 hey friends today I decided I wanted to sit down and do a little about me video and just talk about my life talk about growing up talk about my journeys and vlogging and become a little personal with you guys I've never really done a video on my own about this and I thought it would be fun I thought it was time I recently hit a hundred thousand subscribers and I never thought I would ever get to that point in my life so it was such a huge accomplishment and I'm still shocked and I'm closing on 110 now like it's crazy and I thought yeah why not so let's go do this I guess I'll start off growing up in life you know I grew up in Scranton Pennsylvania with my brother and sister and my mom and she was a single mom and all of this kind of ties into my current life situation but growing up we didn't have a lot of money she was a single mom and she did the best she could and I love her so much looking back at it now you don't know how great your mom treated you until you get much older but she treated me amazing and she did the best that she could and she struggled raising us for years and years until she met a man she met my stepfather Steve and he came in and he started raising us and he became my father and it was great but because we didn't have a lot of money we didn't get to do like amazing vacations and we didn't get to travel at all so I never really got to explore the world in fact the first time I ever got to leave the state of Pennsylvania is like in my 20s I was like 20 years old I went to New York City for the first time and I was like how this is amazing so it was very amazing and captivating for me and growing up I had a difficult time in school I had a difficult time learning and eventually I didn't know what I was gonna do in life so I started cooking and I got jobs as a cook growing up in my teens and that led into a road of restaurant management I ended up becoming a restaurant manager for Denny's and working for Denny's I ended up becoming a general manager and just learning the trades of the hospitality industry eventually I ended up meeting a girl and her name was Veronica you guys might know her and she kind of introduced me to Disney introduced me to this amazing thing and I've always wanted to go to Disney as I was younger but we couldn't afford it I always watched movies like The Wizard and it was always amazing to me because I wanted to ride Jaws so bad and like King Kong watching these movies and it was so like captivating it's something that I didn't think I'd ever be able to do in life and I remember there was a factory that kind of looked like a castle my uncle used to always tell me it was Disney World so I grew up thinking Disney World was like 10 minutes away from my house and I was never able to go like I really believed it and I used to tell my friends I made up like a fictional story when I was like I was young was like a like 10 years old and they're like what'd you do over summer and I was like I went and wrote jobs at Universal Studios I made up like this fictional vacation and yeah I wanted to always go there and she was like I can't believe you never went we need to go and we did we went there and I was captivated I was absolutely amazed here I am in my late 20s going to Disney for the first time actually traveling for the first time this is the first time I was even on a flight and I felt like I was just important for being there I know like people have like high expectations but my expectations was I made it to Florida I went on a vacation and I went to Disney and I was captivated I was so blown away by everything Walt Disney World had to offer and the animatronics I've never seen anything like that in my life the rides everything was astounding and I was hooked I was hooked it was the greatest feeling ever and we were dating for a while and eventually I planned on going back to Disney again but this time I was gonna propose we were dating for like two years and we ended up going back to Disney and I asked her to marry me so she said yes I did it at Mickey's Town Square and at the meet and greet in front of Mickey Mouse and we ended up getting married and going to Disney at our honeymoon this time we went back to our honeymoon I end up going to Universal Studios for the first time and that was the first time I got to ride Jaws finally I got to ride Jaws and kind of checked that off my bucket list life goals and it closed like a week later so it was a one-and-done time I only got to ride Jaws once and I'm just so grateful that I got to do it because if I got there a week later I would have never been able to do it and it would have been heartbreaking but you know we had an amazing honeymoon we got back home and I was just like I love it so much there it meant so much to me and I really feel like it's something I want to do in the future so I eventually asked her she wanted to move to Florida and she said yes and we did it I embarked on this amazing journey that I really never thought was gonna be possible for me I found a job on Denny's that transferred I transferred down there my mom was proud of me I was proud of myself I felt like wow it was a big deal like to come from nothing and move to Florida I feel like it was like a like a huge accomplishment I felt I felt like I was important and my mom was like oh yeah my name a move to Florida and he's got married and he goes to that he goes to Disney and it was great going from a small town to a big city I was I was living life the best eventually we started making videos we started recording on our cell phone and sending it to my mom my sister my family my friends and showing them just like our life in Florida and other people started watching it and I was like wow this is great I love doing this and I never thought about being a vlogger I didn't watch any vloggers really I didn't really