 Hey everyone, we're gonna get started in a minute or two. We're experimenting with live-streaming to the universe. So, a lot of universal people. Hopefully you'll be able to hear me fine through the interwebs to give you a little bit of background for everybody here. It shows about death. It's gonna be great. It's gonna be fine. I asked some people beforehand, since you know, you audience members out in the ether don't know. I asked people kind of what their thoughts are on having control over their own death so I have a bunch of information from them in front of me. And there's more coming. There's cards out there. Anytime you all feel free to just come on up and give me that card. It's okay. I did not get a single fucking word that came out of her mouth. She hated it when I swear. She couldn't stand it. She couldn't really draw her nuts. She came up with her own swears, like do-ba-la-ba-la. And fecal-a-fecal-a. But she would swear at a time. She would say fangu, which means fuck you all the time. Thinking that I didn't know what it was. So she would constantly say, you know, manja-manja, fangu-la-manja, which means eat, fuck you, eat. And I enjoyed it. It was finally going. It was really the last three years of her life. She was ready. You know, and somebody wrote here, you know, that their, I think it was their man told them, you know, they're ready to die. They're kind of waiting it out. And some of the people that I met in her assisted living community met somebody who was 100. She was just turning 100. I was having fun with all these ladies. They were really sweet. Oh, you turned into 100. She was like, yeah. She was like, fuck you, done. You know. I mean, these are people who are just, it was just like, they're like, I've done everything I've, I've set out to do that I needed to do. And I'm just ready, you know. But in the last few weeks of my grandmother's life, she was really, really healthy her whole life. She died in 95 in hospice. She decided to stop taking her medications. She was on 12 prescriptions that were keeping her going. And we watched, like people coming in and out of hospice just like, one after another. And she just like, was taking up residency on this floor, this one corner room for two weeks. While people are just like, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. I am now dying. It was really interesting to watch her body, to watch her go into a coma basically, and just watch her take this long inhalation and she would like exhale and all of this air would come out. You think like, that's it, she's gone, she's done. No. No, no, no, no, no. There was body that turned that off, I think. I did. I know that he did the Raghavan dude. I said, yeah, there we go. Yeah, you know, up, down, all around. So, the thing that happened for me that was really intense, there were two things. One, and I've talked about this at length in one of my shows, I do a show about my grandmother. She didn't want to take her Bible with her. She was going into hospice. She didn't want to take her rosary. This woman was a cat. She did not understand why I wasn't anymore. I didn't get that I had stopped, that I was done. Because when you're Italian, you're Catholic. It's like being Jewish. You're just Jewish, right? But no, when you're Italian, you're Catholic. It's tying together, but it's not. It's we all know. But now where I'm from. The priest had this conversation with her. My grandmother was on the phone with him and she really, really wanted to know why she wasn't dead. She really, she was frustrated. And she was on the phone with him asking him, why am I not dead yet? And all he could say was, you know, the Lord will take you when he's ready, Mary. And she was just like, oh. And she'd heard that so much. And when you're 95, and you're gonna die, and there's really not much to be done about it, and your body keeps breaking down. So she didn't really want to hear that. And so I think that had you better heard not. Well, all she wanted were pictures of the family. That's it. This past since as well, lived right across the hall from my grandmother and community. Now my grandmother had known Anna since she was 19, because she married her brother when she was 19. So Anna lived until she was like 94. So I mean they knew each other really, really well. But she was venomously upset with my grandmother that she hadn't stopped taking her pills. She's like, you're going against what God wants. Humans make pills. No. Oh. Oh, they did make it. I'm learning something new from my aunt. It was really odd. Crazy what happens to people in their belief systems. I got on the phone with my aunt, because it was just, you know, the family was just me and my wife, and my aunt, and my uncle, and my dad, you know. And my great aunt wanted to come and visit my grandmother. But she was like, I mean, she was going into a coma. She wasn't in it yet, but she was going into a coma. And we really wanted to just kind of keep it as this insular