 Okay. Welcome and thank you for joining us on Valentine's Day. Happy Valentine's Day. I don't think there is a coincidence that we come back to this topic on Valentine's Day because today we're going to continue on talking a little bit about sickness and Jesus says the only solution for sickness is healing. The only solution for illusion is truth and the only solution for a world of fear is love. That is today. It's not just today but it's what symbolizes love as a state of mind. It's the attitude that we can have in this moment in our mind. That is very healing. But for those who have joined me and us on Sunday, you probably remember that in our little video, Calico was still in Mexico. I was here and we had a little discussion on the video. But now she's here. She's with me. What happened to Calico? It was profound. I just want to give those who didn't join us on Sunday a little bit of a heads up. What happened was I was going to do a video about sickness and Calico was flying over the next day to prepare for this retreat around sickness and she got sick on that day so she was going to cancel her flight and I called her in on the day while we were doing the live streaming and now she's here so I want to know what happened. The whole thing was just... All I can say is I feel like I'm in the middle of a massive miracle and it's not done yet but it started on Sunday when we did that Facebook live and I was really upset. Ticket had been purchased, plans had been made and I'm feeling like I can't even leave my room let alone get on the cab and do an international flight and I was pissed. I shouldn't say that but I was angry. I was really angry that I've done so much work and here I am sick again and interfering with plans that I've made to extend which is what I really wanted to do and so I really went deep into deep prayer about it because I really got the decision to... I was diagnosed with stage 4 uterine cancer that had metastasized to my lungs and I was in hospice and I really worked with what David's been talking about of really finding the decision and he's just talking about what's pure and literal in A Course in Miracles and so I really went deep to find the decision to create... or I didn't create it but to have cancer in my script and really finding that when the trade towers came down in 2001 I moved to the mountains outside of Santa Fe. I bought land, didn't even have an address. I just moved out to the mountains and I chopped wood and carried water for ten years and I was peacefully dying. I was like, okay, I can't deal with this. There was complete resignation on having any ability to change anything in the world and so I went away to die on the mountain and I really saw that decision as that's what started that whole process leading up to cancer and so I really have come a long way with it and so when Sunday happened and I was sick again I was like, oh man, what am I missing here? There's a piece to this puzzle I'm not putting together and I emailed you this morning from how is healing accomplished and the manual for teachers. I've read it thousands of times but this time it was an even finer focus and I sent it to you. They were speaking about people that are seeing themselves as healers that many people don't get healed for fear of not dying and so I'm sitting there going, oh my god. Part of what I've been holding on to is okay, I saw the decision for cancer and I still feel like I have a tumor in my system so I'm recreating real cancer on a regular basis whenever I feel it and there is this desire to leave the illusion as soon as possible. Suzanne calls it flashing out. Well, I've been wanting to flash out. It's like, okay, I'll wake up just enough just enough to get conscious, be here for a while then I'm flashing out, I'm out of here and I've got the vehicle because cancer is going to take me down and it was like, oh my god, I'm still waiting to die. I'm still wanting to die and it's like, oh that's so not what Holy Spirit has in mind. So I'm just, and I'm still, this was just this morning and I'm kind of, my head is blowing up and I know there's more that's going to be revealed but right now I'm just sitting with, oh I don't want to die, I'm having a great time. Why would I want to flash out yet? That's beautiful. That's beautiful because I feel, you know, we're going to dedicate the whole retreat March 2nd through 4th to this topic but we're not really going to analyze what causes sickness because what causes sickness is, like you said, the desire for attack and whatever we use the body for, we see it as. If we use the body for attack, we see it as sinful and we believe that if we use the body purely as a channel for the Word of God, for the message of God then we see it as holy. We do not see it as capable of being sick and that is about shift of perception and I think what we are going to focusing on is the solution and this solution is actually going to be coming back to how we're going to live and how we're going to use the body because I think Jesus did say in the Course that sickness is using the body, Lovelessly But don't we want to know what is using the body lovelessly versus lovingly? Do we use the body lovingly as according to what brings love to our awareness what brings love to our attitude? Does that mean we pamper the body? Does that mean we accumulate a lot of material wealth so that we take care of the body physically? Does that