 Hello everybody, welcome back to my channel, it's Eva from Bohemian Crafting and today I'm actually not gonna share with you any craft video, I guess. I'm gonna share with you something what is happening to me last two weeks, the 15th of January I quit smoking. Yay, after 25 years of heavily smoking, I quit finally. My amazing Patreons went through to my journey to do quitting smoking for last nine months, I guess, when I was announcing, ooh, I'm quitting smoking, then I announced, ooh, I failed, and then I announced, I'm gonna try again, and then I, I don't know, ooh, I failed again, why? Oh, that was a road, but now I'm two weeks without a cigarette, and last two weeks I wasn't even able to create a journal, which was very surprising for me, I was able to do simple craft, craft like these little organisers, and I think it came to my mind just because I'm trying to clean my body from toxins, from very bad habits, like smoking is, and this was kind of like, you know, you're cleaning, you need to organise yourself as well, so I was able to do these simple things, I did also my ink swatches, I'm gonna show you what I have created, so I've been able to create these lovely swatches for my inks here, and it was just, again, very easy craft, something where I don't have to think, where I don't have to count centimetres and to control faults, if they will sit nicely in the journal, I don't even have to sown something somewhere, you know, I was able to do only simple craft, and it was just because my brain was overloaded or too much busy with that quitting smoking stuff, and that's what I would like to talk to you today, if you're kind of in the same position that you're trying to improve your health by quitting some wrong habits, and while the process of quitting those wrong habits, you lost the touch, that junk journal maker touch, and you're scared that, oh, what is happening to me, don't worry, you're not alone, it did happen to many of us, it did happen to me as well, and I was scared, oh, do I lose it totally, or what is happening, it's just a process of, you know, kind of saving your energy for fighting that bad habit, then the energy you normally put to journal making, it's for this reason, and do not get scared that you are losing your creativity, it will come back once you kind of getting to win that wrong habit, I am not saying that I won totally, I'm not there yet, I can fail again, it can happen, so 10 days, 2 weeks, yeah, it's 2 weeks actually, without cigarette, it doesn't mean that I totally quit, I know that now because I read many, many columns, many, yeah, many columns that people can get back, and I hope it will don't happen to me, because I'm pretty much very proud of myself after 25 years to hold on for 2 weeks, it's good, especially if I tried many, many times, this one it's actually first journal which I have created after quitting smoking, and it's kind of like, it's the journal which I wanted to always do, from left overs, which doesn't have some construction which I need to count, if you know what I mean, which is totally just jumped pack, or junk packed, just because every single piece you can see here, it would be junk for somebody else, it was old envelopes, it was old papers, it was baked papers, and you know, it was these little strips, so for somebody else, this would be junk, for me, it was left overs, and I know it would be junk for somebody else, because I had visits from my friend, who is not journal maker, who is not even crafter, her hobbies are movies and cinema and mall, so when she came to visit me, she was like, oh, where I am, and she was so scared of my room, like, what are you having here, she was like, oh my, do you need some physical, oh no, physical help from doctor, she didn't understand really, that was quite funny, and I was opening, oh my, my sons are very forgiven to me, so someone like my friend will through the bin, the papers, and once I put it together, and I showed her, she was like, oh, this is so cute, what is it, this is so cute, and she was amazed by this, and that was kind of rewarding to me, that finally I'm getting back to my craft, I'm getting back to that feeling that I don't need energy to fight my wrong habits, and I started to pull my boxes, and now I'm not surprised why she was scared of my room, because I finally see that as well, I do have in my, in my craft room, back again, boxes and bags and, and boxes and pilars of stuff like this, these are left overs from previous, previous work, from previous junk journal maker, and I do have it everywhere, literally, everywhere, under my bed, in my shelves, bags like this, where I do have stuff which I didn't use in previous journal, like here, oh, look at that, oh, look at these, oh I can use that in that journal, yeah, I'm here, I'm gonna, oh, these are awesome, see, these I didn't use in previous journal, I think it didn't fit inside, because it was probably overloaded, look at what I do have here, that can totally go in this grungy journal, why I didn't use that, oh, look at that, I do remember when I made these actually, so, stuff like this I do have everywhere, and now I'm not surprised that Florin was like, oh my, where are you? so, but her reaction to my journal was cute, was that right reward what I needed, like, I'm getting there, I didn't lose it totally, I just saved that energy for my fighting, what I would like to say, do not give up, do not give up even if you will fail, last year was released a movie, Dungeons and Dragons, if you haven't seen that, if you like fantasy movies, or if you are a fan of Dungeons and Dragons game, I hope you saw that movie, if you didn't see that yet, go to have a look, because it's such a beautiful movie, I saw it many times already, I bought it on Amazon, and I do have a save it in my, you know, in my playlist, and when I need to cheer up, I'm watching this movie, because it does have one sentence which I actually need it right now, there is, yes, I failed many times, and I will fail many times again, something like this, and if I will stop failing, I failed, that's the right sentence, I need it all that time, I'm gonna bring you something, to show you something what my son created for me, and I will kinda like continue with what I would like to say, so this is creation my son Jacob created for me, he wanted to learn junk journal making, and box making, and stuff what I do, and he didn't finish it because he got very busy in his own work, so this is creation from last year, and what is interesting, I've been chatting at that time with my lovely friend Janice, Janice Freeman, if you didn't see her channel, I'm gonna put a link down below, please go to have a look, it was very interesting, we've been chatting with Janice, and she wrote me, oh I'm working on this one right now, and I'm