family. But my great aunt got on the phone with my aunt. She's like, marry one with these belief systems. Like, where are you getting it in your head? That because you're not here, she won't die. And because she didn't take her pills, she is all of a sudden not going to have it. And so this leads us to this topic tonight. A really easy death. She went into a coma. She was on morphine. She lasted two weeks, and then she just eventually passed away. But we have that happen. Stop it. If you watch the documentary, How to Die in Oregon, which I highly suggest. There was a man who got so ill with his particular cancer that it made his eyes bulge. He couldn't close the manual. Situations he used in Washington State before it passed, where you could choose your own death. What? Age. Happening. And so I kind of wonder, again, why it's going into the political realm. Like, what is it about this particular subject that's getting people so riled up? If you think about it, the grandmother, he put them towards you, and then he'll step away. Organs and more. That's how it works. Now, when you think about that, when you think about that grandmother, hood on, he can't see his face. Little sickle. I love that word, sickle. He's coming at you, but he's just like, ding, ding. Makes you bleed from the top of your head. He loses out. Then he just goes away. Comes back. Ding, ding. And to your leg. Just a little. A bunch more blood coming down. Maybe that's a car accident. Maybe that man of death that way. It's a big man of death story. Maybe it comes up, ding, ding. But you're just, you just keep going. The wonderful thing about modern medicine is that the doctors can fight it. Isn't that great? The doctors can just fight it. For so long, we didn't have this ability. We didn't have this honor aside. And now we do, and we need to thank, oh, we got this here. If you think about it, it says it all through the Bible. Just a bunch of nouns and shouts and stuff that just lead us to this. If you look at any word in the Bible, it's basically telling you, wait to die until Jesus takes you. Every word. I'm a big Bible studyer. So I know what I'm talking about. I've got a Twitter account with 50,000 followers. I love scripture. I'm telling people what to do with it. So basically, this is what happens. Your body wants to break down. And then your body wants to break down. And then the grim reaper comes in, they have a little party, and they're having tea, and they're kind of thinking, well, maybe on July 24th? No. So anyway, like, who are these fuckers? Who are doing this? They're everywhere. You know me, and a lot of you don't. I have a little bit, just that tiny problem with religion. Just small. Kind of microscopic, really. It just, I just, you know, it's because I was raised a particular way. I went into a new age shit storm for a long time. I'm thinking that would help. And it came out the other side to realize that I'm fine. But one of my favorite things that someone wrote, when I take things out of context a lot, it's really fun. I like surprises. I like surprises. So let's just see what happens. Let's just see what happens, right? Say I'm walking down the street, someone throws a rock in my head, and I fall over, and a car goes over my head, crushes my skull, and my brain just goes flying. That's a surprise. Say I'm on a post-it, and I'm just going down the road, and I'm having a great time. And I hit an ice patch, but it's the summer. It's a little too hot. And I slip, and I fall. I hit my shoulder, which, you know, hurts a little bit, but not too much, but I get a staff infection. It goes through my entire arm. That falls off. They saw another one on it, but it's not the same arm. It's a different one. And then, you know, I'm just chewing some gum, and I choke on it. Surprise. Lysorosis. Think about it. There's so many great ways to die that I don't know if I necessarily want a choice. I'd rather things happen to me. You'll see death with dignity as suicide. And so we're getting into a rhetoric game again. Death tax becomes the death tax. Global warming becomes climate change. And this way, everybody on both sides can kind of deal with these phrases, you know, in a new way, in a reality that makes sense for them. So we take assisted suicide, and we turn it for euthanasia and turn it into death with dignity. Not to say that I'm not on board with this at all, because I am, but think about it. When you start messing with language, there's going to be people who point it out like me. And people on the other side who are basically saying, no, no, no, no, no, no. You and my friend are pro-portionist going on. We know that's what's not going on, right? But when you change things, when you shift things, when you take that language and you just make it into what you want it to be, it can have a really big difference. I mean, take this for example. One of the major organizations for this. I think it's great. Compassion and choices. Two C words that I