 Just fed it away, it is jawabo by Masi Simeu who has joined us this day and we are so honoured to have you right here with us. Onji sisi ako Masi Simeu, karibusana. Tami kwa ni humble to be here. You are very humble. Yes, yes. Nona, humility kwa sura. That's the amen. Amen. Nona, you are humility kwa ikwe. How are you my dear? I'm very fine, how are you? We are well, we are well. We thank God and we indeed you. We are really honoured to have you here. Amen. This is your first time being on J.C. Sako. Yes, yes. And guys are really loving your song. Nona pale kwa social media. Eh, he's only worshiped Zanani. I'm humbled. Yes guys, it's Masi Simeu but you know what, let's take this opportunity. Just look right there at the camera and tell us who is Masi Simeu. My name is Masi Simeu. Masi Simeu is me. We can see. We can clearly see. Yes, I am a gospel artist. We can see. We can see that there are issues to the artist. I can see that there are issues, it's just a name. So we have to tell the minister. I'm a gospel minister through singing, gospel songs, specifically. I'm a wife of one husband. I'm a mother of three children. Yes, basically that's me. I don't have so many things. You have so many things. Thank you so much I'm sure about it. Precisely to the point that we really love it. We were just talking about it in Pāli Njumā. The story is a story of hope, humble beginnings and maybe you can just take us through that. In 2011, when we just ventured into the music ministry, kido kido go imita challenge and you did not lose hope. Yes, maybe just take us through that. Well, I said, is it professional here I was singing in 2011. That is the first time I went to studio and I did an album. That time it will come to Nafanya album, Malafuna Uza CD. It was interesting anyway. So I did a whole album of about six songs. And I did an audio, I think I did an audio. I saw the audio first and God really privileged me that time because I travelled a lot. In fact, I understood that. I thank God for other countries, they opened themselves up to me and they accepted me because I was so much in East Africa, Congo, Rwanda Burundi, Uganda, Tanzania, Kenya, Sikwa Sana. Because I don't know why. So, but I thank God for that time. It was just one year. I think 2011-2012, 2013, part of 2013. But it was a nice time. I journeyed with God. Then 2013, just in the midst of my ministry, I got pregnant. I was already married, so I was ready. I even had my first born. My first born is 12 right now. So my mother, she is almost becoming a teenager. So I already had my first born that time. Then I got pregnant now with the second baby. Now my son is the only boy. So now 2013, I was still in ministry. Actually now, even with the pregnancy, I was still in ministry. I was actively in a band. I had a band with pure Congolese. I was done with Kenyan in it. What do you mean? Yes. What do you mean? It is interesting. It explains the idea. I had a band, let me tell you. And with Congolese, those guys, they still call me ma'am. And we still respect one another. We still work together. And we used to do events. We used to do worship nights. We used to do events. Right in Kenya or in other countries? In Kenya and other countries. So we used to do ministry. I did not market myself very much. But the few platforms that God gave me, it was really, really, really nice. So that time, I was still very in very much active ministry. My husband was an associate pastor. And we were active ministry. Then I got pregnant and the pregnancy was growing. Of course, I relaxed a bit. And during my last trimester for the pregnancy, that was nine months now, eight, nine months I think. Even the baby overstayed with one week. And I remember, I just went for a random checkup and the doctor told me, so you do an ultrasound, we see how the baby is. And I did an ultrasound and the doctor told me, the baby is very fine. The baby is very fine. Coming in one week is very fine. Adyuna was very optimistic. I was already told it was a boy. I was very happy because my first one is a girl. So my second one now, a boy. Hey, you don't know, my house was all blue. My house was all blue. Everything, the shawls, whatever. Everything, I bought a lot. Blue, blue, blue. Then... Then came the baby. Yeah, the baby. You know you don't have a fanatic situation. It is normally on another level. So when we went to the hospital to now to... In fact, now the last day I got the labor. But now the labor stayed because I went to the hospital to say I had labor because I told my husband in the morning, one feeling, I think I need to just go to the hospital. I don't want to wait until he finds me in this house so that night finds me dancing in the house. So I just decided, let me just go to the hospital. I went to the hospital and the labor began, it started slowly so it went... So within no time the water broke and after the water broke there were nurses there. But the baby was not coming. Now the water broke. I was still in labor but the baby was not coming. So I was induced. And then I stayed through that time. The main problem is the boy took too long. The labor was over prolonged because I labored for more than 24 hours and the water broke, the water broke so early. So the baby did not have a source of life support inside the womb. So by the time these doctors decided to take me to the theatre it was already too late and it was a matter of emergency and just saving lives. So we went there and the baby was removed but the baby was convincing already and he had a condition called batasphyxia. They say the oxygen did not... because it did not cry. The baby comes out and then they cry. So it did not cry. Then he started crying later and he was like... Someone is dead. So the oxygen... he did not get enough oxygen to start up the brain. So that is the effect. It's called batasphyxia because I have little oxygen in the brain that causes now what we call cerebropancy. So cerebropancy is basically the effect of the part of the brain that aids the milestones. So it does not have normal milestones like other baby. Now how did this change your ministry? I know your husband is there as an associate pastor. You're here as a