using herbs and bottles and herbs collection, and she showed me what she's working on, and I was like, wait a minute, I need to send you pictures what I am teaching my son Jacob right now, what he wanted to do right now, and the box, and the kinda like style of that box, it's very similar to Janice box, please go to have a look, because her apothecary box is a junk journal, it's awesome, I will put link down below, and we've been working on it like my son Jacob with my assistants, we've been working on it at the same time, without even knowing it, that Janice is working on quite similar things, that's how this amazing craft works, through this work, that we are kinda sending to each other ideas, I guess, by telepathy, you know, so, what I wanted to say, yeah, I'm watching the Dengens and Jagdans when I need that, and because of that, not just because of that sentence, but because the movie is beautiful, and what did help me was that sentence that, yes, I felt many times to quit my smoking, and my Patreons can tell you that that is true, I quit many, many times, and I failed many, many times, and I was kinda happy that I'm not stopping to try, you know, even if I quit many times, and I failed many times, I still didn't give up, I still told myself that, ooh, I can do it, I can do it, I'm not ready yet, but I can do it, I will get there to that point where I will stop smoking, I hope I will stay this way like I am now, because even I'm two weeks without cigarettes, it's not win-win yet, and I read many, you know, many columns that it's not win-win yet, it can fail again, I hope it will not please stay with me, send positive feelings, and I thank you so much for that, so, just jumping back to this creation, everything you see here, my son created, yes, with my assistant, I've been telling him what to do, and I did show him on small pieces what to do, but everything what you see here, he did it, amazing stitching and amazing sewing signatures, his signatures, I am so proud that he created this one, and I would like to use it for art journaling, and that's what I would like to share with you today, when I was in that, you know, that I wasn't able to create a journal, but I was still interesting in journal making, or in that art of journals, I found amazing, amazing artists on Instagram and on Pinterest, and I would like to share with you few of these amazing artists, one of them is José Naranja, when I saw his art, it was, wow, my jaw dropped down, because his art is unbelievable, it's incredible, he makes his own journals, and he then makes art journaling, the way I never saw before, incredible jaw inks, beautiful handwriting, I will put link down below for his Instagram, and when I was kind of like scrolling down through to his blog, and then through to his Instagram, I found another art journal maker, it's Skybombie, and her name is, oh, mine, Tretia Gogh? No, I'm not sure, I know her name starts with T, and her surname is Gogh, I think it's Tretia Gogh, sorry for that, it's Skybombie, I will put link down below as well, so go to have a look, she does make such a wonderful art journaling, and she's using also Tim Holtz stumps, go to have a look, because her art is awesome, awesome, awesome, awesome, such a beautiful things, and then many, many more art journals, which I would like to learn that style, which I love that style, and for that I would love to use this, what you see here my son Jacob made, and this one we made with my Patreons, it does have only writing papers inside, there is no pocket, there is zero decoration, that's actually journal which I make to learn the style, these artists are doing all the time, and this will be like my stationery box, which I would like to use, and when I was discovering all these artists, I was very happy that the universe brings those links to me, because it kept me with the art, and I didn't get discouraged and depressed that I'm losing my creativity, even that was very scary, but by keeping the scrolling the new styles which I would like to learn, and those new artists which I adore right now, so it was keeping me with my art, so if you are like me and you are trying to fight your bad habits, and it sometimes gives you very hard time, and you can't craft or you have a hard time to work, it can happen, trust me it can happen, it's crazy how these bad habits can affect us, but please stay strong, even if you will fail one time, just try to go back and try it again and again, and I believe you will win one day, just do not give up your trying, and for those who quit smoking, I do have question, I'm two weeks without cigarettes and right now I'm starting to have hard time to breathe, which is surprising for me because I thought I will be better, I never had breathing problems when I was smoking, that's surprising for me why I do have it now, so if you do have any experiences with this, feel free to share it in your comments down below, I would love to read any kind of advices, I'm also trying to get back to gym, because yes, I started to eat a little bit more, which I don't want to continue, I don't want to get you know, obese just because I quit smoking, that will be kind of like a wrong way to go, so I'm going back to gym, and I found in the gym what I do love to use as equipment, those steps, you know, those moving steps, last time when I've been there I went 45 floors, which was I think kilometer and a half about that, and that was improving my breathing, so I love to continue with that, I actually love to continue with this exercise, because I have to breathe heavily and that's helping me, so anyone who has experiences with that, please share your experiences or advice, if you do have advice, I would love to read that, this is actually my sharing for today, and if you will be scrolling through the Instagram post of those amazing artists, do not forget to have a look on Sky Bambi video, when she's sharing ideas how to store your Epimeras, because I think her ideas are awesome, I'm gonna try to do something like this with my Epimeras, with my left overs and do kind of like order in them, and then use them in my journals. That's all my sharing for today, thank you so much for staying with me, even this is not crafty video, this is kind of like, I maybe need to read, if you do have kind of similar experiences, I guess, to share it with my craft family, because I know I'm not only one who went through and who is not totally win yet, but who wants to win and any advice will be good, so thank you so much, if you are trying to get this style, stay strong, stay positive, and for everybody else and for every my new subscribers, thank you so much for visiting me today and staying with me through to my chat, have a beautiful day, take care of yourself and I will come back soon with some crafty video, bye.