 CHAPTER VI When Mary Woodruff unlocked the house-store and entered the little hall, it smelled and felt as though the damp and sooty fogs of winter still lingered here, untouched by the July warmth. She came alone and straightway spent several hours in characteristic activity, airing, cleaning, brightening. For a few days there would be no servant. Mary after her long leisure down in Cornwall enjoyed the prospect of doing all the work herself. They had reached London last evening and had slept at a family hotel where Nancy remained until the house was in order for her. Unhappily their rival timed with the change of weather, which brought clouds and rain. The glories of an unchattered sky would have little more than availed to support Nancy's courage as she passed the creaking little gate and touched the threshold of a home to which she returned only on compulsion. Gloom overhead and puddles underfoot tried her spirit sorely. She had a pale face and thin cheeks and moved with language step. Her first glance was at the letter-box. Nothing. Mary shook her head. During their absence letters had been readdressed by the post-office and since the notice of return nothing had come. I'm quite sure a letter has been lost. Yes, it may have been, but there will be an answer to your last very soon. I don't think so. Most likely I shall never hear again. And Nancy sat by the window of the front room, looking as she had looked so many a time at the lime-tree opposite and the house visible through wet branches, a view unchanged since she could remember, recalling all her old ambitions, revolts, pretenses, and ignorances, recalling her father, who from his grave still oppressed her living heart. Somewhere near sounded the wailing shout of a desman. It was like the voice of a soul condemned to purge itself in filth. Mary. She rose up and went to the kitchen. I can't live here. It will kill me if I have to live in this dreadful place. Why, even you have been crying. I can see you have. If you give way, think what it must be to me. It's only for a day or two, dear, answered Mary. We shall fill it home again very soon. Miss Morgan will come this evening, and perhaps your brother. I must do something. Give me some work. Mary could not but regard this as a healthy symptom, and she suggested tasks that called for moderate effort. Like a reading, she had read through a whole circulating library in the past six months. Nancy bestowed herself about the house, but she avoided her father's room. Horace did not come today. I know derived from him, saying that he would call early to-morrow morning. But at tea-time, Jessica presented herself. She looked less ghostly than half a year ago. The grave illness through which she had passed seemed to have been helpful to her constitution. But she was noticeably changed. In her letters Nancy had remarked an excessive simplicity, a sort of childishness, very unlike Jessica's previous way of writing, and the same peculiarity now appeared in her conversation. By turns she was mockish and sprightly, tearful and giggling. Her dress, formally neglected to the point of untidiness, betrayed a newborn taste for fashionable equipment. She suddenly drew attention to it in the midst of serious talk, asking with a bashful smirk whether Nancy thought it suited her. I got it at Miss French's place, the association you know, it's really wonderful how cheap things are there, and the very best cut by dressmakers from Paris. Nancy wondered, and felt that her diminishing regard for Miss Morgan had suffered a fresh blow. There was much news to receive, and in part, in writing from Falmouth, Nancy referred to the details of her own life with studied ambiguity. She regretted having taken Jessica into her confidence and avoided penning a word which, if read by anyone but her correspondent, would betray the perilous secret. Jessica after her illness was inclined to resent this extreme caution, which irritated her curiosity. But in vain, she assured Nancy that there was not the least fear of her letters falling into wrong hands. For weeks at a time she had heard nothing, and then would come a letter, long indeed but without a syllable of the information she desired. Near the end of May she received a line or two. I have been really ill, but am now much better. I shall stay here only a few weeks more. Don't be anxious. I am well cared for, and the worst is over. She heard the interpretation from Nancy's lips, and laughed and cried over it. What you must have suffered, my poor dear, and to be separated from the little darling. Oh, it's too cruel. You are sure they will be kind to it? Mary has every confidence in the woman, and I like the look of her. I don't feel uneasy. I shall go there very often, of course. And when is he coming back? He oughtn't to have kept away all this time. How unkind! Not at all, Nancy replied, with sudden reserve. He is acting for the best. You mustn't ask me about that. You shall know more someday. Jessica, whose face made legible presentment of her every thought, looked disappointed and peevish. And you are really going in for the examination again? Nancy asked. Oh, of course I am. Answered the other, perkily. But not until summer of next year. I'm not allowed to study much yet. The doctor says I might do my brain a serious injury. I read a great deal, books that rest the mind, poetry and fiction, of course only the very best fiction. I shall soon be able to begin teaching again, but I must be very careful. Only an hour or two a day at first, and perhaps quite young children. Evidently, the girl felt a certain pride in what she had undergone. Her failure to matriculate was forgotten in the sense that she offered a most interesting case of breakdown from undue mental exertion. The doctor had declared his astonishment that she had held up until the examination was over. He simply wouldn't believe me when I told him the hours I worked. He said I ought to be on my trial for attempted suicide. And she laughed with extravagant conceit. You have quite made friends with the Barbies, said Nancy, eyeing her curiously. They are a very nice people. Of course the girls quite understand what a difference there is between themselves and me. I like them because they are so modest. I will never think of contradicting my opinion about anything. And what about the Prophet? I don't think you ever quite understood him, Jessica replied, with an obvious confusion which perplexed our friend. He isn't at all the kind of man you thought. No doubt I was wrong, Nancy hastened to say. It was prejudice, and you remember that I never had any fault to find with his character. You disliked him, said the other sharply, and you still dislike him. I'm sure you do. So plainly did Jessica desire a confirmation of this statement that Nancy allowed herself to be drawn into half a valour in a positive dislike for Samuel, whereupon Jessica looked pleased and tossed her head in a singular way. I needn't remind you, fell from Nancy, after a moment of troubled reflection, how careful you must be in talking about me to the baronbees. Oh, don't have the slightest fear. Weren't you delirious in your illness? I should think I was indeed, for a long time. I hope you said nothing about you. Oh, not a word. I'm quite sure. I talked all the time about my studies. The doctor heard me one day, repeating a long bit of virtual, and I kept calling for bits of paper to work out problems in geometrical progression. Just fancy. I don't think most girls are delirious in that way. If I had said anything about you that sounded queer, of course Mother would have told me afterwards. Oh, it was quite an intellectual delirium. Had Jessica, since her illness, become an insufferable simpleton? Before Nancy wondered, was it she herself who, through experience in sorrows, was grown wiser, and saw her friend in a new light? It troubled her gravely that the preservation of a secret, more than ever momentous, should depend upon a person with so little sense. The girl's departure was a relief, but in the silence that followed upon silly talk, she had leisure to contemplate this risk, hitherto scarce taken into account. She spoke of it with Mary, the one friend to whom her heart went out in absolute trust, from whom she concealed but few of her thoughts, and whose moral worth, only understood since circumstances compelled her reliance upon it, had set before her a new ideal of life. Before she well knew, aboard the deceit they were practicing, and thought hard things of the man who made it a necessity. So it did not surprise her that the devoted woman showed no deep concern at a new danger. "'It's more the shame than anything else that I fear now,' said Nancy. "'If I have to support myself and my child, I shall do it. How I don't know. But other women find a way, and I should. If he deserts me, I'm not such a poor creature as to grieve on that account. I shouldn't despise him too much, even to hate him. But the shame of it would be terrible. It's common, vulgar cheating, such as you read of in the newspapers, such as people are punished for. I never thought of it in that way, when he was here. Yet he felt it. He spoke of it like that, but I wouldn't listen. Mary heard this with interest. "'Did he wish you to give it up?' she asked. He never told me that. He said he would rather we did, but that was when he never thought of being and want himself. Afterwards, yes, even then he spoke in the same way. But what could we do? "'Don't fear that he will forsake you,' said Mary. "'You will hear from him very soon. He knows the right and the wrong, and right will be stronger with him in the end. If only I were sure that he has heard of his child's birth. If he has, and won't even write to me, then he is no man, and it's better we should never see each other again. She knew the hours of postal delivery, and listened with robbing heart to the double knocks at neighboring houses. When the last postman was gone by, she sat down, sick with disappointment. At bedtime she said to Mary, "'My little baby is asleep. Oh, if I could but see it for a moment.' And tears choked her as she turned away. It was more than two months since she