 This band in my head and yours is pretty silent until you attempt something that gets their attention. So if the band in your head is getting louder and louder at the moment, it must be because you have agreed to do something, you have agreed to post something, you have agreed that speaking engagement and so now the band are getting louder and louder because you're now doing something that threatens their position in your mind, that threatens their control of you but it's a compliment really. If you reframe it as ok I'm doing something enough to get their attention, the band in my head feels threatened, maybe that's a good thing, yeah it is.