personally like. Compassion. Very Buddhist. You got to come. You got to be passionate. Come on. Choices. We all like choices. Everybody likes choices. Choices are great. Let's have more choices. Now, passionate conservatives. Do they want DVDs with doubt? I mean, they aren't compassionate. It just gets strange. Like, it becomes this battle of what words make sense to who and what they're saying and da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da. People holding signs and not holding signs. I'd really like to have a conversation with you. Well, I wanted to talk some sense into you because from the documentary, too, it would be stealing it. Well, you... ... ... ... and that's interesting for a little while, right? It's not a person. He was at the Republican convention and he gave a talk, he gave a speech. Anybody remember this? And he was like, it's all he said. It was like for the camera. It was like his line from his campaign back in 1980, which was from a movie he was in. It's like when Schwarzenegger went into office when I was living in California, you know, and started using fucking lines from Terminator movies and shit to like, to, to win, you know. Like, you know, it's what love used to do. And he's like, okay, I remember there's this picture of him in a car, holding like this. Who's going to work? It just, it's fucking insane. It's insane. So when you think about him, and I just imagine myself with Arnie, just sitting next to his bed being like, Arnie, okay, here's the deal, man. It's like, yeah, I can just, you know, make you a little drink and you can be out of pain. Just, you know, do this whole Republican thing. Weird, it's like people thinking that they're going against God. They're going against something bigger than them. And it comes back to suicide again and again and again and again, it's just a suicide. And then I started thinking this, okay. So someone has a terminal illness, and they are in this really, really difficult position because they're going back and forth with, I don't know, let's say chemotherapy and all these things, things are working, a couple months go by, everything's great, and then they were worse off, and they were when they started, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. It keeps going back and forth, you know, you got it. And then they can't, they can't be in the position to take their own life because in the state that they live in, they don't have that choice, and so they have to suffer and suffer and suffer and suffer and suffer until eventually they pass. But some people would say that that was heroic. It's like I could see, you know, I could see in her eyes that she, she wanted to wait until something was ready to take her, you know. I could see it, I could see it in her eyes. She wanted, she wanted to wait until, I don't know, how the fuck do you know? How the fuck do you know if you see it in her eyes? Okay, that's a song title. Based on a projection. I can see it in your eyes that you love me, la-da-da-da-da-foo-foo-fum-fum. Okay, maybe you'll sell some records, good job, climb the charts. By the way, there are no charts anymore. If the charts don't exist, the music industry is dying. Different show. April. How are people like in that position to know? Like you're supposed to suffer, you're supposed to go through this. It's, it's really, it's kind of, it's really, it's kind of strange. I mean, if that whole, I mean, and then I think about growing up and the whole idea, this is really interesting. This is really fascinating to me that we are born sinners. I love that. I love that. Okay, it's like, the greatest miracle is a sin. The most wonderful thing, like, how does it even happen? How does one even get, I mean, the baby goes, Oh, who's the sinner? I mean, like, what? And I was like, rockin' the sin. And the sleep is like, what is, what is going on? What is happening? What is, how is that, this doesn't make any sense. So then we're sinners and everything we do is sin. Think about it, you know, it's true. You're shitting all over your parents. You're pissing all over them, right? You're drooling all over them. This is awful. You think that? And one's like, oh, it'll be so great. The only thing great is the baby smell at the beginning. After that, it's shit. It's just shit and piss and vomit. And that continues and continues. Okay? It doesn't just stop there, okay? Because then they start vomiting other things. Like, I don't know, video games and other things. They just keep vomiting and shitting and they're just like, they go to their friends and they hang out with their friends and they're just shitting their friends. Shitting friends things. And it's like, oh, my friends are so cool. Shitting their friends stuff. They're just like, they're just like peeing their ideology. Case. Gross. Gross. And we're like, everyone thinks this is awesome. This is great. Children. All right, let's just put it. I mean, really, you have a child who is going through