 Hello friends. This is kind of weird. I'm filming and I'm home. I'm home. I'm home. I'm home. I'm back home with my books, with my family as well. But my books. It feels weird filming here. This is my first time. I've filmed a few vlog clips since I've been back but like this is crazy. I'm actually, I'm feeling really good. I'm feeling very motivated. We've come back just as it's spring. The weather's getting me in a good mood. I'm feeling great. When I did come back though, when I walked into my bedroom, I was like, I have a lot of books. That's a bit excessive. That's not normal. And I think, you know, you should maybe get some help or something. I was like maybe I'm starting to think I have a problem. Also, I know we're getting off topic. We need to catch up. But we'll talk about the video in a second. But I have no room left for books on my bookshelf. So until I move out, like the big move out that hopefully could do this year. There's no room for the books I read this year. Like I don't have room. I don't have room. I have made room. Oh, there's a book missing here. That's because my dad's reading it right now. But I don't have room for any more books to read. I have to stop reading. I don't even know what I'm going to do with the books I read for the rest of the year. Because it's packed pretty tight up in here. Anyways, so today I thought I would do a video which I've done once before. And it is these books will self-destruct in one year. This is originally created by Beckron The Books, I believe. And I did it once. And then I reacted to it last year when it had been a year. And I refuse to unhaul the books. I have not read all the books in this list. I can't remember all of them. But I know for sure there's at least one or two that I still really want to read. And I'm not going to unhaul. Run the clip. We know what's happening. The rules don't apply. I'm not going to unhaul them. I want to read these books. They're on my TV. I'm not unhauling them. I don't care. I'm not unhauling them. I'm doing it again. And this this time I promise I have picked six books. No, not six books. I've picked eight books. I have six here because two are wrapped up. I've picked eight books that if I don't read them in a year I am going to unhaul them. I promise. I promise. I think I've struck a good balance with these books that I've included. They're books I still really want to read and figure out what I think of them. But if I have to unhaul them I can live with it. You know the ones when I did it before I did my stupid thing where I'm like I'm putting books on here to motivate myself and then I don't read them. I'm like um I really want to read that book. What the fuck. So we're going to chat through these books and I'll tell you why I haven't read them yet and why I'm a bit tentative to do so. And if I don't read them in a year we have to unhaul them. Also my neighbours are having some like their windows done. There's a lot of drawings so I'm going to just try and fill them around that. If you hear the occasional bang we're going to live with it. If you think I should really rush to read any of these books and prioritise them and make sure I read them before I unhaul them please let me know in the comments down below. First book we have is The Whispermen by Alex North. Firstly I fucking hate this cover. I think this is one of the most hideous covers I've ever seen in my entire life. Like it's actually offensive to me. It's offensive. It's I hate it. I want to know what does it feel like to be so goddamn ugly? It's like this butterfly wing. I mean it's got like skulls and like bones. It's photoshopped badly onto it and then there's like this random nail. The US cover to this is nice. I don't know what happened here but this is a thriller that was popular a couple years ago and it's come out 2021 I want to say 2019. Oh dear. Whoa. So I feel like I'm just not motivated anymore because who's talking about this now? Who's talking about this now? People who spoke about it in 2019. We all want to speak about this now. We've got a father and a son. They moved to this town where there was a serial killer like 15 years ago and then I think murders start happening again or people start going missing again. I heard good things about this when it came out but I just have had yeah no inclination to read it anymore. I'm completely gonna see. I got this at the works here in the UK where you can get like three books of five pounds sometimes or like you can get them very cheap. I think maybe is a little bit more now but I think it used me three five pounds. Anyways so I did get this very cheap so it's not like oh my god I spent loads of money on it and I'm unhauling it. I just don't know if this is my kind of thriller anymore. You know I think maybe I got this when I was still figuring some of my tastes out and I really understand my taste a lot better now. So yeah I don't know about this one. I don't know about this one. There's a lot of these are old books. I've been on my tbuff quite a while and we've got to we've got to read them or get them off. I really think I've made a good list here guys. I'm not gonna refuse to unhaul these. But I did tell a bit of a lie there. Next we have got Dark and Shallow Lies by Ginny Meyers-Sane. Out of all the ones on this list I feel like this is the one of the ones I've heard the best things about. I feel like when people not a lot of people have read this but I do feel that when people pick it up they do really enjoy it and really this not just sounds like something I should love it's just YA and I'm not really reading YA anymore. I'm sorry to say I'm not reading YA anymore which makes me sad. Like I do love YA and I want to the book I want to write originally the book I wanted to write is YA but I'm thinking I'm not reading enough YA anymore to necessarily know innately like what's good you know like you have to be I think very tapped into the genre you're writing. So anyways we've got a missing girl a town full of sidekicks a secret that won't stay buried so we're in a small town in Louisiana. Our main girlie's best friend has gone missing and she discovers a connection between her best friend's disappearance and a pair of grizzly murders 13 years earlier. Oh interesting some of the some of the dates for these flashbacks. So I really like the sound of the setting in this Louisiana the heat the the swamps the like dark magic like I feel like it could have a really good vibe to it and I have heard really good things but when