 So excited for today. You have no idea. This is my first vlog in so long like really doing something watching back this footage We have a few exciting things happening first off I could make a video live this morning which always excites me second. Oh my gosh I didn't even think about this my kitchen innovation starts today. This also didn't happen I was like too how exciting and then third thing I'm really most excited for is we have our first in-studio shoot for the living room So I'll take you guys to the studio. We're going to Bishop arts We're going to the Texas studio if any of you guys are in Dallas and want to go I don't know me again. I actually really would recommend the studio though a side note for anything that you guys need It's very like COVID friendly. I'm very sanitary all that stuff Just you wait for the end of the vlog guys. So number four We're going to tribal my favorite coffee shop in all of Dallas for breakfast. I'm wearing this cute like revolve side This spring my plan is to only wear sets that look like pajamas and sandals It's not spring, but I'm just like keeping you guys posted my living room spiel if you guys didn't know The living room is kind of like my faith-based like brand almost a patreon. That's where the content is I was younger at like getting into faith I never thought I'd really connected with so many of the like super southern people and I loved them and like Someone of them or met someone like my greatest friends, but I just didn't like I really connected with that when I was younger I was always looking to I was looking for like content or maybe something that was like more creative or more at my field or whatever So and it's not only for people who are like resonating with me. I'm bringing like so many people on it's so exciting I cannot wait the concept is actually really cool But even if you are not a faith person I have some outfits that I might wear. I'm gonna wear this I used the Sephora foundation. Where is that? This is what I've been using for Wait, it like actually has disappeared. So these are my two new go-to products I have the rare beauty primer so good so so good. I'll link it below and then the Sephora best skin ever foundation Unreal it's literally twenty dollars guys I cannot recommend this to you enough and then I actually use the Sephora 64 brush I just picked a random brush at Sephora Because they were out of the brush that actually went along with this one And it turns out that it's like a crowd-fave and the brush is so good. So I apply it with a brush I love it. It's amazing link below. This outfit is revolve this set Which are probably like a white turtleneck under it is misguided No nasty gal these sweaters are revolve for those who maybe last during the day And I'll probably forget because I'm just so excited. All right I'm gonna put shoes on and like get going you know just being super professional packing up my juicy Gatorra gym bag And then I have my outfits I actually changed them So I'm just doing pretty much all sets for removal because it's easier. They're really comfortable But yeah have my cute little juicy gym bag, which I don't think this is available I've had this for a few years, but honestly it is the perfect bag like I love this thing. See look juicy by juicy Back to my roots. We made it guys. We're going to tribal my favorite place in all of Dallas. It's so good So good, I know right guys. We got the most beautiful oatmeal from tribal so good this place is my favorite coffee shop in Dallas Come here. I am To sickle shots of espresso because I was drinking Dom drink with me, but they gave me a double shot So you don't have to suspect me. No, I'm gonna be on my own and now she got home. Yeah I played myself So I can't take this as a shot. I'd be fine to my 18-year-old self, but like but sure later yourself like the violent Happy blood history, man It was a sip on espresso shots, too. Yes I guess this is my side of the picture and I'll try to like take it like I'm on a frat party. You know what I mean? Oh We're here, sorry, we're here at the studio the Texas studio. We have this until we've been for six hours So we have a lot of shooting to do The lighting good to know though lighting in studios one is just better at this time But anyways, we're trying to set up the first Few shoots It's gonna be a great time got some topochikos over here very Texan of them It's just amazing and they had these backdrops Which we love I like these though, and there's white on this background too, which is really cool We'll probably use up for something else But I really like the brown here as we know I'm a big brown girl these days This is our first setup. It looks a lot better on the camera that we rented the quality is Amazing very exciting. We're having some technical difficulties. We've been here for about a minute. It's fine though. We're gonna make it work Don't worry guys. It is now 430 Dom is recording a podcast. We just filmed so Much content like we did four car professionals eight Bible studies an intro and a bonus video that you guys can get for free If you do the sign-up thing with Dom It was really good. We talked about like church her we talked about Honestly everything like identity anxiety Like literally so many different things like actually so much stuff I don't even know I'm kind of brain dead at this point because I've just been so focused We're packing up now. We have a lot of stuff But I feel great feeling good This is a very good time. I actually like next time I do think we should be like a two-day shoot And then honestly or even you can run this for 20 hours And I know that's a long like you just go from like eight Then you just have to like the whole idea is that you just have it for the whole day No, no, you can come whenever you want You wouldn't go for China or state No, I think I actually could but I do think that would be a good idea Because if I'm trying to do like three or four months of content out It could potentially