 But in my heart, it just like, I knew that he was gone, but I didn't wanna accept it. You know what I'm saying? So then everything is just like your whole, like a whole, somebody just snitch your heart at your chest and just, you know, cause I got other kids and we all cool, but me and Wadi, we like, we get into it, we argue, we fight, we do everything together. Yeah, we on Boss Talk 101. You think like for us, I mean, cause you've had a bunch of, I mean, artists, you know, a lot of artists, you've seen it, you know, you see artists as rappers for some reason, they seem like a stigma cause the internet sucked it in. So as soon as it happened, I get on here, I was on my computer about 3.30 for one in the morning when this stuff started happening. First thing I do is I see RIP on my, it came to my timeline on my views for Wadi. That like real time, it may have been, I may be wrong with my time. I know I call Nini right after that and my son, you know, I'm like, man, is this real or whatever? You know, cause I couldn't understand. Cause social media is so fast. Sometimes you can hear on social media before you even find out yourself. That's why a lot of parents, sometimes people would find out on social media before they actually even get a call. You know what I mean? I'm gonna tell you, before I got the house in, in the city, we in the country. So when I get out there on my phone, I lose service. So, Wadi had called me like probably about a little more quiet and he like, my son's such a bitch. You know, talking about his brother. And I'm like, just chill, you know, y'all, you know, just get you a lift. But after that, like two, three hours later, my fiance phone just ringing constantly. And I'm like, don't answer that. It's like something just can't cause we sleep. But I wake up like five minutes for these calls and I'm just sitting up and I'm just looking at the ceiling and I'm like, I ain't. So then the phone just ringing constantly, constantly. So when he wake up, I'm like, don't answer that phone. And he like, no, it's such and such. I'm like, don't answer that phone. But I don't know what it was. It was just something I just don't, I can't even explain the feeling. But then when he, he still never answered the phone. So I'm like, don't answer that phone. So I tell Cody, I'm like, you know, let's go. We're gonna go down there. But I ain't talked to nobody yet, but I can just feel it. Yeah, because with the phone call coming back to backlighting, you know, something wrong. Yeah, so I never answered to like get, our other house is like an hour and a half from the country. So when I get to the house, we just pack up our stuff and install a driving. So at this time when people calling me, they just like, you know, you know, it's trying to, I really don't even know what they were seeing cause I'm so, I don't even know how I made it here. Cause I can't even remember to drive or nothing. Like it just, but in my heart, it is just like, I knew that he was gone, but I didn't want to accept it. You know what I'm saying? So then everything is just like your whole, like a whole, somebody just snitch, your heart out your chest and just, you know, cause I got other kids and we all cool, but me and Wody, we like, we get into it. We order, we fight, we do everything together. Like it is, I'm talking about, so when I left his house that day, the last time we left, cause we go every week, but that week we did not go. So, and then he like, man, you just drive, move to Arkansas, y'all shouldn't have did that. So that's what made me feel guilty because like he telling me, you know, not to leave, but my guilty part of the situation, I just feel like if I would have been here, when he calling and when he saying he ready to go and ain't nobody trying to take him, if he would have called me, he know I was coming. But if I would have been here, he call me, I'm downtown, I don't even go downtown. I think I went to Mario, coming downtown, like, I hate coming down here. This is the worst thing over. This traffic is bad, I hate it. But if he would have called me, he know, my come get me, I'm coming down there. So that's a lot of guilt that I feel in my heart, like, Dan, you shouldn't have left if you were to be in there. It's like, right now I'm ready to move from Arkansas because I feel like if I wouldn't have been there, then my, my fiance was like, no, it's not like that. You know, you already got a day in the car. Yeah, but I understand where you're coming from too, that you felt away. Cause I, I've been through situations, not that in depth, but where I feel like if I did this, this might not happen. I think we all do that from time to time. You may even have had time where you think, man, if I did this, I did that. But like, like your family do say though, you know, certain things are already written, I believe, predestined to be honest with you, but. Yeah, we on boss talk one on one.