 Alright guys, so we made it to the gym, it's like 12 midnight, Friday night, I'm the only one at the gym, we haven't started working out yet, this is what I look like. I'm not going to lie to you guys, this last two weeks I have struggled big time with motivation. I couldn't tell you why, I couldn't tell you exactly what it is, I just, man, the motivation just hasn't been there, I haven't had a drive to train hard, I haven't had a drive, you know, and I know it comes down to what I look like, and I'm telling myself that I look soft. Can you tell me that I look just as good as I did at 90 kilos? And I'll be happy, because, I mean, what am I weighing, and the scale honestly scares me to be honest. Let's see if I have the fucking weight. 98.3, so that's honestly light for my recent weights, today I've actually pulled back on the calories, because I've just got scared, I really don't want to get fat, I mean I look decent under this light, I must admit, but, you know, I don't know, just struggling at the moment. Let's go kill a fucking session, and improve this mood that I'm in. That's all I can do. Alright, so I was feeling bored obviously, I was feeling unmotivated to train, including tonight, so what I've done is I've said to myself, fuck it, I'm going to go to an exercise I never do, something I've always been weak as fuck on, the bench press, flat bench, and I'm going to try and go for a PB, and if I get that, I'll be really happy, because a PB for 100 kilo, which is 220 pounds, is two reps, and I used to get sets of 10 with 80 kilo, which I think is about 185, so I'm going to load up the bar, do a few warm-up sets, and get into a working set with 80 kilos, and if I can get 10 reps, I'll stop there and go up, if I can't, then I'm weaker than I was before, and I've made no gains, so let's see what the fuck happens. I'm scared, to be honest. Alright, so we just got 10 reps at 80 kilo, which is an equal PB for me, I don't know how many more reps I could have got, at least two or three, so I'm going to bump up the weight to 90, and see how many we get. That was pretty shit, but what that does mean is that I can do five by five at this weight, and that'll be a good starting point for a bench press strength