 Section 7 of Daddy Long Legs. 5 March. Dear Daddy Long Legs, President Keuler made a speech this evening about the modern generation being flippant and superficial. He says that we are losing the old ideals of earnest endeavor and true scholarship, and particularly as this falling off noticeable in our disrespectful attitude towards organized authority. We no longer pay a seemly deference to our superiors. I came away from chapel very sober. Am I too familiar, Daddy? Aught I to treat you with more dignity and aloofness? Yes, I'm sure I ought. I'll begin again. My dear Mr. Smith, you will be pleased to hear that I passed successfully my mid-year examinations, and am now commencing work in the new semester. I am leaving chemistry, having completed the course in qualitative analysis, and am entering upon the study of biology. I approach this subject with some hesitation, as I understand that we dissect angleworms and frogs. An extremely interesting and valuable lecture was given in the chapel last week upon Roman remains in southern France. I have never listened to a more illuminating exposition of the subject. We are reading Wordsworth's Tintern Abbey in connection with our course in English literature. What an exquisite work it is, and how adequately it embodies his conceptions of pantheism. The romantic movement of the early part of the last century, exemplified in the works of such poets as Shelley, Byron Keats, and Wordsworth, appeals to me very much more than the classical period that preceded it. Speaking of poetry, have you ever read that charming little thing of Tennyson's called Blocksley Hall? Oh, I am attending gymnasium very regularly of late. A proctor system has been devised, and failure to comply with the rules causes a great deal of inconvenience. The gymnasium is equipped with a very beautiful swimming tank of cement and marble, the gift of a former graduate. My roommate, Ms. McBride, has given me her bathing suit. It shrank so that she can no longer wear it. And I am about to begin the swimming lessons. We had delicious pink ice cream for dessert last night. Only vegetable dyes are used in coloring the food. The college is very much opposed, both from aesthetic and hygienic motives, to the use of aniline dyes. The weather of late has been ideal. Bright sunshine and clouds interspersed with a few welcome snowstorms. I and my companions have enjoyed our walks to and from class. And particularly from. Trusting, my dear Mr. Smith, that this will find you in your usual good health, I remain most cordially yours, Jerusia Abbott. 24 April. Dear Daddy, Sabrina has come again. You should see how lovely the campus is. I think you might come and look at it for yourself. Master Jervie dropped in again last Friday, but he chose a most unpropitious time for Sally and Julia and I were just running to catch a train. And where do you think we were going? To Princeton, to attend a dance and a ball game, if you please. I didn't ask you if I might go, because I had a feeling that your secretary would say no. But it was entirely regular. We had leave of absence from college and Mrs. McBride chaperoned us. We had a charming time, but I still have to omit details. There are too many and complicated. Saturday, up before dawn, the night watchman called us, six of us, and we made coffee in a chafing dish, yet never saw so many grounds, and walked two miles to the top of One Tree Hill to see the sunrise. We had to scramble up the last slope. The sun almost beat us, and perhaps you think we didn't bring back appetites to breakfast? Dear me, Daddy, I seem to have a very ejaculatory style today. This page is peppered with exclamations. I meant to have written a lot about the budding trees and the new cinder path in the athletic field, and the awful lesson we have in biology for tomorrow, and the new canoes on the lake, and Catherine Prentiss who has pneumonia, and Prexy Zangora Kitten that strayed from home and has been boarding in Ferguson Hall for two weeks until a chambermaid reported it, and about my three new dresses, white and pink and blue polka dots, were the hat to match. But I'm too sleepy. I'm always making this excuse, am I not? But a girl's college is a busy place, and we do get tired by the end of the day, particularly when the day begins at dawn. Affectionately, Judy, 15th May. Dear Daddy Long Legs, is it good manners when you get into a car just to stare straight ahead and not see anybody else? A very beautiful lady in a very beautiful velvet dress got into the car today, and without the slightest expression sat for 15 minutes and looked at a sign advertising suspenders. It doesn't seem polite to ignore everybody else as though you were the only important person present. Anyway, you miss a lot. While she was absorbing that silly sign, I was studying a whole car full of interesting human beings. The accompanying illustration is here, Brie, reproduced for the first time. It looks like a spider on the end of a string, but it isn't at all. It's a picture of me learning to swim in the tank in the gymnasium. The instructor hooks a rope into a ring at the back of my belt and runs it through a pulley in the ceiling. It would be a beautiful system if one had perfect confidence in the probity of one's instructor. I'm always afraid, though, that she will let the rope get slack, so I keep one anxious eye on her and swim with the other. And with this divided interest I do not make the progress that I otherwise might. Very miscellaneous weather we're having of late. It was raining when I commenced, and now the sun is shining. Sally and I are going out to play tennis, thereby gaining exemption from gym. A week later. I should have finished this letter long ago, but I didn't. You don't mind, do you, Daddy, if I'm not very regular? I really do love to write to you. It gives me such a respectable feeling of having some family. Would you like me to tell you something? You are not the only man to whom I write letters. There are two others. I have been receiving beautiful long letters this winter for Master Jervie, with typewritten envelopes so Julia won't recognize the writing. Did you ever hear anything so shocking? And every week or so, a very scrawly epistle, usually on yellow tablet paper, arrives from Princeton, all of which I answer with business-like promptness. So you see, I'm not so different from other girls. I get letters, too. Did I tell you that I have been elected a member of the Senior Dramatic Club? Very Recherche organization. Only 75 members out of 1,000. Do you think as a consistent socialist that I ought to belong? What do you suppose is it present engaging my attention in sociology? I'm writing, figurez-vous, a paper on the care of dependent children. The Professor shuffled up his subjects and dealt them out promiscuously, and that fell to me. C'est drôle ça, n'est-ce pas? There goes the gong for dinner. I'll post this as I pass the box. Affectionately. J. 4th June. Dear