 This is why you're so confused about who you are, your true identity. I don't know if anyone's ever told you this and maybe you haven't heard this truth. And this may sound crazy, but you were designed. That's a fact. You are not random. You were designed with purpose and value. Every design gets its purpose from its designer. God created you in his image. You were not created to be confused, depressed, anxious, or without purpose. God did not intend for you to carry shame and mental anguish. You may have suffered for so long that you've come to the conclusion that this is just the way it's meant to be for you. You may have accepted suffering as a part of your identity. Without God, there is no foundation for living. And that's where confusion and pain comes in. But there's hope. Reconciliation with God comes through Jesus Christ. Call upon Jesus. He won't reject you.