had heard from her husband. At first Terrant wrote as frequently as he had promised. She learned speedily of his arrival at New York, then that he had reached Nassau, the capital of the Bahamas, then that he was, with his friends Sutherland, on the little island amid the coral reefs. Subsequent letters, written in buoyant spirits, contained long descriptions of the scenery about him, and of the life he led. He expressed a firm confidence in Sutherland's enterprises. Beyond a doubt there was no end of money to be made by an energetic man, he should report most favorably to Mr. Vaudry, whose cooperation would of course be invaluable. For his own part, whether he profited or not from these commercial schemes, he had not been mistaken in foreseeing material, for journalism, even for a book. Yes, he should certainly write a book on the Bahamas, if only to expose the monstrous system of misgovernment which accounted for the sterility into which these islands had fallen. The climate, in winter at all events, was superb. Sutherland and he lay about in delicious sunshine under a marvelous sky, smoking excellent cigars, and talking over old Oxford days. He quoted Tennyson, larger constellations burning, etc. At the end of December, when Nancy, according to their agreement, began to hope for his return, a letter in a very different tone burdened her with dismal doubts. He had discovered that Sutherland was little better than a swindler. I see that the fellow's professed energy was all sham. He is the laziest scamp imaginable, lazier even than his boozing old father. He schemes only to get money out of people, and his disappointment on finding that I have no money to lose has shown itself at length in very gross forms. I find he is a gambler. There's just been a tremendous row between him and an American, whom he has said to have cheated at cards. Last year he was, for several weeks in Mexico City, a place notorious for gambling, and there he lost a large sum of money that didn't belong to him. The upshot was that he could no longer advise Mr. Bodry to have anything to do with Sutherland, but he must not leave the Bahamas yet. That would be most unwise, as he was daily gathering most valuable information. Bodry might be induced to lend him a hundred pounds or so, but he would ride again very soon. It was the close of January, when he dated his next letter. Bodry had sent him fifty pounds. This, however, was to include the cost of his return to England. See then what I have decided. I shall make a hurry tour through the West Indian Islands, then cross the States and travel by land to New York or Boston, seeing all I can afford to on the way. If I have to come home as a steerage passenger, never mind, that too will be valuable experience. There followed many affectionate phrases, but Nancy's heart remained cold. He wrote next from Washington, after a six-week silence, difficulties of which he would speak at length in another letter, had caused him to postpone answering the two letters he had received. Nancy must never lose faith in him. His love was unshaken. Before the birth of her child, he would assuredly be back in England. Let her address to New York. He was well, but could not pretend to be very cheerful. However, courage. He had plans and hopes of which she should soon hear. After that Nancy knew nothing of him, save that he was living in New York. He wrote two or three times, but briefly, always promising details in the next epistle. Then he ceased to correspond. Not even the announcement of the child's birth elicited a word from him. One subsequent letter had Nancy dispatched. This unanswered. She would write no more. She was herself surprised at the calmness with which she faced so dreadful a possibility as exertion by the man she had loved and married, the father of her baby. It meant perhaps that she could not believe such fate had really befallen her. Even in Terran's last short letter sounded a note of kindness, of truthfulness, incompatible it seemed to her, with base cruelty. I dreamt of you last night, dearest, and woke up with a heart that ached for your suffering. How could a man pen those words and be meditating dastardly behavior to the woman he addressed? Was he ill then, or had fatal accident befallen him? She feared such explanation only in her weakest moments. If long ago he could keep silence for six weeks at a time, why not now for months? As for the news she had sent him, does a man think it important that a little child has been born into the world? Likely enough that again he really postponed writing. Of course he no longer loved her, say what he might. At most he thought of her with a feeling of compassion, not strong enough to overcome his dislike of exertion. He would come back when it pleased him. Nancy would not solely her mind by thinking that he might only return when her position made it worth his while. He was not a man of that stamp. Simply he had ceased to care for her, and having no means of his own, while she was abundantly provided, he yielded to the temptation to hold aloof from a woman whose claim upon him grew burdensome. Her thoughts admitted no worse accusation than this. Did any grave ill befall her, if for instance the fact of her marriage became known, and she were left helpless? Her letter to New York would not be disregarded. To reflect the signified and mental balance rare in women, and remarkable in one situated as Nancy was. She talked with her companion far less consistently, for talk served to relieve the oppression of her heart and mind. When next morning Horace entered the sitting room, brother and sister viewed each other with surprise. Neither was repaired for the outward change wrought in both by the past half year. Nancy looked what she in truth had become, a matrily young woman, in uncertain health, and possessed by a view of life too great for her years. Horace no longer a mere lad, exhibited in sunken cheeks and eyes bright with an unhappy recklessness, the acquisition of experience which corrupts before it can mature. Moving to offer her lips, Nancy was checked by the young man's exclamation, What on earth has been the matter with you? I never saw any one so altered. His voice, with its deepened note, and the modification of his very accent, due to novel circumstances, checked the hearer's affectionate impulse. If not unfeeling, the utterance had nothing fraternal, deeply pained and no less alarmed by this warning of the curiosity of her appearance, would excite in awe who knew her. Nancy made a false-term reply. Why should you seem astonished? You know very well I have had an illness. But what sort of illness? What caused it? You used always to be well enough. You better go and talk to my medical attendant, said Nancy, in a cold, offended voice. Horace resumed with irritability. Isn't it natural for me to ask such questions? You're not a bit like yourself. And what did you mean by telling me you were coming back at once, when I wanted to join you at Falmouth? I met you, but after all I had to stay longer. Oh well, it's nothing to me. They had not even shaken hands, and now felt no desire to correct the omission, which was at first involuntary. Horace seemed to have lost all of the aim and the ability of his nature. He looked about at him with restless, excited eyes. Are you in a hurry? Asked his sister, head erect. No hurry that I know of. You haven't heard what's been going on. Where? Of course I won't interest you. There's something about you I can't understand. Is it Father's will that has spoiled your temper, and made you behave so strangely? It's not my temper that's spoiled. And as for behaving strangely, she made an effort to command herself. Sit down, Horace, and let me know what is the matter with you. Why we should be unfriendly, I really can't imagine. I've suffered from ill health, that's all. I'm sorry I behaved in that way when you talked of coming to Falmouth. It wasn't meant as you seemed to think. Tell me what you have to tell. He could not take a reposeful attitude, but after struggling with some reluctance began to explain the agitation that beset him. Mrs. Darmrow was done something I didn't think any woman would be capable of. From what she's been trying to ruin Fanny, and now it has come, she has succeeded. She made no secret of wanting to break things off between her and me, but I never thought her plotting could go as far as this. Fanny's run away, gone to the continent with a man Mrs. Darmrow introduced to her. Perhaps they are married, said Nancy, with singular impulsiveness. Of course they're not. It's a fellow I knew to be a scoundrel the first time I said eyes on him. I warned Fanny against him, and I told Mrs. Darmrow that I should hold her responsible if any harm came of the acquaintance. She was encouraging between him and Fanny. She did encourage it, though she pretended not to. Her aim was to separate me and Fanny. She didn't care how. He spoke in a high vehement note, as she exflushed violently. His clenched fists quivered at a side. How do you know where she is gone? Nancy asked. She is good as told, your sister, that she was going to Brussels with someone. Then one day she disappeared with her luggage. And that fellow, Mancolo's name, has gone too. He lived in the same boarding-house with Mrs. Darmrow. That's all the evidence you have? Quite enough, he replied bitterly. It doesn't seem so to me. But suppose you're right. What proof have you that Mrs. Darmrow had anything to do with it? If she is our mother's sister, and you say there can be no doubt of it, I won't believe that she could carry out such a hateful plot as this. What does it matter who she is? I would swear fifty times that she has done it. You know very well, when you saw her, you disliked her at once. You were right in that, and I was wrong. I can't be sure. Perhaps it was she that disliked me, more than I did her. For one thing, I don't believe that people make such plots. And what plotting was needed? Didn't anyone have told you what a girl like Fanny French would do if she lost her head among people of a higher class? Then Mrs. Darmrow must have foreseen it. That's just what I say. She pretended