Daddy, very busy time. Commencement in ten days, examinations tomorrow. Lots of studying, lots of packing, from the outdoor world so lovely that it hurts you to stay inside. But never mind, vacation's coming. Julia is going abroad this summer. It makes the fourth time. No doubt about it, Daddy, goods are not distributed evenly. Sally, as usual, goes to the Adirondacks. And what do you think I'm going to do? You may have three guesses. Lock Willow? Wrong. The Adirondacks with Sally? Wrong. I'll never attempt that again when I was discouraged last year. Can't you guess anything else? You're not very inventive. I'll tell you Daddy if you'll promise not to make a lot of objections. I warn your secretary in advance that my mind is made up. I am going to spend the summer at the seaside with a Mrs. Charles Patterson and tutor her daughter who is to enter college in the autumn. I met her through the McBrides, and she is a very charming woman. I am to give lessons in English and Latin to the younger daughter too. But I shall have a little time to myself, and I shall be earning fifty dollars a month. Doesn't that impress you as a perfectly exorbitant amount? She offered it. I should have blushed to ask for more than twenty-five. I finish at Magnolia, that's where she lives, the first of September, and shall probably spend the remaining three weeks at Lock Willow. I should like to see the samples again, and all the friendly animals. How does my program strike you, Daddy? I'm getting quite independent, you see. You have put me on my feet, and I think I can almost walk alone by now. Princeton commencement and our examinations exactly coincide, which is an awful blow. Sally and I did so want to get away in time for it, but of course that is utterly impossible. Goodbye, Daddy, have a nice summer and come back in the autumn rested and ready for another year of work. That's what you ought to be writing to me. I haven't any idea what you do in the summer, or how you amuse yourself. I can't visualize your surroundings. Do you play golf, or hunt, or ride horseback, or just sit in the sun and meditate? Anyway, whatever it is, have a good time, and don't forget Judy. Dear Daddy, this is the hardest letter I ever wrote, but I have decided what I must do, and there isn't going to be any turning back. It was very sweet and generous and dear of you to wish to send me to Europe this summer. For the moment I was intoxicated by the idea, but sober second thoughts said no. It would be rather illogical of me to refuse to take your money for college, and then use it instead just for amusement. You mustn't get me used to too many luxuries. One doesn't miss what one has never had, but it's awfully hard going without things after one has commenced thinking they are his, hers. English language needs another pronoun, binatural state. Living with Sally and Julia is an awful strain on my stoical philosophy. They have both had things from the time they were babies. They accept happiness as a matter of course. The world, they think, owes them everything they want. Maybe the world does. In any case, seems to acknowledge the debt and pay up. But as for me, it owes me nothing, and distinctly told me so in the beginning. I have no right to borrow on credit, for there will come a time when the world will repudiate my claim. I seem to be floundering in a sea of metaphor, but I hope you grasp my meaning. Anyway, I have a very strong feeling that the only honest thing for me to do is to teach this summer and begin to support myself. Magnolia, four days later. I just got that much written when what do you think happened? The maid arrived with Master Jervie's card. He is going abroad too this summer. Not with Julia and her family, but entirely by himself. I told him that you had invited me to go with a lady who was chaperoning a party of girls. He knows about you, Daddy. That is, he knows that my father and mother are dead, and that kind gentleman is sending me to college. I simply didn't have the courage to tell him about the John Greer home and all the rest. He thinks that you are my guardian and a perfectly legitimate old family friend. I've never told him that I didn't know you. That would seem too queer. Anyway, he insisted on my going to Europe. He said that it was a necessary part of my education and that I mustn't think of refusing. Also that he would be in Paris at the same time, and that we would run away from the chaperone occasionally and have dinner together at nice, funny, foreign restaurants. Well, Daddy, it did appeal to me. I almost weakened. If he hadn't been so dictatorial, maybe I should have entirely weakened. I can be enticed step by step, but I won't be forced. He said I was a silly, foolish, irrational, quixotic, idiotic, stubborn child. Those are a few of his abusive adjectives. The rest escape me. And that I didn't know what was good for me. I ought to let older people judge. We almost quarreled. I'm not sure about what we entirely did. In any case, I packed my chunk fast and came up here. I thought I'd better see my bridges and flames behind me before I finished writing to you. They are entirely reduced to ashes now. Here I am at Clifftop, the name of Mrs. Patterson's cottage, with my chunk unpacked and Florence, the little one, already struggling with first declension nouns. And it bids fair to be a struggle. She is a most uncommonly spoiled child. I shall have to teach her first how to study. She has never in her life concentrated on anything more difficult than ice cream soda water. We use a quiet corner of the cliffs for a school room. Mrs. Patterson wishes me to keep them out of doors. And I will say that I find it difficult to concentrate with the blue sea before me and ships assailing by. And when I think I might be on one, sailing off to foreign lands? But I won't. Let myself think of anything but Latin grammar. The prepositions a or ab, abs, q, qurem, cum, d, e or x, prey, pro, sine, tenus, in, subter, sub, and super, govern the ablative. So you see, Daddy, I am already plunged into work with my eyes persistently set against temptation. Don't be cross with me, please. And don't think that I do not appreciate your kindness, for I do always. Always. The only way I can ever repay you is by turning out a very useful citizen. Are women citizens? I don't suppose they are. Anyway, a very useful person. And when you look at me, you can say, I gave that very useful person to the world. That sounds well, doesn't it, Daddy? But I don't wish to mislead you. The feeling often comes over me that I am not at all remarkable. It is fun to plan a career, but in all probability I shan't turn out a bit different from any other ordinary person. I may end by marrying an undertaker and being an inspiration to him in his work. Yours ever, Judy. 19 August. Dear Daddy Long Legs, my window looks out on the loveliest landscape, oceanscape, rather, nothing but water and rocks. The summer goes. I spend the morning with Latin