 I sort of missed, missed it. What I mean by it is the pandemic had it's like two year anniversary. Happy Saturday everyone. So basically this day I woke up and I had had a really, really busy kind of chaotic week. Just like all this like random stuff started coming up and a lot of my workout pushed. So this coming Wednesday, I have like this big marketing portfolio do for my marketing class. And you couldn't figure that one out. I'm sorry, I'm being so crazy right now. I'm just like being so weird and crazy. No one should ever see this, they'd be from the angle, not a single time, nope. Okay, back to it. But yeah, so I was definitely a little stressed about this this whole week and I was procrastinating a great deal. It is Saturday, the project is due on Wednesday. I do have, you know, a good bit of work to do. But I didn't really wanna overwhelm myself because I think jumping cold right into a project never really ends up working for me. I basically sort of planned out to have like an hour to really sit down with the materials of the project. So, you know, like look at the rubric, you know, previous examples of the project and just sort of like get my own like juices flowing. And so I sat with like my to-do list and just other things that I have going on this week besides this project just to sort of like sort out my head. So yeah, that's just kind of what I was up to. And then I went to the gym. I got Bluetooth headphones this week because of my phone basically. But yeah, I got new headphones this week. I got myself Bluetooth headphones. And something that you should know about me is that I can be quite cheap sometimes. And so what I've been doing is I haven't bought new headphones in a really long time because you get free ones when you fly British Airways. So every time I need new headphones, like if I'm just like flying, I'm like, I paid for the plane ticket. Might as well take some, you know, complimentary headphones, which if you know anything about airplane headphones, like they're really bad. Like in my head, I was like, they were not that different. But I got these new headphones and like, oh my God, they're so different. And they're awesome. And I'm so happy. And you know, I was just like doing things like getting rid of mail because I forgot I had a mailbox and I went to go check my mail the other day. I had mail, which is so cool. Yeah, like a check-in in a while. Yeah, and I just wanted to talk. I had been like, I've been thinking a lot this week. That's always a good start. And I've been thinking a lot because I sort of missed it. What I mean by it is the pandemic, how it's like two year anniversary, I guess a couple of weeks ago. And it sort of passed. And then a couple of days went by and I was like, wait, weirdest experience because like I kind of forgot about it. I don't know. I don't know if that's like, I don't know if that's a weird thing to admit or what, but honestly, I have been so invested in my life here and like what's going on. I low key forgot about the pandemic. And I think that this anniversary came up and it was just super weird. It's such a stupid way to put that. I don't know. I don't know how else to put that except that it was weird. I know there's like so many jokes about how like the pandemic aged us all like five years and it's been really weird like for me mentally because last year I took the year off and I was like away from people my age for like literally a whole year. Like I didn't, except for like my really close friends who were like doing online school. But like even then we would like, like I didn't, I didn't see my family. I didn't see my friends for the whole entire year pretty much like except when we all got vaccinated in the spring, in the summer. Like in the summer months we would sit in like a park like, you know, eight feet apart or like we would sit like I would sit in the trunk of my car and then my other friend would sit in like the trunk of her car. And then we would talk to each other from the trunks of the cars. I went from that situation to then coming here being an international student is like weird especially at my age because like I'm 22 and I'm living with like pretty much teenagers. That gets a little weird sometimes. So I kind of feel like I'm a freshman again when like I hang out with like those people but then I don't know, it's just, it's all very weird and like I'm really trying to commit myself to like a life here and you know, just doing stuff. Which is fun and like I'm having a lot of fun. Yeah, I don't know. It's like weird to go from like feeling guilty. I feel guilty but like being so stressed out about like every little thing to like being normal again and like do I feel, I think I don't feel guilty about it but like I'm like, wait, should I? Does that make any sense? I don't think it makes any sense. And I don't know if it is going to make any sense. You know, I don't know if it was because of that or just like because of like just honestly like what a genuinely peaceful and just like nice year that I'm having. She's at a pace in her life where peace is a priority and negativity cannot exist. She's no longer matching energy. She's simply removing herself in any situation that doesn't vibrate herself. That for the first time in like a really long time I'm quite like open to the future. And I think that I have absolutely no idea what it looks like. And I think like for my first couple of years of college I was like, oh, like this is the direction that my life is going to go in. I don't really have all the pieces but I know I'm going to do this here abroad and like I was sort of focused on that for a while. And then like for a while just like the pandemic is you know, gotta get through that. And so I think for the first time like in a while I'm like, I feel like sort of like allowed myself to like be young and like feel lighter. Yeah, it just, it's a, it's a very nice experience. Like just, I don't, yeah. I don't, I don't even know what the point of this is to tell you, I don't want to like come and hear me like, oh, I'm like, I'm doing so well. Cause like, like they're, you know I have a whole other video coming up soon about like the like homesickness. Cause like that's, that's also a thing. But like in general, I'm like, I'm feeling very positive for the first time in a while. And I don't know why people are going to be feeling this because it's like this anniversary came around. And like I think when this anniversary came around last year, it was like, look how far we are. People were like just getting vaccinated and the world was still like teetering back to normal. I think I just have like a lot of moments here where I'm like a minute and I take a step back and I'm like, like, I'm doing good. Where's the problem though? You know what I mean? Like where's the issue? Yeah, I don't know. This is like a therapy session that goes nowhere sometimes.