be good, but Yeah, it was a good time I'm literally so brain dead Sid brought us chick-fil-a and she saved my life because she brought us an extra memory card We went through like this amount with some of these are 128 and another one actually There's two more that you guys don't even see right here So that's a good lesson to learn. I don't even know like how many months to bring so many Okay Thinking about how to make me happy or how to make me a better person the more anxious I'm becoming the more I take off that Burnin of trying to make people understand me I felt there weren't a lot of black people and I was felt like a little awkward and like there wasn't anyone like me And I was saying of me working as hard as I do in the season is in that season is I remember being so tired So like oh my gosh, this is crazy. How could this be God where I'm so exhausted? This looks nothing like what I imagine God calling me to and being on the other end of that and slowly stepping into a new career When someone says like oh, I'm applying medical school. I'm applying medical school, dental school, whatever it is It's like if you're not if you don't study like if you're not planning the same thing I don't think people really understand how much work and time goes into it It's actually a really crazy thing. So this is how God works Right on the brink of the end of our service Yeah Literally within a year we're both some Not just anybody like leadership Holy Spirit Field Bible College going to the nations State so close that are still so close was a beautiful move of God, and I think it was me It's a second thing as well Paul's story in his flesh That's a seriously sufficient and if the Lord really did take care of everything on the cross there has to be an exchange Perspective it's tricky because it's like you're making God seem so small that I've struggled with and a lot of people have messaged me about is Like you know God has called you to something right and it's like you're supposed to do things like out of rest also following God It's like at what point are you? Following God and walking alongside God and then like helping God's where you're like taking control of your own hands And I said will you do this? It's like okay, but I don't want to and this is not who I am So it's it renews your mind that is the place where he has to follow you though And that's what I can just receive like it's a beautiful place I think that's actually what it is for me puts you in a really big place of receiving like When you're there I spoke for you when you're consuming say it's that yeah, but it just comes to your face And they're not being able to just receive me like how did you kind of get out of that face? And you think share more about like what it was like in written in that place and what you were trying to do Because I always thought like Oh, you're asking me to lay this down if one bad thing happened and it's like no I never asked you that like I did money when it's like now you're broke You never actually great thing and I'm wondering why it's like Our before we can get into this we are so poor little church We love the church and it's so important that especially the church that we've been a part of have changed us forever And like the people there who we met there like they're also incredible Church from church. Yeah, it's just I know I know because of it No, it's 100% so important. So I think with that big side I think what's interesting about my experience with church her is I got saved when I was 16 17 and It wasn't until 2020 that I experienced church work for the first time, which I think a lot of people have her the most as a black woman society Then I fell into just this phase of deconstruction and Unlearning things and I think that phase is important to go through. Yes every Christian in your walk We're gonna go through that and It's important to unlearn things to you because there are things that I unlearned in 2020 about the church that I needed to I Think the mistake I made though with church her is doing it without God I think you can walk through church her and do it with God Understanding the Bible and that's like so for it to read your Bible because you and not only read it But understand it for its context. Yes I think once you read the Bible in its context You like the weight of all these lies and like truth separating lies and truth will be a lot easier when Understand the word of God for what it is. So relating this back to the cool times When in acts that's when like the revival like the Holy Spirit was unleashed and we're seeing signs of wonders all these incredible things Paul someone who was so Endowed and devoted to who Jesus was and the life change that he experienced and being able to walk through that I mean no one had more church with them Paul. No one I mean he got stranded with locked up with stone by the very Disadvantaged things I was listening you may be a part of the organization that has changed your life But in the recent coming years and the recent conversations being had you're conflicted Do I stay do I go and I'm not gonna tell you one thing or the other but I will say that you need to ask God Like literally I was joking with Kenzie. I call it the great call of 2021. It really called me back into my fate You know the great commission of 2021, but I was going to really honest conversation with Kenzie She's like listen down. I've been going through this construction phase, and I talked about it a little bit She was just like listen down You need to pray you need getting your word and use fine time to get with God and I was like start, you know show dad and she was like dawn When I knew you I Basically told her that she was happier and lighter when she was in church and that this had gone on for too long But I knew it to be true But at the same time I was so conflicted He's so still so angry and so her and I was like how dare you how dare you tell me to go back to the one Institution