 because courage isn't the absence of fear, I don't know what the actual origin of the quote is, but something like courage isn't the absence of fear, it's being afraid and doing it anyway. And I resolved and have dug in even deeper as the years have gone on that my fear is what I run to with the caveat of still being smart, I'm not gonna run in front of a truck because I am afraid I'm gonna get hit and I'm right. But when it comes to I'm afraid of the ocean, let me find a way to make peace with the ocean. And I gotta tell you, I never have a bad day surfing. For me, surfing is forced meditation, right? You're basically gonna either live in the now, right in this present moment, or you're gonna fall off your board and you're gonna have to hold your breath.