 hey it's been a sec i don't even know how to start this video but i'm back from break in a new place too i had a long and wonderful one month off of youtube and streaming and everything and it was so insanely needed more than i even thought it was like once i got into it i was like oh oh i i needed but i'm back now this is the very first video back i'm in a new place um and i'm really really excited for the future and to start making stuff again and there's kind of a few things that i want to talk about and address so my break went really really really well um it was so good to just step away and have some space from everything and not have the the stress of youtube and streaming and the internet uh beyond my shoulders all the time because even if videos aren't going up there's still the stress and there's still stuff going on but i took a full month off of doing pretty much anything related to youtube like i didn't stream at all i wasn't on social media all that much way way way less than i usually am i talked to my manager and i was like hey anything that that happened to the next month just see if you can push it because i'm trying to take this the whole month off okay also apologies for the sound in here it's probably gonna sound a little bit weird i haven't gotten this room acoustically treated um i've ordered everything but it's probably not going to be here for a few weeks so just be patient sorry about the shitty audio for a sec but it was really really great i got time to just be by myself and do a lot of thinking i went to a lot of therapy over zoom of course i didn't go in person because that would be irresponsible i hung out with spencer a lot um and i also moved which was cool and oddly really really nice to have something else to focus on while i was doing nothing instead of just doing nothing because if i don't have something else to do and be productive with then i kind of just feel like shit it was nice to preoccupy myself with something else that i could do um but taking a step back was really really important for me um because i haven't taken a real break like i said in the last video in a really long time since like 2018 so i was definitely overdue and something that i realized while i was on break is that taking breaks like that maybe not a whole month but like a week maybe two weeks i need to do more like i just i want to make sure that going forward i don't burn myself out again and that i actually you know take time off um like a like a normal person would you know how people take breaks and vacations for normal jobs that should probably be a thing that i do um and not just work all the time and so i sort of want to make that a new standard of mine of just taking time for myself and uh i talked a lot about this in therapy of also just working a lot smarter and not necessarily harder because most of the time uh i would just kind of every day was kind of a slog you know i'd get what i needed to get done most of the time but it would take all day when in reality i could normally get that stuff done in just a few hours if i managed my time well and i could give myself weekends off if i wanted to um and like days off during during during a week long schedule i could take days off i don't just have to work every single day so that was a really good thing to learn i just did a lot of like introspection again i talked to my therapist a lot about my youtube stuff but also just stuff in my normal life um and we we got a lot of good stuff done which is good and it's really really really important to focus on on your mental health and your mental health but it was great i just kind of chilled for a second and i took a breather and i i wasn't stressed and i just had days where i had days where i was i was working on stuff not youtube stuff but just like getting things done and being productive and then i had days where i just didn't do anything and i just relaxed and it was awesome it was really really really great and so needed and so overdue but now i'm back i'm feeling really refreshed i'm so excited to make stuff again i'm so excited to stream again um and there's a lot in the future that's coming that i can't wait about and one of those things i'm going to tell you about right now so as a lot of you guys know i went on tour in like 2017 through 2018 uh on the you're welcome tour um and i just fell in love with touring and being on stage and doing shows and it's always been something that i've wanted to do for myself um and on my own channel so right now if you go in the link down below there is a link that you can click on and buy tickets for a show obviously sort of tentative date depending on what happens with covid but hopefully things will be safe enough then but um you know i was talking to my people and you know we talked about how i've wanted to do a show and i've wanted to pursue bigger things but i always get afraid of doing them because i i have like this fear of commitment because i don't want to make something shitty and i don't want to disappoint people and so we were like okay let's just book a show and you have x amount of time between now and when the show is which is november 21st 2021 what's the year 2021 yep and between now and then you got to figure out a show so being very open with you right now we have booked a venue in chicago um we have a date it's already i don't have a show yet so that's something that i'm going to be working on over the next however many months um because i want to make a really great show and i want to make something that you guys can be proud of but also something that i'm proud of and proud to give to you and so keep in touch for the next however many months is between now and when the show happens because i'll give you some regular updates i'm not going to leak anything about the show really but check the website regularly because new stuff will be coming out because right now there's nothing on it because we don't have a show we just have a venue that we booked out for a show i'm so excited and i'm absolutely terrified but i'm really excited to take this leap and and finally do this thing again no idea what the show is going to be but i hope it will be good but right now the website is i have to do this not show i i have a rough idea sort of a little bit of what i want the show to be but the main thing for the name was i wanted to name it something that was one intriguing but also to hold myself accountable so if uh in this show is going to be sort of a tester show so to see if the show works to see if you guys like it and enough if enough people do like it then we can do a tour and the tour will be called i have to do this tour i can't wait i'm really really really excited and i can't wait to my mic fell over i can't wait to make something and be in that environment again because being up on stage and performing in front of a crowd is really really special and i'm craving it baby i'm craving it so go down in the link below click on it if you are around or can get to the chicago area november 21st 2021 i'm doing a show so go there right now get tickets fuck uh the other thing real quick is we during my break launched a sick merch drop and there's who these sweaters that are out now because we couldn't couldn't drop them uh during the actual valentine's day thing that we did because they weren't ready yet but um yeah you can go to the current camp place dot com and grab those i'm really really proud of the drop that we did it's so damn cool but the designers did such a fantastic job um and i'm really really pumped and i'm excited to pursue that avenue a little bit more uh and make some really cool stuff for people to wear um over the next year or so because it's it's just really fun and it's cool working with that design team and figuring out cool stuff and um i'm trying to make soft boy more of its own line um so very exciting but yeah that's kind of it i'm back i'm making stuff again uh i'm gonna be streaming tonight when this video is posted at 5 p.m pacific time over on twitch so be there for the the welcome back stream thank you guys so much again for letting me take time off like this and letting me have a breath and take some time away because it's really really important and a lot of audiences aren't as forgiving as you guys and aren't as patient as you guys uh and don't really let people do that so i really really appreciate it um i hope that you guys had good time away from me i know i can be overwhelming and maybe you guys just needed a break from me too but i'm ready to come back uh stronger than ever and and making more stuff and just being happier and having more fun and doing cool shit and doing this show i'm so excited i'm so afraid please buy tickets i don't know what the show is gonna be i hope it's gonna be good i think it will be i'm gonna work really hard because i want to make a show that you guys can enjoy and then i can be proud of so come along for the ride maybe again check the website regularly because there will be updates so yeah cool well see you guys later i'm back