that has just like broken my heart. It wasn't even church. It was more so like God Yes And that's a thing is through God comes all clarification God is the God of clarity He's the God of peace clarity and any time you follow God you will lead you to those things and I think by God influencing Kenzie to tell me all those things. I'm able to come back into a space where I feel Good again, I feel like and I feel like I can have trust and Not only God, but the local church and its hope Like it being the hope for humanity, you know saying and like by the way, this whole conversation This was also like months and months on it and I had been used to don being the one keeping me in it So I when the when the position switched I was like wait a second like this is not what I'm used to this is very weird and then it was When I was in LA and we've had multiple multiple multiple conversations about this And I mean so many and like dogs lived with me for months and like this has been a long time of whatever But I wasn't as the friend because I've also gone through obviously not with like system and racism But with the action another thing that wasn't just like I don't like the church It was not something that just happened that was like taken lightly. Yeah, but you know Sometimes leaving the church for a second you process and you it's a you know We deconstruct you reconstruct your rebuild and then you you're thinking it's stronger Sometimes you're lucky the church gets bigger and I knew like when you were coming to me saying all these things I wasn't going to like first off I could as you being in the block one slide I could never understand so I was never gonna sit there and be like I get it on that end and then also I was never gonna be like you need to stay in church like you need to do this It's like I recognize that you had to process it Yeah, but I recognize if you needed to go through it, and I was not me telling you to do something at that point wasn't it? I just had to like listen to you and be your friend through that It wasn't like I mean it was like, you know what you need to pray and you talk to God It was literally six months into this thing and I was like, okay like I think someone walk through church Her it is hard Especially someone who's gone through it and seeing someone start that phase For me I think the best thing that could have happened was you listening to me and you not trying to like justify actions, right? Because I think that's that's something that could cause people to dive deeper into church Well, I'm sure they can't mean it this way and oh well, I'm well, you know, they're doing their best Okay, well your best is not good enough. That's another conversation But in all seriousness hurt by hurt validating my experience I'm like can see just sticking by my side and not wanting to leave me and all these different things by you doing that I was able to come out on the other side but also you leading in truth and love and you telling me in a moment like in a low moment I love like hey dog Listen, I know you're going through a tough time right now But the very reason you are going through a tough time and you know the truth of who God is is because of this and like we It's time to push you Into that space you need to be with God and you know, those are holy spirit moments You can't just do that to anyone. It really takes like spending time with Jesus, which clearly like can see that Those are so angry and I just leave so But through that I would see myself getting further and further away From the truth of who God was because they were in an unhealthy mindset, too And I think back to all the people like Kenzie or mentors or whoever Well, I just had to like sit and talk with and have them pray for me pray over me. Whatever, you know what I'm saying Is what led me back into a place of health where I feel confident like pursuing God Not that I But it all says this church or is something that I've always been like hesitant to talk about because church is the bride of Christ If I never want to talk about church in a way that would mean some away from it But I do think that topics like this when you're in a healthy mindset are really important to have because I've been there Like this with so many people who have I really was Okay guys, I've been pranked I think because I don't think the kitchen. I mean, I know the kitchen nothing happened to it Obviously there's been updates here, but it still is a mess so Yeah, I'm confused because I thought it was starting like officially officially today Obviously like other things started and they wouldn't purchase stuff, but um, yeah I don't know guys beats me a package from names for good Look at how cute. I got a little ke little piper, which is my last name case. You didn't know Um, I love that But I just think they're so cute. So if you guys want to go support go check them out I might have a discount code if I do I'll put it in the description And then I got this Highline wellness CBD oil I've seen a lot of people post and mainly Melissa would help posted it And Melissa would help like if she tells me to do something. I'm just going to do it. I'm pretty sure it was her What did I get on my nail? It's not like a black sticker. But anyways, um, I don't really I Sometimes have problems sleeping and I just I don't know. I wanted to try it and see what it does So this is what I got Highline William Highline wellness premium CBD oil just heard a lot of good things Okay, especially oh it's plus melatonin. So yeah exactly first sleeping. Okay okay guys, so This is real life as you guys saw first off I showered I haven't even brushed my hair out because I just like need to be in bed right now. So Here we are this is real life. So we did all of this There's obviously been so much prep piece a lot of money that I put into this the whole shoot day You know just like a lot of work and we got home. We started importing the footage and I was so excited But the conversation I