 Hey, y'all welcome back to my channel sugar car for today's video is gonna be a chitchat get ready with me because my life has been in Chambles hashtag As y'all will notice that I did not upload a video The couple days I just passed cuz today's Saturday. So the week that just passed that not upload a video I just mean just going through it trying to balance out everything. You know, please help me out Help me watch out positive energy. I need y'all in the comments to give me some advice So I hope y'all really like listen to what I have to say in this shit that get ready with me because I need some Advice I need some encouragement Like cuz this YouTube stuff can kind of get a little discouraging at times, you know, you know the norm You already know I engaged with all y'all so Yeah, I just need y'all right now So yeah, don't forget to like comment subscribe to this video. I hope you guys enjoy and let's just get into the video What's up, welcome back to my channel For today's video it is a chitchat get ready with me So yeah, I just wanted to sit here today and talk to you guys What's the big on on in my life what I've been struggling with as a youtuber and Like just trying to balance all this out because It has a girl stressing So yeah, I'm just gonna do my makeup. I'm not really gonna explain products, but I kind of do I kind of I'm I'm trying out the new hood of beauty Foundation my subscriber from you on it today. I was in Sephora and I met two subscribers So hey y'all in Sephora Much love. Yeah, she put me on so and she um They skin matched me so I'm gonna Try that out today y'all I look like a freaking Like what are the what are happy I've seen Wonder Woman whatever they call themselves like that's what I feel like I look like without lashes in this headband On my head in this curly hair and this curly hair Well, it'll be a whole separate video on his hair girl. So Be looking out for that cuz I love it. So what I've been dealing with you're like So basically like last week I did not put out a video like I never let every week I put out at least two videos out and Last week really got the best of me I was just like Because that weekend last weekend On Saturday was really long The day before was I uploaded the youtuber controls my life. I edited that angly Edited that for six hours So and then the next day I had to go to work because I picked up a shift for this girl because she always works for me So she wanted somebody work for her. So I'm like, okay, I'll go Going to work. So that was that and then like when I got home I wanted to record like my videos and like blog for the week or whatever like blog the weekend But then I end up going to get a new phone and I was in the store for like three hours mind you like I just edited a video The day before for six hours, then I got up went to my job Then went to the spring store like and I wanted to record and I was so Disappointed in myself because I'm like, dang I did not record a video cuz after I got my phone. I was so tired like I'm like I need to just lay down For a couple minutes and then a couple minutes turning to you know, but then what happened on Sunday? I don't know, but I didn't get a video done. Let's just say that So I'm just like Like my nine-to-five really just gets the best of me y'all like during the week Like I hate it like the weekends is my only days to record really cuz during the week I edit and then Let me do my makeup. I'm just I'm just like all over the place Like y'all I don't have one of those lashes right now. So that's probably why I look kind of weird but I'm getting them done on Monday because I'm going to Miami. So I need them done um so yeah, my nine-to-five just gets the best of me like and I Hate it. I hate my job. Like I hate it like I Just don't like working there. It's just too much you I can't grow from it So I'm just like maybe I should just go part-time Somewhere else and just focus more on YouTube and school because you I'm not growing from that job like I'm not Growing from it and I've come home and I'm so like tired like during the week But I have to push myself to edit the videos that I filmed on the weekend So I can get it out during the week. So my channel can grow and my channel I See my channel progressing as I put that work in but when I don't put that work in like this week I don't see any progress like and I hated it like I was so disappointed in myself like I'm like I'm not letting that ever happen again But yeah, like I Don't know like I just I'm not for this nine-to-five anymore It's like really getting the best of me and I just like you can't I can't grow from it So why am I putting that many hours? to not grow from This basically I got a tip for about of me as a stepping stone Y'all can tell I can't do two things at one time but I basically got a tip for about of me as a stepping stone for nursing and You know, it's fine, but this job is just I Need to go like people there don't do any work Like I'm the youngest one in there. So all these old people are in there and just having these bad attitudes I don't know why but I don't know and they don't like to do any work. And I feel like they I don't know trying to get over on me, but they're lazy and I just hate it I'm not I don't know what to do like and I call Ruby every day Like this week was like a literally a bad week I felt so like Disappointed myself because I didn't have a video out and I was calling Ruby. I was like my life is in shambles like I'm so happy like I have like a YouTube friend that I can like just been to About YouTube and stuff because like my other friends like I mean they get it But they don't really get it like they don't get like the hard work that you have to put in To be a youtuber like I did film like I'm not even like I did film This haul I'm about to finish today. I did film this haul Like the second part of the video, but I did not like it. I'm like, you know, like I hated it and like It's just like and it's for a company too. So I'm trying to hurry up and Get that done for this company, but I don't want I don't want half-assed work basically So and then like these companies are contacting me to work with me And I can't even find the time because I'm always at this nine-to-five Like I could