 I am grateful for the realization that the cause of my upset, which I thought was in the world, was actually only an unquestioned belief in decision in my mind. I have decided to do for my peace of mind. I was suggesting during the break to Lynette that if you get down to 10 and you notice that you really would rather hang on to your expectation than to let it go in favor of peace, then there's probably more work that will have to be done before you see it clearly enough and feel the desire for peace enough that you're willing to let it go. There may be another lack or there may be something more in there that I'm not seeing. Or the next thing, like when Lynette mentioned something about, oh, but if I do this, how will I stay face? There's something in there that you probably would find it helpful to work with because there's some scenario coming up in the mind probably, there must be, that you look at and you say, oh my gosh, I would be so embarrassed, And I think about that too. I can't figure out why I use those words because I think it goes back to a power thing, a control thing. But your suggestion is good. My biggest fear is the next family gathering is going to come before I work through. One of these days I'm going to explode. Lynette, you don't pray for Nancy to change. You pray for the Holy Spirit to guide you through the situation for peace of mind. That's when you ask. I was sharing the analogy that you often use, David, of the overhead projector and how the beliefs would be analogous to all the transparencies that could be stacked up on top of that brilliant light in the overhead projector to such an extent that what you see out on the screen is quite dark and there's not much light to it. And symbolically for me, every time I do one of these instruments for peace, I'm pulling one of the transparencies off of the overhead projector. Letting a little more light shine through. Letting a little more light shine through and the whole object being to get them all out of the way so that all that's left is only light. And even for doing this, because it can be one more, you know, how many workshops have you been to where you filled out work sheets and stuff. And it was like, well, there was a lot of motivation to get through it because I could see that there was actually some light on the other side. And it might take a few. I mean, we were talking about this just the other night. You know, if you do the first three or four or five and you still feel like, you know, what's the point? It's kind of like the workbook in the sense that you have to do, you just have to keep doing it. Even though you don't quite see where it's going yet. And even though you don't quite have the experience yet that would reinforce it in your own mind and have the mind want to do it. It's like in the introduction to the workbook, Jesus says, you know, you're going to not be real crazy about these lessons. And you're going to actively resist them and you're not going to understand them all, but that's okay. Just do them. And at some point, your experience of doing them will be such that you will see the value in them. And I feel that things very much the case with you, instruments for peace. Just keep doing it and you will see the value in it at some point. Another suggestion is to start with seemingly small things and work. There aren't such babies yet. Work your way up to some of the bigger ones because that way it doesn't seem like such a big thing to work through. And you do. And the principles become clearer when I'm not so emotionally invested in this issue. There's a little more willingness to see it differently than there is when there's something that seems like a really major thing that I'm hanging out to. You know, that's a suggestion because like, again, it's so hard to deal with some of those big things. And when you get enough practice with some of those little ones, you know, it just makes it so much clearer, I think. Love, people want to say, well, how would this, something like this fit in with the inner child work or suppose they have been seeing a therapist and we've been working on different things and issues. You know, how does this process and how do these things relate with that? In one sense, a lot of psychotherapy and inner child work or whatever has been trying to get in touch with memories and go back into your childhood and in earlier parts of your life. And a lot of times, that's a very helpful thing in the sense that to be talking and feeling like you're in a comfortable situation where you can get in touch with some of those, if they've been repressed memories that haven't been allowed into consciousness, that can be really helpful to just, but then come up. But then again, it's like, what do you do with the memory when it comes up? It's been repressed. The course is so helpful and the course is saying you need to change your perception of that. And again, what produces the perception is the beliefs. That's why the course is so helpful in tracing it down and really getting it to underpinning through the beliefs. Instead of trying to like redo scenes or, you know, do blame or blame or even in some cases confront thinking of just going back and... Or throw stones at the house. I was just thinking about Jenny and Boris Gump. Boris Gump. Because it seems to be kind of music of screaming, yelling, beating something, throwing stones at something or the idea of even confronting. Go back, you know, to your father, to your mother, to your siblings or whatever. The real change has to come from a change in perception and that means you have to get to the belief. So it's not so much in just going back into childhood or to the past, but it's really looking at your mind. But isn't it too that a lot of that work that happens with those memories, usually the child feels that it's their fault and a lot of other