I look at it do I feel inclined to read it not really not really but I'm honest with you. So you know all these books are ones that I either I need to kick up the arse to read or just let go off you know so I don't know we shall see but I'm not reading a ton of YA and when I just flick through it so the way that it it's written I feel like it's very YA like very young YA when I'm looking at just like the cadence and like the length of the sentences and the way it's written I just don't know I just don't know. We have another YA on the list and that is After Love by Tanya Burns another very popular one I have a fairy lute edition. I think these two girls are together and I think one of them dies yeah one of them dies and the dead one gets an invitation from the afterlife she can't decline to join a clan of fierce girl reapers who take the souls of the city's dead to await their fate. That sounds a little bit like you know I'm not like other girls okay. But Ash can't forget her first love Poppy and she'll do anything to see her again even if it only means they get a few more days together dead or alive. So that that's the situation now. No no no it's YA again. The more I think about it though I have enjoyed a lot of YA romances that I've read. I really enjoy the stuff from Cusum Anonado. I just read Check and Make by Eddie Hiswood although that is like it's really just YA if we're honest ourselves. Ali is pushing the boundaries there. So I do enjoy a lot of the YA romance that I read. Heartstopper could be seen as YA romance but I just I just don't know if it's a little bit quirky paranormal romance but not in a way that I would eat up. Do you know what I mean? There's more I think about this now. I want to book when I pick it up I want to feel like it has the possibility of being a five star. Do I feel like this has a possibility being a five star? No. Do I think it could be a 3.5 or a four? Absolutely yeah I think I could enjoy this but like if I'm picking a book up but I don't think it will be a five star what am I doing here? What am I doing here? What choices am I making? What has led me down this far? So yeah please let me know what you think because I'm I'm torn on this one but I feel like a lot of you might have read this so let me know if you enjoyed it. Then we've got a book I don't know much about. I'm gonna be honest I got sent this by the publisher in kind of like a selection of books I got sent and this was one that probably the one in the selection that I was least interested in. It's The Murders at Fleet House by Lucinda Riley. She's a number one Sunday house bestseller but I'm so sorry girl I have not heard of you. I assume this is the kind of stuff that like people pick up in supermarkets. It does very very well in terms of sales but like you don't hear people talking about it. Do you know what I mean? There's quite a culture of that I feel like with UK books. I can be books that fucking sell so much but like who is who is reading them? I've never heard anyone speak about this. So we've got Detective Inspector Jazz Hunter. See does this also sound really good? Isn't long before she's on a potential murder scene at a nearby private boarding school an incident the headmaster is determined to write off as a tragic accident. As it becomes clear that the victim was tangled in a web of loyalties and old vendettas that go far beyond just one student as the body camp begins to grow Jazz knows she's running out of time. So it's like a boarding school, secrets, academia, murders like it does sound like everything I do enjoy. So this is kind of one out of all of these that I think I'm not incentivized to read it but if I were to read it I think I could really enjoy it. Like the cover just doesn't excite me. Like if you're giving me a boarding school as we just talked about this for a second a private boarding school murder mystery book with an inspector and your cover is some moors and a shed. Like what this cover is not giving me what the book is. It's giving it's giving share. That doesn't convey to me what this book is about. It's a problem. Oh they're banging. Let's stop talking for a second. So yeah I feel like this has a lot of potential but again it's not one I look at and I'm super excited to read. Next we have two books from Book of the Month that I got when they used to send out like all the books of the month when you did sponsorships with them. Now they just you pick a few so there was always a few books I'd get that weren't the top you know of top of the books I would pick but I'm still very much intrigued. I've been very much intrigued by all the books I've ever gotten from Book of the Month because I think their selections are great. So we're 50-50 on this but the first one is A Little Hope by Ethan Joella. I'm gonna be honest I don't know anything about this but I remember I've had a few comments in the past telling me that I'm going to enjoy it. So it says Aluminous life affirming novel set in an idyllic, Connecticut town over the course of the year. So we're following a couple who find out that one of them has an aggressive form of cancer. We're following his boss grappling with a secret of his own. Someone, a woman coming to terms with the loss of her husband. So all these different characters in this small town and I think it's going to be very emotional, very heavy, very hard hitting and I have enjoyed books like that and also it's very short. It's only like 250-ish pages and the font is pretty big so I don't think it's going to take me long to read so it definitely is one I think I should just read and get to. Sorry about the panning. I had to just stop filming for 20 minutes because they will make his original eyes. I'm just hoping that it's not too obtrusive for you. Could you please have quiet in the studio? Quiet please. Fucking shut up! Thank you. This not so sounds great but I just think this has been on my TBR now since the end of 2021. We're coming up at the end of this year, it'll be three years. It's two and a half years. This has been on my TBR and I haven't read it so I do think it's time to say if I don't read it in another year, three and a half years on your TBRs I think is a fair time to give something a shot. I think it sounds interesting. I think I've heard great things from you guys in the comments before but again I'm not feeling super motivated to pick it up. And then we have The Good Left Undone by Adriana Tregani. What is this about? Because I don't remember. Family's mate Tria has always