 process been like for you healing and processing over the past few days still new just trying to focus on you know what's important and you know that was the task I had tonight and that was the game so just trying to not trying to break down in front all you guys tonight so if we just focus on the game please you know I could speak briefly if you know probably one or two questions but you know for me I just there's a lot of grieving going on with everyone especially their family I'm just paying my respects and just trying to keep it as brief as possible about that I know in the next coming days there will be some more news and things that are gonna be done in order to you know commemorate all the lives lost tonight you just to focus on the game so yeah what field you guys to do this one in this match-up and get in the way I just understood you know the position that we were in and the standings and as well as just you know getting on a good streak before we head into all star break express as the AC we've let a few games go so we just wanted to get right right back on the on the winning track you know tonight was gonna be a good test where we played the same team twice and you know almost four days they made some adjustments and we made some adjustments as well and we answered all their runs that they threw at us I I think he always made a huge impact while he was playing and we always knew that he was focused on one goal and I was getting a gold trophy getting a ring making sure that he crushed every record make sure he crushed every opponent he had peers looking up to him it's not common when you're playing against somebody and they're looking up to you the way that we all looked up to him while we out there on the court but like I said I think when you study someone like that you try to embody that spirit and while he was here I tried to embody that spirit you know whether asking questions about decisions or you know what how did you feel about this emotionally I just would go really really really deep into thought with him and he was able to just give me some direction when I needed it most so yeah I take that along with me I appreciate that admiration but like I said you know out there on the court I'm not the only one that's hurting you know and I don't want to make this about me and just our relationship because we all shared something really really strong with him as a bond you know whether watching him or studying him or you know getting to ask him questions or seeing him out there work out or you know we all share something and that's a beautiful thing we're all connected through one person you know that's the special thing for me you know