 Should be working by now, right Okay today I'm doing this outside because Cooking squash and I gotta make sure I keep the fire going anyway so today I was cleaning out my canal doing some mudsucking and You know while I'm doing that there's not a lot to think about just moving the thing around sucking up some mud, right? So I was thinking about other things. Yeah, let me let me move my little roof here Let's fix the light a little bit Not that the lighting has to be spectacular Okay, anyway So I was you know sucking mud and thinking about things as I often do now I was thinking about how you know during the holidays you kind of get a chance to Stop and it's a good opportunity to stop and think about your life and you know You know plans for the future and things like that because a lot of times you have some time off You know, maybe you don't have a lot of responsibilities. You know people are in a good mood. It's a good time to think about You know things you can improve in your life And you know, maybe maybe have to think about some things are wrong and blah blah blah blah blah So I'm thinking about all this stuff, right and I was thinking about as many of you know how I Had a lot of I had a lot of difficulty with the mother of my children Earlier this year and you know, we got it worked out and it's fine and everything and Because of that a lot of other people told me their their Stories about how how things went for them in similar circumstances. So the the basic circumstance In all these stories. I heard from people was like, you know, I met a woman. We got married Had had a family had kids and then she one day said, that's it. We're getting divorced I'm taking the kids and you're gonna be paying me through the nose for the rest of your life and Misery will ensue, right? So in a lot of these stories Misery ensued and it was just just just absolute nightmare All they have to yeah, all they can report is just it's a miserable horrible situation but in some of these circumstances it turned out okay and I was thinking about And you have to understand I'm just sucking mud while my brain is just going all over the place for this So I was thinking about what what is the common thread? What is what is the the thing? What it where's the pattern like why why did it work out? Okay for these guys and these other guys just got run over by a bus and of course This isn't this isn't taking into account all the circumstances where they're, you know The a man and a woman split up and they're both reasonable and figure things out and whatever blah blah blah That's that's a separate situation. I'm talking about the situation where the woman is like I am going to destroy your life and I want to hurt you and I want to take everything from you that circumstance sometimes it works out okay and uh So in the in the circumstances where it worked out. Okay. It was basically the same story The woman says that's it. I'm taking the kids and you're gonna be paying me for forever And I'm taking all the stuff and blah blah blah and the guy just says basically no, I'm not I'm not doing that That's that's not what's happening and she's like, oh, no, that's what's happening. You don't have a choice and the guy's like Oh, no, I have a choice And she's like well the court is gonna make you do it and like no the court can't make me do it They can throw me in jail But they can't make me pay you forever You can try to collect alimony from me in jail or maybe I'll go kill myself Maybe like like whatever whatever the other circumstance whatever the alternative is. I'm not doing what you said That is that is there is zero chance. That's happening and you know at some point the woman I mean, yeah, there were there were a lot of different details in in the few circumstances that I heard like this But basically at some point the woman realizes That she's not gonna get what she's asking for she's not gonna get the money He's he's not gonna work for the rest of his life to pay her like that's just not gonna happen like he would rather die than that and then then she'll become very reasonable because at that point this circumstance the the the situation is either The woman raises the children totally alone by herself and the man is gone or She cooperates with the man and her children still have a father That and that's how that's how the situation is framed at that point and it totally changes from You know, yeah, I'm gonna win the lottery. Someone's gonna pay me for the rest of my life It completely reframes the the entire thing All right, go away What I like No, go back inside. I'm talking about stuff. You're throwing off my my Anyway, I'll talk you can come out in a bit. Um I haven't really I haven't really thought this through so it's it's hard to to make a monologue All right, anyway, I'm gonna ignore you so at that point The woman just became extremely reasonable because she realized she's not gonna she's she's She's not gonna get that. I won the lottery situation. That's just not available so Now it's like, okay now I have to be reasonable and and actually try to salvage some kind of situation and then things, you know, things get dramatically better from there and it gets saved