 Good morning team. I just got my morning bed and I got ready in the morning and made a very cool...that's a good way to wake up. I just woke up ten-ish so I'm going to wake up in the morning. I'm going to get ready and go out and wake up and go to ask her if she can get a step away from me. Let's get ready for the day. I'm going to start using my video makeup. It's a very colourful. I'm going to put this on the next day. I'm going to put this on the next day. It means I could be under the charge. I'm going to brush down on the next day. But apparently not. I'm going to have to wait and see. But I don't know. It just seems to have slipped. I'm really out of this day. I couldn't really think of one. I wrote a new notebook yesterday. I'm planning on sending it into like a little plan, I think. I don't know what I have to do all the time because I'm like always racing around and I don't know what I'm doing and I think if I have something that's kind of written I might actually know what I'm doing all the time rather than just possibly doing everything. I don't know. I wrote it yesterday. I think that was great as well. Really, really, I'm happy. I've had no coffee and I've got a pot of coke and I don't want to drink it again if I have coffee and I'll be even more hyper. It tastes like the aftertaste of like friggin' toothpaste. It's killing it. Horrible. I haven't found polo at the moment. I'm honing at any of length. I got the age yesterday and I'm honing it but I'm sure there's pastes of mint and it's flipping horrible. The thing that scares me about the possibility of this jarred is that my mood is so much like, so much like rapidly changing. Like, one minute I'm happy the next time I'm crying last night I was so happy, so hyped, so everything and then I crashed and had my medication. I had two milligrams of LVP an hour later and I crashed my medication and today I'm really locked and tonight I'm going to say being here I feel safe at home. I don't know what's going to happen. That scares me. That is what scares me the most. Okay, what I'm terrified about, right? I'm terrified that they're going to discharge me because I don't feel safe at all. I don't feel stable in my gut. I feel like I keep going up and down, up and down, up and down. I have all this energy. It's weird. I'm not really like this. I haven't ever seen this. Oh, she's happy. She's discharging. I'm terrified because I'm finding the moment but when my mood flips it's the exact opposite. That's when stuff like that happens. That's when things get dangerous and you get it. I can't do it. I can't get help but I can't. Which is what scares me. I kind of feel stable and I reckon Megan said that in the meeting. Apparently I'm seeking a doctor because of that. I wanted to get out of there and get through because I'm hungry but I can't do that. I really think Megan is trying to discharge me today. Apparently the home treatment team are here to see me. I'm terrified because I know my mood's going to flip. Right now, yeah, I'm happy, jury, whatever. Probably won't see you. I can do anything. Tonight, I'll be the opposite. And here, I feel like I'm at home. I don't know. I'm fucking discharging me. So I've got a... I'm trying to stop my anxiety medication too again. Which is fucking ridiculous. Honestly, I don't know how anyone can see us going well. Because the only reason I need to get discharged is because I'm gonna fucking crash tonight. Then what the fuck do I do? I just don't get it. Maybe I'm stupid. But I told them I don't feel safe. I told them that I feel I was told. Fucking discharging. It's not hard, isn't it? I believe that I need an inpatient as a whole. But there's no way in hell I can get out of there and get discharged. My big issue with being discharged is how my mood is. Like, I feel like my mood flips. It goes from this and... No, no, no. It's your GB. I'll wait for my dad and then I can go and then I'll be happy. Like, I didn't even... I didn't even... I didn't even go and give him the connoisseur pound. And he's like, no, no, fuck. Like, it's him. I don't want people to tell you it's the wrong way. Right? We want to bring him home. Like, yeah, I'm happy to go if I don't know what I really want. I really want to be at home. But I feel fucking unsavory. So my mood is just more changeable than it's ever been. And maybe new levels like high and low. And I don't get it. Can you guys listen to the vlogs? Can you see what I feel like? Can you know what I feel like? Will you discharge me? I've packed the bomb, I've got stuff in the door. And I've got some stuff in the office. Why do I have that watch in there? I guess the mat in here is... I've got discharged. I'll go with that. I've got discharged too early. I've not run off the schedule, so I guess...