to be a friend of the girl, on purpose to ruin her. Have you accused her of it? Yes, I have. His eyes flashed. Nancy marbled at this fire, drawn from a gentle nature, by what seemed to her so inadequate, so contemptible, a cause. Of course she denied it, and got angry with me. But anyone could see she was glad of what had happened. There's an end between us, at all events. I shall never go to see her again. She's a woman who thinks of nothing but money and fashion. I dislike her friends every one of them I've met. I told her that what she had done ought to be a punishable crime. Nancy reflected, then said quietly, Whether you were right or wrong, I don't think you would have got any good from her. But will you tell me what you're going to do? I told you that I thought borrowing money only to live on it in idleness was very foolish. Her brother stiffened his neck. You must allow me to judge for myself. But how do you judge for yourself? And by Mrs. Damrell's advice, that you gave up business. Partly, but I should have done it in any case. Have you any plans? No, I haven't, he answered. You can't expect a man to have plans whose life has been thoroughly upset. Nancy, reminded of his youthfulness by the tone in which he called himself a man, experienced a revival of natural feeling. No revolting against the suggestion that a woman akin to them had been guilty of what her brother believed. She was glad to think that Fanny French had relinquished all legitimate claim upon him, and that his connection with smart society had come to an end. Obvious enough were the perils of the situation, and she, as elder sister, recognized a duty towards him. She softened her voice and endeavored to re-establish the confidence of old time. She was able at once, though with resolution she might ultimately succeed. Horrors at present was a mere compound of agitated and inflamed senses. The life he had been leading appeared in a vicious development of his previously harmless conceit and egoism. All his characteristics had turned out, as it were, to see me side. When Nancy with difficulty preserved her patience, as he showed point after point of perverted disposition, the result of their talk was a careless promise, from Horrors, that he would come to Grovelain, not Saldimer, than once a week. He stayed only an hour, resisting Nancy's endeavor to detain him at least for the midday meal. To marry he spoke formally, awkwardly, as though unable to accept her position in the house, and then made his escape like one driven by an evil spirit. CHAPTER VII With the clearing of the sky, Nancy's spirit grew lighter. She went about London, and enjoyed it after a long seclusion in the little Cornish town. Joy, too, her release from manifold restraints and perils. Her mental suffering had made the physical harder to bear. She was now recovering health of mind and body, and found with surprise that life had a new saver, independent of the tumorous joy born with her child. Strangely as it seemed to her, she grew cautious of a personal freedom, not unlike what she had vainly desired in the days of petulant girlhood. The sense came only at moments, but was real and precious. Under its influence she forgot everything abnormal in her situation, and, though without recognizing the significance, knew the exaltation of a woman who has justified her being. A day or two of roaming at large gave her an appetite for activity. Satisfied that her child was safe and well cared for, she turned her eyes upon the life of the world, and wished to take some part in it. Not the part she had been wanting to picture for herself, before reality supplanted dreams. Horace's example on the one hand, and that of Jessica Morgan on the other, helped her to contend mere social excitement and the idle vanity which formerly she styled pursuit of culture. Must there not be discoverable, in the world to which she had, or could obtain, access, some honest, strenuous occupation, which would hold in check her unprofitable thoughts and soothe her self-respect? That her fraud, up to and beyond the crucial point, had escaped detection, must be held so wonderful that she felt justified in an assurance of impunity. The narrowest escape of which she was aware had befallen only a few weeks ago. On the sixth day, after the birth of the child, there was brought to her lodgings at Thalmyth a note addressed to Miss Lorde. Letters burying this address had arrived frequently, and by the people of the house, were supposed to be from Mary Woodruff, who went by the name of Miss Lorde. She having disguised herself as Miss Woodruff. But they had always come by post, and the present missive must be from some acquaintance actually in the town. Nancy could not remember the handwriting. Breaking open the envelope, as she lay in bed, she saw with alarm the signature, Luckworth Crue. He was at Thalmyth on business, Crue wrote, and before leaving London, he had ventured to ask Miss Lorde's address from her brother, whom he casually met somewhere. Would Nancy allow him to see her, were it but for a minute or two? Earnestly he was all at this favour. He desired nothing more than to see Miss Lorde, and to speak with her in the way of an ordinary acquaintance. After all this time, she had, he felt sure, forgiven his behaviour at their last meeting. Only five minutes of conversation. All seemed lost. Nancy was silent in despair. But Mary faced the perilous juncture, and to all appearances, averted catastrophe. She dressed herself, and went straight to the hotel, where Crue had put up, and where he awaited an answer. Having may known who she was, she delivered a verbal message. Miss Lorde was not well enough to see anyone today, and, in any case, she could not have received Miss Crue. She begged him to pardon her. Before long they might perhaps mean in London, but for her own part, she wished Miss Crue would learn to regard her as a stranger. Of course there followed a dialogue, and Mary, seeming to speak with all freedom, convinced Crue that his attempt to gain an interview was quite hopeless. She gave him much information concerning her mistress, none of it false, but all misleading. And in the end had to resist an offer of gold coins pressed upon her as a bribe for her good word with Nancy. The question was, had Crue been content to leave Thelmyth without making inquiries of other people? To a man of his experience nothing was easier than such investigation, but with other grounds of anxiety, this had ceased to disturb Nancy's mind. Practically she lived as though all danger were at an end. The task immediately before her seemed very simple. She had only to resume the old habits and guard against thoughtless self-betrayal in her everyday talk. The chance that anyone would discover her habit of visiting a certain house, at the distance of several miles from Camperwell, was too slight for consideration. She wrote to Mr. Barnby Sr., informing him of her return, in improved health, to Grove Lane, and thanking him once more for his allowing her to make so long a stay in Cornwall. If he wished to see her, she would be at home at any time convenient to him. In a few days the old gentleman called, and for an hour or two, disgorced well-meaning, commonplace, he was sorry to observe that she looked a trifle pale. In the autumn she must go away again, and to a more bracing locality. He would suggest, broad stares, which had always exercised the most beneficial effect upon his own health. Above all he begged her to refrain from excessive study, most deleterious to a Femon constitution. Then he asked questions about horrors, and agreed with Nancy that the young man ought to decide upon some new pursuit, if he had definitely abandoned the old. Back of steady occupation was most deleterious at his age. In short, Mr. Barnby rather apologized for his guardianship, than sought to make assertion of it. And Nancy, by a few feminine devices, won a better opinion than she had hitherto enjoyed. On the day following, Samuel Barnby and his sisters waited upon Miss Lord. All three were surprisingly solemn, and Samuel talked for the most part of a paragraph he had recently read, which stated that the smoke of London, if properly utilized, would be worth a vast sum of money. The English or a wasteful people was his conclusion, to which Nancy assented with the face as grave as his own. Not a little to her astonishment the next day brought her a long letter in Samuel's fair commercial hand. It began by assuring her that the writer had no intention whenever of troubling her with the renewal of a suit so firmly rejected on more than one occasion. He wished only to take this opportunity of her return from a long absence to express the abiding nature of his devotion, which years hence would be unbroken as today. He would never distress her by unwelcome demonstrations. Maybe she might never again hear from his lips what he now committed to paper. Enough for him, Samuel, to cherish a love which could not but exalt and purify him, which was indeed, in the words of Shakespeare, a liberal education. In recompense of his self-command he only besought that Miss Lord would allow him from time to time to look upon her face, and to converse with her of intellectual subjects. A paper, he added, which I read last week at our society, is now being printed, solely at the request of friends. The subject is one that may interest you, the influence of culture on morality. I bet that you will accept the copy I shall have the pleasure of sending you, and that, at some future date, you will honor me with your remarks thereon. Which epistle Nancy cruelly read, allowed to marry, with the sprightliness and sarcastic humor not excelled by her criticisms of the Prophet in days gone by? Mary did not quite understand, but she saw in this behavior a proof of the wonderful courage with which Nancy faced her troubles. A week had passed, and no news from America. I don't care, said Nancy, really, and truly I don't care. Yesterday I never once thought of it, never once looked for the postman. The worst is over now, and he may write or not, as he likes. Mary felt sure there would be an explanation of such strange