 Warning. Please do not attempt this at home. Running is very high impact and can cause long-term injury. This was my decision as I wanted to challenge myself mentally and physically. It's best to have a base level of running training before attempting any kind of endurance run. All right so here we are at the Ultra London. This is about a week after my marathon attempt. My knees, I've got these straps for them. So I'm hoping that they'll help me through this race. This is actually 55km, it's about 13km more than what I did around the running track. I wasn't satisfied with the marathon and I wanted to do something a little bit more challenging. So we'll see how the knee holds up and we'll give this one a crack. Let's do it. To avoid bonking, if you want to know about cliff products, a vegan. So just for your information, cliff bars, cliff gels, vegan friendly. Spent start times. Where am I? Oh arrive at the start line at 7.45 and start at 8am. I wanted, I was ready to start at 3am. Start walking at the start, eh? We put it on and you guys answered the call. So thank you very much for your support. But it is an Urban Ultra so we've got areas where it's out in the wild but it's also on the streets. Back back here. I know what's coming up. I'm going to do about a seven minute pace. I reckon that's smart. Seven or eight minutes at the start. I'd rather hold this like this for the whole time. I feel my knee already eh? Really? A little bit. Huh? I've got knee pain. Really? Yeah. Got my knees hurting. Really bad? I made some water. My knees are already causing problems. It's only two kilometers in. I'm going to see if this helps. All right. Here you go. Shrugged my knee up. We'll see how long it lasts. Limping you know what I mean? Yeah. But I reckon I can just, I don't know, I'm just going to fucking push past the pain barrier. I'm going to try to run this with knee pain. It hurts but I don't know if it hurts enough for me to stop. I'm going to try to overcome this pain barrier and see what I can do, you know? Because if it just, if it feels like this for most of the time, I think it's possible, you know? I've heard this knee pain since I started basically. It's making me think like when I was in the dairy farm in Israel, the dairy cows, they had, they were limping. They had these sores on their legs that were getting infected by their own feces. And they're like forced to suffer, you know? Like right now if I wanted to, I'm allowed to stop, you know? And I can stop the suffering. But the animals don't have a choice they have to suffer. They don't have it, their life is suffering. Like when you think of a pig in a farrowing crate, suffering, their whole existence is suffering, you know? And I'll put animals through suffering. I ate their body parts. I paid for them to be in those crates. I paid for them to be in those slaughterhouses. I paid for their suffering, you know? It's just putting my knee into perspective. All right, we're just 16 kilometers in. My knee's causing me a lot of pain. But I'm hoping to just push through the pain. I just saw a cemetery and it made me think about the impending fact that we're all going to die, you know? Like that's the only thing guaranteed in life. Part of my, the reason I changed my life around and tried to give back doing my activism and creating a positive impact was this sense that, you know, I'm going to die and is that what I want to leave behind? It was crazy. It was like every time I fell asleep and woke up, I was like, oh my god, am I still alive? Like what am I doing? What am I doing every day to leave a positive impact? Because the impact that I left up until I was about 26 wasn't good at all. The impact that I left in people's lives was very negative and then people, I heard a lot of people around me. It caused a lot of suffering, caused animals a lot of suffering. When I saw it up, I was reflecting and ashamed of all of that and a very deep sense of shame and regret. And I was like, well, am I going to leave this and leave that as my legacy? Well, I'm a drug addict, a violent gang member, intimidating my friends, intimidating my family, intimidating people around me, causing people suffering. Is that what I want to leave behind? And that was the driving force behind my activism, my advocacy, trying to help animals, trying to inspire people to change their lives. I thought I want to leave a positive mark. I can't let this leave be the memory of me that's left behind. We're reaching the halfway point. I'm too focused. I don't really want to talk. I need some gels. Sure. I'll get them for you. This way. Okay, so we're getting to the halfway point of the ultramanathon and I'm limping my knees in extreme pain. The reason I didn't want to stop is because I felt that if I stopped my knee mark lock up, so I felt that if I just kept up this pace and was careful when I was crossing the roads and made sure I looked after it, that I could run the whole distance. So I was just absolutely determined and really inspired by Fiona Oakes, interviewed her a couple of days before and just trying to get over the pain barrier by just shifting my perception, just looking at my pain and looking at other people's or other animals' pain and seeing that my pain wasn't really that bad. And that was what was helping me drive through. It was really just a mind game, really, like how long can I put up with this pain for? And I realized that I was actually capable of much more than I first thought. Look at the map. This is insane. So we did all of this and this is left. So we have about 15 kilometers to go. 10k, come on. Hell yeah. These are fucking good. 44.4. Yeah, 44.4k, it's 44.4. Yeah, I just don't want to stop. My knees, my knees are really hurting now. I know, I know. I'm gonna get stuff. When it hurts, you got to go harder, not back off. Let's go. That's what your brain's telling you to back off. You got to go against it. Go against what your brain's telling you. Fuck it. Looking good, looking good. Thank you. My knees are really fucked up. Come on. This is the last part. The last part? Yeah. Let's go. This is Richmond Park. I don't care about the pain anymore, right? I'm gonna just lift. I'm gonna just go. Make it to the finish line, that's it. Knees are looking up. It's just around the corner. We're gonna get there. Take your time, take your time. It's okay. My knee cap is locking up. Like I've been able to put up with the pain the whole time. Something happened, man. I'm gonna try to get up. Do you want me to help? I'm gonna see if I can walk 100 meters. It's fucking amazing. I just went until I couldn't go anymore. I know. There's nothing left in me, man. My stomach is cramping up bad. Come on, man. You made it. Absolutely brutal. I feel extremely sick and my knee is in extreme pain. I'd like to dedicate that run to the Fiona Oaks Foundation and I don't know how she does it. She's an absolute beast.