and English and algebra and my two stupid girls. I don't know how Marion is ever going to get into college or stay in after she gets there. As for Florence, she's hopeless. But oh, such a little beauty. I don't suppose it matters in the least whether they are stupid or not so long as they're pretty. One can't help thinking, though, how their conversation will bore their husbands, unless they are fortunate enough to obtain stupid husbands. I suppose that's quite possible. The world seems to be filled with stupid men. I've met a number this summer. In the afternoon we take a walk on the cliffs or swim if the tide is right. I can swim in salt water with the utmost ease. You see, my education is already being put to use. A letter comes from Mr. Jervis Pendleton in Paris, rather a short, concise letter. I'm not quite forgiven yet for refusing to follow his advice. However, if he gets back in time, he will see me for a few days at Locque Willow before college opens. And if I am very nice and sweet and docile, I shall, I am led to infer, be received into favor again. Also, a letter from Sally. She wants me to come to their camp for two weeks in September. Must I ask your permission? Or haven't I yet arrived at the place where I can do as I please? Yes, I'm sure I have. I'm a senior, you know. Having worked all summer, I feel like taking a little healthful recreation. I want to see the Adirondacks. I want to see Sally. I want to see Sally's brother. He's going to teach me to canoe. And we come to my chief motive, which is mean. I want Master Jervie to arrive at Locque Willow and find me not there. I must show him that he can't dictate to me. No one can dictate to me but you, Daddy, and you can't always. I'm off for the woods, Judy. Camp McBride, 6 September. Dear Daddy, your letter didn't come in time. I'm pleased to say, if you wish your instructions to be obeyed, you must have your secretary transmit them in less than two weeks. As you observe, I am here and have been for five days. The woods are fine. And so is the camp. And so is the weather. And so are the McBrides. And so is the whole world. I'm very happy. There's Jimmy calling for me to come canoeing. Goodbye. Sorry to have disappeared. But why are you so persistent about not wanting me to play a little? When I've worked all the summer, I deserve two weeks. You are awfully dog in the mangerish. However, I love you still, Daddy, in spite of all your faults. Judy. End of Section 7. Section 8 of Daddy Long Legs. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Joe Carabath. Daddy Long Legs by Gene Webster. Section 8. Senior Year. Third October. Dear Daddy Long Legs, back at college and a senior, also editor of the Monthly. It doesn't seem possible, does it, that so sophisticated a person just four years ago was an inmate of the John Greer home. We do arrive fast in America. What do you think of this? A note for Master Jervie, directed to Locke Willow and forwarded here. He's sorry, but he finds he can't get up there this autumn. He has accepted an invitation to go yachting with some friends. Hopes I had a nice summer, and am enjoying the country. And he knew all the time that I was with the McBrides, for Julia told him so. You men ought to leave intrigue to women. You haven't a light enough touch. Julia has a trunkful of the most ravishing new clothes. An evening gown of rainbow liberty crepe that would be fitting rayament for the angels in paradise. And I thought that my own clothes this year were unprecedentedly. Is there such a word? Well, unprecedentedly beautiful. I copied Mrs. Patterson's wardrobe with the aid of a cheap dressmaker. And though the gowns didn't turn out quite twins of the originals, I was entirely happy until Julia unpacked. And now I live to see Paris. Dear Daddy, aren't you glad you're not a girl? I suppose you think that the fuss we make over clothes is too absolutely silly. It is. No doubt about it. But it's entirely your fault. Did you ever hear about the learned hair professor who regarded unnecessary adornment with contempt and favored sensible utilitarian clothes for women? His wife, who was an obliging creature, adopted dress reform. And what do you think he did? He eloped with a chorus girl. Yours ever, Judy. P.S. The chambermaid in our corridor wears blue-checked gingham aprons. I'm going to get her some brown ones instead, and sink the blue ones in the bottom of the lake. I have a reminiscent chill every time I look at them. Seventeenth November. Dear Daddy, long legs. Such a blight has fallen over my literary career. I don't know whether to tell you or not, but I would like some sympathy. Silent sympathy, please. Don't re-open the wound by referring to it in your next letter. I've been writing a book. All last winter in the evenings and all the summer when I wasn't teaching a Latin to my two stupid children. I just finished it before college opened and sent it to a publisher. He kept it two months, and I was certain he was going to take it. But yesterday morning an express parcel came. Thirty cents due. And there it was back again with a letter from the publisher. A very nice, fatherly letter. But Frank. He said he saw from the address that I was still at college, and if I would accept some advice he would suggest that I put all of my energy into my lessons and wait until I graduated before beginning to write. He enclosed his reader's opinion. Here it is. Plot highly improbable. Characterization exaggerated. Conversation unnatural. A good deal of humor, but not always in the best of taste. Tell her to keep on trying, and in time she may produce a real book. Not on the whole flattering, is it, Daddy? And I thought I was making a notable addition to American literature. I did truly. I was planning to surprise you by writing a great novel before I graduated. I collected the material for it while I was at Julia's last Christmas. But I dare say the editor is right. Probably two weeks was not enough in which to observe the manners and customs of a great city. I took it walking with me yesterday afternoon and when I came to the gas-house I went in and asked the engineer if I might borrow his furnace. He politely opened the door and with my own hands I chucked it in. I felt as though I had cremated my only child. I went to bed last night, utterly dejected. I thought I was never going to amount to anything and that you had thrown away your money for nothing. But what do you think? I woke up this morning with a beautiful new plot in my head and I've been going about all day planning my characters just as happy as I could be. No one can ever accuse me of being a pessimist. If I had a husband and twelve children swallowed by an earthquake one day I'd bob up smiling the next morning and commence to look for another set. 14 December Dear Daddy Long Legs, I dreamed the funniest dream last night. I thought I went into a bookstore and the clerk brought me a new book named The Life and Letters of Judy Abbott. I