for years The burning light the inevitable darkness They've stopped now They know there's no more to learn I Wasn't made for them nor they for me I'm no plaything of theirs and I am not wonderful It is possible that I was a gift of some kind, but it's hard to imagine What good I could possibly do in this world? My frame is weak and I have no kindness to bestow. I Can't control the crimes I commit and I can only commit those crimes My life is not mine to give and I know in my heart that they will not take it I will never know the pleasure of death Whoever created me was not charitable It is true that I am beyond their comprehension and that they hold me in reverence It is the reverence of the damned I kill for pleasure and the pleasure is not even mine to have My painted mask runs red with blood and I know that there is no God for if there was He wouldn't let me live I'm an abomination a Threat to both good and evil in a world of black and white. I dwell in the graves. I Have been called many things But never divine So what then is my ultimate fate? Not to be bought and sold as a commodity. I know that I'm outside the reach of mere wealth Those that hold me in their possession would rather see me ground to dust than traded his merchandise Nor my weapon I'm weak Despite my strength. I'm murder, but I do not harm unjustly And I'm not under the control of a single person. I have no knowledge to impart No joy to bestow no tasks to fulfill. I Don't even scare them anymore disquieting though my visage is Amongst a web of life. I am a dying prisoner in a shell of clay a single object doomed without purpose Without any source of respite To subsist as I do now is to die a death more potent than that suffered by mortals. I Can only dream of having the vitality did they take for granted No one takes responsibility for my actions save myself and even I am unable to speak out against the world My legs walk onward Tracking pathways through the brown and red Awaiting the pain that comes with the light and the darkness that hurts me even more in my cage of brick and steel In my cage of dye and dust I am Alone Thank you very much for listening. I'm still in well I wouldn't say incredibly sick, but I'm still pretty sick I have a cough that won't go away if anyone was watching the video on Thursday They probably noticed that I was a little rough and if you hear my voice right now And you don't notice that it's a little rough then well, I guess I'm doing better than I thought but I It's been it's been bad But I'm better now. I got real sick pretty sure it was on the crown But I didn't take a test to know for sure, but I had the aches the chills the fever You know muscle see muscle aches chills I also had a symptom I've never really had before which Was night sweats, which I learned is actually afterwards. I learned is actually an Omicron thing I knew Omicron thing But yeah, it was a fun weekend. We'll put that way But doing better now except for my voice and my cough But other than that, you know, I just wanted to get a video out today But I knew I wasn't gonna be able to do a whole lot. So I thought I'd do a short reading Just say hello and get something done and then hopefully by Thursday. I'll be able to do the video I wanted to do today In the meantime Thank you very much for watching If you enjoyed the video hit the subscribe button and then hit the notification bell next to that so you're notified when I upload new videos And then head on over to patreon.com Ford slash D Sumerian and pledge at any level like everybody here on the screen already has Including send you Ricky who has pledged at $100 and MC casuals pledged at $50 It's nice to know that I'm not alone out here and I will see you all again on Thursday