a fucking terminal illness and you don't do anything to put them out of their misery when they have two months left to live and they are in dire fucking agony. It doesn't work. We'll see more if it doesn't work. Let's say all of it is just, it's not enough. It's not enough. That's sunny enough. I was like, yeah, yeah, maybe. Maybe more clean. But there are people out there. Hello, Christian scientists. Who won't even do that? It's okay that you start with a black and bubble, tumble, tumble, bubble. The fucker knows his cartoon through the bubble. The bubble. Trouble. Trouble. What? Troublemakers. Stayed up as a big, talent, trouble troublemaker and he won't do anything. I think that's messed up. That's really messed up. It's very, very strange. I mean, I could just keep throwing out metaphors and all this sort of stuff in you, but he was coming back to suicide. What if somebody has done everything for their depression? Everything. They've tried 5-HTP. Incredibly effective. St. John's Ward stuff is amazing. It only takes three months to start working in your brain. I don't know. They're trying antidepressants. They're trying Virginia trial, electroshock therapy, like all the methods that you're supposed to try. And they're in dire, dire agony because the jury is still out on depression. As we know, we talked about this a couple weeks ago. It's just inflammation. So, but if the inflammation doesn't go away, the depression doesn't go away, are we then in a zone where somebody is so miserable, so catastrophically taken over by this illness because that's still how it do. An illness is this little, you've gone through to prevent other solutions, but I'm just imagining for a moment because that's where a lot of people's minds go with this on the side where they're like, you're just making suicide. I don't know. I mean, this is up for discussion. It is. I mean, don't say anything. It's your own decision and you shouldn't be held to suffer unjustly due to someone else's beliefs. Moral or religious. That's a whole other thing. Morals or religion. You could get into a whole debate theologically about morals, and ethics, and religion. So, let's do that. That's how morals and religion and ethics work. That's it. We just simplified it. It's very simple. It's like, oh, I agree with you, just like I did. Or... I was talking about this with someone recently about how, like, when we're having sex we're animals, you know, and basically, you choose the other person you want to be an animal with because, you know, I don't know if you've got anything to do with that, but it's fun and not and wonderful. But I think, you know, take that phone call. The thing is, no, it's great. So the thing that's really interesting is whether or not being in that animalistic place makes you better, not better, un-better, something, you meet and take the next piece of shit. He's gone. And it's recorded. So he can watch it later and then follow me. So basically, it's interesting, you know, when somebody leaves your show, well, it's just, basically, they are leaving their, what? This is what's really, this is perfect, actually. This is fucking perfect, you know, because this is the moment where I have to say to everyone, I am ridiculously sorry that I just did that because I thought I saw something. I did not see what I thought I saw, which happens often. And now I have to apologize, and I will apologize and then we'll get it on camera. You know what I mean, you know, I've had a weird day. I mean, it's no excuse, I've had a weird day. Okay? This is no excuse. Although, so if you don't, those who do, welcome. I'm from Fugazi, brilliant guy, plus him. I was watching him play in Dolores Park, this was, you know, ten years ago or something like that. Fugazi's a great guy, but Fugazi's really righteous. In a great way, I really enjoy how, like, they just stick to their guns. And I was telling my friend Kenan's story, like probably the last day or something like that, because we're on the phone talking about Fugazi. So, Fugazi is famous for stopping in the middle of their songs and talking to people and being like, excuse me, and just getting into this whole thing. But it was really wonderful because they stopped and Ian said it. And I didn't see what was happening, I was really far back, and he was just like, excuse me, sir, do you have a problem? I'm from Washington, D.C., and when somebody does this, it means fuck you, so I wonder if we should have a conversation. It was great. What I think the other thing is, is that I've had people, plenty of people walk out on my shows before. It's really interesting, because sometimes you wonder what you did. Usually it's because I swore and I upset somebody by swearing or I did, I don't know, but sometimes you just have to take off your shirt. That's all I'm saying. You just feel the pain and that upsets people But really, I never thought I saw someone do this when they were leaving. So I got charged. Charged. I want to go the