actually even think it was a thing I just wanted to make videos and I was like this is fun so I was working and making videos and we were living our best life together and it was great it was some of the best moments I've ever had in my life and other people started watching the videos and we gained a little following there's a lot of people out there who have been watching since then and I love you guys thank you thank you so much and eventually we just kind of got a knack of it so we were making videos three two three times a week and I was working my full-time job and I was just like I said living the best life possible in Florida newlyweds and just loving life and Florida Sun and it was great but it all took us like turn for the worst things kind of just didn't work out and it's not easy for me to talk about these things and you know now I wish I known what I've known like now but at the time I didn't know and things like this happens to everybody out there life happens I ended up losing my wife my wife you know we just we split up and at the same time my father died my stepfather died and this all happened within like a 30 day process like a month and I had a breakdown between you know my marriage ending or just us getting separated and then my father dying I couldn't go to work anymore and I couldn't couldn't function like I literally had a breakdown and I didn't know how to process it and I wish I did know how to process I wish I could have I wish I could have kept things a little bit better but I guess these are all just the journeys that you go through in life and it's crazy because when it's happening to you in the moment you just feel like your whole world is ending and that's how I felt right now I can tell you know this is just something people go through just something happens in life people do break up people die people have worse life they have bigger problems there were people out there that had way worse situations than what I was having at the moment but because I was going through it myself I felt like it was just the end of the world like for me I I really did and eventually I like I said I had a breakdown and I couldn't keep it together I ended up losing everything I lost everything that I was so proud about and so happy that I accomplished and ended up just moving back to Pennsylvania with my mom I needed my mom and she needed me so move back up to Pennsylvania I stopped making the videos and I was depressed I couldn't handle it it was so horrible feeling and I couldn't get over it I didn't know I was like I need to figure a way to get myself better and I decided to start making videos but doing it on my own now just going out and doing stuff so I made a video on my own and it made me happy soon as I hit the record button and there were so many people that encouraged me and friends and people that watch the channel and family and so many people that literally picked me up during the lowest time of my life and I love everyone for that was there for me and they really made a difference in my life and making the video was kind of therapeutic for me because the second I would hit record I was happy I was generally happy to be making a video the sad thing is eventually when it ended like when I got done making the video I was back to being depressed it was just taking a toll on me and I couldn't I couldn't get myself fixed I couldn't do it so one night as I was making my videos in Pennsylvania I just kind of sunk down to the lowest point I think you know that one week was like the the bottom of the barrel for me I really really just it was the lowest lowest lowest lowest point of my life at this moment and it was a rough night and I woke up the next morning and I said I'm not gonna do this I'm gonna move back to Florida I'm gonna go get and go move back and do this on my own and I'm gonna get and do what I wanted to do in the beginning that made me so happy and I did it was a struggle it was real hard and I knew that I was up for the challenge and so many people gave me words of encouragement and I decided I was just gonna do it on my own I didn't have nothing I had zero possessions I had clothes camera computer TV and that's it so I ended up packing my car up moving back to pencil back to Florida and I stayed with a friend for a little bit and the friend the Sean he let me crash on his floor for a while and I kind of slowly got things back together I found another denny's to hire me back and there was two hours away that was the journey that was tough so for a while there I used to just kind of sleep inside my car and I would you know kind of just go to bed wake up and go back to work because it was two hours away from where I was staying so you know it was no point for me to actually go home especially if I got off work at 4 a.m. I mean how to go back in 11 so I worked hard and I made sacrifices and I was able to get myself back in a comfortable environment I got my own apartment again I started to really just lift myself up and even things with my my ex-wife we became friends again we talked and we never really had a rough relationship and we just you know still casually talked and became friendly with each other and it was great we had our dog and we shared Gracie together even now we still continue to share Gracie and it's amazing because like I said I came from where I was at my lowest and I've given up on the world to just getting to the point where I'm really happy about life and at that time like I said I was working at Denny's and making videos just for fun and eventually more and more people sort of watching and I was like wow this is great and I realized that I needed to make videos to make me happy so I wanted to make videos for other people to make them happy you know I mean like I said like the video saved me honestly making videos