 Good morning everybody welcome back to another vlog. It is Friday the day I'm filming this and it has been one week Since we lost Layla, and I'm actually doing okay today. I would say the last couple of days Although they've been hard. Um, I've just started to feel a little bit more peace than I had previously and First of all, I just have to say I'm not gonna like harp on this for too long because I don't want to cry in this video I have done enough of that in the last week, but I just want to say I Like I'm just so absolutely blown away by the sheer volume of Comments left on the last vlog and on my post on Instagram and just the absolute Kindness and like love that I felt coming from the comments I mean obviously I know that you all are incredible and amazing and so supportive of me But I just didn't expect that response and it truly just means the absolute world to me So just thank you It's really brought me some light in this really dark time And it's made me realize that there are lots and lots and lots of people that I don't even know Who deeply cared about Layla and who care about me and it just it means so much So I just want to say like the most heartfelt. Thank you Mmm, it truly means more than you will ever know Drew is doing okay. We're both kind of like up and down We've both cried every single day Obviously multiple times a day and it's just one of those things that now I feel like it's been a week and I've really allowed myself the time to grieve and I've tried to distract myself When I can and like get out of the house and do stuff But really I would say over the last five days or so I've really really tried to just like stay home Find a new normal Because that's one of the things that I touched on in the last video was just that like I don't know what life looks like without Layla and it's still very bizarre Like I've definitely gone through all the stages of grief in the last seven days swinging from one stage to another but I've really like I think I have accepted it I've accepted that like she's gone and that she's not here in the house and all that kind of stuff But it's just like such a reflex for me to like immediately be like, okay. It's two o'clock. I have to go outside Okay, like it's time to go to bed. We need to go outside first like that part has been weird Even though I know in my brain that Layla's not here. It's just weird to get used to the routine So I've just been trying to like yeah create a new normal for myself And today was the first day that I woke up and I was like, you know what? Okay? I think I'm ready. I think I'm ready to get back into the swing of things I'm ready to like vlog again And I have some main channel content that I'm gonna film here in a minute and just like try my best to Get back into the swing of life And obviously feel all the feels when they come up, but really just try to yeah Find a new normal. So that is what we're gonna do today I just did my morning routine. I actually filmed like a little Instagram real tick-tock for that which will be fun And yeah, I'm gonna film a fun little summer dresses video for my main channel And then I also need to film right here the haul of all the stuff that I thrifted with Alexa last week Which like I mean, I'm super late on posting that but obviously you understand. So yeah, just wanted to say I'm here I'm you know doing as best as I possibly can be in this situation It varies from minute to minute. I will say but I'm just so so grateful for all of you So anyway, I'm gonna do some filming and then we will continue on with the rest of the day Showing in the shot. All right. It's a couple hours later. I'm taking a little break and I'm actually like Ravenous right now. I just ate some like beef jerky some nuts But I've kind of I just want to have a snack cuz it's like it's not really lunchtime And I'm getting dinner at like 545 6 o'clock and it's only noon right now and I can't wait that long So I'm gonna have a snack right now and maybe lunch around like two. I'm not sure but um Remember, I don't know if you do remember but there was like this thing going around on Talk and people were frying pickles in cheese essentially like you put Cheese on a pan and then you like wrap a pickle around it And I don't have any pickle spears, but I do have these like pickle chips quote-unquote and cheese So like I don't know. I've just been wanting to try it again. That's what we're gonna do We're gonna test it out. It wasn't bad last time, but I just feel like I could have made some improvements So we'll see. I'm not a hundred percent sure if I had like the correct cheese last time either Slices, so we're just gonna like heat that up for a second. Do I keep the cheese on it now? I can't remember. Okay, we've got it. We're ready to go But like it happened really fast last time. I may have slightly overcooked it But I also like my stuff like very burnt. So we'll see this stove is Extremely hot and it warms up really quickly. Okay, so like one of those and then we'll just fold it over I'm not sure there it goes There's our little cheese, I don't hear anything happening yet. Oh, there we go. This is like is occurring. I'm gonna get like a really big one I can't remember when I'm supposed to put this on there probably like soon-ish Can you see that? That looks crazy. It's kind of like an at-home fried pickle tip situation Okay, slap to that in the middle. It feels like it's evaporating It's actually kind of scary and then you just kind of like flip it. I don't know if it's ready yet. Oh, no Wait, okay, I think it's working. I think it's working. Oh, I think it's actually happening. Oh I'm not mad at that. Okay, but now I probably need to flip the whole thing and I'm scared. Okay. Well It did break a little on the bottom, but that's okay Oh, what I'm doing, it would obviously be easier with the spear because you literally just like fold it over But we don't have spear and this just sounds really good to me. Okay So there's what it looks like. Remember