been brisk and opinionated. Now she faces the end of her life she's determined to share a long-held secret with her family about her own mother's secret love story with her childhood friend and a dashing Scottish sea captain, the father that she never knew. Interesting. Okay so it's like a family historical novel with a hint of romance perhaps. This kind of reminds me of next year in Havana which I really did not enjoy like family like grandmother's romance story in historical maybe split timeline. I don't know here's the thing we shall see. We shall see what we think but I'm not this this when we look at this we could all agree it does not scream Megan you know. We look at this and we think you know she may enjoy it but it does not scream me in terms of like when I read historical I often like them to maybe be a mystery or fantasy like I really like historical with another genre but my experiences with historical romances have not been the best have not been the best so we'll see what I think of this one. Yeah I don't look at it and think oh my god I can't wait to read that. Also it's quite long it's over 400 pages like I just feel like it could be a bit of a slog. It could be a little you know difficult one to get through. It's not for main park. I feel terribly ill all of a sudden. Oh and it's the brink of World War II. I've had enough with World War II books. I never want to read a World War II book ever again. Apart from I'm gonna read Well the Hands of Ghost is World War I isn't it? Like New Catherine Arden one and also it's Catherine Arden so she can do anything she wants yeah. Anyways yeah let me know what you thought of this if you have read it. And then the final two books on my list are Wrapped Up so we have an opportunity to read them in the last two episodes of Wrapped Up this year and if not maybe I'll read them later on. First is Shine by Jessica Ying who I believe is like a K-pop star. I'm gonna be honest I have not heard the best things about this book. I have not heard the greatest things about this book. People have read it I think it's gonna pretty low average rating. It's a YA about a girl becoming a K-pop star so like a girlies writing what she knows and it's got a little bit of a romance in it as well. I don't know boss I don't know about this one. It's been you know obviously it's Wrapped Up so it's been on my TBR for a long long time and I just I don't know I'm seeing a lot of two stars all the way through the ratings. There's also some people have enjoyed it so we shall see. I think it's interesting reading something like this from someone who's been through the industry but does it excite me? No I kind of think that I would maybe dunk on this book and maybe this book doesn't need me to dunk on it. You know sometimes when I think I'm not gonna enjoy a book let's just let it exist. We don't need to I don't want to be negative you know so maybe it's best to just let this book exist without me ever reading it. And then we've got an interesting one. We've got The Dinner Guest by BP Wolter. This is like a murder mystery thriller where there's this dinner party that I think there's couple and a few of their friends host and by the end of them one of them is killed. I can't remember who's killed. One of them's killed. I think one of the couple's holding the knife. I don't know. This one's interesting because this is I remember that the the reason I got this was because it's written by the guy who used to run Waterstone social media which is not you know am I have been not been in focus rages? Aye aye aye mama mia. I don't think that would necessarily get me excited to read a book now but I was like oh my god it's actually not paid here. I think it's an interesting thriller. I've owned it for a very long time. We'll see. We'll see this one I'm tentative about because it's been it's just been on my tbf for so long. It's been on my tbf for so long. I think there was also Waterstones through the month which also I'm sometimes a bit of a sucker for Waterstones through the month. Nowadays I'm finding I've read a lot of them though like because they do the paperback it's like the year after the book has first come out. I'm finding I've read a lot of them nowadays but anyways anyways anyways anyways. I think when I was first getting back in treating it was kind of where I was finding some recommendations. I yeah I don't know about this one. I don't know about this one. It's had a lot of reviews. He's published a few other books um the snotches always sounded interesting to me. It kind of reminds me of like like the whole I don't know it's the whole book set at the dinner party. Well we'll just have to wait and see you are so inquisitive my darling. Because that would be fun that reminds me of like a play you know when you go to a play like an experiment. I used to go to plays a lot. I did drama up to A level. I used to go to plays at the National Theatre a lot. You'd go see a play and it would be like you know set during one night one evening you know you see a lot of those and I think it's an interesting snotches. However if this is like oh we're at the dinner party for like the start of the book and then the rest of the book is something else I might be a bit annoyed. Like it reminds me of the woman in the library. I thought the woman in the library has like a murder where someone dies in the library and it's someone sitting at this table together who has committed the murder and I thought the whole book was going to be them in the library like trying to figure it out a locked room situation but it ended up spanning months. I would like this book to be kind of contained. I don't know if it will be so we shall see. So there we go everyone. That is the books I have to read within a year plus the two that I wrapped up or I have to unhaul them. Let me know how many of these you think I'm going to read. These are books I'm less interested in reading than the ones I put on the list last time. However that was my downfall last time. So I don't know how many of these we're going to read. We'll see but we're going to have to read them or we're going to have to unhaul them. So let me know which of these you definitely think I should prioritize. Any of them that you've enjoyed. Thank you so much for watching this video. It was a quick one whilst I sort my life out and get back to normal life. So it was a little bit of a quick one today. We've got very exciting vlogs coming this weekend but I'll see you guys very soon in another video. Bye!