literally was on like cloud nine. I was like, this is amazing perfect all this stuff I'm so excited and then we got back and we started importing footage and realize the audio is messed up on like literally all of it and It's not even the money one. It's the people's time that that's number one. It's not even the money It's just that the conversation It's that we had like we're just so good And I really loved like everything that we touched on and I felt like we did such a good job on top of like People are spending time and like taking time on their own day and you know doing this because I already was like So grateful that they would even do that and now that it's like messed up I'm like not I don't know I mean, it's really not the best and I don't even want like the best audio quality Honestly, the conversations were so good. Like I would take a worse audio quality Just to have these conversations because they are that good So we called like an audio tech guy and we're like trying to figure it out But this is real life And so I'm sharing with you But I like love the living room so much just like my favorite thing I do and we were just so excited to like make everything so much better and like start shooting in studio and obviously it's just growing pains and whatever but yeah this is real life and Not the best moment ever I mean, it's just like it is what it is. It's just one of those things that like, you know It's like we'll laugh at it I'm not like super super stressed by any means because we haven't even made any decisions on what we're gonna do I'm hoping that someone just says like it's savable to the point where like the audio will be okay, and then we can do it But um, yeah, that's been today So I'm so really grateful and like I'm in such a good mood still even though This is like really a huge bummer just because like it was such a good day, but hopefully figure it out By the way, if you guys are new me from the future We are doing a zoom on on the 8th I think 7 p.m. Central the information will be down below if you're a patreon member And that's where we all like hang out and stuff you can like the lowest ones like one ninety nine a month or something So joy and we will hang out on zoom. Good morning guys. It is the next morning Essentially it seems as though the audio is like corrupt I sent it to producer Taylor last night and he was like it seems like there's something wrong with the actual like Wires of the mic, and we don't know if it's stable like he's like basically just that it wasn't it So we'll see because we always had him like a small clip But I don't know there's like so many parts of this But you're lucky because the girls that I shot with are like good friends of mine And I know they're not gonna be mad and they will only be like the nicest people ever So I'm really grateful for that because if it was other people like can't say that honestly But again, you guys already know like the money is one thing Which is honestly a smaller thing even though it should be a bigger thing to me because it was very expensive and then It's more so like the people's times that they took to come and then also like I have been prepping and working on this for like two months So the whole situation sucks But it's also just like one of those things that this stuff happens And I've been lucky enough at my like whole YouTube career and podcasting career tour that nothing like this has happened to me Immediately was just kind of in like solution. Um, but it like sucks, but it'll be okay. I reached out to a creative agency this morning And I can't get this this this is the worst part about I'm looking at my solutions on what I can do now So basically I'm pretty set on probably not gonna be able to use it Which is really sad because the conversations were so good That's the number one thing like the conversations were so so so good. I'm wearing my twin flames right now I don't know what I got there guys Don't ask came actually face-to-face like two hours outside So then I felt a lot better reach out to them and like all that happens is like I just reshoot it and it's okay I'm like, yes, there's money involved But like we learned a lesson and I should have had a second mic anyways, which I plan to do It's honestly just something we forgot to do. I might rent a studio run it all go back I might do it for my house run a camera I might hire a like production crew type thing in film it here And just make it look cool, but like the quality will be a lot better There's options and I'm trying to do it with them like the next week because our next launch That's another thing is next week, which we were trying to not ever do it so closely But that's just how it worked out timing was in the studio So there are solutions. I will keep you guys posted. I think you guys so much for watching I could just scrap this vlog because it's like painful to see me so excited in a studio day But this is also just the reality and it's also like the reality of like being the boss I'm like working for yourself and stuff. You're gonna make mistakes and things that just happen And just like don't be yourself up for it, but I love you guys. Hope you guys enjoyed the vlog I in all seriousness the living of content is going to be so good There's no way around it. It's the only thing I'm doing. I'm working very hard on it but if you guys haven't already joined you should because We have our zoom on Monday night. So it's really fun. Anyways, I'll be guys I will see you soon. Okay. Bye I do feel like in our generation everything revolves around alcohol though and that's something that I feel like I Struggle with as well because I am really passionate about health and wellness and I know how it affects me in a negative way and I do feel pressured sometimes that I can't say no like oh I don't want to get a drink at dinner with my friends because I don't want people to say stuff Like I know my friends would be so supportive and they wouldn't make me feel