silence. Only illness or death would explain it, so as to make me forgive him. But he is an ill, he is alive, and enjoying himself. There was no bitterness in her voice. She seemed to have outlived all sorrows and anxieties relative to her husband. Mary suggested that it was always possible to call at Mr. Badri's house and make inquiries of Mrs. Baker. No, I won't do that. Other women would do it, but I won't. So long as I may not tell the truth, I should only set them talking about me. You know how. I see the use now of having a good deal of pride. I'm only sorry for those letters I wrote when I wasn't in my senses. If he writes now, I shall not answer. He shall know that I am as independent as he is. What a blessed thing it is for a woman to have money of her own. It's because most women haven't, that there's such poor, richid slaves. If he knew you were in want, said her companion, he would never behave like this. Who can say? No, I won't pretend to think worse of him than I do. You're quite right. He wouldn't leave his wife to starve. It's certain that he hears about me from someone. If I were found out and lost everything, someone would let him know. But I wouldn't accept support from him now. He might provide for his child, but he shall never provide for me come what may, never. It was in the evening after dinner. Nancy had a newspaper, and was reading the advertisements that offered Miss Elenia's employment. What do you think this can be, she asked, looking up after a long silence. To ladies with leisure, ladies' desire to add to their income by easy and pleasant work should write, etc., etc. I have no faith in those kind of advertisements, said Mary. No, of course, it's rubbish. There's no easy and pleasant way of earning money, only silly people expect it. And I don't want anything easy or pleasant. I want honest hard work. Not work with my hands, I'm not suited for that. But real work, such as lots of educated girls are doing, I'm quite willing to pay for learning it. Most likely I shall have to. Who could I write to for advice? They were sitting upstairs, and so did not hear a visitor's knock that sounded at the front door. The servant came and announced that Miss French wished to see Miss Lauren. Miss French? Is it the younger Miss French? The girl could not say. She had repeated the name given to her. Nancy spoke to her friend in a low voice. She may be fanny. I don't think Beatrice would call, unless it's to say something about her sister. She had better come up here, I suppose. Mary retired, and in a few moments there entered, not fanny but Beatrice. She was civilly, not cordially welcomed. Her eyes she spoke the words natural, at such a meeting, dwelt with singular persistency on Nancy's face. You are quite well again. Quite, thank you. It has been a troublesome illness, I'm afraid. Nancy hesitated, detecting a peculiarity of look and tone which caused her uneasiness. I had a sort of low fever, was altogether out of sorts, below par, the doctor said. Are you all well? Settling herself comfortably, as if for a long chat, Beatrice sketched with some humor the course of recent events in De Crespany Park. I'm out of it all, thank goodness. I prefer a quiet life. Then there's fanny. You know all about her, I daresay. Nothing at all. Nancy replied distantly. But your brother does. Hasn't even to see you yet. Nancy was in no mood to submit to examination. Whenever I may have heard, I know nothing about fannies, affairs, and really, they don't concern me. I should have thought they might, rejoin the other, smiling absently. She's run away from her friends, a pause, and is living somewhere rather mysteriously, another pause, and I think it more than likely that she's married. The listener preserved a face of indifference, though the lines were decidedly tense. Doesn't that interest you? Asked Beatrice, in the most genial tone. If it's true, was the blunt reply. You mean you're glad that she's married somebody else and not your brother? Yes, I am glad of that. Beatrice mused, with wrinkles at the corner of her eye. In fixing Nancy with a very keen look, she said quietly, I'm not sure that she's married, but if she isn't, no doubt she ought to be. On Nancy's part there was a nervous movement, but she said nothing. Her face grew rigid. I have an idea who the man is, mis-French pursuant, but I can't be quite certain. One has heard of similar cases. Even you have, no doubt. I don't care to talk about it, fell mechanically from Nancy's lips, which had lost their color. But I've come just for that purpose. The eyes of mocking scrutiny would not be resistant. They drew a gaze from Nancy, and then a haughty exclamation. I don't understand you. Please say whatever you have to say in plain words. Don't be angry with me. You're always too ready at taking offense. I mean it in quite a friendly way. You can trust me. I'm not one of the women that chatter. Don't you think you ought to sympathize a little with Fanny? She's gone to Brussels or somewhere about there, but she might have gone down to Cornwall to a place like Falmouth. It was quite far enough, don't you think? Nancy was stricken mute, and her countenance would no longer disguise what she suffered. No need to upset yourself, pursue the other, and smiling confidence. I mean no harm. I'm curious, that's all. Just want to know one or two things. World friends and whatever you tell me will go no further, depend upon that. What do you mean? The words came from lips that moved with difficulty. Beatrice, still smiling, bent forward. Is it anyone that I know? Anyone? Who? That made it necessary for you to go down into Cornwall, my dear. Nancy heaved aside, the result of holding her breath too long. She half froze and sat down again. In a torture of flashing thoughts, she tried to determine whether Beatrice had any information, or spoke conjecturally. Yet she was able to discern that either case meant disaster, to have excited the suspicions of such a person, was the same as being unmasked, an inquiry at Thalmoth, and all would at once be known. No, not all, not the fact for marriage, not the name of her husband. Driven to bay by such an opponent, she assumed an heir wholly unnatural to her, one of cynical effrontery. You had better say what you know. All right. Who was the father of the child born not long ago? That's asking a question. And telling what I know at the same time, it saves breath. Beatrice laughed, and Nancy, become a mere automaton, laughed too. But that's more like it. Sem is French, cheerfully. Now we shall get on together. It's very shocking, my dear. A person of my strict morality hardly knows how to look you in the face. Perhaps you'd rather I didn't try. Very well. Now tell me all about it comfortably. I have a guess you know. What is it? Wait a little. I don't want to be laughed at. Is it anyone I know? You've never seen him, and I daresay never heard of him. Beatrice stared incredulously. I wouldn't tell Phibbs, Nancy. I'm telling the truth. It's very queer, then. Who do you think? The speaking automaton, as though by defect of mechanism, stops short. Look straight at me. I shouldn't have been surprised to hear that it was Luckworth Crue. Nancy's defiant gaze, shame and anguish, shielding itself with the front of audacity, changed to utter astonishment. The blood rushed back into her cheeks, she voiced a smothered exclamation of scorn. The father of my child, Luckworth Crue. I thought it not impossible, said Beatrice, plainly baffled. It was like you. Nancy gave a hard laugh. You judged me by yourself. Have another guess. Surprised both at the denial, so obviously true, and at the unexpected tone with which Nancy was meeting her attack, Miss French sat meditative. It's no use guessing, she said at length, with complete good humor. I don't know of anyone else. Very well. You can't expect me to tell you. As you please. It's a queer thing, I felt pretty sure. But if you're telling the truth, I don't care a rap who the man is. You can rest in peace, said Nancy, with careless scorn. Any way of convincing me, except by saying it. Yes, wait here a moment. She left the room in return with the note which Crue had addressed to her from the hotel at Falmouth. Read that and look at the date. Beatrice studied the document, and in silence canvassed the possibilities of trickery. No, it was genuine evidence. She remembered the date of Crue's journey to Falmouth, and in this new light could interpret his quarrelsome behavior after he had returned. I believe the discovery she had since made inflamed her with the suspicion which till then had never entered her mind. Of course you didn't let him see you. Of course not. All right, don't suppose I wanted to insult you. I took it for granted you were married. Of course it happened before your father's death, and his awkward will obliged you to keep it dark. Again Nancy was smitten with fear. To be me mis-wrenching, unscrupulous enemy, she felt that to confess marriage was to abandon every hope. Pride appealed to her courage, bade her, here and now, have done with the ignoble fraud, but fear proved stronger. She could not face exposure, and all that must follow. She spoke coldly, but with down-dropped eyes. I'm not married. The words cost her little effort. Practically she had uttered them before. Her over-bold replies were an admission of what, from the first, she supposed Beatrice to charge her with. Not secret wedlock, but secret shame. Beatrice, however, had adopted that line of suggestion merely from policy, hoping to sting the proud girl into a val of the legitimate union. I heard the contrary declaration with fresh surprise. I should never have believed it of Miss Lord. Was her half ingenuous, half sly comment? Nancy, beginning to realize what she had done, sat with head bent, speechless. Don't distress yourself, continued the other. Not a soul will hear of it from me. If you'd like to tell me more, you can do it quite safely. I'm no blabber, and I'm not a rascal. I should never have trouble to make inquiries about you down yonder, if it hadn't been that I suspected crew. That's a confession, you know. Take it in return for yours. Nancy was tongue-tied. A