could see it perfectly plainly, red cloth binding the picture of the John Greer home on the cover and my portrait for a front space with very truly yours Judy Abbott written below. But just as I was turning to the end to read the inscription on my tombstone I woke up. It was very annoying. I almost found out whom I'm going to marry and when I'm going to die. Don't you think it would be interesting if you could really read the story of your life, written perfectly truthfully by an omniscient author? And suppose you could only read it on this condition that you would never forget it but would have to go through life knowing ahead of time exactly how everything you did would turn out and foreseeing to the exact hour the time when you would die. How many people do you suppose would have the courage to read it then? Or how many could suppress their curiosity sufficiently to escape from reading it even at the price of having to live without hope and without surprises? Life is monotonous enough at best. You have to eat and sleep about so often. But imagine how deadly monotonous it would be if nothing unexpected could happen between meals. Mercy, Daddy. There's a blot but I'm on the third page and I can't begin a new sheet. I'm going on with biology again this year. Very interesting subject. We're studying the elementary system at present. You should see how sweet a cross-section of the duodenum of a cat is under the microscope. Also we've arrived at philosophy. Interesting but evanescent. I prefer biology where you can pin the subject on discussion to a board. There's another and another. This pen is weeping copiously. Please excuse its tears. Do you believe in free will? I do unreservedly. I don't agree at all with the philosophers who think that every action is the absolutely inevitable and automatic result of an aggregation of remote causes. That's the most immoral doctrine I ever heard. Nobody would be to blame for anything. If a man believed in fatalism he would naturally just sit down and say the lords will be done and continue to sit until he fell over dead. I believe absolutely in my own free will and my own power to accomplish. That is the belief that moves mountains. You watch me become a great author. I have four chapters of my new book finished and five more drafted. This is a very obtruse letter. Does your head ache, Daddy? I think we'll stop now and make some fudge. I'm sorry I can't send you a piece. It will be unusually good, for we're going to make it with real cream and three butter balls. Yours affectionately, Judy. P.S., we're having fancy dancing in gymnasium class. You can see by the accompanying picture how much we look like real ballet. The one at the end accomplishing a graceful pirouette is me. I mean I. 26 December. My dear, dear Daddy, haven't you any sense? Don't you know that you mustn't give one girl seventeen Christmas presents? I'm a socialist. Please remember, do you wish to turn me into a plutocrat? Think how embarrassing it would be if we should ever quarrel. I should have to engage a moving van to return your gifts. I am sorry that the necktie I sent was so wobbly I knit it with my own hands, as you doubtless discovered from internal evidence. You'll have to wear it on cold days and keep your coat buttoned up tight. Thank you, Daddy, a thousand times. I think you're the sweetest man that ever lived and the foolishest. Judy. Here's a four-leaf clover from Camp McBride to bring you good luck for the new year. 9 January. Do you wish to do something, Daddy, that will ensure your eternal salvation? There's a family here who are in awfully desperate straits, a mother and father and four visible children. The two older boys have disappeared into the world to make their fortune and have not sent any of it back. The father worked in a glass factory and got consumption, its awfully unhealthy work, and now has been sent away to a hospital. That took all their savings, and the support of the family falls upon the oldest daughter who is twenty-four. She dress makes for a dollar fifty a day, when she can get it, and embroider centerpieces in the evening. The mother isn't very strong and is extremely ineffectual and pious. She sits with her hands folded, a picture of patient resignation, while the daughter kills herself with overwork and responsibility and worry. She doesn't see how they're going to get through the rest of the winter. And I don't see either. One hundred dollars would buy some coal and some shoes for three children so that they could go to school and give a little margin so that she needn't worry herself to death when a few days pass and she doesn't get work. You're the richest man I know. Don't you suppose you could spare one hundred dollars? That girl deserves help a lot more than I ever did. I wouldn't ask it for the girl. I don't care much what happens to the mother. She's such a jellyfish. The way people are forever rolling their eyes to heaven and saying perhaps it's all for the best, when they are perfectly dead sure it's not, makes me enraged. Humility or resignation or whatever you choose to call it is simply impotent inertia. I'm for a more militant religion. We are starting the most dreadful lessons in philosophy. All of Schopenhauer for tomorrow. The professor doesn't seem to realize that we are taking any other subject. He's a queer old duck. He goes about with his head in the clouds and blinks daisily when occasionally he strikes solid earth. He tries to lighten his lectures with an occasional witticism. And we do our best to smile, but I assure you his jokes are no laughing matter. He spends his entire time between classes in trying to figure out whether matter really exists or whether he only thinks it exists. I'm sure my sewing girl hasn't any doubt but that it exists. Where do you think my new novel is? In the Waste Basket. I can see myself that it's no good on earth and one a loving author realizes that what would be the judgment of a critical public. Later, I address you daddy from a bed of pain. For two days I've been laid up with swollen tonsils. I can just swallow hot milk and that is all. What were your parents thinking of not to have those tonsils out when you were a baby? The doctor wished to know. I'm sure I haven't an idea but I doubt they were thinking much about me. Yours, J.A. Next morning. I just read this over before sealing it. I don't know why I cast such a misty atmosphere over life. I hasten to assure you that I am young and happy and exuberant and I trust you are the same. Youth has nothing to do with birthdays only with a lividness of spirit. So even if your hair is grey, daddy, you can still be a boy. Affectionately, Judy. 12th January. Dear Mr. Philanthropist, your check for my family came yesterday. Thank you so much. I cut gymnasium and took it down to them right after luncheon. And you should have seen the girl's face. She was so surprised and happy and relieved that she looked almost young. And she's only 24. Isn't it pitiful? Anyway, she feels now as though all the good things were coming together. She has steady work ahead for two months. Someone's getting married and there's a true soda-make. Thank the good Lord! cried the mother when she grasped the fact that the small piece of paper was one hundred dollars. It wasn't the good Lord at all, said I. It was daddy long legs. Mr. Smith, I called you. But it was the good Lord who put it in his mind, said she. Not at all. I put it in his mind myself, said I. But anyway, daddy, I trust the good Lord will reward you suitably. You deserve ten thousand years out of purgatory. Yours most gratefully, Judy Abbott. 