things. And again, it's a change in that perception that, you know, you weren't responsible for that. And again, a change in that perception. Yeah, inner child work ultimately is not to place blame on anyone. It's to come to peace. But, you know, sometimes it doesn't work through everything as deep as this. And ultimately you really need to or you'll be continuing inner child work for the rest of your life. Or holding a teddy bear in your bedroom for the rest of your life. And going for the teddy bear. Because that's what you do. It's a great idea to not have any blame, but again, only that true forgiveness that you were talking about. And that, as you were saying, has to be very carefully learned. Because if you really believe it really happened to you, then there's a lot of anger and whatever. Because in a sense the mind feels that it truly was victimized by whatever. You know, you want to try to move towards no blame, but as long as the mind believes in the reality of the memory, then there can't, there's a part in here where Jesus is, this is the essence of listening. And where he's talking to Helen and Bill. And it really is touching on what we're talking about, about letting go of the past. And he says, he's talking about these notes, which is a course of miracles. He referred to them as these notes. He says to Helen, these notes are part of your life work and I will treat them with respect. It is true that this will lead to something quite different because the notes point only to the future. They lead to a future that you will know. There was a past, but it does not matter. It does not explain the present or account for the future. You both went over your childhoods in some detail and it's considerable expense. And it merely encouraged your egos to become more tolerable to you. I would hardly want you to repeat that same error. Knowledge is not one through curiosity, which is an ego attribute. Knowledge can be found only if it is sought to give it to someone else. This means that you are ready to appreciate its real value and have already accepted its worth for yourself. That is what I meant when I told you you cannot go to God with Bill, but you can go for him and bring knowledge back to him. If this is in the future going to God, why would you care at all except to the extent that your ego objects to your rightful destiny? Are you interested in healing and sanctity or in studying its past? That is a concern only if you believe that something that could remedy it happened. Even my personal history is of no value to you except as it teaches you that I can help you now. That's quite a statement of all the whole teachings are in the Bible. He's saying it's of no value and except that it can teach you that I can help you now, that there's this living presence that's available to you. But no history of irreconcilable viewpoints is helpful in establishing truth. The spirit has no history being the same yesterday, today, and always. The history of a split mind is not a constructive focus for those who are being trained in an integrated and true concept of themselves. I am quite willing to take your question up again when it no longer is of any interest to your egos and if it is of help to someone else. Otherwise, it would be much better to devote yourself to knowing God. That's right, that's the point. And to me, that's been the thing about going along. It's been, wow, I heard Christian Murdie say this one time, too, that there's no value in the past. There's none. Well, there are harsh and important things that I've learned that Jesus said so clearly there where he said if you thought that there was a remedy in the past, then it would make good sense to go searching in the past. Freudian psychoanalysis always thought your childhood situations and memories and everything determined who you are. And there's been a lot of variations of that same thing, but Jesus is saying don't go hunting in the past for the remedy. Even behavior model, which would be the whole other end of the spectrum, behavior modification is dealing with the screen. And the Course is teaching again that the screen is the past. Even if you're trying to tinker with the screen and leading out all these supposedly urges and uncontrollable heads and all the things that Freud talked about, even if you just talk about modifying behavior, it's still trying to tinker with the past instead of coming to the present. Pretty radical. This is radical new therapy. Are there specific questions or topics? I mean, there's a lot of things. Yeah. I just want to touch on we're going into this thing and we're going to compromise because again, you know, we were talking the other day about, you know, I didn't get which part it was none that I would keep, you know, whether it's thoughts or whatever. And what does that mean? But to me, I've looked at it real close in the Course, and the Course says salvation is no compromise of any kind. And I was just reading a section today where he was saying to believe that salvation involves compromise is to believe that love is his attack, which is kind of a pretty stoned statement. But any compromise attempt in the world, there are many, many, many forms of attack that the mind doesn't recognize. So it has to be gone too very carefully to get down to the bottom of it. The non-compromise comes in in the sense that there's these two thought systems in the mind and any attempt to reconcile or to choose the ego or even in the sense that there's a lot of delay maneuvers to coming to accept the attainment in the moment that all of that would be a compromise attempt. It would be kind of like trying to strike a balance between eternal, tased with abstract love and the projected world of form. And even the attempts to try to bring the Kingdom of Heaven to Earth, which is kind of a very helpful metaphor for many people that when you really...