And the the common thread through all these stories And you know, I didn't hear that many so it's not like I've gone through some scientific study or something But in all these stories the common thread was the guy was like I would rather die Then participate in that Like I would rather I would literally rather die than accept what you're you're you're offering me So I'm not going to accept it no matter what whether or not I live or die depends on whether or not you you are willing to stop Trying to push this on me, but I'm not accepting it. I would rather die And then I started thinking about the do or die mentality the do or die um Just the do or die frame of mind do or die situation Like why does why does that save it what what's going on there? There's there's something special about this this kind of mindset the do or die mindset and then I just started thinking about that in general like Like if you if you asked me Would I rather be fat or would I rather die? I would rather die. I would rather die than be fat and I'm not fat Like you could ask me like you could ask me all kinds of things about my life Would I rather die or have this? this this thing that I don't want and in a lot of circumstances like I would choose death over a lot of stuff and that mindset Is responsible for all the amazing things that have happened in my life the do or die mindset Has gotten me through so many different situations. It's gotten me out of situations It's got me into good situations that I wanted You know, I'm living on my own island in in the Caribbean Just living this this incredible life where I I build boats and I oh, I gotta check my check my fire here You know I cook squash on a fire because that's what I want to do And I you know I'm doing all this stuff that I want to do and I'm building inventions and You know, I have this I have this life where I feel like I can improve my life through the future by things I'm doing and all that all that that whole thing All of that is because I said I would rather die Than live a normal life You know, then do the nine to five blah blah blah blah blah thing And you know, if you ask if you ask anyone who's in great shape You know, would would you rather die or be fat? A lot of times would be like oh, I'd rather die and people's response to that is often And you know, well, that's easy to say When you're in great shape, you know If if you were fat you wouldn't be so easy to say that but it actually takes effort to be in great shape The person has to be doing something and I think the cause and effect are reversed there Maybe they're in great shape or more likely they're in great shape because they would rather die than not be, you know Which means they're basically going to be in great shape until they die Now, of course, you know, things can happen You can get in a car accident and you know being a coma for four months But you know all all that stuff aside, you know We can't we can't get stuck on the on the exceptions here Bad stuff can always happen But even in those circumstance the person laying in the in the hospital bed Broken and beaten and their bodies destroyed. They're like, wow, I gotta I gotta fix this I gotta come back and that's the guy who who goes through the rehab and and and gets back on their feet, you know And I was thinking about what like like this do or die mentality The more I think about it the more important I think it is And it's something that's been largely taken away from from from men in our in our current society and our current civilization, you know You know, I've often heard people talk about how men have become emasculated and I would totally agree with that Like in a lot of ways men have become emasculated in our in modern society And I think a lot of it comes down to the do or die situations Being removed from us And the do or die attitude being ridiculed, you know, if you if you approach something with a do or die attitude People like dude, relax. Why are you getting so worked up? But come on. Come on. What's what's the big deal? Chill, man It's like no no I I need to have the do or die attitude or I'm not gonna fix. Yeah, but what's what's why what's so important? What's so important? Why is that so important? It's so important because to be a man. I have to have that Without that, I'm not a man. I'm that's not what I am without that, I'm I'm like a man kind of like I'm like Half a half a man or something. Maybe maybe I'm like a feminine man. He's just it's just like I'm not a full man And if you think back through most of human history like almost all of human history Men evolved in this in the circumstances of do and die situations over and over and over like every situation Was it defaulted down to do or die? Like you either figure out how to get food or you starve to death and your family star You figure out how to make a house or get a house somehow get some shelter or you die and everyone dies You figure out how to get water or you die and everyone dies like like men throughout history Have evolved in the circumstance of the do or die situation And it's specifically men because women didn't didn't evolve in this circumstance because men were always the one who were