 But I don't I don't think I ever got the whole keep myself calm thing. I think I always really struggled. But the funny thing was, is that everyone that saw me in competition, they always said, oh, you're like the chillest dude in the venue. You're like, you look so relaxed and confident. I'm like, really? Cause I just like feel like it needs to go puke and like rock back and forth in the toilet. That's me sometimes. I have this weird thing where it's obvious such high pressure situations. And I'll be like, yeah, sure. Yeah, yeah, you just kind of like.