 Our brains are so intricate and so complicated and so diverse that there is no way that mental health can ever be considered as not existing. Something that I quite like struggle talking about is mental health. Not only is it because of myself but I know like my mum deals with really bad mental health and she struggles really bad with depression. It's not really something I'm open about because just for her own sake. I think like from now on I should actually try and talk about it a lot more because I know not only me mum but I struggle with mental health as well and you girls probably do. Like what is it with mental health that you struggle with because there's so many different kinds of it? I feel like there is like stigma around you all isn't it? But I feel like a lot of people are like, I don't know, I feel like more people are talking about you know what I mean? Because it's like I've got anxiety I get really really bad and I know you do too. I think we all do. There's times where I literally lock myself in my bedroom and just cry and I'm just like why am I crying? Like it's hard to deal with. Yeah it's so hard but you speaking about it makes it so much easier for someone to come forward and I think that's what we have to remember like as being role models as such when we put ourselves in the public eye. There's so many positive things that can be done with social media. There's so many negatives but this is such a positive that mental health needs to be brought to the attention and we are the kind of people that can make it easier for women and men to be able to speak about it. Like just you saying that you help so many people. I know, I literally, I put in my story for the first time of the day. Like I've never said it on Instagram. Do you know what I mean? And I had so many messages like oh my god I'm going for the same. It's so nice to see like someone like you was going for it because like you look at my page and I'm doing my happy Fridays and I know I look happy, do you know what I mean? Like I am happy. I have like a lovely life like a gorgeous daughter but like there's times where I like hit and rock bottom. Do you know what I mean? Of course. Like it's crazy how like I feel like Instagram can paint a different picture. When I was slightly younger and I had a really bad relationship it kicked me into depression basically. I was about 19, 20 and I think at that point in my life I was struggling in any way. I didn't know what to do with my life. Had a rubbish job and lived on my own like in a council flat and I was just a bit lost. And then because I was lost I started to just degrade myself and make myself feel worse and worse and just ringing every night going out constantly. I had no respect for myself and that's where the depression and anxiety started to get really bad. And then obviously I always say Love Island changed my life. And I was saying to someone earlier about a book that I read that I want everyone to read. No it's so similar though. That changed my life. So similar. No it's called Chimp Paradox. Oh yeah. I haven't talked about this. It's the best thing. Like you have your chimp brain and you have your human brain. And it just teaches you... What is that too? It's a theory. So it just teaches you how to control a part of your mind that you feel like you don't have control over sometimes. The age and the devil. Yeah so like if I lose myself in... So my depression was sort of linked to me being so irritable and so aggressive when I was younger. So then I learnt how to control my aggression through the chimp paradox and it really changed me. And that's actually worked. And then when I met Alex it changed me more. And then I come off my antidepressants like three months ago. Oh my God! Yay! It's like going all in. I feel like all in. That's cute but yeah. I remember speaking to you about it like when we first... I think it was like two years ago when you was telling me. Yeah so we met age ago and like that. How do you feel now? I feel like more emotional and I think if I'd never had the bands and the people that like look after me and look up to me I would never have gotten over it because I've learnt that you can talk about it even talking to you guys. You can talk about it. In the minute you learn you can talk about it that is the step to getting over it. And my friends have been so low as well. And I think going through it with someone else has enabled me to just let it go. And now like Alex is like the most proudest person ever because I'm not online anymore. I'm proud. You were girls like seriously. But yeah like we're through all of that but it's just so true. You can go through the like hell and back and you can come out the other side. Of course you can. It's always like that. Yeah it's always like that. Mental health can be so many different things anxiety, feeling happy, feeling sad, depression like it can be it can be aggressiveness, it can be irritation, it can be absolutely anything. Our brains are so intricate and so complicated and so diverse that there is no way that mental health can ever be considered as not existing because there is no way that a person can expect themselves to be 100% 100% of the time. Of course not. And it's so sad that the way social media has impacted on that is that we put across these happy lives but there is parts that you don't put on Instagram because you don't really always want to put on something that's going to make other people feel rubbish or it's hard to show yourself in that sad way. I think what's key is to remember like if I see you happy as Larry whatever I know that possibly you're not. And I think it's key that we all learn that that social media is like a it's a good front in a way because it's nice to portray happiness because like we said before it's like the universe you're calling out to the universe you try and have those happy thoughts but at the same time just because someone has a perfect life doesn't mean they're perfectly happy on the inside. I'm not embarrassed it's just I don't want to bother and yeah, that's the main thing you don't want to bother people in I think you need to talk about it because if my friend told me about bad anxiety I had to help him straight away not what to care but it's not going to ruin my day it'll probably make your day better if you help someone it always makes you feel better and I think yeah it's not just girls this is what upsets me the most is because I've heard of seen, experienced so many men around me or in my life that have struggled and they don't know what it is because there's this stigma that men can't be insecure men can't be depressed men can't have anxiety that's true, we're all made of the same thing just because you're a woman and he's a man does not mean that that's not a possibility if you talk about it and you open your friends you're like I'm having a really down day they can pick you up or if you're saying I can't breathe it's going to be hard to go really fast and sometimes I get that that butterfly feeling in your stomach it's twisting over but if I talk about it I'm hoping about it with you girls if you were to go and throw it as well I'm like it's not just me it's normal