full sense of her humiliation had burst upon her. She, who always condescended to Miss French, now lay smirked before her feet, an object of vulgar contempt. What does it matter, went on Beatrice genially? You've gone over the worst, and very cleverly. Are you going to marry him when you come in for your money? Perhaps I don't know. She faltered, no longer able to mask an impudence, and hardly restraining tears. Beatrice ceased it out, and could only wonder with amusement. Why shouldn't we be good friends, Nancy? I tell you, I'm no rascal. I never thought of making anything out of your secret, not I. If it had been crew, marriage, or no marriage, well, I might have shown my temper. I believe I have a pretty rough side to my tongue. But I'm a good enough sword if you take me in the right way. Of course, I should have a rest for wondering who it can be. She paused, but Nancy did not look up, did not stir. Perhaps she'll tell me some other time, but there's one thing I should like to ask about, and it's for your own good that I should know it. When crew was down there, don't you think he tumbled to anything? Perplexed by unfamiliar slang, Nancy raised her eyes, found out anything you mean. I don't know. But you must have been in a jolly fright about it. I gave a very little thought, replied Nancy, able now to command a steady voice, and retiring behind a manner of frigid indifference. No. Well, of course I understand that better. Now I know that you can't lose anything. Still, this should be hoped he didn't go asking questions. By the by you may as well just tell me. He has asked you to marry him, hasn't he? Yes. Beatrice nodded. It doesn't matter. You needn't be afraid, even if he got hold of anything. He isn't the kind of man to injure you out of spite. I fear him as little as I fear you. While, as I've told you, you needn't fear me at all. I like you better for this, a good deal better than I used to. If you want any help, you know where to turn. I'll do whatever I can for you, and I'm in the way of being useful to my friends. You're cut up just now. It's natural. I won't bother you any longer. But just remember what I've said. If I can be of any service, don't be above making use of me. Nancy heard without heeding, for an anguish of shame and misery once more fell upon her, and seemed to lay waste her soul. CHAPTER I There needed not Mary Woodruff's suggestion to remind Nancy that no further away than Champion Hill were people of whom, in extremity, she might inquire concerning her husband. At present, even could she have entertained the thought, it seemed doubtful whether the vaudry household knew more of Terence's position and purposes than she herself. For only a month ago Jessica Morgan had called upon the girls, and had ventured a question about their cousin, whereupon they answered that he was in America, but that he had not written for a long time. To Mrs. Baker, Jessica did not like to speak on the subject, but probably that lady could have answered only as the children did. Once indeed, a few days after her return, Nancy took the familiar walk along Champion Hill, and glanced in passing at Mr. Vaudry's house. Afterwards she shunned that region. The memories it revived were infinitely painful. She saw herself, an immature and foolish girl, behaving in a way which, for all its affectation of reserve and dignity, no doubt offered to such a man as Lionel Terrent, a hint that here, if he chose, he might make a facile conquest. Had he not acted upon the hint? It rung her heart with shame to remember how in those days she followed the lure of a crude imagination. A year ago? Oh, a lifetime. Unwilling now to justify herself with the plea of love, doubtful and varied truth, whether her passion merited that name, she looked back in the stern spirit of a woman judging another's frailty. What treatment could she have anticipated at the hands of her lover, save that she had received? He married her. It was much. He forsook her. It was natural. The truth of which she had caught troublous glimpses in the hay-day of her folly, now stood revealed as pitiless condemnation. Terrent never respected her, never thought of her as a woman whom he could seriously woo, and wed. She had a certain power over his emotions, and not the sensual alone. But his love would not endure the test of absence. From the other side of the Atlantic he saw her as he had seen her at first, and shrank from returning to the bondage, which in a weak moment he had accepted. One night about this time she said to herself, I was his mistress, never his wife. And all her desperate endeavours to obscure the history of their love, to assert herself as worthy to be called wife, mother, had fallen fruitless. Those long imploring letters dispatched to America from her solitude by the Cornish Sea elicited nothing but a word or two which sounded more like pity than affection. Pity does not suffice to recall the wandering steps of a man wedded against his will. In her heart she absolved him of all baseness. The man of ignoble thought would have been influenced by her market value as a wife. Tarrant, all the more because he was reduced to poverty, would resolutely forget the crude advantage of remaining faithful to her. Herein Nancy proved herself more akin to her father than she had ever seemed when Stephen Lord sought eagerly in her character for hopeful traits. The severity of her self-judgment and the indulgence tempering her attitude towards Tarrant declared a love which had survived its phase of youthful passion. But Nancy did not recognise the symptom of moral growth. She believed herself to have become indifferent to her husband and only wondered that she did not hate him. Her heart seemed to spend all its emotion on the little being whom she had given life. A healthy boy, who already, so she fancied, knew a difference between his mother and his nurse and gurgled a peculiar note of contentment when lying in her arms. Whether wife or not, she claimed every privilege of motherhood. Had the child been a weakling, she could not have known the subounding solace. The defect would have approached her. But from the day of his birth he manifested so vigorous a will to live, clung so hungrily to the fountain breast, kicked and clamoured with such irresistible self-assertion that the mother's pride equalled her tenderness. My own brave boy, my son. Wonderful new words, honey upon the lips and rapture to the ear. She murmured them as though inspired with speech, never uttered by mortal. The interval of a day between her journeys to see the child taxed her patience, but each visit brought a growth of confidence. No harm would befall him. Mary had chosen wisely. Horace kept aloof and sent no message. When at length she wrote to him a letter all of sisterly kindness there came a stint to reply. He said that he was going away for a holiday and might be absent until September. Don't bother about me. You shall hear again before long. There's just a chance that I may go in for business again, with prospect of making money. Particulars when I see you. Nancy found the snow to wading her after a day's absence from home and within another. To her surprise Mrs. Damrell had written. I called early this afternoon, wishing particularly to see you. Will you please let me know when I should find you at home? It is about Horace that I want to speak. It began with, my dear Nancy, and ended, yours affectionately. Glad of the opportunity thus offered, she answered at once, making an appointment for the next day. When Mrs. Damrell came, Nancy was even more struck than at their former meeting with her resemblance to Horace. Her eyes and lips recalled Horace at every moment. This time the conversation began more smoothly. On both sides appeared a disposition to friendliness, though Nancy only marked her distrust in the hope of learning more about this mysterious relative and of being useful to her brother. You have a prejudice against me, said the visitor, when she had inquired concerning Nancy's health. Naturally, I hardly seemed to a real relative, I'm afraid. You know so little about me. And now Horace has been laying dreadful things to my charge. He thinks she is responsible for what has happened to Fanny French, Nancy replied, in an impartial voice. Yes, and I assure you he is mistaken. Miss French deceived him and her own people, leading them to think that she was spending her time with me when she was, who knows where. To you I am quite ready to confess that I hoped something might come between her and Horace, but as for plotting, really I'm not so melodramatic a person. All I did in the way of design was to give Horace an opportunity of seeing the girl in a new light. You can imagine very well, no doubt, how she conducted herself. I quite believe that Horace was getting tired and ashamed of her. But then came her disappearance, and that made him angry with me. Even the voice suggested Horace's tones, especially when softened in familiar dialogue. Nancy paid closer attention to the speaker's looks and movements than to the manner of what she said. Mrs. Danville might possibly be a well-meaning woman. Her peculiarities might result from social habits and not from insincerity. Yet Nancy could not like her. Everything about her prompted a question and a doubt. How old was she? Probably much older than she looked. What was her breeding, her education, probably far less thorough than she would have one believe? Was she in good circumstances? Nancy suspected that her fashionable and expensive dress signified extravagance and vanity rather than wealth. I've brought a letter to show you which she has sent me from abroad. Read it and form your own conclusion. Is it the letter of an injured innocent? A scrawl on foreign note paper, which ran thus. Dear Mrs. Danville, just a word to console you for the loss of my society. I've gone to a better world. So draw your tears. If you see my masher, tell them I've met with somebody a bit more like a man. I should advise him to go to school again and finish his education. I won't trouble you to write. Many thanks for the kindness you didn't mean to do me. Yours and the best of spirits. I don't