 you know when you have moments and you get discouraged start writing a list about things that you have accomplished and act as if it's someone you didn't know and then read them and you'll start to build your confidence. I had to go back and I reason why I say I felt different was because the work once you get the contract please note the work does not stop it actually just starts yes that's why I felt like holy crap this is a different ball game and I would was very shy about telling you know some of my former colleagues that I started my business some new because I personally told them or they saw on LinkedIn or something like that and I was like yes if they asked but I did not go out and say good morning everyone I started my business we're open you know it was not that type of environment and as you can see I'm more of a colorful type of person when I took the Myers-Briggs test I was like out of Louisiana I was like three percent and I was like how did I get here so I always internalized that saying I know I'm the purple cow if you've read that book I've become the purple cow and I had to become okay with becoming that purple cow and it's a really good book because I said what's unique about me me I'm quirky I am professional but I also I am who I am you know I'm not polished as the next person that maybe I went to Wharton you know what I mean oh I trust me I know what you mean yeah yeah so those were the things that for me I said you know I'm smart at what I'm good at and when I'm not good at I try and I do a really good job at being the best person I can be but once the contract started it was go time