15 February. May it please your most excellent majesty. This morning I did eat my breakfast upon a cold turkey pie and a goose. And I did send for a cup of tea, a china drink, of which I had never drank before. Don't be nervous, daddy. I haven't lost my mind. I'm merely quoting Samuel Peeps. We're reading him in connection with English history, original sources. Sally and Julia and I converse now in the language of 1660. Listen to this. I went to Charing Cross to see Major Harrison hanged, drawn, and quartered. He was looking as careful as any man could do in that condition. And this, dined with my lady, who is in handsome mourning for her brother who died yesterday of spotted fever. Seems a little early to commence entertaining, doesn't it? A friend of Peeps devised a very cunning manner whereby the king might pay his debts out of the sale to poor people of old, decayed provisions. What do you, a reformer, think of that? I don't believe we're so bad today as the newspapers make out. Samuel was as excited about his clothes as any girl. He spent five times as much on dress as his wife. That appears to have been the golden age of husbands. Isn't this a touching entry? You see, he really was honest. Today came home my fine camel-lit cloak with gold buttons, which cost me much money, and I pray God to make me able to pay for it. Excuse me for being full of Peeps. I'm writing a special topic on him. What do you think, Daddy? The self-government association has abolished the ten o'clock rule. We can keep our lights on all night if we choose. The only requirement being that we do not disturb others. We are not supposed to entertain on a large scale. The result is a beautiful commentary on human nature. Now that we may stay up as long as we choose, we no longer choose. Our heads begin to nod at nine o'clock, and by nine thirty the pen drops from our nerveless grasp. It's nine thirty now. Good night. Sunday, just back from church, preacher from Georgia, we must take care, he says, not to develop our intellects at the expense of our emotional natures. But me thought it was a poor dry sermon. Peeps again. It doesn't matter what part of the United States or Canada they come from, or what denomination they are, we always get the same sermon. Why on earth don't they go to men's colleges and urge the students not to allow their manly natures to be crushed out by too much a mental application? It's a beautiful day, frozen and icy and clear. As soon as dinner is over, Sally and Julia and Marty Keen and Eleanor Pratt, friends of mine, but you don't know them, and I are going to put on short skirts and walk cross-country to Crystal Spring Farm and have a fried chicken and waffle supper, and then have Mr. Crystal Spring drive us home in his buck-board. We are supposed to be inside the campus at seven, but we're going to stretch a point tonight and make it eight. Farewell, kind sir. I have the honor of subscribing myself, your most loyal, dutiful, faithful, and obedient servant. J. Abbott. March 5. Dear Mr. Trustee, Tomorrow is the first Wednesday in the month. A weary day for the John Greer home. How relieved they'll be when five o'clock comes and you pat them on the head and take yourselves off. Did you, individually, ever pat me on the head, Daddy? I don't believe so. My memory seems to be concerned only with fat trustees. Give the home my love, my truly love. I have quite a feeling of tenderness for it as I look back through a haze of four years. When I first came to college I felt quite resentful because I'd been robbed of the normal kind of childhood that the other girls had had, but now I don't feel that way in the least. I regard it as a very unusual adventure. It gives me a sort of vantage point from which to stand aside and look at life. Emerging full-grown I get a perspective on the world that other people who have been brought up in the thick of things entirely lack. I know lots of girls, Julia, for instance, who never know that they are happy. They are so accustomed to the feeling that their senses are deadened to it. But as for me, I am perfectly sure every moment of my life that I am happy, and I'm going to keep on being no matter what unpleasant things turn up. I'm going to regard them, even toothaches, as interesting experiences, and be glad to know what they feel like. Whatever sky is above me, I have a heart for any fate. However, Daddy, don't take this new affection for the JGH too literally. If I have five children, like Rousseau, I shan't leave them on the steps of a foundling asylum in order to ensure they're being brought up simply. Give my kindest regards to Mrs. Lipit. That, I think, is truthful. Love would be a little strong. And don't forget to tell her what a beautiful nature I have developed. Affectionately, Judy. Lock Willow, 4 April. Dear Daddy, do you observe the postmark? Sally and I are embellishing Lock Willow with our presence during the Easter vacation. We decided that the best thing we could do with our ten days was to come where it is quiet. Our nerves had got to the point where they wouldn't stand another meal in Ferguson. Dining in a room with four hundred girls is an ordeal when you are tired. There is so much noise that you can't hear the girls across the table speak unless they make their hands into a megaphone and shout. That is the truth. We are tramping over the hills and reading and writing and having a nice, restful time. We climbed to the top of Sky Hill this morning where Master Jervie and I once cooked supper. Doesn't seem possible that it was nearly two years ago. I could still see the place where the smoke of our fire blackened the rock. It is funny how certain places get connected with certain people and you never go back without thinking of them. I was quite lonely without him for two minutes. What do you think is my latest activity, Daddy? You will begin to believe that I am incorrigible. I am writing a book. I started it three weeks ago and am eating it up in chunks. I've caught the secret. Master Jervie and that editor man were right. You are most convincing when you write about the things you know. And this time it is about something that I do know exhaustively. Guess where it's laid? In the John Greer home. And it's good, Daddy. I actually believe it is. Just about the tiny little things