mean cognac. Fanny, nay, French. Nancy returned the paper with a look of disgust, saying, I didn't think she was as bad as that. No more did I. It really gave me a little shock of surprise. Do you think it likely she is married? Mrs. Danville pursed her lips and arched her eyebrows with so unpleasant an effect on Nancy that she looked away. I have no means whatever of forming an opinion. But there's no more fear of for horrors, said Nancy. I hope not. I think not. But my purpose in coming was to consult with you about the poor boy. He has renounced me. He won't answer my letters. And I am so dreadfully afraid that I sort of despair. It sounds ridiculous, but he is so very young. May drive him into reckless living. You have taken part with him against me, I fear. No, I haven't. I told him I was quite sure the girl had only herself to blame, whatever happened. How kind of you! Mrs. Danville sang her voice to a sort of cooing, not a melodious, but to Nancy's ear a hollow affectation. If we could understand each other, I'm so anxious for your dear brother's happiness and for yours, believe me. I've suffered greatly since he told me I was his enemy and cast me off. Here sounded a note of pathos which impressed the critical listener. There was a look too in Mrs. Danville's eyes quite unlike any that Nancy had yet detected. What do you wish him to do? she asked. If I must tell you the truth, I don't think he'll get any good in the life of society. Society's representative answered in a tone of affectionate frankness. He won't. I can see that. I don't wish him to live idly. The question is, what ought he to do? I think you know a gentleman of his acquaintance, Mr. Crew? The question was added rather abruptly and with a watchful gaze. I know him a little. Something has been said, I believe, about Horace investing money in Mr. Crew's business. Do you think it would be advisable? Surprise kept Nancy silent. Is Mr. Crew trustworthy? I understand he has been in business for himself only a short time. He declared herself unable to judge Mr. Crew, whether in private or in commercial life, and here she paused, but could not refrain from adding the question whether Mrs. Damrell had personal knowledge of him. I have met him once. Immediately all Nancy's suspicions were revived. She had felt a desire to talk of intimate things with mention of her mother's name, but the repulsion excited in her by this woman's air of subtlety by looks, movements, tones which she did not understand, forbade it. She could not speak with satisfaction even of Horace, feeling that Mrs. Damrell's affection, however genuine, must needs be baleful. From this point her part of the dialogue was slight. If any of Miss French's relatives said the visitor presently should accuse me to you, you will be able to contradict them. I am sure I can depend upon you for that service. I am not likely to see them, and I should have thought you would care very little what was said about you by people of that kind. I care a little enough, rejoin Mrs. Damrell, with a curl for lips. It's Horace I'm thinking of. These people will embitter him against me, so long as they have any ground to go upon. But haven't you let him know of that letter? Mrs. Damrell seemed to fall into abstraction, answered with a vague yes, and after surveying the room said softly, so you must live her alone for another two or three years. It is in compulsory, it's only a condition. Another vague yes, then I do so wish Horace would come back and make his home here. I'm afraid you have spoiled him for that, said Nancy, with relief in this piece of plain speaking. Mrs. Damrell did not openly resent it. She looked a mild surprise and answered blandly. Then I must undo the mischief. You shall help me. When he's gone over this little trouble he will see who are his true friends. Let us work together for his good. Nancy was inclined once more to reproach herself and listened with patience whilst her relative continued talking in grave, kindly tones. Lest she should spoil the effect of these impressive remarks, Mrs. Damrell then took leave. In shaking hands she bent upon the girl a gaze of affection and, as she turned away, softly sighed. Avoided past in the recent interview with Beatrice French, Nancy said nothing to her faithful companion. This burden of shame must be borne by herself alone. It affected profoundly the courageous mood which had promised to make her life tolerable. Henceforth she all but abandoned the hope of gaining that end for which she had submitted to so deep a humiliation. Through Beatrice would not her secret, colored shamefully, become known to Loveworth crew and to others. Already perchance a growing scandal attached to her name. Fear had enabled her to endure dishonor in the eyes of one woman, but at any moment the disgrace might front her in an intolerable shape. Then, regardless of the cost, she would proclaim her marriage and have, in return for all she had suffered, nothing but the reproach of an attempted fraud. To find employment, means of honorable support was an urgent necessity. She had written in reply to sundry advertisements, but without result. She tried to draw up an advertisement on her own account, but found the difficulty insuperable. What was there she could do? Teach children perhaps. But as a visiting governess, the only position of the kind which circumstances left open to her, she could hope for nothing more than the paltryest remuneration. Be somebody's secretary. That sounded pleasant, but very ambitious. A sense of incompetency chilled her. In an office, in a shop, who would dream of giving her an engagement? Walking about the streets of London in search of suggestions, she gained only an understanding of her insignificance. In the battle of life, every girl who could work, a sewing machine, or make a matchbox, was of more account than she. If she entered a shop to make purchases, the young woman at the counter seemed to smile superiority, of what avail her education, her culture. The roar of myriad industries made mocking laughter at such feudal pretensions. She shrank back into her suburban home. A little book on Employments for Women, which she saw advertised and bought, merely heightened her discouragement. Here doubtless were occupations she might learn, but when it came to choosing and contemplating the practical steps that must be taken, her heart sank. She was a coward. She dreaded the world. She saw as never yet the seriousness of having money and a secure home. The word home grew very sweet to her ears. A man, she said to herself, may go forth and find his work, his pleasure, in the highways, but is not a woman's place under the sheltering roof. Woodwright had a mother to be searching abroad for tasks and duties. Task enough, duty obvious, in the tending of her child. Had she but a little country cottage with needs assured and her baby cradle beside her, she would ask no more. How idle all the thoughts of her girlhood. How little she knew of life as it would reveal itself to her mature eyes. Fatigued intolessness, she went to the lending library and chose a novel for an hour's amusement. It happened that this story was concerned with the fortunes of a young woman, who, after many and afflictions soar, discovered with notable suddenness the path to fame, lucre, and the husband of her heart. She became, at a bound, a successful novelist. Nancy's cheek flushed with a splendid thought. Why should not she do likewise? At all events, from honesty was now her ruling characteristic. Why should she not earn a little money by writing stories? Numbers of women took to it. Not if you succeeded. It was a pursuit that demanded no apprenticeship, that could be followed in the privacy of home. A pursuit wherein her education would be of service. With imagination already fired by the optimistic author, she began to walk about the room and devise romantic incidents. A love story, of course, and why not one very like her own? The characters were ready to her hands. She would begin this very evening. Mary saw the glow upon her face. The delightful frenzy in her eyes and wondered. I have an idea, said Nancy. Don't ask me about it. Just leave me alone. I think I see my way. Daily she secluded herself for several hours, and whenever the literary value of her labor, it plainly kept her in good spirits and benefited her health. Say for the visits to her baby, regular as before, she hardly left home. Jessica Morgan came very often, much oftener than Nancy desired. Not only was her talk worrisome, but it consumed valuable time. She much desired to see the baby, and Nancy found it difficult to invent excuses for her unwillingness. When opportunity could not be otherwise defeated, she pretended a conscientious scruple. I have deceived my husband in telling him that no one knows of our marriage but Mary. If I let you see the child, I should feel that I was deceiving him again. Don't ask me, I can't. Not unnaturally, this struck Jessica as far-fetched. She argued against it and became petulant. Nancy lost patience, but remembered in time that she was a Jessica's mercy, and, to her mortification, had to adopt a coaxing, almost a suppleant tone, with the result that Miss Morgan's overweening conceit was flattered into arrogance. Her sentimental protestations became strangely mixed with a self-assertiveness very galling to Nancy's pride. Without the slightest apparent cause for ill humor, she said one day, I do feel sorry for you. It must be a dreadful thing to have married a man who has no sense of honor. Nancy fired up. What do you mean? How can he have when he makes you deceive people in this way for the sake of the money he'll get? He doesn't. It's my own choice. Then he oughtn't let you do it. No honorable man would. That has nothing to do with you, Nancy exclaimed, anger blanching your cheek. Please don't talk about my husband. You say things you ought to be ashamed of. Oh, don't be angry. The facile tears started in Jessica's eyes. It's because I feel indignant on your account, dear. I don't want your indignation. Never mention this subject again, or I shall feel sure you do it on purpose to annoy me. Jessica melted