 You have this disturbed Kundalini. This is because your system is a system you included not in surrender at all. It doesn't know really the meaning of surrender. So you have to teach yourself surrender. Samarpan is called in Sanskrit and that is a bending down, always bending, listening to the truth, going with the truth of your system, the soul, listening to its impulse and going with that impulse. And the more you learn surrender and the more you practice this surrender, the more you will be in a balanced state, whether disturbed Kundalini quiet down.