way I want. Why shouldn't you be able to? Yeah, it's interesting. My cousin's grandmother, supposedly we don't know if this is really accurate, but we're pretty sure because she was found lying down next to her record player. The record player had been going and so it was at the end and it kept on kind of skipping. So they were thinking that she was dancing and she had a heart attack and fell over and died. Which is actually what she said is the way that she liked to go. I want to go dancing. I just want to be dancing and it doesn't really happen. But I mean, that's a nice story for tonight. That's all you got. That's it. Back to suicide. But it's really, you know it's really odd as well within the framework of this is in some cultures. For example, in Japan there are moments where someone has done something that has dishonored somebody else in such a way that the only way to get out of it is to kill yourself. Now I mean Japan did what it was but you know, that's what people would do. There wasn't a choice. So the honorable thing to do would be to go out and that was seen as this undignified thing. So it's interesting to me again what does dignity even mean? Because when we start to talk about these words into the minutiae of what those things mean to us you know what I think about compassion. So what do we think about dignity now? Like what do we think about that word? Where do all of us fit into that? People might think that that is you know, kind of a king's approach you know, kind of you're dignified you are, you know, you're I don't know, I'm sitting straighter right now because I think that's dignified. So I was a little crunched. But now I'm, you know I have to tell you I would be ready to go like this nice straight posture okay? I had some chips earlier they were pretty good good salsa you know, I made a mistake that feels great big mistake live recording so that feels good you know I'm sweating in all the right places down there so I feel like I'm having a human experience interesting thing when people say that they're not afraid of death they wonder what they're saying are they saying that they're not afraid of the part where you're like then gone or what about all the stuff that leads up to it that tends to be the, you know that's why we need more surprises like we were talking about before where this just kind of hits me in the head the ball goes into my eye sticks something in there the ball starts to come out of my nose somebody freaks out and they yell and that yell is like gives me a stroke and I die once that starts falling but the scream would probably remind me of a really good metal song that I like and then I just be out this one's long I think I would want control certain situations but don't know if I would be able to take that take that control it seems so terrifying I think literally, I've always had trouble with that word particularly with how the laws are generally written this would mean dying the hair down down preferably preferably while eating gelato then another person who's very interested in getting a pizza and watching Gilligan's Island so I think we're onto something here we are, we're onto something here and the thing is is that we have to decide what kind of food products we want when we're going and what we need to do is eat those each day because we never know so this is my advice it's for you green car gelato or some to get some gelato and keep it in your car I want you to get a nice ice cold a nice cold bring it everywhere you go especially on those hot days when you're five outside you've got to get one of those ones that really can do the job because you know you're going to be on the desert during Burning Man anything can happen up there I've seen it, I've seen it I've seen pictures lots of weird people tie up doing stuff and imagine eating gelato off of them and then just passing out from cake stroke and dying right? for you Mr. or Mrs. or whatever pronoun you prefer you'll look in silent so now you're going to need to get the DVD set you're going to need to basically download that have that accessible on your phone I suggest also having it on an iPod that way in case you are at Burning Man with your friends looking gelato off of the naked person's genitals that you have the ability to be able to watch it just as they're falling and you're going to catch them and they hit their head against yours and then boom in the sand like an ostrich I'm just telling you what's happening giving you situations and circumstances that could potentially lead to your certain demise that's all I'm doing I'm trying to help you guys out there's so many people in so many countries in situations that don't have that ability that don't have freedom that are very constricted by religious circumstances, cultural circumstances et cetera, et cetera and so if we are a society that is constantly talking about free will and having bands like Divo or Korean songs called free will which I am the banger we