mean all of that? What is truly living or using the body lovingly? How does the practical application look like? There is another, things popping up into my awareness now Jesus actually said sickness is isolation and sickness is retreating from your brothers Have you ever thought of that? Have you ever thought of sickness and separation and the practical application of separation is the same as sickness removing yourself away not necessarily just to remove yourself physically to live away but in your mind every decision you make is to remove yourself from your brothers or the opposite bridging the gap to go toward and to realize you are the same you are here purely to offer the love that is deep inside in your mind to offer that That is really our purpose for everything sickness and healing different from anything we talk about in our daily life in this journey of healing there is no difference sickness is separation, is isolation is wanting to be alone wanting to create all kinds of barriers to be alone and not trusting and not trusting the greater good greater plan the I know mind is everything but I think the fact that we are with you and we are together in this journey you are really walking this pathway of healing that is very inspiring I just want to say one more thing about trust because that was Sunday also it was the ticket had been purchased the plan had been made and then I got sick and I wanted to change the plan oh well now we are going to I am going to wait two days until I feel better and all I kept hearing from Holy Spirit was are you going to trust me this time the whole take your bed and walk thing it is like you have got to trust me can you figure this out can you figure out a way you are going to take an international flight when you are feeling like all you want to do is die no but I know the plan I am the plan trust the plan and walk through it with me so what happened that day did you feel you feel better straight away I didn't feel better that was the thing no I didn't feel better not informed it is very odd I am still trying to figure it out but I can't I didn't feel better informed and I woke up the next morning going it was a prayer I woke up in prayer it is like Holy Spirit you said you were going to handle this I am letting you and it was just every moment and when I ever thought of form in the taxia I remember I was praying in the back seat because I wasn't feeling well and I was thinking oh my God I have got to get those suitcases all those little details were coming to mind and I kept going back to Holy Spirit going you do it you do it you said you would carry me through this process and that is what I am trusting here completely and I had a beautiful flight it was it was beyond beautiful I met beautiful people had extraordinary conversations about God with everybody I mean it was like people were walking up to me and told his hand this Pedro from Peru you know he came up and said oh my God you are so beautiful you know and then he sat down and said I live in a monastery which kind of tampered everything but then it changed to God and we had this most beautiful delicious conversation about God and then he went on his way and the whole trip was like that and so there were moments I would go into form and go oh scary scary you know I don't know how I am going to do this and it is like pray again Holy Spirit it is yours because I can't do this that is beautiful yeah that is a miracle yes I know yeah I think we are really you know since the last video on Sunday and probably today as well we have a lot of questions coming in practical questions about specific healing and specific perception or changes that or applications and yeah it feels you can just send your questions in because we are going to spend a whole weekend dedicating to this topic and we have different people who will be holding sessions and talking about that and answering your questions yeah we are going to level confusion David I hope he is going to go into level confusion because that is a massive piece if you are seeing yourself as sick you have got to grapple with this whole idea if you think the sickness has chosen you instead of the other way around you are choosing it it is a problem and it is an error that needs to be corrected as soon as possible and David is the clearest person I have ever heard discuss and he is on a laser beam right now with talking about it so it is going to be an exciting retreat I think there is going to be a lot of miracles and healings that occur with this all I can say is if you are in your home right now and lying in bed this is something you can do join an online retreat you are not asking you to get out of your pajamas all you have to do is turn on your computer and watch us for a weekend because there are going to be massive miracles happening out of this I just feel it I have goosebumps beautiful so yeah we invite you to join us Calico will be there David will be there, Jason and many of us we feel very honored to be able to really go into the topic and share about our journey practical applications we are here aiming to heal the belief in sickness which is not just about your individual healing individual healing of a particular body it is about how you see everything one last thing because you just reminded me if you are seeing yourself here in the illusion you are sick so everybody is welcome yes yes okay we hope to join you soon bye