 Hello everybody and welcome to the average. I always say welcome back to the average It doesn't really make Make much sense because what if you've never been here before Today we're gonna have a bit of a rambly draw with me video and feel free to just Grab a cup of whatever your beverage is and Draw along and experiment with me today as we go through the trials of Feeling Pretty much burnt out. Well, I mean I feel burnt out. I don't know about you guys I don't know why but recently I've just felt really tired all last week. I kind of had a Bit of RSI in my wrist from drawing and working and then also it kind of so I was like Oh my wrist hurts a little bit. So what I'll do is I'll go for a massage because I know that Usually when my wrist hurts, it's kind of stemming from my mid-back and I went from massage to try and like get The pain away and I think it made it ten times worse And then my whole back and shoulder and neck were hurting more than my wrist I mean the wrist pain is gone. So technically I I did a good. I did a good thing. No, I I It fixed the problem to hand Yeah, I have had back pain all week, but now it's it's kind of better But today I just thought I'd do like a chill video where we can just chat and you guys can draw along with me or not Or whatever and I know these videos aren't usually it's super popular But like I said, I'm feeling pretty burnt out. So what I wanted to do today is just kind of Experiment with different art supplies that I have because it's fun it's fun to do this stuff if I kind of call it like playing with art supplies because You know, you can just do whatever and there's no pressure Definitely these drawings don't turn out the best drawings that I've ever made but I you know It was relaxing and there was no pressure so if you guys are here for like one of those videos where I draw on a book cover and it's Quite a good outcome or it's not kind of be that kind of video. We're gonna chill out I'm gonna tell you stuff about my life and we're gonna draw I'm drawing scenes currently from a neon demon because I wanted to make a video You know, I was doing that series of horror drawing horror film series. I was gonna do a neon demon Episode of that and I sat down and I even started drawing them out here And then I just felt tired and I realized I just wanted to have fun with this stuff that I have my art supplies all laid out. I Had a mint tea because I've been having like a really bad stomach Well, it's not bad stomach. It was like a a gripey stomach, you know when it just hurts I think I don't know if I ate something funny TMI Anyway, I had a mint tea not a coffee and I'm here drawing a scene from a neon demon because the colors in that were really striking and I'm using these Molotow Acrylic paint markers now I go on about these a lot because I really like them I did have a period of time this year where I used them a lot and I thought like this is my new style I'm gonna use these all the time and then I haven't used them for ages And I felt like coming back to an old friend because these are really nice And I really enjoy using them Also, Posca pens kind of work well with them too. I like Posca's but I prefer these I don't know why like they do have a different range of colors, but I just think you can be I Just like the feel of them or I don't know each to their own I guess I do like some of the colors in Posca so I go in with that that light blue in the beginning was a Posca and then Yeah, they have different tips So this black which I kind of regret using is like a thin tipped black Molotow pen and Yeah, I like it. I feel like it it kind of ruins it a little bit because it was working really nice We were just colors But I guess it helps to give a little bit of detail But like I said, this isn't a video where I'm gonna be critiquing the work because I'm experimenting and we're having fun and we just We're kind of drawing for the sake of it just to get like those bad drawings out That's the thing that I've heard, you know, if you want to become an expert in your field You've probably heard this as well where you spend 10,000 hours on a particular Profession I guess or Hobby, I don't know what you would call it But you spend 10,000 hours doing something and then when there's 10,000 hours up You're supposedly supposed to be an expert in that field And then there's also the saying goes that if you spend if you draw 10,000 drawings Then eventually you will become an expert a drawing as well, which kind of makes sense You know practice makes perfect blah blah blah. Everybody knows that So I'm just getting these drawings out That stems to like getting the bad drawings out in quotations because Once you get those bad drawings out then you start to get better and you get to the good stuff, I guess That's what is a common practice as well is to just think okay I don't like this drawing, but you know if I've I've done it and it's gone it's done Then hopefully next time I go to draw a similar thing it will be better and I mean slightly. Yeah, that makes sense. Oh That's got practices. Thanks Steph. Thanks for letting us know that we should practice our art. Yeah, I know that doesn't make any sense Still we're doing a long rambly video so get buckled in and used to the way that I'm speaking right now because It's just the way it is This is one of those videos where you don't really need to pay that much attention as well it's just to have one in the background was you draw I think is the Is what people say anyway This week because if you in case you guys don't know I'm also a full-time graphic designer And it's just been a really long week. Like I said, I've had that back pain and stuff and so Maybe that made working on things a little bit harder, but I've also got I mean I can't say too much But I've got a big project that I'm working on at work So I think that's what's left me a little run down with my creative energies I did get into using the iPad Pro a little bit more because well I used to use it quite often and then I grew a bit tired of it And then for this project at work I had to kind of draw out some characters and I thought I would sketch out on the iPad Pro and I Really enjoyed working with it and I even like did a little doodle comic thing at lunch one day And that's on my Twitter in case you guys want to go check that out It's not really is nothing special honestly to go and check out but just in case you're curious I thought you know I should say but yeah, it's