that happen every day. I'm a realist now. I've abandoned romanticism. I shall go back to it later, though, when my own adventurous future begins. This new book is going to get itself finished and published. You see if it doesn't. If you just want a thing hard enough and keep on trying, you do get it in the end. I've been trying for four years to get a letter from you and I haven't given up hope yet. Goodbye, Daddy, dear. I like to call you Daddy, dear. It's so alliterative. Affectionately, Judy. P.S. I forgot to tell you the farm news, but it's very distressing. Skip this post script if you don't want your sensibilities all wrought up. Poor old Grove is dead. He got so that he couldn't chew, and they had to shoot him. Nine chickens were killed by a weasel or a skunk or a rat last week. One of the cows is sick, and we had to have the veterinary surgeon out from Bonnyrig for corners. Emma Sy stayed up all night to give her linseed oil and whiskey, but we have an awful suspicion that the poor sick cow got nothing but linseed oil. Sentimental Tommy, the tortoise shell cat, has disappeared, and we are afraid he has been caught in a trap. There are lots of troubles in the world. Seventeenth May. Dear Daddy Long Legs, this is going to be extremely short because my shoulder aches at the sight of a pen. Lecture notes all day, immortal novel all evening. Makes too much writing. Commencement three weeks from next Wednesday. I think you might come and make my acquaintance. I shall hate you if you don't. Julia's inviting Master Jervie, he being her family, and Sally's inviting Jimmy McBee, he being her family. But who is there for me to invite? Just you and lip it, and I don't want her. Please come. Yours with love and writer's cramp. Judy. End of Section 8. Recording by Joe Carabas, Vallejo, California. Section 9 of Daddy Long Legs. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Joe Carabas. Daddy Long Legs by Gene Webster. Section 9. Graduate. Lock Willow, 19th June. Dear Daddy Long Legs, I'm educated. My diploma is in the bottom bureau drawer to best dresses. Commencement was as usual, with a few showers at vital moments. Thank you for your rose buds. They were lovely. Master Jervie and Master Jimmy both gave me roses too, but I left theirs in the bathtub and carried yours in the class procession. Here I am at Lock Willow for the summer, nor forever maybe. The board is cheap, the surroundings quiet and conductive to a literary life. What more does a struggling author wish? I'm mad about my book. I think of it every waking moment and dream of it at night. All I want is peace and quiet and lots of time to work, interspersed with nourishing meals. Master Jervie is coming up for a week or so in August and Jimmy McBride is going to drop in sometime through the summer. He's connected with a bond house now and goes about the country selling bonds to banks. He's going to combine the farmers national at the corners and me on the same trip. You see that Lock Willow isn't entirely lacking in society. I'd be expecting to have you come motoring through. I only know that that is hopeless. When you wouldn't come to my commencement I'd tore you from my heart and buried you forever. Judy Abbott A.B. 24th July Dearest Daddy Long Legs Isn't it fun to work? Or don't you ever do it? It's especially fun when the kind of work is the thing you'd rather do more than anything else in the world. I've been writing as fast as my pen would go every day this summer and my only quarrel with life is that the days aren't long enough to write all the beautiful and valuable and entertaining thoughts I'm thinking. I finished the second draft of my book and I'm going to begin the third tomorrow morning at half past seven. It's the sweetest book you ever saw. It is truly. I think of nothing else. I can barely wait in the morning to dress and eat before beginning. Then I write and write and write till suddenly I'm so tired I'm limp all over. Then I go out with Colin, the new sheepdog, and romp through the fields and get a fresh supply of ideas for the next day. It's the most beautiful book you ever saw. Oh, pardon, I said that before. You don't think me conceded, do you, Daddy Deer? I'm not, really. Only just now I'm in the enthusiastic stage. Maybe later on I'll get cold and critical and sniffing. No, I'm sure I won't. This time I've written a real book. Just wait till you see it. I'll try for a minute to talk about something else. I never told you, did I, that Amazine Cary got married last May? They're still working here, but so far as I can see it has spoiled them both. She used to laugh when he tramped in mud or dropped ashes on the floor. But now you should hear her scold, and she doesn't curl her hair any longer. Amazine, who used to be so obliging about beating rugs and carrying wood, grumbles if you suggest such a thing. Also his neckties are quite dingy, black and brown, but they used to be scarlet and purple. I've determined never to marry. It's a deteriorating process, evidently. There isn't much of any farm news. The animals are all in the best of health. The pigs are unusually fat, the cows seem contented, and the hens are laying well. Are you interested in poultry? If so, let me recommend that invaluable little work, two hundred eggs per hen per year. I am thinking of starting an incubator next spring and raising broilers. You see, I'm settled at Lock Willow permanently. I've decided to stay until I've written one hundred and fourteen novels, like Anthony Trollop's Mother. Then I shall have completed my life work and can retire and travel. Mr. James McBride spent last Sunday with us, fried chicken and ice cream for dinner, both of which he appeared to appreciate. I was awfully glad to see him. He brought a momentary reminder that the world at large exists. Poor Jimmy is having a hard time peddling his bonds. The Farmers National at the Corners wouldn't have anything to do with them, in spite of the fact that they pay six percent interest and sometimes seven. I think he'll end up by going home to Warchester and taking a job in his father's factory. He's too open and confiding and kind-hearted ever to make a successful financier. But to be the manager of a flourishing overall factory is a very desirable position, don't you think? Just now he turns up his nose at overalls, but he'll come to them. I hope you appreciate the fact that this is a long letter from a person with writer's cramp. But I still love you, Daddy dear, and I'm very happy. With beautiful scenery all about and lots to eat, and a comfortable four-post bed and a ream of blank paper and a pint of ink, what mortise one want in the world. Yours, as always, Judy. P.S. The Postman arrives with some more news. We are to expect Master Jervion Friday next to spend a week. That's a very pleasant prospect. Only I'm afraid my poor book will suffer. Master Jervie is very demanding. 