 Welcome to Living Mosaic. My name is Martha Holden. I'm a member of the Spark of Humanity Network. Living Mosaic is intended, hope intended, to be a conversation around and into the concept that there is a solution. There's so much pain. There's so much distress. There's so much unimaginable fear and terror and horror in this beloved sweet planet of ours. And we're discussing the idea that there is a solution and that we are each uniquely a part of the solution. We're each uniquely and essentially a part of the solution. So what we're talking about is the idea of each one of us, ourselves, and supporting each other in becoming who we uniquely are needed to be as part of the solution. I don't know what you need to be as part of the solution. I hardly know what I need to be as part of the solution, but to support each other and to give each other hope. When we engage in the solution, when we stop looking at quantifying, analyzing, describing, getting hysterical over denying the problem, and we're willing to become part of the solution, and we engage in that process, what we've found is that we experience hope and the hope feeds our journey towards our niche in the living, living mosaic so that when we find our niche or are approaching our niche, we don't get to say, here I am, I'm set for the rest of all time. No, because we have to be alive and responsive and paying attention because the mosaic itself is alive. I would say in some context that the mosaic is an aspect of the ever-evolving multidimensional dance of which we are each creatures, we're each unique energy events within this dance, and the mosaic is part of this dance, and so we find our place within the mosaic. We ask to be drawn into the mosaic to where we belong so that we may become part of the solution. I bumped into something yesterday that I thought I'd read that might be helpful, and I may be a little awkward in the reading because I had to change some of the language, of course. One of the expressions the writer writes about, Siki first the kingdom, which is a biblical quote. What I think they're talking about is look for that place within yourself that draws, will draw you into the mosaic and help you be part of the life of the mosaic. Let's give this a try, and then when I finish doing this, I want to talk a little bit about healing, well actually no, then we'll let the Zoomers in in case there's a comments on the reading, and then we'll, then I'd like to talk a little bit about healing if there's time. This is a time for rededication. It is a time to live into your spiritual depth. Do all we can to keep free from distracting excitements. Rather be open to quiet, powerful faith. Indeed it is through our silences that the flaming powers press. It is difficult with our limitations and the human scale to comprehend the majesty of the spiritual powers within which we exist. It is a faculty to make the instant flaming and these holy immeasurable powers are only trusted to us when we are universal, selfless. Lay down anxiety, lay down impatience, lay down frustration. Clear the heart and seek ye first the kingdom. No one can tell us how to take ourselves in hand. For that mental and spiritual discipline is a part we must play ourselves in seeking our place within the mosaic. But we can keep a retreat like a pool in the rapids or to make a better image be like the iceberg, which is seven tenths underwater. You may email us at living mosaic2024 at gmail.com if you want to know the name of the book and the editor. So thank you. If there are zoomers who want to comment on that or telephoners, fine. Otherwise I'll talk a little bit about healing. Okay, I guess I'll talk a little bit about healing since I have no signals. Healing came to me after the session two weeks ago as something that would be a good topic. For us to talk about, me to talk about. Healing, well let me a little bit about my journey part of it and that I was told by someone, a spiritual iridologist, that I had a the gift of healing and I thought that meant I was supposed to go out and heal people. And I was completely unaware of my own need for healing, which was I think what the iridologist was talking about, that I had a powerful need for healing. And to become to become aware that we need healing may be part of maybe a first step towards being drawn being available to be drawn into our niche within the mosaic. I think of the mosaic at times it's sort of because it's alive it may inhale and we may be inhaled into our niche in the mosaic if that doesn't sound too scary or anthropocentric, almost worse. So to be available to healing to be willing to be healed and to recognize that all those around us who might be irritating us or terrifying us may also be in need of healing may be a place to a place that we can stand on as we move into this process. And I think just to consider that the first essential towards healing is one becoming aware of our need for it and two become willing. I don't know how you feel about this but I suspect my sense of the way reality is created the way that being dances is that the movement is towards healing. This dance of which we are unique energy events is moving towards wholeness, is moving towards its own fulfillment. And as it moves towards wholeness it is moving us towards wholeness which may not always be comfortable for us. I'm now many times I've been very attached to my limitations. I've been extremely attached to my victimhood, my fragility, lots of self judgments, presumptions. And so to recognize that to become willing to be healed allows us to surrender some part of ourselves maybe probably not all of ourselves but some part of ourselves to the process of being healed which is a process which gently and inexorably transforms us and brings us closer to our niche within this mosaic which is the solution. And meanwhile that's part of the solution our willingness, our expressing our willingness to be healed. Even our awareness of our need to be healed has a certain degree of contagion in the society around us and our friends and relations and the people we hang out with. And so just by being willing to be aware that we need healing sends ripples to those around us who have any contact with us and then to be willing to be healed on a subtle level supports others who are here of it or around us are affected by us whether they know us visually or vocally or physically or at all it affects willing to be healed themselves and because we cannot force our way into our niche in the mosaic because it's unique I know I don't know mine I just know that I'm hopefully through talking doing this inviting you into the conversation that I'm letting go of everything that gets in the way of my being drawn into my niche so it's not something we can analyze our way into and it's not something we can force our way into we can't determine our way into we can within ourselves become aware of our need for healing and maybe perhaps if we get deep enough within ourselves become aware of our hunger for healing that we really want to be healed in all the subtle ways for which you may have words but I generally don't have words for all the ways in which I need healing they're just it's a geological thing it's like layer upon layer upon layer of healing