musician and you're minister of the world. You have a band. Now how did that change? I know it was challenging for you. Yes. Let me tell you, the day I gave birth to this baby it was like I was going this direction. Then I started going this direction. My life changed. Everything changed in my life. But you know I didn't realize that immediately when I was in the hospital. You know when you're in the hospital you have the doctors and even the doctors are afraid to tell you what is happening. They don't want to tell you your baby now is differently abled. Nobody wants to break this news to you. So they just tell you don't worry things are going to be fine. Everybody is encouraging you. So you don't clearly get the reality of the situation at that time. Whether now days pass and then you are discharged from the hospital and you come back home. You realize this baby cannot breastfeed like other babies. This baby you know the neck is doing like this. Baby is different. This baby is different. Because you had your first born? Yes. And this is the second one? Yes. Of course you can tell the difference. Yes the difference. So you realize this baby is different. So many things are different. You pump the milk and then you just pour in his mouth and you know the milk just goes. You just find ways of feeding the baby so that he can be fed. So at that time now you know the reality begins to hit you. The reality begins to hit that you know. And then my mother in law was a medic. So she's the one who broke the news to me. She told me you know what. When I was in the hospital I developed a complication by the way. The two days after the operation I began to have complications in the wound. And it was realized that the doctors had forgotten something in my home so I had to go for another operation. So when I went for the operation I was very I was still in pain. So even when I came back home I was still in pain. So even when my mother in law told me go and google cerebral palsy I didn't. I told my husband mama said you google cerebral palsy. And then you tell me because I don't know. Somehow I was weak. I don't know what was happening to me. I was in pain. I was not psychologically okay. So my husband at that time he googled but he also didn't want to tell me. Everyone was not telling you the truth. And I know for a long time maybe you lived in denial of it. But luckily you are now vocal about it. Yes now I talk about it a lot because I left the group. You know what's up group of the band. I just woke up one morning. And you left. And you are the leader. And I'm the leader. I'm the one who started that group. Then I left the group. Did someone come check on you? They were like what's wrong with mam? They called me mam. What's wrong with mam? So all of them came. What's wrong? I told them you guys look for another leader. I'm not a good leader. Right now I cannot lead anything. So my life literally changed. I used to work in a tour company. I resigned. Even in ministry. Even I shaved my hair. Where was your husband during all this time? In fact if anyone who has stood with me through this is my husband. Wow. He has been there. We have faced so many challenges together during that time because people had different opinions. You remember he was a pastor. Yes. So people had different opinions when this happened. And even there people could not allow him to pray for them. Because of reasons. They were the superstition Kenyans can have. Yes. So there are so many things that happened during that time but we stood together. He was one person who really stood by me at that time. From this story. The story now results to... Did it back the song Jawaabu? Yes. How much Jawaabu has a difference? Because I'm understanding all your songs are really personal. Yes. In fact I don't know. I think all my songs are personal. A person is just a testimony about this journey with God. You know every day you reach a stage where he says he takes us from one glory to another. So it is just a journey whereby you know today I am here. So the stage where I am. God speaks to me that time differently. Then tomorrow he speaks this. Then tomorrow he encourages me differently. So every time I get inspired with a song. So that time. That time now Jawaabu. Jawaabu now is a song I wrote at that time when I was down. I was discouraged that I could not encourage even a small child. I don't know if you understand. I do understand it. Even if I was right. I can be there. I was so down. I was so down. Even when I began to seek God. I started looking for answers. Lord I don't know what to do. I do therapies. By the way after that I got pregnant again with my last boy. So that is the time now I felt like the world is against me. Because I'm pregnant. I have a baby now who is differently abled. I take him for therapies. I wake up at 4 to reach Kenyatta. Because now the therapy at Kenyatta ended around 11. So you have to be there very early because the line is also long. So I wake up very early. I am pregnant. I have another child. And you know that it was not an easy thing. It was not. And then remember I have a fresh wound also. That was operated like twice. Were you in a position where you felt maybe the next baby. The one you were carrying. The damn boy. Of three kids right. Were you in a situation where you felt maybe the same case might happen. In fact no. I didn't think that way. But I normally say this. And I know people normally judge me when I say it. But one day I contemplated removing that baby. What? Yes. You know that thought came. It came but it passed. I did not. Why? Why? I could not. I could not. It was just a thought. You know you can be down until you begin to think of very bad things. Why I just remove this one. Or I just do this. Maybe it will be better. Because now you realize this other baby is so dependent. You cannot even put him down. How old is your son? He is now eight. How is he? Very fine. What is his name? Israel. The great nation. So what was your turning point? When was your turning point that you said you know these are just challenges. These are passage of life. In twenty I met Ann Gugge. When we did Yawabu. In fact Ann is the one who came. That