27 August Dear Daddy Long Legs, where are you, I wonder? I never know what part of the world you are in, but I hope you are not in New York during this awful weather. I hope you're on a mountain peak, but not in Switzerland, somewhere nearer. Looking at the snow and thinking about me. Please be thinking about me. I'm quite lonely and I want to be thought about. Oh, Daddy, I wish I knew you. Then, when we were unhappy, we could cheer each other up. I don't think I can stand much more of Locquillo. I'm thinking of moving. Sally is going to do settlement work in Boston next winter. Don't you think it would be nice for me to go with her? Then we could have a studio together. I can read while she... settled? And we could be together in the evenings. Evenings are very long when there's no one but the samples and Carrie and Amasai to talk to. I know in advance that you won't like my studio idea. I can read your secretary's letter now. Miss Jerusha Abbott, Dear Madam, Mr. Smith prefers that you remain at Locquillo, yours truly. Elmer H. Griggs. I hate your secretary. I am certain that a man named Elmer H. Griggs must be horrid. But truly, Daddy, I think I shall have to go to Boston. I can't stay here. If something doesn't happen soon, I shall throw myself into the silo pit out of sheer desperation. Mercy but it's hot. All the grass is burnt up and the brooks are dry and the roads are dusty. It hasn't rained for weeks and weeks. This letter sounds as though I had hydrophobia, but I haven't. I just want some family. Goodbye, my dearest Daddy. I wish I knew you. Judy. Locquillo. 19th September. Dear Daddy, something has happened and I need advice. Needed from you and from nobody else in the world. Wouldn't it be possible for me to see you? So much easier to talk than to write. And I'm afraid your secretary might open the letter. Judy. P.S. Very unhappy. Locquillo, 3rd October. Dear Daddy, long legs, your note written in your own hand with a pretty wobbly hand came this morning. Oh, I'm so sorry that you've been ill. I wouldn't have bothered you with my affairs if I had known. Yes, I will tell you the trouble but it's sort of complicated to write. And very private. Please don't keep this letter but burn it. Before I begin, here's a check for $1,000. It seems funny, doesn't it? For me to be sending a check to you? Where do you think I got it? I've sold my story, Daddy. It's going to be published serially in seven parts and then in a book. You might think I'd be wild with joy but I'm not. I'm entirely apathetic. Of course, I'm glad to be paying you. I owe you over $2,000 more. It's coming in installments. Now don't be horrid. Please about taking it because it makes me happy to return it. I owe you a great deal more than the mere money and the rest I will continue to pay all my life in gratitude and affection. And now, Daddy, about the other thing. Please give me your most worldly advice whether you think I'll like it or not. You know that I've always had a very special feeling towards you. You sort of represented my whole family but you won't mind will you if I tell you that I have a very much more special feeling for another man? You can probably guess without much trouble who he is. I suspect that my letters have been very full of Master Jervie for a long time. I wish I could make you understand what he is like and how entirely companionable we are. We think the same about everything. I'm afraid I have a tendency to make over my ideas to match his but he is almost always right. He ought to be, you know, for he has 14 years start of me. In other ways though he's just an overgrown boy and he does need looking after. He hasn't any sense about wearing rubbers when it rains. He and I always think the same things are funny and that is such a lot. It's dreadful when two people's senses of humor are antagonistic. I don't believe there's any bridging that gulf. And he is oh well he is just himself and I miss him and miss him the whole world seems empty and aching. I hate the moonlight because it's beautiful and he isn't here to see it with me. But maybe you've loved somebody too and you know if you have I don't need to explain. If you haven't I can't explain. Anyway that's the way I feel and I've refused to marry him. I didn't tell him why I was just dumb and miserable. I couldn't think of anything to say. And now he's gone away imagining that I want to marry Jimmy McBride. I don't at the least. I wouldn't think of marrying Jimmy. He isn't grown up enough. But Master Jervie and I got into a dreadful muddle of misunderstanding and we both hurt each other's feelings. The reason I sent him away was not because I didn't care for him but because I cared for him so much. I was afraid he would regret it in the future and I couldn't stand that. It didn't seem right for a person of my lack of antecedents to marry into any such family as his. I never told him about the orphan asylum and I hated to explain that I didn't know who I was. I may be dreadful you know. And his family are proud and I'm proud too. Also I felt sort of bound to you. After having been educated to be a writer I must at least try to be one. It would scarcely be fair to accept your education and then go off and not use it. But now that I'm going to be able to pay back the money I feel that I have partially discharged that debt. Besides, I suppose I could keep on being a writer even if I did marry. The two professions are not necessarily exclusive. I've been thinking very hard about it. Of course he is a socialist and he has unconventional ideas. Maybe he wouldn't mind marrying into the proletariat so much as some men might. Perhaps when two people are exactly in accord and always happy one together and lonely one apart they ought not to let anything in the world stand between them. Of course I want to believe that I would like to get your unemotional opinion. You probably belong to a family also and we'll look at it from a worldly point of view and not just a sympathetic human point of view. So you see how brave I am to lay it before you. Suppose I go to him and explain that the trouble is in Jimmy but is the John Greer home. Would that be a dreadful thing for me to do? It would take a great deal of courage. I'd almost rather be miserable for the rest of my life. This happened nearly two months ago. I haven't heard a word from him since he was here. I was just getting sort of acclimated to the feeling of a broken heart when a letter came from Julia that stirred me all up again. She said, very casually, that Uncle Jervis had been caught out all night in a storm when he was hunting in Canada and had been ill ever since with pneumonia. And I never knew it. I was feeling hurt because he had just disappeared into blankness without a word. I think he's pretty unhappy and I know I am. What seems to you the right thing for me to do? Judy 6th October Dearest Daddy Long Legs, yes, certainly outcome at half past four next Wednesday afternoon. Of course I can find the way. I've been in New York three times and am not quite a