when we made those like fried pickle beans? Yeah, I know it smells really bad. Maybe it'll work with foods. I'm on the heat right now and if this doesn't work, I'm not wasting any more food This is what the first one looks like kind of reminiscent of a fried pickle, right? And it's like definitely crispy-ish on the outside, but the inside is like kind of gooey. Oh, yep, though I'm committing What are these? I don't know, but doesn't it look like it doesn't look that bad Or does it? It just doesn't cover it all the way. So that's why I try it. I was like I'll do more. No This is not going well. I really thought this was gonna be so simple because the first one we did was just like Like the milky cheese on top looks delicious to me. Let's see. I like burnt cheese I want to try it, but I want to do like maybe a little ranch dip or something like what I would dip fried pickle then What am I making? Literally, what am I doing? I'm mad. I just have like an IRL Like a lot of times I'll like watch footage back or I just had an IRL moment We're like what the fuck am I doing? No, I've had this one. Oh I got my Layla necklace on I have another one coming which I'll show you but Can I open some packages? No You're cooking one thing at a time. You're cooking with an open flame I'm not well, okay. It's been a rough week Let's give this another like minute and then we'll do the taste test. What the hell is this? I don't know. All right, so um Here it is. It doesn't look terrible. It just looks a little weird So we'll try the first one. There's I don't think there's crunch. No, but this one This one's a little crispier. Maybe because I Maybe because I left it on longer So we're gonna try this one. Not bad. I don't know if like Colby Jack was the best choice Cheesewise, but it's pretty good I don't know. It was a thought and now I Know I'm wondering why I did it. I'm gonna give it a Seven and a half out of ten like it's definitely not bad. There's just like what is this welcome to my chaotic brain? I'm just gonna open my packages and Drew is now fun-billing all of them and asking people guess what they are Package I got us some more ice packs. These are like uniform thin Ice packs the Drew and I have been using our bad goo bag as like a cooler because we only have a Massive cooler that has wheels on it or like our tiny little handheld cooler And you can't put actual ice in it and the ice packs that we have are Literally like one week. We got from Layla's surgery in 2020 one of them is like yours left over from They're not good so these you can like line on the inside of your cooler and they're really thin So they don't take up a bunch of space in the freezer. You can just like put them in the door and like look how thin that is Amazing these are pair of sunglasses that I was influenced to purchase by Miss Amber filler up and they were out of stock and Now they're back. So I easily influenced. I'm not gonna lie Probably be better about it. But these are so cute. They come with like a chain thingy, which no, thank you Not for me, but they're just so cute and fun. So I decided to go for it cute They go cute with this outfit. This is literally I just threw this on because I was filming. I'm not gonna need And then these are Just like a little something so I have my L necklace for Layla that I've had for a few months now I'll look a year I don't know but I don't have one in gold and like I wear gold most of the time So I thought that it would be cute to get one that was in gold and I found these ones on Amazon They're like $9 cute And it has a little heart and then an L I don't know if you can see that very well, but it has like a little heart and an L And so I thought that that would be like more practical for me to wear day to day This one's just like simple and cute and then I thought while I'm ordering it Why not get one for Allison who I'm meeting up with tonight who her dog? That was also 12 literally also just passed away like two or three days before Layla so we're both going through it So I thought that this would be I mean, I don't know if she's gonna like this or not But I thought it would be a nice gift to get her a matching one with her dog's initial So now we'll have matching ones and I cannot wait to wear this. I actually might wear it tonight It's just another way to carry Layla with me. I love it. All right I'll finish with my work for the day pretty much I got my filming done and then I just packaged up like literally eight returns And I think I have like one in my car. I do this about once a month. I would say not this many This is a lot But like for a video that I did on my main channel where I tested out a bunch of different strapless bras Like I ordered five or six different ones. So like stuff like that But yeah, anyways, so that is what I'm gonna go do We're gonna make these returns and then hopefully have some like nice chill time before my girls night tonight It'll be so nice All right, had some nice chill time on the couch and oh my god There's like string and stuff all over this dress and cat hair and still dog hair honestly But I just laid on the couch for the last like two hours watching TikToks doing a little bit of work And now I'm ready to go so I'm headed out gonna go meet Allison And I'm wearing this cute little dress that I thrifted recently when I was with Alexa Which you saw in a couple vlogs ago movies crying for some treats if you can hear them in the background I have my hair slicked back whatever I changed into some gold earrings from Amazon and then my little L necklace as well Made sure to pack the one in my purse for Allison and then my white Zambas cuz we're doing casual. Are you getting your medicine? He doesn't know it's medicine. It's in a treat. All right, gotta see while we're going Got my purse. Let's go have a fun little girls night and hopefully we won't cry too much. We'll see Okay, we just finished dinner and we just have to say first of all yet We bought each other the same necklace We both showed