just really nice. I've missed Just doodling out little comics because that's what I used to do a lot is make little funny comics slice-of-life comics and It's something that I really missed doing but I feel like I don't have the time necessarily to do it I mean, of course I have the time but When you talk about creative energies, I feel like it is I feel like I have this barrel of creative energy and every day I take a cup of it and I like sip it This is a really weird analogy. Sorry. I sip I Drink the Creative energy away and you use it up in certain areas So if I'm doing graphic design all day, I feel like by the end of the day I am burnt out I'm done with creative stuff and some people like they have the stamina. They can draw all day long They can draw all day night, but that's not me I have bursts of it and especially with my job being 9 to 5, you know working every single day It's like It's all taken up in the weekday So when it comes around to the weekend and I have to film my video I'm pretty tired and so that reflects sometimes in the videos. I always try to do my best obviously, but yeah This is a coming background to me right now being a little bit burnt out and so I thought I'd make this more chilled out video Yeah, anyway, so I'm drawing things from neon demon still and then I sort of digress and I start just experimenting with what I have and This picture of I think it's alphanning this picture of alphanning is just It kind of stems to be something that's not really Anything anything recognizable from neon demon which I kind of like and then I started to get more experimental and using the jelly gouache and also some poster paints that I found and just messing around with Textures and things like that and just having fun with it Pesto of course kept bothering me. That's stopping you and I had kept having to push her away because I have this Because I have this really janky setup basically my tripod It fell one day. So one of the legs sort of broke apart from the rest of it. So I had to Use sellotape to like sellotape it back up and I'm this person who's like I'm not gonna get a new one Because it still works. I mean the sellotape has done the job and Pesto is a cat. I don't know if you guys know this about cats But sometimes cats love plasticky stuff and she loves sellotape like she's obsessed with it So, you know, she slowly cottoned on that this Tripod is wrapped up with sellotape and she's like oh my my lunch is has arrived and she kept trying to like bite the Tripod and I'm like please I'm trying to film like it's hard enough to summon up the energy to be creative or start a project And then have your cat there just like trying to mess with everything. It's kind of funny She's usually quite a little helper. She sits next to me and just lies down. So I She is a good cat. I'm making a sound where she's gonna get me for this Yeah, so still experimenting with water and Different jelly gouache here. I saw this image of like it's not even a Recognizable image, but it's like a hand grasping something So it's a still from the movie neon demon and I wanted to paint that again And it just it's a very weird thing Shot but it's like recognizable and I couldn't remember what the scene is just a shot of her hand Grabbing something but anyway, I don't know if you guys have seen neon demon. It's actually a pretty horrific It's a horror and it's very very slow paced full of like Really dark moods and tones and it's beautiful. It's a beautiful film. It's stunningly shot, but it's it's kind of horrific It's one of those films that Stuck with me a long time, you know when you you watch something and it kind of shocks you or It sticks with you and you you stay thinking about it the next day That's kind of what happened with me with this film So I don't know if it's one of those films that I'll ever watch again And if you've seen it you might know why but um, I'm probably really intriguing you guys to watch it But it's one of those things. I'm like warning you don't watch it as well because If you don't like horror films don't watch it definitely not It's I don't know if it's like for me if it's horror. It's just like a suspense filled The suspense filled journey and it's really strange to describe it and I can't describe it without spoiling it So I'm doing a really good job, aren't I? But yeah, I'm just I'm just taking things from Pinterest looking at stills and Not gonna really apologize for Not being bothered about Composition or making up my own things. I'm just looking at reference and studying it and kind of painting it and experimenting and Doing whatever I want and not most of it doesn't look very good But it's just for the practice of it. It's just for the fun and it's just for the feel of it and I'm a mixed media artist really is what I Enjoy doing the most so the fact that I Got to get down and start doing this kind of thing was quite fun I haven't done this in a while. It's very weird because obviously I've do my book cover paintovers And I do everything I do for YouTube, but I tend to have stuck to one media recently I don't know why so in the future. I think I'm gonna just when I do my YouTube videos I'm gonna try and mix it up a little bit more Obviously I have stuff planned ahead of time so for things like Boxes or things I've ordered that I want to try I'm probably gonna have to stick with that one media But for things like book cover painters things like that I think I should really try and mix it up a little bit more because that's where my interests lie I don't know about you guys What's your favorite medium to use do you mix it up? Do you do stuff like this in your sketchbook where you just are rough and You don't really care what you're drawing or do you have like every page really detailed? I know I've heard people get really annoyed that about people who have like really clean beautiful sketchbooks But I don't I think that's a really cool thing to have because that's somebody's way of expressing themselves That's where a lot of people only do that are in their sketchbook So I understand that form of it But I also understand using the sketchbook as like a tool to just get drawings out and painting and experimenting and thumb nailing So I kind of understand what both aspects come from But yeah, I don't like it when people get like annoyed at people for having these perfect sketchbooks Because I think that's each to their own really if that's the way you want to do your art Then