Ones who were put in the in the do or die circumstance I shouldn't say always but generally speaking because and this is just a simple biological Thing that's super obvious because you know women carry babies. You can't put them You can't put a pregnant woman in the in the do or die situation Because she has to be protected which is why men you know protect women. But anyway, so Men evolved in this do or die situation and just to To close out that other point. I think I'd have to think about this more, but I think women more evolved in the Like like women's choices Defined quality of life more like men men's choices throughout most of history Defined whether or not you would live like they were survived Like the basic survival was was was always resting on men But then the quality of life after that Was mostly resting on women and when I think about this like it explains a lot of the arguments that I've had with women in my life like like in relationships Where we just can't see eye to eye, but when I look at it that way It's like oh now I get Now I get her perspective and I see what why she didn't understand me and what I why I didn't understand her It's because we evolved in different roles um And you know, it's just crazy that in our modern society today The the genders are all Just obvious all the silly gender stuff is it's making a mess of things Like you know who makes a terrible man a woman. You know who makes a terrible woman a man It's it's just does not work and you know, of course there are exceptions Like people are different but like generally speaking A man is much better at being a man and a woman is much better at being a woman and I don't I don't mean to be like, you know Sexist or like rude or anything. I mean, I guess it is sexist because it's there's I'm defining some some Differences in the genders, but um, I mean it's just it's just it's just how how things are and the the idea that that's not supposed to be how it is and now people are fighting against that is If you look at it through that filter, you can see how a lot of problems are are created and ah anyway so What I ended up I mean this was going on this is I was I was sucking mud out of the canal for like hours While I was thinking all this but what I ended up Coming to was like, okay. Now this gives me some kind of Some kind of like like frame of mind some way of thinking where I can improve my life with a very simple rule like just Approach every situation like it's a do or die situation And I don't mean like every situation, you know if I'm just walking from here to over there But like all like have all my intentions like if I'm gonna do something I'm doing it I'm doing it or a die like like when I think about all the things I want to do in my life And you know goals I have and all that stuff I have to think about it in a do or die mindset and You know people are gonna say, I don't know. It's ridiculous. Why are being hey you go inside? I know you're a boy, but you need to have a shirt on go go Um, anyways, you know you got And when I think back of all the at all the things that I've succeeded in I've had do or die do or die Mindset and whenever I haven't had the do or die mindset. I'm just like, well, let's just see how it goes You know sometimes things work out. Sometimes they don't sometimes things just like I'm trying to accomplish something That just drags on and on and on and maybe I'll eventually get it done But it just drags on but whenever I have the do or die mindset like things happen things I get results, you know so uh Whenever whenever I'm online like I go on youtube to you know upload my videos And then sometimes I'll click on a few videos here and there and I see a lot of videos about How to be a man, you know, there's a lot of There's a lot of stuff about how modern society is is has kind of emasculated men and you know How to how to be a better man how to be a real man and a lot of it is like by fancy cars and And you know make lots of money and and show off show everyone how much money you have and get lots of women and just All this all this nonsense superficial stuff That has nothing to do with with survival And now now that I have this now that I've kind of worked this all out in my head This stuff sounds so ridiculous like I thought it sounded ridiculous before But now I get why it sounds so ridiculous like get expensive cars and drive them fast It's just nonsense The do or die situation That's what that's what it is to be a man to to to put yourself In the mind frame that you have goals and you are you got to accomplish them And not not goals of just frivolous nonsense goals to to make life continue to make it so that So that life can be good That's that's what it is to be man and uh, all right, so I'm I'm gonna Yeah, I'm just I'm just like putting that in my head and just it just when I when I put that in my head it It fills in so many blanks That were there before it's just like, okay. Yeah, this makes sense and that makes sense and so many different things make sense so I'm That's my christmas present to myself is I'm I'm I'm sticking with do or die attitude Uh, let's see. Hello Jason. I'm just gonna read comments now. I think I'm I