time I am telling you I was so discouraged. So she had gone to the studio. She had gone to the studio I used to record. Then she had that song Usekatitama. They eat this lady. I don't know why I feel like meeting her. Then the producer connected us. So when the producer connected, gave her my number, then we connected. Then she had been following Ann. She has a baby who is differently able to. I had been following her because she used to speak, encourage parents. So when she called me I was like, Ann Gugge, they won. They won and only? Then when we met, I told her, you know I have been following you. And she told me, why have you been following me? Then I told her, I have a baby who is differently able to. Ann spoke to me and she told me, must it begin to talk about this? Because I could not talk about it with anyone. If you dared ask me even a single question, my tears would be here. I couldn't talk about it. So she told me begin to talk about it. You will heal. Because you are in denial, you have not healed, you have too much, you are getting depressed. So begin to talk about it. Just talk, just say anything you can say about it and that way you will begin to heal. I think that was my turning point. We big up, we really thank you and Gugge for encouraging our sister right here. Encouraging Master. And the husband and God, yes. It's not easy. It's not easy. It's very true. Most of the time we go for therapy centers, most ladies are left. Most men they flee. Most men they flee. Yeah, they flee from. When you give back to babies differently, most, I think 80% of the ladies they don't have their husbands. That is so unfortunate. And they left because of. So for me, I don't know, I normally thank God. But normally I say this, I encourage mothers this way. You know, when this happens, most of the time God will give you just one person to stand with you. That person might be your mother, that person might be your sister, might be your husband. Remember when your husband stands with you, you might lose your family, you might lose your mother, your brothers, your sisters. Remember when your mother stands with you, you might lose your husband. So most of the time God will always make sure that one person who will be there with you through thick and thin. All right. That is very interesting and encouraging testimony. How right there. Nenu moja, your new project. Tell us about this song. What inspired this song? This one. I wrote it on 31st. Of December. Last year, I was doing school missions and let me tell you, if you go to schools, the rate of drug addiction is so high. Whether it's college or high school. You find our young boys they are so deep into drugs and it is not a good sign. Many a times, drug is just okay. Until it is somebody next to you. The day it is your brother your son in it then you begin to feel the pinch. So I felt the pinch. There is one of my person who is deep in it and I had prayed about it until I did not know to pray about it. Then when the year also was ending last year my son we had a lot of hopes that Israel would work. We had invested so much on therapy. We used to go for one therapy session two we increased the sessions to three and we had hopes that he would work and we did so many things we were told to buy the therapies we bought we were told to buy so many things we bought and we were so optimistic that by the end of the year he would work. But now when it came to the last end of the year the buy had not improvement. So the people that we got from the doctor is that he had a complication behind the leg one of his nerves was getting I don't know folded or what so he might not work permanently. So that thing really broke me. You know I'm human and when I get a message like that it is easy for me to get bored but you know of course I'll break and go back to God. I like it you break and go back to God. Yes I'll break one minute and then I run back to God. So you went back to God. But I ran back to God and asked him God. The doctor said this. What are you saying? Give me just that one word. Just that one word. It is all I need to run with. Isn't that all our desire? Just one word. Nothing much. Yes you know when you are you are weighed down you just want one word. I know more than do nothing else. So go and get that one word. The good thing about God when you ask for bread Hallelujah. Preachy preachy. I know what I was birthed. I know what I was birthed because when I began to pray by the way I began to pray telling God I was praying just the way you pray Father Lord thank you I asked you. Then I reached a point I said I don't know how to pray Holy Spirit take over Help me to pray because I reached a point I don't know how to pray and the Bible says he prays in house with groanings and at that moment Moja was dropped in my spirit that just ask for one word. You know I just had it. Ask for one word. Then I began to ask God give me just one word. As I kept saying it and then the song was birthed. Wow. Moja and you trust in song and amazing song. Anyway thank you so much for that amazing testimony. I wish you had time though when the deeper you go deeper so we get encouraged and uplifted I'm sure so many guys are really loving of the story and they are getting encouraged by the amazing story. So next time to pray to me like two hours you come and just chill and you could talk more because of time you know how to bring it to an end for that but really thank you for the amazing testimony and story. One word of encouragement to anyone. Can I request one thing before you say that what gives you hope? God. God. I feel her story have you noticed she has hope in a koteha. In a koteha. That's a life of believing in a koteha. In a koteha. But hope is in God. As long as God is sitting on that throne I am hopeful. That's all. One word of encouragement of yours today. I normally say this there is no point there is no there has never been a reason for giving up. There is no reason for giving up. There has never been a reason for giving up. There will never be a reason for giving up. Alright. Because what you know is right now. Your tomorrow is a mystery. Alright. 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