then carry that over into our choice around dying it's weird it's like, nah, yeah I'm taking my guns I mean, okay, I don't want your gun anyway, dude, keep your gun it's like, you're gonna die in a hospital I mean that's weird that's weird, you know what I mean there's a disconnect I'm not taking your gun please let me die in my own terms no, but if you come on my property I'm gonna kill you it's like it's really fucked up it doesn't make any sense I don't know who this person is they might be here I'm not sure, if so we can have a conversation I'm sorry to call you out but it's like, you know you're driving around in a truck and on the back of your truck is this thing that says you better bring yours when you come to take mine it's got pictures of guns fuck I don't want to go to your clock I have no pictures sharing potato salad or really anything with you so it's just kind of like they make these statements what would the statement be around this I mean, I guess it was like you're a suicide what would it be you know that they're there that they've already created these things and I just haven't done enough research to dig into this it just becomes kind of ridiculous to me even that I think I just I mean I've done that become a bird you know, that the fucking rooster thing to be evil just like you look at it and you go it's like it's like it's really interesting I mean I've had Thanksgiving, I believe, or Christmas with my family cousin used to be married to this guy who lives here very nice guy very loving to his kids I would totally see that, but a sweet guy very conservative guy and he really liked messing with me why don't we inject AIDS it's all these like guys on death row do experiments on them to find the cure when we do that rooster coming out and it was kind of like okay, you're just trying to get me it's a terrible idea it's an awful fucking idea but it's one of those things where I feel like somebody what's interesting is the mindset of that correlating with but you can't have control over how you die but I'll have control over how these people die or it just doesn't make any sense I mean it also goes to war where people are going off to war and just being in these battles etc etc etc like what does that mean they're coming back and they died and they're heroes or they're not heroes and then there's like it just goes on and on and on and on and on the fact of the matter is I think we're all over this each one of us is going to die we're all everybody even maybe together wouldn't that be fun this is it right after this you walk out and the whole building just falls this was it enjoy because this is it I'm going to go to the highway and get a drink but gone this part stays by the way this part is fine so anybody left in here is good everybody was leaving I'm not trying to scare you guys I'm just trying to lay it out we still have a purpose here Steven Segal said to me he said to a lot of other people when he was recognized as a Tolku something or other fucking thing from some Buddhist guy because now this guy's already thinking what he's thinking but then he comes and gives a hero demonstration and class and roba it would be weird it's pretty weird already it's kind of strange here and I'm pointing a microphone it's called a shotgun mic that looks like a gun it's something that looks like a gun but also as he's talking we can hear him so I'm doing this and how to go to his I was asked I was asked to go to his bodyguard guys who can't put their arms next to their can't do that gotta do this I said I had to say I was supposed to tell you that this is a shotgun mic somebody said Mr. Segal when you are in the middle of throwing somebody how do you breathe? I actually went because it was just like are you kidding me? I don't breathe once the move is in place and I'm doing it and if that move takes five minutes and I'm not gonna breathe the whole time I love the I love the absurdity of the question of the answer I don't I go into this kind of catatonic state where my pores just take in another white force so that I don't actually have to do it which makes my life increase in time span because that way I'm not taking up all that breath the organs just going to this kind of shutdown mode you know and I'm basically living like Walt Disney kind of cronogenically just kind of hanging out that's weird too why would anyone cut off their fucking head and put it in the freezer so that maybe once they figure out how to give him a body that's Disney like what is that I don't know that they can like sew it back on or like wake him back up and be like by the way we got CGI now like what like what like what I'll enter this card it does say yo postponing with Kale and I think that this person really needs to give the gelato and pizza people a lesson and having you a little bit healthy while we're going to our thaw from grace into so yeah enjoy this because it's so jerk it Jill it Jack and Jill go up the hill do their thing your time