 Wow, yeah, I swear to God I'm with it. I don't see nobody in my lane. It's quite go get it like Look at me. I'm golden I'm literally golden. What a time To be making a video How are we doing guys today is a special day? Well, it's not really But it's gonna be a special day on the 29th of this month on the 29th of July 2020 My youngest daughter of two Tristan is turning one. I'm over here in New Zealand She is in Alice Springs still with her mum and her sister and all the other members of that side of the family and Well, I guess the best thing I can do apart from being there is at least send something, you know as a gift Right, so that's why I'm here Today is Monday. It's the 20th and And so we've got nine days hopefully for it to get there and I just thought I'd create this video To document this moment in time. That's why I create these these personal videos I I took my personal life completely off of YouTube for a couple of years there because I just got really weird about it But at the end of the day What if I died tomorrow? Why am I scared about putting this shit out there? I'm not scared anymore Tristan you are absolutely adored and loved. You're a little angel The videos that your mother sends me and Photos are incredible And I hope you enjoy your birthday present for years to come and with that being said guys I'm I'm parked outside the post office. I've got their gifts here. I'm gonna go inside. I'm gonna get the Materials I need to send them I'm gonna come back turn the camera back on and show you guys what I got today's a special day like I said In my mouth is dry as hell. Okay. I'm gonna go inside. I'll see you in a minute All right guys, um, yeah to be fair that was a real down buzz moment. I cannot say I was happy with the service provided just then I Went in there Fucking bullshit the post shop has been moved inside the library. I looked up the library closing time It was six o'clock the post shop closes at five. Why the fuck would you close it in our early? And I went in there at 459. They said we're gonna close in a minute. I said Yeah, so that pretty much rushed me out. Okay, I'm gonna be I'm gonna be fuck man I'm gonna be totally real with you guys and I need to talk about it. Actually. I have to I have to talk about this right now It's not gonna be the title of this video. But if you do give it fuck about my life and about my My daughters and the things that mean the the most to me Then you will be watching this and my anxiety has been through the roof For the last month Basically ever since I started playing rugby when I added that in to my life my anxiety Just skyrocketed it was a last-minute decision to start playing rugby I didn't really have too much time to think about it. Anyway, I got into it and Things are going alright, but yeah with everything I've got going on my anxiety is through the roof light So anyways, let's move on. I went in there. I got the box. I Got the box. I just won't be able to send it until tomorrow I'm just hoping that oh my god. Oh Yes Fuck man. I wouldn't I don't think I'm even gonna need Any packing that's fantastic, right? This is the box cost me four bucks. I don't know what the postage is gonna be But when I do know Will I tell you? No, I probably not Okay, here we are I may as well pack this stuff in here now So I've got two daughters two absolutely beautiful girls Tate and Tristan They carry my my last name Tate and Tristan McDonald You know that makes me super proud makes me feel That I have a real sense of responsibility To be a good father to set a good Example be a good role model and always encourage them to do whatever their heart desires now I got Tate a Jewelry box for Christmas and I've basically said to myself For every birthday and Christmas, especially well the ones that I'm not there I'm gonna send her a little something that she can or her mother or her can put away in that jewelry box and you know just Add to it over the years and hopefully each and every one will each and every you know thing that I get Will mean something and she'll be able to keep it because those are the things that Those are the gifts that are the best in my opinion If not jewelry then books which you can also keep and other things, you know, I haven't really thought about it I don't know exactly what she's into. So that's that's the exciting thing. You know, she's so young There's so much to look forward to but Tristan Tristan our youngest daughter is turning one in nine days like I said and You know, oh Shit, it's God the last three years were Incredible I went through God on the on the on the Yet the scale of emotions, you know negative and positive I felt them all and Here we are in 2020 post COVID-19 lockdown here in New Zealand and I love being here I love being in New Zealand. I came back right at the right time I made the right decision Tate and Tristan are completely happy as Larry with their mother. It's just they don't get to see me Which is unfortunate. Anyways guys, I'm gonna show you right now what I got them So I got them. I got them a rugby ball a Gilbert rugby ball. This is a rugby union ball There's not a lot of rugby union played in the Northern Territory There's a lot of rugby league and also Aussie rules, but not much rugby union. So I got them a Gilbert a Gilbert rugby ball, but Kid size and it looks awesome. I actually quite like it. I wouldn't mind keeping it myself But this is for both of them And I'm gonna write on here Tristan and Tate or Tate and Tristan. No Tate and Tristan. So I'll do that first I don't know about you guys, but I always get nervous before before writing something on like a card or a gift You know what I mean? If you've only got one take and you can't stuff it up I actually get really nervous. My hands start shaking, but I think we've done a decent job. I Hope we have I hope we have Man, I love these girls. I really do they're gonna grow up to be fantastic people Fantastic people. I know it. I've got I've got great people around them and Yeah, anyways, there we go So that's going in first Tate and Tristan hopefully they have you know some fun times playing with that and As you can see it literally fits in perfectly. How good Now the most important part of the gift is Tristan's birthday present of course and Tristan's birthday present is a music box That I bought from an Instagram page called Honour Box H-O-N-N-E B-O-X You know, I don't know I really don't know anything about the the brand or the company, but I saw