baby. I can't believe that I am really going to see you. I've been just thinking you for so long that it hardly seems as though you are a tangible, flesh and blood person. You are awfully good Daddy to bother yourself with me when you're not strong. Take care and don't catch cold. These fall rains are very damp. Affectionately. Judy. P.S. I've just had an awful thought. Have you a butler? I'm afraid of butlers and the door opens the door I shall faint upon the step. What can I say to him? You didn't tell me your name. Shall I ask for Mr. Smith? Thursday morning. My very dearest Master Jervie Daddy Long Legs Pendleton Smith. Did you sleep last night? I didn't. I had a single wink. I was too amazed and excited and bewildered and happy. I don't believe I ever shall sleep again or eat, either. But I hope you slept. You must, you know, because then you will get well faster and can come to me. Dear man, I can't bear to think how ill you've been and all the time I never knew it. When the doctor came down yesterday to put me in the cab, he told me that for three days they gave you up. Oh, dearest, if that had happened the light would have gone out of the world for me. I suppose that some day in the far future one of us must leave the other. But at least we shall have had our happiness and there will be memories to live with. I meant to cheer you up and instead I have to cheer myself, for in spite of being happier than I ever dreamed I could be, I'm also sober or the fear that something may happen rests like a shadow on my heart. Always before I could be frivolous and carefree and unconcerned because I had nothing precious to lose. Now I shall have a great, big worry all the rest of my life. Whenever you are away from me I shall be thinking of all the automobiles that can run over you or the signboards that can fall on your head or the dreadful, squirmy germs that you may be swallowing. My peace of mind is gone forever. But anyway I never cared much for just plain peace. Please get well fast, fast, fast! I want to have you close by where I can touch you and make sure you are tangible. Such a little half hour we had together I'm afraid maybe I dreamed it. If I were only a member of your family a very distant fourth cousin then I could come and visit you every day out and plump up your pillow and smooth out those two little wrinkles in your forehead and make the corners of your mouth turn up in a nice, cheerful smile. But you are cheerful again, aren't you? You were yesterday before I left. The doctor said I must be a good nurse that you looked ten years younger. I hope that being in love doesn't make everyone ten years younger. Will you still care for me, darling? If I turn out to be only eleven? Yesterday was the most wonderful day that could ever happen. If I live to be ninety-nine I shall never forget the tiniest detail. The girl that left Lock Willow at dawn was a very different person from the one who came back at night. Mrs. Semple called me at half past four. I started wide awake in the darkness and the first thought that popped into my head was, I'm going to see daddy long legs. I ate breakfast in the kitchen by candlelight and then drove the five miles to the station through the most glorious October colouring. The sun came up on the way and the swamp maples and dogwood glowed crimson and orange and the stone walls and corn fields with hors-frost. The air was keen and clear and full of promise. I knew something was going to happen. All the way in the train the rails kept singing you're going to see daddy long legs. It made me feel secure. I had such faith in daddy's ability to set things right and I knew that somewhere another man, dearer than daddy, was waiting to see me. Somehow I had a feeling that before the journey ended I should meet him too. And you see when I came to the house on Madison Avenue it looked so big and brown and forbidding that I didn't dare go in so I walked around the block to get up my courage but I needn't have been a bit afraid you're a butler such a nice man that he made me feel at home at once. Is this Miss Abbott he said to me and I said yes so I didn't have to ask for Mr. Smith after all he told me to wait in the drawing room. It was a very somber magnificent man's sort of room. I sat down on the edge of a big upholstered chair I kept saying to myself I'm going to see daddy long legs I'm going to see daddy long legs. Then presently the man came back and asked me please to step up to the library I was so excited that really and truly my feet would hardly take me up. Outside the door he turned and whispered he's been very ill Miss. This is the first day he's been allowed to sit up and not to stay long enough to excite him. I knew from the way he said it that he loved you and I think he's an old deer. Then he knocked and said Miss Abbott. And I went in and the door closed behind me. It was so dim coming in from the brightly lighted hall that for a moment I could scarcely make out anything. Then I saw a big easy chair before the fire and a shining tea table in the smaller chair beside it and I realized that a man was sitting in the big chair propped up by pillows with a rug over his knees. Before I could stop him he rose rather shakily and steadied himself by the back of the chair and just looked at me without a word. And then and then I saw it was you but even with that I didn't understand. I thought Daddy had had you come there to meet me or a surprise. Then you laughed and held out your hand and said, Dear little Judy couldn't you guess that I was Daddy Long Legs? In an instant it flashed over me. Oh, but I have been stupid. A hundred little things might have told me if I had had wits. I wouldn't make a very good detective would I, Daddy? Jervie? What must I call you? Just plain Jervie sounds disrespectful and I can't be disrespectful to you. It was a very sweet half hour before your doctor came and sent me away. I was so dazed when I got to the station that I almost took a train to St. Louis. You were pretty dazed too. You forgot to give me any tea but we were both very very happy, aren't we? I drove back to Lock Willow in the dark Oh, how the stars were shining. And this morning I've been out with Colin visiting all the places that you and I went to together and remembering what you said and how you looked. The woods today are burnished bronze and the air is full of frost. It's climbing weather. I wish you were here to climb the hills with me. I am missing you dreadfully Jervie dear but it's a happy kind of missing. We'll be together soon. We belong to each other now really and truly no make believe. Doesn't it seem queer for me to belong to someone at last? It seems very very sweet and I shall never let you be sorry for a single instant. Yours forever and ever. Judy This is the first love letter I ever wrote. Isn't it funny that I know how? End of section 9 End of Daddy Long Legs by Jean Webster Recorded for You Mom by Joe Carabas Vallejo, California