think I'm done yammering on What time is sunset? It's about like six Maybe a little bit after six six six ten somewhere around there. Oh, merry christmas jocelyn How was everyone mr. Landfill and john merry christmas? Hey guys, happy holidays. Merry christmas everyone. Yeah, don't get married. Oh, yeah, well Speaking specifically about marriage I might as well go into this a little bit Like Becoming legally married doesn't make sense at all anymore Like becoming legally married the point was that it was a contract. You're right. You're making a contract with another person Hey, you know so that you could have children together and and make sure if someone's not gonna screw it up Someone's not gonna leave or stop just just quit or whatever, you know, like it was a legal contract to say Okay, we are gonna stick together now um Now when you have a legal contract You can't just get out of it Then it's that it doesn't it doesn't It doesn't make sense anymore, but that's what marriage is now now marriage has become this legal contract That is completely non-binding. So what is the point of even doing it? You know it's like It's like going to a bank and signing papers and getting a million dollar loan And then it just not being binding you can walk out of the bank and be like Yeah, I don't really feel like paying you guys back. You're cool with that right? No You get thrown in jail and you get all you have to pay that back But uh, yeah marriage now is it's just It's a contract that isn't that this is Is worth it's worth nothing. It's worse less than nothing. It's like It's just a trick. So yeah, there's there's there's literally zero reason to become legally married today now All right, let me just push my wood in there Stuff your wood in there. Okay I mean getting getting married to someone in a spiritual sense or just like agreeing with someone. That's that's the best thing we have now is just like um You know getting on the same page with someone and saying okay, this is what we're doing Because the legal part of it getting married in any kind of You know government paper or way Meaningless it doesn't mean anything Totally worthless. Yeah, don't get married I mean get married in a In a person-to-person way like forget the forget the legal document There's a time and place for having a woman in your life. Yes It also depends on the woman of course and you know um I'm talking of course about this from a man's perspective that I'm sure Um, you know women have plenty of difficulties with men too and I'm not gonna I don't mean to be this I don't mean to make this a sexist thing or one sided thing But I am a man so I can only talk about from my perspective Before anyone gets angry at me The trick is not to push it when it's the wrong time and place Well, maybe I don't know if you got this woman thing figured out. Let me know because Sometimes you gotta suck out the mud to get clear water that that's true I've been sucking out the mud all day Sucking that sucking that canal clean and cleared out my brains too Get rid of the obstacles keep moving forward as long as you are taking care of your food and shelter for you And your family is fine. Well, I gotta do more than that Because I don't have a woman in my house. So I have to take care of everything Which makes me think more the more I think about the everything I just spoke about the more I think Oh, yeah, it totally makes sense like a man and a woman working together is so much better But yeah, you can't it's not one of those things you can force Oh, yeah, and then, you know, I'm cleaning out my canal with that mudsucker and I'm cleaning out like a lot like a lot of mud So It's gonna take several days to get it all cleaned out At first I was thinking, you know, I'll clean up this much But then I was like, whoa, whoa, whoa You know, it's just it's just really deep mud because you know, I haven't cleaned it out in a long time And it's just been collecting Um, your daughter listening to the story. How's it going? What are you thinking about all this? He's like, why are you talking to me now? Don't put me on the spot dad. She doesn't call me dad. What do you call me? Yeah Whenever she needs to ask me something that's going to be annoying She always says Oh So anytime she says I'm like, oh god, what is it? No Is her poop somewhere I need to clean up or I uh, anyway Usually death isn't an option even when life gets really really rough. No death is always an option I mean, you're gonna die. That's You're gonna die But yeah, we've we've we've kind of been convinced in in the modern in our modern society that Death should never be an option that should never be something that you know, you would even like you can't even flirt with death But uh to go back to the exercising analogy like you want to get in good shape You got a risk dying every time you exercise. Yeah chances are you're not gonna die but like You know you you have to make it you have to make things harder for your heart and lungs and If you're not if you're not doing that you won't they won't get stronger Like you have to you have to get closer to death to get stronger And then death is harder to get to you know the stronger you get the further away