that's the way you want to do it for me. I like to have full pages I like to make each page look as good as I can But I know that some pages are gonna look a little bit janky and that's perfectly fine with me because I Think that's the process of things. You can't just always have like an amazing drawing. Well, I can't anyway Is what I'm saying so yeah, I think for this day, I am really pleased to have just Just had a chilled out session and I hope that this is a chilled out video for you guys because I mean It's either this or no video as well and I know some people really enjoy this type of video So I think it's gonna be okay that I post this Let me know if you've gotten this far if you enjoy this type of video because I Would like to know if actually is true because of you know, you hear you see one or two comments You don't know like actually if that's a lot of people or if it's just like one or two people enjoy that kind of content so It's it's hard to gauge sometimes what everybody's gonna enjoy and also draw attention to because obviously I want people to watch the Videos I create because I spend a lot of time with them And that's something that YouTube it's always been a little bit like you kind of have to ignore the numbers a little bit As much as you can because if you look to focus on the numbers It would be kind of demoralizing because some things you spend your whole day on or longer If you're somebody else like I spend my weekends doing YouTube, so I can't really say forever people So for me, I spend like a whole day doing something and then it doesn't really do very well I get kind of down which is so silly because it's like no I should just be happy that I'm creating and doing something and I mean Making a YouTube video is kind of an accomplishment in itself plus the art that I'm doing so I've Trying to will myself to think more positivity in that direction I think positive thoughts are always a good thing to do like it's difficult because I think bad thoughts are kind of Addictive sometimes like you think I don't know if speaking absolute rubbish, but I think sometimes Negativity can be a little bit addictive So you have to really watch yourself and be strict with yourself and be like and not say horrible things about yourself in your mind This has gone to a really strange mental health area, isn't it? But yeah, I went on to draw this girl from Kill Bill I don't know if you guys remember her name. I can't remember her name but she has like the ball and chain weapon and then she gets killed by Uma Furman and Yeah, that's that's it. It's this shot of her with the bloods coming out of her eyes Which is really just lovely, isn't it? But you know, that's me. I draw this kind of stuff. I Think I really like the way Because this is the final thing I paint but I really like the way that I did this because I think I let down all the barriers and I warmed up and I just started to really experiment with brushstrokes and colors and just going for it and I think once I Got away from this really rigid like careful drawing that you can see I originally started with on the right there's something about the brushstrokes and the textures in this piece that just seemed a bit more special and more Appealing to me anyway, I don't know about you guys, but there's something more freeing about it and more contextually Attractive I guess I would say I think I really like looking at this piece on the right on the left rather than the right definitely and also in case you guys noted I haven't said this yet, but I Really tried to stay away from my purple and blue color schemes that I always have and I think I've been doing well because Neon Demon they have a lot of that purple and blue in there And I was like I could pick those I could draw those and I remembered that I'm trying to be strict on myself with the colors That I'm using so here. I am trying to use more greens browns just reds anything that isn't the purple and pinky colors that I usually do and I think it's kind of a successful page. It looks kind of cool In terms of like flicking for a sketchbook if you want it to look good. I think it looks kind of nice And I really do like the final image on the top left I don't know. I think all my warm-up stuff grew to that And I really like that the best and I think Yeah, it's just a simple drawing a simple time for me a simple time for me Yeah, I guess a little like me time sitting here with my mint tea and my different hour suppliers and just having fun So I'm sorry about this video. I guess it's kind of selfish of me. I'm not really being that entertaining But some people might like this. So there we go. That's it at the end of the day and That's pretty much it. I hope you guys enjoyed this video Let me know and I can Do more of them, I guess because they're pretty simple to make it's just I'm really not editing my voice over very much I'm just gonna post this video. It's very raw Maybe some people don't like that so much, but They probably haven't even made it to this stage of the video anyway, if that's the if that's the way it is Before I go I would just like to thank my patrons for their awesome support So they are Devon a tubulum Lucille, Tim and Charlotte, Jacqueline, Alex, Steph, Eva, Erica and Meghia, you guys are awesome. Thank you so much. It honestly means so much to me If you've made it all the way to the end of this video, congrats to you as well But yeah, that's basically the video for today and I hope that you guys enjoyed it a little note about the Competition that's going on. I did want to show everybody's artwork, but honestly, I'm I really apologize and feeling really burnt out So I just can't right now But I think I will be showing it in the final when we announce the winners and everything But if you guys want to see the competition entries so far, they are on my Instagram page There is a little story thing there that will show you every single entry so far And I really hope that you can take a look at them and give some love to everybody who's done like such an amazing job And it's honestly so inspiring and it's completely blown me away all the entries that we've had and I'm just I'm really happy and Thanks guys for entering. But yeah, so the deadline is Friday Next Friday, which is the which is the 4th of September. So best of luck for everybody and Yeah, I'll let you know in next week's video basically Thanks so much for watching guys, and I will see you next time. Hopefully. Bye