that's needed and becoming aware of that and becoming willing to be healed moves me into the process or perhaps deeper into the process because we may all be in the process already but deeper into the process of being healed so that we're being we're being allowed we're being we're sloughing off all those parts of us it's debriefing like if we have a burn wound it's letting go of all those parts of us that get in the way of our being brought down into our essential self our true self who we really are essentially as essential and unique parts of the solution so that's all i have to say at this point so i'll if zoomers want to check in no okay the zoomers are watching they aren't they're they're zooming quietly okay which means that i'm going to be silent for a couple of minutes or a couple seconds at least and see what comes up is what needs to be said next and if you don't want to speak as a zoomer you can sort of telepath me if you have any ideas it's i don't know whether prejudice is the right word it's a theory i guess i like the theory that the solution is a living can be seen as the living mosaic it's a theory that the dance moves towards wholeness and that in the sense that it is volitional what it wants is it's it desires its wholeness i think i believe that or i go forward with that hypothesis because that way i can identify with it if it's as self-centered as i am i can identify with it so if the if the power that the source of all being if the power that creates and sustains and heals the cosmos the universe this galaxy is moving towards wholeness wants in the sense that it can want although that again may be too anthrop formizing making like a human being it moves and dies its instinct its tropism is towards its own wholeness because we are aspects of that we are parts of it we're creations of it we're like cells within it we're we're not never ever separate from it we are little particles of it we're that for it to experience to get to its own wholeness it needs us to be whole which means it's moving for our healing as i said a few minutes ago and it is as many of us know there are painful distressing disrupting times in our individual lives that we do not perceive as ah i am being drawn toward greater wholeness this is for my healing that's not where we go often usually often it's why is this happening to me or poor me or you know i'm being picked on um to shift our focus towards appreciating the creative force the creative power of which we are aspects and understanding that the pain that we're experiencing is part of our growing part of our it's an opportunity if we choose we can of course go into self pity and denial um covering up we can choose to go in there or we can say i think let's let me see maybe this is for my healing maybe this is for my growing maybe this is a stimulation for me to become more truly who i am and who i am needed to be within the mosaic so that shift of consciousness is very powerful of course because then rather than defending against these forces of the dance that seem to be buffeting us and picking on us we can open up and become available to participate in it and we begin to move towards our own wholeness now i'm a firm believer in symmetry across scale what's true for the microbe is true for the squirrel is true for me is true for the galaxy is true for the planet and so i'm thinking about looking for the healing of humanity the healing of let's we could either go talk about healing of humanity or the healing of the biosphere the whole thing and i think what i'm going to be saying probably applies to either one so feel free to apply it or swish back and forth between the two as you're inclined so from what i've been saying as the true for the individual which in my experience is true for the individual may also be true for the larger system for this sweet precious fragile planet our island home as some people call it for humanity as a whole or for the biosphere whatever so starting with recognizing a need for healing and i suspect that humanity as a whole is becoming with the incredible distress and the horrors that we hear about and that some of us are subject to becoming aware of our need for healing for the whole enterprise and so then acknowledging that admitting that and then moving toward willingness to be healed and what does that entail i suspect because i can't heal no matter how often i come here and talk i can't heal all of humanity i can't heal the biosphere all any of us can do is offer ourselves up for the healing process for ourselves for our own healing process our own personal unique individual healing process offer ourselves up to that as best we can and that is probably and you know to the extent available encourage other people in opening to their own healing process because that's that's how we're going to find our place within the mosaic that's what the mosaic is needing from us is our willingness to let go of all those attitudes all those presumptions all those habits all those prejudices all those judgments did i say judgments comparisons all that stuff that we have here and to some extent here be willing to let go of all that so that we may be drawn into our essential cells be drawn into our unique place within the mosaic and that's that as far as i know is the only way we can participate in healing the larger system and for me that's that word participate is extremely important because it it includes me and i'm part of i'm part of something that's moving in a direction i'm not fighting against it i am moving with it in a desire for its own wholeness and because i look out at the you know at the blue sky and because where i am today there's blue sky mountains the beauty the and the way i see things i see that this i trust this whatever you know the dance it's painful at times yes but it's glorious and magnificent and and i've tried bucking against it i've tried doing things my own way because i have a real good idea about how things should be done i've tried doing that and it hasn't been successful and it's occasionally been very painful and excruciatingly humiliating so how about i be willing to let go of and participate in that and trust that it's moving towards the wholeness which is for itself but it's for me and it's for all humanity and all the creation and i'm and i'm going to participate in that i'm not in charge of it i can't control it i can't cure it where i think it's off track but i can participate in it because i trust it because i've seen my life i've seen the lives of others i've seen the natural world around me and i trust it so therefore i'm going to be willing to be healed willing to let go of everything that gets in the way so that i may participate more deeply in its life because it's it's alive it's alive it's ever-evolving it's calling me to be alive which is terrifying and calling me to be available to be ever-evolving so that's where we are thank you for joining me there's no if a zoomer wants to say anything i encourage you to note on youtube any comments or email them i think our email address is at the end screen at the end of this but thank you very much for joining us and we always welcome emails and participation thank you and have a good fortnight see you in a couple weeks take care