death is And the the closer you can get to it The stronger you get next time, you know and then just taking risks like like I don't know if I necessarily want my daughter to hear this right now But you guys know this when I when I sold my my place in vermont And went traveling To find this place. I didn't know this place was here. I didn't know where we were going. It was a huge risk like a really big risk Just going on that journey because I didn't know what the outcome was. I didn't know I didn't know that I was gonna survive it. I didn't know that Yeah, I mean huge risk and that's the only reason we're here Worth it, right? Yeah. Yeah, you got to take risks in life. Like like if death is not an option Then you're you're crippled from taking risks You can't you can't do the things that that improve life because a lot of things that improve life You have there's there's a risk involved a lot of times you have to let go of one safe thing To get to a better safe thing You know, you you got to you got to let go of the one place to get get somewhere else And if you if you're so afraid Of risking death or risking things going badly that you won't let go of anything You know, you just you're just trapped and you just stagnate there and you slowly die just sitting there You know, it's just it's just like going back to the exercise analogy. You can sit in your sit on your couch And it's safe It's safer than going out for a run Where you might get hit by a car or you might slip or you might actually have a heart attack or you might I mean, there's all kinds of things that sitting on your couch For that hour is going to be safer than going for a run But you're gonna end up weaker and the next day you're if you do the same thing You're gonna get weaker and weaker and if every day you just sit on your couch Not making sure you risk your life as little as possible You're gonna get weaker and weaker and weaker. You got to get out there and risk you got to you got to take some risk You got to risk death Or else you're not really living Imagine having a baby can be a do or die situation. Oh, I imagine having a baby can be a do or die situation I mean, it's not really a do or die situation having a baby but All right, you're lol-ing me there. So obviously we're on you usually grew up in a tribe that had the basics figured out Then learned how to survive from your mom and other tribe members. Merry christmas everyone Well, it depends depends on how you grew up Um, maybe at a tribe. Maybe you didn't not a lot of there's a lot of history and a lot of things happened Hey there, hi sam Love to all diddler diddler. Oh wait diddler, right? You're not sexist. You are genderist. I'm genderist. Yes It's just ideology wars men dislike being told a real man would oh god. That's the worst Oh or or how about man up? Oh Because you know what you know what the really irritating thing about man up is Every time I can think of right now that I've been told to man up It's like people trying to tell me to do the opposite of what a man would do, you know Man up and just like just suck it up You know, just just suck it up and don't don't make the hard decision that other people are trying to force you to not make Don't make the right decision. Just just Capitulate is that the right word just conform just conform man up conform, which is not What men do you don't just conform? as a woman Well, hello home planet woman My best Christmas was me alone with no one depending on me having Christmas dinner hot dog At 7 11 after I moved to the coast Oh, I've had those Christmases. I haven't had 7 11 hot dogs, but like yeah I've definitely had a lot of the by myself Christmases with just like whatever food was around No, we're gonna we're probably gonna have pizza tomorrow, I think We have had 40 years of neoliberalism and post modernism It's the mess we receive today as common sense. It's a mess. There is no common sense now, man sound sad hp That's like your opinion Yeah, or Clearly hb didn't find it sad. Oh, I don't know. I don't I miss something Hi, you are awesome. Well, thanks, man. I don't know who you're talking to but whoever's awesome is awesome Hopefully I'm awesome. Am I awesome? Best pop in the universe Now I realize my children are massively biased toward me So if you if you have kids too, you can always also be the best pop in the universe to them Merry Christmas. Yes, Merry Christmas everyone. Yes Becoming legally married Was for my wife and me a reason to survive taxation because I was getting reamed as a bachelor Still reasons to do it, I guess but what's interesting is the fact of getting married became something more to both Oh, okay. Well, that's good. Man. That's awesome that it worked out. Well, hello to aurora. This one's bellatrix aurora is inside but Cool fan tom. How does galvanized metal hold up in the tropics? Ah, you might as well just You might as well just not even galvanized I mean, I shouldn't say that. I mean galvanized metal it'll last a while until it gets splashed with some salt water and then it's just like Okay, I'm exaggerating like a lot of people around here have galvanized metal roofs But yeah, you have to replace them every five years 10 years, maybe