them online and Actually, it wasn't Tristan's gift that I saw first. It was Tate's gift. So I got them one each This one is for Tristan's birthday. This one is for Well, I don't want to leave her out. I don't believe yeah I want them to have one each and also like I said she can put this in her little jewelry box So it's gonna be really cute. So the first one that I saw was from the Disney movie Moana and I didn't know what the tune was, but I thought instantly I have to have that. I love the thought of a music box it's really cute and If it's gonna be in the theme of Moana being that That was Tate's favorite movie When I was in Cannes living with her we used to sit there and watch it every single day. I Know every single word to it. It's one of those ones It was the only movie that she'd sit still for like longer than two minutes in front of you know So it really holds a special place in my heart. I don't know if she knows how much it means to me Uh, you know, I don't know if she'll even remember loving that at age one and you know through one and a half But I certainly remember it and it's getting dark here Um, you know like I said, I've I've missed out I'm not gonna be able to send them today, but I did want to show you guys these and Yeah, so this one is is Tate's Um, this is what it looks like It's just a standard pattern on on the outside Um, I did write on the bottom Which hopefully stays there You know, I went over a couple of times to make sure that the wood was nice and stained And yeah, I just really hope she loves it now when you open it. It's like this. I didn't really know what to expect I thought they I don't know what size they'd be, but I'm I'm really pleased man. I'm I'm stoked. I cannot wait to send these man and so For any Moana fans out there or for any fathers or mothers who have kids young kids especially Who uh fell in love with Moana and the cast The rock, you know, he just makes it doesn't he you know, this big big guy who who who has a soft side Yeah Yeah, it wasn't just um Moana it was all the rest of the cast even the um crab, you know what I mean He's a legend. He's actually in New Zealand legend that guy. Um, do you mean Clement is it do you mean Do you mean something? I can't even remember his name, but Yeah, he's the voice of the crab. Um, I probably spent a year probably a good year there Um, listening to the the soundtrack of Moana over and over again I put it on in the car when I was with her and everything so Yeah Um, I'm gonna play it right now. Okay. Let's go So that's it that is That's Tate's present And you know Tate is two and a half now and she is speaking More and more which is amazing to see Um, but it's it's you know, really really hard to miss out on So I'm just gonna tuck that away there for now And then the final part of it is obviously Tristan's birthday present and that's what I've written on the bottom it's It's the same uh pattern on the outside And when you open it It's uh, it's this So When I was surfing online, I found these I knew I had to have the Moana one to give to Tate And I had a you know, a great idea to Buy another one to to give to Tristan for a birthday. So I've got that It's the you are my sunshine. Um nursery rhyme Which is extremely sweet and cute Just like she is. You know what I mean? It's and and Not only do I want to give her this but I wanted to give her a necklace that I found online And it had a sunflower and it was inside a locket and it had a message on that sunflower it said Uh, you are my sunshine And so I wanted to give her the necklace to keep forever and I wanted to give her this as like a you know matching gift For her first birthday But the necklaces still haven't come and I didn't even think these were gonna get here, but they have thankfully Oh, there's a light now That's good. Must be getting dark All right guys, this is that I'm gonna go to I'm gonna I'm gonna go soon This video has gone far too long. It got really emotional But it is what it is. These are my two kids, man, and I'm spending time away from them. And you know what I've I've already really got to I've already got to know the guys in my rugby team really well And I've started to talk to a few of them about my situation and stuff like that and opened up a bit Which is something I never did for ages and it really just you know Started killing me. I had no one to open up to no one to talk to so it's good to you know Finally start talking to people talking, you know proudly that I've got daughters not Hating the situation that I'm in which I did whilst I was in Alice because Fuck I've already done all my growing. I can there. I have I had to leave And hopefully I can provide it an opportunity for those kids to leave if they if they You know want to but I'm always gonna be there. I'm always gonna Fuck man. I'd give them my last dollar. I'd I'd I'd die for them. You know what I mean? I would and with that being said Here we go. I hope you can hear that I really do but if not you're just gonna have to Trust me on the fact that it's sweet and cute and All she needs is a one-year-old. You know what I mean? She's gonna get plenty of other stuff plenty of other toys from all the other people that are gonna be Going to her little birthday party You know, I think back to when tape was one And We had our first birthday party and it was in cans and I'd wanted to get over there in time for that For that birthday and I had done In fact, I'd arrived there on January the the 30th. No January though the 22nd or something like that Um, and I ended up spending over two months there. I thought I was gonna live there But realized, you know, just like I did in Alice that this is not the place This is not the the final destination and And you know when I do know where the final destination is or what my what my chosen path is I want to put 110 or a hundred and fucking 50 percent into it You know Try and be successful But though that that was not the place cans was not the place So guys, I've had a cry. I've had a laugh. I've had a laugh, you know I love my daughters. They're absolute angels Their mother is doing a fantastic job. I'll always forever be in her debt for doing this For raising them on her own for now And um as soon as I can I will be over there to see them and I cannot wait So girls, I love you Everyone else out there Thanks for watching Thanks for investing your time into my life and my family And with that being said, I'll see you guys in the next one Peace out