into mockishness. Nonetheless, Nancy felt a slave to her former friend, who, for whatever reason, seemed to have grown hypocritical and spiteful. When next the girl called, she was told that Miss Lord had left home for the day, a fiction which spared Nancy an hour's torment. Miss Morgan made up for it by coming very early, on the next Sunday afternoon, and preparing herself avowedly for a stay until late in the evening. Resolute to avoid a long tether-tet, which was sure to exasperate her temper. Nancy kept marrying the room, and listened to no hint from Jessica that they should retire for the accustomed privacy. At four o'clock they were joined by Samuel Barnby, whom, for once, Nancy welcomed with pleasure. Samuel, who had come in the hope of finding Miss Lord alone, gave but the coldest attention to Jessica. Mary, however, he greeted with grave courtesy, addressing to her several remarks, which were meant as a recognition of social equality in the quantum servant. He was dressed with elaborate care. Snowy cuffs concealed half his hands, his mustache, of late in training, sketched the graceful curl it would presently achieve. A faint perfume attended the drawing forth of his silk handkerchief. Samuel never liked a subject for the display of eloquence. Today it was one that called for indignant fervor. A most disgraceful fact has come under my notice, and I am so sorry to say, Miss Lord, that it concerns someone with whom you are acquainted. "'Indeed,' said Nancy, not without tremor. "'Who is that?' "'Mr. Peachy, I'm to Crestmony Park. "'I believe you are in terms of friendship with the family.' "'Oh, you can hardly call it friendship. "'I know them.' "'Then I may speak without fear of painting you. "'You are aware that Mr. Peachy is a member of the firm "'of Ducker, Blunt, and Company, "'who manufactured disinfectants. "'Now, if any manufacturer should be carried on "'in a conscientious spirit, "'as, of course, all manufacturers should, "'surely it is that of disinfectants. "'They only think what depends upon it. "'People who make disinfectants ought to regard themselves "'as invested with a sacred trust. "'The whole community looks to them "'for protection against disease. "'The abuse of such confidence cannot be too severely condemned, "'all the more so, that there is absolutely no legal remedy "'against the adulteration of disinfectants.' "'Did you know that, Miss Lord? "'The law guards against adulteration of food, "'it seems, I have been making inquiry into the matter, "'that no thought has ever been given by the legislature "'to the subject of disinfectants.' "'Nancy saw that Jessica was watching the speaker "'with jealous eyes, and, in spite of prudence, "'she could not help behaving to Mr. Barnby "'more graciously than usual. "'A small revenge for the treatment she had suffered "'at the hands of Miss Morgan. "'I could point out a great number of such anomalies,' "'but this matter of disinfectants is really one of the greatest. "'My father's written to the Times about it, "'and his letter will probably be inserted to-morrow. "'I'm thinking of bringing it before the attention of our society.' "'Do Mr. Peachy's people adulterate their disinfectants?' "'Inquired, Nancy. "'I was going to tell you. "'Some acquaintances of ours have had a severe illness "'in their house, and have been using disinfectants "'made by Ducker Blunt and Company. "'Fortunately, they have a very good medical man, "'and through him it has been discovered "'that these pretended safeguards are all but absolutely worthless. "'He had the stuff analyzed. "'Now, isn't this shameful? "'Isn't this abominable?' "'For my own part, I should call it constructive murder.' "'The phrase came by haphazard to Samuel's tongue, "'and he entered it with gusto, repeating it twice or thrice. "'Constructive murder. "'Nothing short of that. "'And to think that these people enjoy positive immunity, impunity.' "'He corrected himself quickly, "'then uncertain whether he had really made a mistake, "'reddened and twisted his gloves, "'to think,' he raised his voice, "'that they are capable of making money out of disease and death. "'It is one of the worst illustrations "'of the corrupt spirit in the commercial life of our times "'that has yet come under my observation.' "'He remained for a couple of hours, talking ceaselessly. "'A glance which he now and then cast at Miss Morgan "'betrayed his hope that she would take her leave "'before the necessary time of his own departure. "'Jessica, perfectly aware of this desire, "'sad as though no less at home than Nancy. "'Every remark she made was a stroke of malice at her friend. "'And in her drawn features appeared the passions "'by which she was tormented. "'As soon as Mr. Barby had regretfully withdrawn, "'Nancy turned upon the girl with flashing eyes. "'I want to speak to you, come downstairs.' "'She led the way to the dining-room. "'Jessica followed without a word. "'Why are you behaving like this? "'What has come to you?' "'The feeble, anemic creature fell back "'before this outbreak of wholesome wrath. "'Her eyes stared in alarm. "'I won't put up with it,' cried Nancy. "'If you think you can insult me because I trusted you "'when you were my only friend, you'll find your mistake. "'A little more, and you shall see how little your power "'over me is worth. "'It might elivate your mercy.' "'I'd starve, brother. "'What do you mean by it?' "'Oh, Nancy, to think you should speak to me like this. "'You are to be allowed to spit poison at me, are you? "'And I must bear it.' "'No, that I won't. "'Of course I know what's the matter with you. "'You've fallen in love with Samuel Barby. "'You have. "'Anyone can see it. "'You have no more command of yourself than a child. "'And because he prefers me to you, you rage against me.' "'What does Samuel Barby to me? "'Can I do more to keep him off?' "'Can I say to him, do you have penny on poor Miss Morgan, who?' "'She was interrupted by a scream, "'on which followed a torn and frenzied words from Jessica. "'You are a bad-hearted woman. "'You've behaved disgracefully yourself. "'Oh, I know more than you think, "'and now you accuse me of being as bad. "'Why did you get married in such a hurry? "'Do you think I didn't understand it? "'It's you who have no command of yourself. "'If the truth were known, no decent woman would ever speak to you again. "'And you've got your reward. "'Pretend you like I know your husband is deserted you. "'What else could you expect? "'That's what makes you hate everyone that hasn't fallen into the mud. "'I wouldn't have such a character as yours. "'All this afternoon you've been looking at that man as no married woman could. "'Who respected herself?' "'You encourage him. "'He comes here often.' "'Historical passion strangled her voice, "'and before she could recover breath, Nancy, "'terrible an ire, advanced upon her. "'Leave this house, "'and never dare to show yourself here again. "'Do what you like. "'I'll endure you no longer. "'Be off.' "'Jessica retreated, "'her bloodless lips apart, "'her eyes starting as if in suffocation. "'She stumbled against a chair, "'thout of the ground, "'and with a cry of anguish "'threw herself upon her knees before Nancy. "'What did I say? "'I didn't mean it. "'I don't know what I've been saying. "'It was all madness. "'Oh, do forgive me. "'That isn't how I really think of you. "'You know it isn't. "'I'm not so wicked as that. "'We have been friends so long. "'I must have gone mad to speak such words. "'Don't drive me away from you, dear, dear Nancy. "'I implore you to forgive me. "'Look, I prayed you on my knees to forget it. "'Despise me for being such a weak, wicked creature. "'But don't drive me away like that. "'I didn't mean one word I said.' "'Rubbish, of course you meant it. "'You've thought it every day, "'at least again behind my back, if not to my face. "'Stand up, and don't make yourself sillier than you are. "'You can't call me anything too bad. "'But don't drive me away. "'I can't bear it. "'You are the only friend I have in the world, "'the only, only friend. "'None was ever kind and good to me but you, "'and this is how I ever paid you. "'Oh, I hate myself. "'I could tear my tongue out for saying such things. "'Only say that you'll try to forgive me, dear Nancy, dear.' She fell with face upon the carpet, and groveled there in anguish of conflicting passions, a lamentable object. Unable to bear the sight of her, Nancy moved away, and stood with back turned, for force hearing the moans and sobs and half-articulate words, which lasted until the fit of hysteria left its victim in mute exhaustion. Then, contemptuously pitiful, she drew near again to the prostrate figure. "'Stand up at once, "'and let us have an end of this vulgar folly. "'Stand up, or I'll leave you here "'and never speak to you again.' "'Nancy, can you forgive me? "'I believe you have never got over your illness. "'If I were you, I should see the doctor again "'and try to be cured. "'You'll end it in asylum if you don't mind.' I often feel almost mad. "'I do really. "'Will you forget those dreadful words I spoke? "'I know you can't forgive me at once. "'Only stand up and try to behave like a reasonable being. "'What do I care for your words?' The girl raised herself, threw her arms over a chair, and wept miserably. End CHAPTER 1 CHAPTER 2 CHAPTER 2 On an afternoon at the end of October, Samuel Barnby, returned from business, found Miss Morgan having tea with his sisters. For a month or two after Midsummer, the Barnby's had scarcely seen her. Now their friendly intercourse was renewed, and Jessica came at least once a week. She had an engagement at a girls' school in this neighborhood, and, though her health threatened another collapse, she talked of resuming study for the martriculation of next year. Samuel, perfectly aware of the slavish homage which Miss Morgan paid him, took pleasure in posing before her. It never entered his mind to make any return beyond genial patronage, but the incense of a female devotee was always grateful to him. And he had come to look upon Jessica as a young person peculiarly appreciative of intellectual distinction. A week ago, walking with her to the