 The reason why you behave a certain way or how you perceive the world or how you are in general is because of your upbringing. Now you have your hardware, which you're born with, which you can't really control as of yet, maybe in the future you can. And then you have your ancestral traits, which we've shown in studies throughout the genetics, the mouse studies, really famous study with the lime scent and taser stuff. And so you've had zero control pretty much until you're an adult. When you're on your own, then you can control. But then you have like 18 years of pressure. And then while you're doing the therapy, you're peeling back your onion layers and motions, there's anchor points. There has to be a juxtaposition of why did you feel this at this point, at least for me it's on the fatherhood side. And so for me, it's more or less identifying the causation of it and coming to turn. So whether it's a male to father issue or mother issue or maybe like bullying as a young kid, it just comes back to understanding why you felt that. So the integration for me, it's like, okay, I always say this, I become like a therapy session. I love my father, but I don't per se respect him. Big difference. I don't respect him. I don't understand. Right. And so for me, it's like, you ever meet somebody and you just don't like them? Yeah. Like you never spoke with them? For sure. There's just that. There's like a weird kinesthetic vibe, energy. Yeah. And the best thing I heard before is like the reason why you don't like that person is they're a representation of you. You're just projecting stuff that you don't like about yourself. So totally. Yeah. And so for me, that was kind of like my aha moment or is like everything that I don't like about him is like part of you. I see it. For sure. Dude, you know, kind of as a jumping off point, like there's a book that I read recently and it's been so incredibly life changing in terms of like, you know, I have a long journey of overcoming a lot of, yeah, like you say PTSD, a lot of stresses from when I was in my youth. And I've gone through a lot of these moments where it's like, I've just thought about it and I've talked to some therapist about it and just like it, at least in my experience, it always seemed like talking about it, talking about it, trying to figure out was like a tooth trying to buy it, bite a tooth. Like I think talking about it is not integrating it because talking about it is like your window shopper. Right. Like, hey, there it is. Yeah, exactly. Hi. How are you doing? In, you know, you and I are both Joseph Campbell lovers and in mythology, specifically in Buddhism, Nietzsche talks about these young talk, all of them, anyone with two marbles knows this. The problem with talking about anything is we're separating from ourselves. Like this like third entity is like, oh, it's not really part of us. It's not me. In reality, like if you look at Buddhism or if you look at mythology, look at like the hidden shadows in ourselves is about accepting a part of you. You know, Nietzsche has a great saying, be careful to cast out the devil from you because they're casting out the best part of you. Everything is like a double-edged sword. Yeah. Yeah. Usually our best qualities are our worst qualities. Yeah. So instead of, instead of negating it, like people like to label it, right? There's a Vedic saying if you label me, you negate me. People like to label something, well, you know, I'm angry and like my primary dominance is like anger. Right. Like my substrate, anger and cynical. I'm like, I don't trust people. Right. Instead of saying, oh, this is a horrible trait on me. Like I need to eliminate it. You're never going to eliminate it. It's going to become worse. You know, Joseph Campbell's definition of the devil is the definition of the devil is internal energies that you have ignored and not love and they manifest to become your very own devils. Yeah. You become your own devil because you don't accept them. You don't recognize them. You don't love them. You don't interpret them as part of you, but they are fucking part of you. That which you try to abandon, that which you try to strike off will often end up owning you. Yeah. That's like impossible because it's you. It's you. You can't run away from yourself. Correct. Can't just all of a sudden be like, all right. It's gone. Yeah. There's no duality.