saved me and I wanted to make videos happy and I dedicated making positive videos for everybody because I need a positive stuff and that's from that day on from like when I first moved back to Florida every video I wanted it to be just so much happiness and so much positivity and I wanted people to have them in case they needed them just like I needed to make them and yeah it was great I was living a great life hanging out with friends and just becoming my own person and you know evolving and realizing that there's so much more that you can do out there eventually things started to get a little weary again because the world shut down the world shut down and the pandemic hit and I was in a fork in a road I was making videos on YouTube but it wasn't enough to actually live off of I needed my job and my job let me go because I left and I had to move back to Pennsylvania I lost my seniority so they just had to make a business decision and since I was recently back and a little man on the totem pole the owner was just like I'm sorry it's his business and he gave me a nice weak package to you know leave and I was like okay I don't know what to do so either I start making more videos or I just find another job so I started on I started looking around for jobs nobody would hire nobody would hire the world was shut down so I just kept on making some videos and when things started reopening again I was like okay I'm gonna start making videos and covering all these things reopening and I'm gonna present it in the happiest most positive lifting way because that's how I want to do this from now on because that's how I feel great I want to be happy and it started making its way there and I ended up actually doing pretty good I never thought I would ever just kind of go for it all in on vlogging but that's how I'm doing it now I'm a full-time vlogger I make money off of people who watch videos and then they have ads on the videos and you watch the ads and that's how I get paid and I make a living off of it oh we're gonna have to stop for a second because my memory card ends hold on okay there we go but yeah that's what I do now I'm a full-time blogger and it is amazing and I am so happy about it and I love it again to cover things and seeing all the amazing things that I've gotten to see I'm so grateful like I never thought in my life I was ever gonna get to this point but I'm here and things are great you know I've got friends and I'm making videos and people watch the videos and they enjoy them and yeah like I said me and my wife were great friends we hang out sometimes and we share Gracie my mom and sister recently came back down to Disney and it was great to bring her down to Disney just to be able to say that you know I couldn't go to Disney when I was young but to get my mom to come to Disney and take her to Disney like to be able to bring and take my mom to Disney was like life goals for me it really was the same thing with my sister now my sister had a little bit better growing up with me because you know she was much younger but wow honestly I'm just so happy to be here and it's been amazing and I thank you to all of you guys for coming along on this like crazy journey in life and I love all of you I don't know I think I pretty much answered a lot of the questions that I guess people would want to know about me you know I don't know I just kind of felt like I was just gonna wing it I have no real idea of what I'm doing here but I'm just grateful like I said this is this is amazing and I don't want to like come off like any video with like I don't know like I would know a lot like I just want to make something and have people watch it and just enjoy and get enjoyment and happy feelings about it because like I said my lowest time in life the videos helped me so I hope the videos help other people too and if you've gone through something dramatic and something life-changing just know that you can always pick yourself up don't don't give up I mean I gave up on myself but I got back up I mean I got back up and I didn't stay down when a lot of people maybe would have stayed down and there's nothing wrong with that and I just made the decision that I wasn't gonna let me I wasn't gonna let it keep me down and I was gonna push forward and keep moving forward and I'm so happy that I did and I'm truly blessed I am here now living in Florida I have an apartment I have my dog she's amazing she's over there that's why I keep looking over there and like I said I have great friends I'm friends with my wife I never want to hate anyone in the world even though things didn't work out it just happens just happens like life will throw rocks at you and you're gonna come up cross challenges but you gotta you know push through it you have to make your way and you know things worked out for me good and I'm just I'm so happy about it so I hope you enjoyed the video I feel like I got to a lot of it and I can't believe we're here like this is me living my dream life my best life and just knowing that I am somebody maybe to other people I don't have a lot in life I mean I have this I have this channel this is my number one thing I don't do anything else really other than I just love making videos anytime anyone has ever asked why are you so happy is because I am so happy just to be able to make videos and just to be out in theme parks and hanging out and yeah it's just an amazing feeling so I don't know I hope you enjoyed the video I enjoyed making it and I guess we'll see you next time I hope I answered all the questions like I said I don't want to go into like a hundred percent details on things it is hard for me to talk about on a lot of things but I want to share my story a little bit you know I want to be a little bit more personal with you and I'm glad that I did so I guess we'll see you next time bye