omnibus, after an evening she had spent in Dagmar Road, he had indulged a spirit of confidence and led her to speak of Nancy Lorde. A snapshot of five minutes' conversation was a frank inquiry, which she could hardly have permitted himself, but for the shadow of night and the isolated noises around them. As an intimate friend, did she feel able to tell him whether or not Miss Lorde was engaged to be married? Jessica, after a brief silence, answered that she did not feel at liberty to disclose what she knew on the subject, but the words she used and her voice in uttering them left no doubt as to her meaning. Samuel said no more. At parting he pressed the girl's hand warmly. This afternoon they began by avoiding each other's look. Samuel seemed indisposed for conversation. He sipped at a cup of tea with an abstracted and somewhat weary air, until Miss Morgan addressed him. Tomorrow is the evening of your lecture, isn't it, Mr. Barnby? Tomorrow. By the agency of a friend who belonged to a society of mutual improvement at Pettenville, Samuel had been invited to go over and allume with his wisdom the seekers after culture in that remote district a proposal that flattered him immensely and inspired him with the hope of more than suburban fame. For some months he had spoken of the engagement. He was to discourse upon national greatness, its obligations, and its dangers. Of course it will be printed afterwards. Pursue the devotee. Oh, I don't know. It's hardly worth that. Oh, I'm sure it will be. And Jessica appealed to the sisters who declared that certain passages they had been privileged to hear have been very remarkable. Ladies were to be admitted, but the Miss Barnby's felt afraid to undertake so long a journey after dark. I know someone who would very much like to go, said Jessica, steadying her voice. Could you spare me a ticket to give away, Mr. Barnby? Samuel smiled graciously and promised the ticket. Of course it was for Jessica's own use. On the following evening, the hour which would have allowed her ample time to reach Pettenville by eight o'clock, she set forth excitedly. Unless I move on be, we're accompanied by some friend from Camberwell, only too probable, she might hope to make the return journey under his protection. Perhaps he would speak again of Nancy Lorne, and this time he should be answered with less reserve. What harm has she even told him the name of the man whom Nancy was engaged to marry? Nancy was no longer her friend. A show of reconciliation had followed that scene on the Sunday afternoon three months ago, but Jessica well knew that she had put herself beyond forgiveness, nor did she desire it. Even without the memory of her offence, by this time she must needs have regarded Nancy with steadfast dislike. Weeks had gone by since their last meeting, which was rendered so unpleasant by mutual coldness that a renewal of intercourse seemed out of the question. She would not be guilty of treachery, but in justice to herself she might give Samuel Barnby to understand how hopeless was his wooing. To her disappointment the lecture room was small and undignified. She had imagined a capacious hall with Samuel Bennett Barnby standing up before an audience of several hundred people. The cane-bottom chairs numbered not more than fifty, and at eight o'clock some of them were still unoccupied. Nor did the assembly answer to her expectation. It seemed to consist of young shopmen with a few females of their kind interspersed. She chose a place in the middle of the room where the lecturer could hardly fail to observe her presence. With Barnby's entrance the solution gave way before the ardors of flesh and spirit. The whole hour through she never took her eyes from him. His smooth pink face with its shining mustache embodied her ideal of manly beauty. His tall figure inflamed her senses. The words that fell from his lips sounded to her with oracular impressiveness, conveying a wisdom before which she bowed, and a noble enthusiasm responded in fervent exaltation. And she had been want to ridicule this man to join a mockery of his eloquence with a conceited wanton such as Nancy Lord. No, it never came from her heart. It was moral cowardice from the first she had recognized Samuel Barnby's infinite superiority to the ignoble, the impure girl who dared to deride him. He saw her, their eyes met once and again and yet again. He knew that she alone in the audience could comprehend his noble morality, grasped the extent of his far-sighted speculations. To her he spoke, and in his deep glowing heart he could not but thank her for such evidence of sympathy. There followed a tedious debate, a muddy flow of gavel and balderdash. It was over by ten o'clock. With jealous eyes she watched her hero surrounded by people who thought, poor creatures, that they were worthy of offering him congratulations. At a distance she lingered. And behold, his eye once more fell upon her. He came out from among the silly chatterers and walked towards her. You played me a trick, Miss Morgan. I should never have allowed you to come all this way to hear me. If I had come ten times the distance, I should have been repaid. His round eyes gloated upon the flattery. Well, well, I must pretend that I think the lecture worthless, but you might have had the manuscript to read. Are you quite alone? Then I must take care of you. It's a wretched night. We'll have a cab to King's Cross. He said it with a consciousness of large-handed generosity. Jessica's heart leapt and throbbed. She was by a side in the vehicle. Her body touched his. She felt his warm breath as he talked. In all too short a time they reached the railway station. Did you come this way? Have you a ticket? Leave that to me. Again, largely generous, he strode to the booking office. They descended and stood together upon the platform, among hurrying crowds, in black fumes that poisoned the pallet with sulfur. This way in that sped the demon engines, whirling, lighted wagons full of people. Shrull whistles, the hiss and roar of steam, the bang clap, bang of carriage doors, the clatter of feet on wooden stone. All echoed and reverberated from a huge cloudy vault above him. High and low, on every available yard of wall, advertisements clamored to the eye. Theaters, journals, soaps, medicines, concerts, furniture, wines, prayer meetings. All the produce and refuse of civilization announced in staring letters, endobbed effigies, base, paltry, grotesque. A battleground of advertisements fitly chosen amid subterranean din and reek. A symbol to the gaze of that relentless warfare, which ceases not, night and day, in the world above. For the southward train they had to wait ten minutes. Jessica, keeping as close as possible to her companion side, tried to converse. But her thoughts were in a tumult, like to that about her. She felt a faintness equivering in her limbs. May I sit down for a moment? She said, looking at Barbie with a childlike appeal. To be sure. She pointed an indirection away from the crowd. I have something to say. It's quieter. Samuel lived in surprise, but allowed himself to be led towards the black mouth of the tunnel. Once at that moment rushed an engine with glaring lights upon its breast. We may not be alone in the train. Continue, Jessica. There's something you ought to know. I must tell you tonight. You were asking me about Nancy Lorde. She spoke with panting breath and looked fixedly at him. The eeriness with which he lent ear gave her strength to proceed. You asked me if she was engaged. Yes. Well? He had even forgotten his politeness. He saw in her a mere source of information. Jessica moved closer to him on the bench. Had you any reason for thinking she was? No particular reason, except something strange in her behaviour. Would you like to know the whole truth? It was a very cold night and a keen wind swept the platform, but Jessica, though indifferently clad, felt no discomfort from this cause. Yet she pressed closer to her companion so that her cheek all but touched a shoulder. Of course I should, Barnby answered. Is there any mystery? I oughtn't to tell. Then you had better not. But why did you begin? You ought to know. Why ought I to know? Because you... She broke off. A seven-chill made her teeth chatter. Well, why? Asked Samuel with impatience. Are you... Are you in love with her? Voice and look embarrassed him. So did the girl's proximity. She was now all but leaning on the shoulder. Respectable. Mr. Barnby could not be aware that Jessica's state of mind rendered her scarcely responsible for what she said or did. That's a very plain question he began. But she interrupted him. I oughtn't to ask it. There's no need for you to answer. I know you've wanted to marry her for a long time. But you never will. Perhaps not, if she has promised somebody else. If I tell you, will you be kind to me? Kind? I didn't mean that. She added hurriedly. I mean, will you understand that I felt it a duty? I oughtn't to tell a secret. But it's a secret that oughtn't to be kept. Will you understand that I did it out of friendship for you and because I thought it right? Oh, certainly. After going so far, you had better tell me and have done with it. Jessica approached her lips to his ear and whispered, she is married. What? Impossible. She was married at Tinnmouth just before she came back from her holiday last year. Well, upon my word, and that's why she has been away in Cornwall. Again, Jessica whispered, her body quivering a while. She has a child. It was born last May. Well, upon my word, now I understand who could have imagined. You see what she is. She hides it for the sake of the money. But who is her husband? Asked Samuel, staring at the bloodless face. A man called Tarrant, a relative of Mr. Baudry of Champion Hill, she thought he was rich. I don't know whether he is or not, but I believe he doesn't mean to come back to her. He's in America now. Barmy questioned and Jessica answered until there was nothing left to ask or to tell. Save the one thing which rose suddenly to Jessica's lips. You won't let her know that I have told you. Samuel gravely, but coldly, assured her that she need not fear of betrayal. End Chapter 2