you're really lucky um, there are a lot of roofs on houses around here that just have like rusty roofs with holes in them and then they'll like replace one piece It'll it'll go on like that for years until they finally are just like replace the whole thing And then it's and then it looks great for you know a few years and just starts falling apart Why did you take the risk? What was so bad about vermont besides the winters? Well, that entire sentence doesn't make sense. Um, the winters are fine. I like winters Although you can't really you guys quit quick beggaring Um, you can't it's it's pretty okay. I don't care. Tell me later Um, but when you have like a a long cold winter, it's pretty hard to grow your own food. So that was one problem um, another big problem was Just the culture that was around me Just you know being in the united states. There were too many rules, you know that I was getting I was getting hassled I Mean I I I've talked about this before but like one of the things that was really annoying was You know, I had the youtube channel and I was on the news now and then for you know making robots or you know Making my weird house and stuff like that and then the tax man shows up and he's like, hey I saw you on the news. You're like doing stuff. So we've got to tax you more And he comes up like, you know, you were on tv So you must have money and it's just like no I didn't get paid for that and just you know just the entire attitude was getting really frustrating and It's just like everywhere I turn people were saying you shouldn't be doing what you're doing You shouldn't be doing that and just the the legal system was frustrating just Just so many different things were frustrating about the culture and You know, I'm raising kids in this place Where all the kids I see are just doing this on their phone all day And I'm like, I don't I don't want my kids to be raised like that And homeschooling homeschooling has become much easier now after the pandemics and stuff I don't know what it is right now, but um, you know before you want to homeschool your kids You got to fill out all these forms and you know, you get hassled and all this stuff and You know, I was getting a lot of people Threatening to call child services to have my children taken away Mostly like idiots on youtube were just like, ah, your children shouldn't be living in the woods because I don't know whatever And you know, just the whole thing was just stupid. So I moved here and it's like well go ahead threaten me all you want With your weird craziness and still today like any threatening Messages I get is he all right Any threatening messages I get today are still from people in the United States Is she all right or not? Okay, she's just But yeah, you know living here and another thing is like Living in the United States. I couldn't build my own vehicles Without just going through unbelievable amounts of paperwork and just Here I can build a boat and I can drive it around without getting thrown in jail, you know Um, let me check my wood Hey, you want to get a skinny one of those and put it in? Let's see. Yeah, there were there were a lot of reasons Yeah, put it in Um, and I mean another I I guess just something I wanted to do and it was worth the risk Because improving your life is generally worth the risk just so many things are better now Our best selves exist outside of our comfort zones. That's true Get outside your comfort zone, baby I believe an island has long been a dream of james. That is true Even before I moved to a mountain in vermont when I moved to the mountain in vermont I was I was thinking This is pretty awesome. But this is my second choice. I've always wanted to live on an island Even when I when I when I bought a mountain and moved to to a mountain The reason I didn't move straight to an island is because it was like how how can I do that? I don't how can I possibly Get my own island like I don't have millions of dollars and you know turned out to not be That expensive I'm not gonna say it wasn't difficult. I had to do a lot of traveling to find this place But anyway, yeah, it's something I've always wanted to do Not to put words in your mouth. You did though very good But I remember the plan you drew up years and years ago. Yeah brilliant stuff. Jamie Why do you keep saying that you live in modern society? Why not say in this day and age if anything you live in a post-modern community? Oh god I don't know. I don't know Yeah, that's just um I feel like that's just I feel like you just ran around in a bunch of circles and got nowhere Like do you know what i'm talking about if you don't know what i'm talking about ask me to explain it better But if you know what i'm talking about Then what's the problem? She's like, what are you talking about? Jamie, what is your guy's main source of protein? And do you have a main solar battery bank for lights in your family's houses? Thanks But I could talk about my house My main source of for what's our main source of protein probably burgers And hey naked kid go back inside God Oh We just had a naked three-year-old done. All right. I gotta turn this off Sorry everyone. Merry Christmas All right, we're design