up wearing these necklaces and then she was like, oh my god You're wearing the same necklaces me and I go. Oh my god. I brought one for you and she was like me too We bought each other the same necklace Like we just can't get over that so we're just gonna return the ones that we bought each other Oh, there's my car. I gotta go back. All right. Just made it home. What? My tits aren't out All right, just made it home. It's 9 p.m. And it was so nice to hang out with Allison and like I mentioned her dog recently Also passed away who was also 12 and we got each other the same necklace like that to me is insane And then just wait it gets crazier. We both Took our dogs to the same vet and they both passed away on the same day at the same vet I'm like, what is going on right now? Like literally Crazy just crazy. We were like we were aligned and she did say that when she had to go in the back And see her dog that she also thinks she saw Layla when she's just like Anyway, I'm not gonna cry. I'm at the point where I don't really have many tears but then like more of them always come but Today has been really good because it just it does feel like I'm starting to resume normal life But I also don't want to feel like I'm forgetting About Layla, but anyways, so yeah now we're we have matching necklaces already and we both Got each other the respective letter for our anyway. That was nuts I was like what and then it just kept getting weirder And I was like, yeah like even driving over here was super sad because the last time I was over on this side of town Like but we had to take Layla to this vet It was actually right down the street and she was like, what was it called? And then we found out it was the same day Insane. Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed. It's like perfect 9 p.m. I'm home on a Friday night Gotta love it and now I'm gonna get in my pajamas and go to bed. We'll see you tomorrow The barista at the coffee shop said hi Barbie to me And I said hi Barbie. It was my first time very exciting The next day we just finished a lovely morning walk while we had lunch when we got back and we literally were out for like Two three hours we were just walking around. We got coffee went to the park went to Sephora Went to sweet green got some lunch came back here and ate it. We gave him lose some new treats And now we're actually gonna head out For our little adventure of the day, which is we're gonna head to Lowe's We did this last year last summer on our back patio because things are looking It's looking bleak. I'll show you so we're obviously like so grateful to have this back patio area But like we have an old inflatable pool. We need to put away that we use like one time We'll just store it. We have all of these plant pots. We need to like clean some stuff up It's just obviously we can't do much because we rent so we're just gonna try to like cover up some of these less savory looking spots Like cover that with a plant cover that with a plant just try to you know, clean it up Make it look a little bit nicer repot some stuff So it's kind of it's not looking great right now, but I think we can work with it Don't come get their cat He said see you Well, we're leaving we're gonna come out here after Like he said yeah Timed rage We're gonna Grab definitely like a few Plants to put in the pots that we already have and it's kind of confusing because we really have like mostly shade And I would say like, I don't know three four hours of Sun, but like the full Sun ones require six plus But the shaded ones require up to three hours of shade, but it's way more than that So we're kind of stuck in a weird spot So we'll figure it out and if you have any advice let us know, but also we can't really We'll just we'll know about it later We're gonna do our best just a girl wandering around those Being no help at all whatsoever the first thing that we're trying to see if they have anywhere is some sort of like Raised garden bed situation. I've seen someone like Amazon and Target and Ikea and stuff But we just wanted to see if they like had them physically here first, okay So we have this one which does have legs you just have to like attach it yourself So I think we're gonna go for this one And maybe put some herbs and stuff in it. I don't know. We'll see but we're just winging it It's just for funsies. All right, we both left out. Here's where we're at We have like a inventory of all of the pots that we need We're getting some more soil a couple other things We might need to make a couple more trips after measuring two soils and we're doing herbs So we'll see how this goes All right, here is our little herb garden which is gonna be so fun to see how it progresses And if anyone has any tips let us know this is the scientist area on the patio So that's what we're going with and we have our English time Sweet basil and rosemary and our little gnome friend with his squirrel drew loves his gnomes and then our tomatoes And then we're gonna get another bed. I think and do veggies to be continued We've got all of our flowers potted as well our flowers and plants and succulents and Etc. And then we've got this area like kind of cleaned off, but we're gonna really like scrub it down and just give this a good clean Do that again All right, I will show you like a final I'll insert some clips of like the final completed thing tomorrow because I feel like this vlog is already long enough But Drew and I just made these cocktails that we saw on tiktok Maybe we'll make them in the next vlog if you want to see it, but it's called a gin and jam. So let's try it Cheers to our literally like 12-hour day of going non-stop Pretty good. I could have gone more jam though I like it because you can still taste it. You can definitely taste the gin. It's really good though It's gin, jam, and lemon juice. You like a gin like martini or something Really tasty, so we're gonna enjoy these on our patio and I will see you very soon in the next vlog. Bye. It's so cute Hey Moe