be putting in more work to work with these companies that's paying me legit Money to work on me more than my nine-to-five, but I'm still one of my nine-to-five flight. It's And then these companies are like they're sending me their stuff and I'm getting all this done today Honestly, and they're sending me their stuff and they're like Where's the where's the video like come on girl like come on sis and They want their stuff done Okay, so I just finished my eyes Yeah, my eyes look extra cheeky right now. I heard that yesterday. So my eyes are just like And it's tripping me out But it is what it is It's really really hard to balance out all three things Like you know like when you go to school the teachers like Well, if you want to get a good grade you have to put the work in a study That's basically how I feel like in life in general Like you have to put the work in for what you want and this is what I want Like I feel like YouTube or any type of social media platform can help you grow in any type of way and Working at you know Things that don't make you grow Sis It's time to let it go, you know So y'all leave me some encouraging comments or any type of advice to help me I don't know try and get through this phase Like but I'm really looking to like probably going part-time Because I can't I can't do it like my but I'm gonna push through and do this because this is what I want So today I picked up the here to her beauty Foundation in Machiavo 400 G I'm excited to try this Well, I tried it on in the store, but I'm excited to put it all over my face Cheap this is cute better So yeah, I want to push out more content like consistent The and this foundation smells good This foundation smells like rich people. Oh my god. Look at the contrast between my four handed And y'all we're almost to 40,000 subscribers That's crazy like y'all just motivate me to keep going like like I said like on YouTube like you see growth like if you put that work in but And if it's something you really want to do, I think you should do it It's just hard for me to take my own advice because I'd be so scared and you And you um My god, I think I put too much I look so white in on the camera But it doesn't look like this in person So y'all are always asking me for advice. So y'all need to give me some advice or some encouragement on what to do because I Can go and throw it so obsessed with YouTube like that's all I think about while I'm at work I'm always thinking about my videos. I'm always writing down notes And then my notes be like everywhere and people are like my co-workers are like, what is this? I'm like nothing Yeah, I watch YouTube while I'm at work like it'd be slow sometimes So it's just like I could really be at home doing YouTube stuff or like for Instagram taking pictures trying to be consistent on there Like and that's another thing too, like I try to be consistent on Instagram because Instagram is another platform like I want to like Grow it too. And it's just hard to like take pictures like after 6 p.m. Like go home gig Lam and then take a picture like that's like like no and Then like the only times I do get glam is on the weekends So that's the only time I can take an Instagram picture and then It's just struggling for me to get somebody to take up my photo like I gotta pay my sister to take my photo like the like people some people here just don't like Get it Or like and I don't blame them or anything like that but Yeah Yeah, just some people just don't get it. I feel like this foundation is a matching my concealer. I Don't know. I'm not sure I Need to get a lighter foundation Cuz it's when I'm in consider cuz it's winter time. So my skin is like You know Instagram and when I do take my photo, I try to make it like the best freaking picture so It can get a lot of insights and with a lot of insights It grows, you know what I'm saying I'll be happy when I'm surrounded by YouTubers content creators Instagram Influencers so I can be like girl. Come on. Let's go take pictures or whatever and it would just be like I Got you. You got me. Let's let's do this. Let's knock this out Um Using one of these real techniques brushes. This is actually softer than the beauty blender, honestly Maybe this foundation is a little bit light. I don't know. We'll see But yeah, I can't that's why I'm so happy I'm going to Miami next week with Ruby because I mean she gets it Obviously, so she's gonna be I'm like you gonna be ready to take my pictures. She's like, yes girl We can get this kind of thing. I'm like, yes, like you already know You are ready You're looking flawless. It's just We just gotta give her some color so we can get some color Y'all and I'm so happy like all my YouTube people that I know They want to move to Atlanta like Ruby wants to go to Atlanta. I'll be as much as you know Y'all like it's late Okay, we can just go color and I'm manifesting like every day Like my YouTube success like cuz I already know I want this so bad So I'm just like and y'all know life is all about taking risks So I mean cuz I can always go back to like, you know, like a regular job, you know So I'm just like looking for a hard time Let me know in the comments what you would do like what would you do, but yeah, y'all I gotta do it I just gotta do it. I gotta do to get out of here, you know Like I don't want to stay in Wisconsin forever Like I don't know. It's just that scary feeling like what if it doesn't work out It's just like scary. We just need God to give me a sign, you know when God gives you a sign It just feels better But sign me ain't gotta be giving me such every day I work. It's just like Work, please get me out of here. I Swear it's cute or whatever. I Just want to give y'all like all my energy You know because y'all deserve it and I deserve to give it to y'all You know this and that I'm gonna finish my face and come back to the camp. All right y'all. That's it for this get ready with me I hope it made sense and Please comment. I'm a little give me some advice Because I just need a little pick me up with some motivation from y'all I love y'all so much and I love engaging with y'all and I always take your advice So and I always see all the comments obviously, so yeah, just if you can help me out Thank you. I regret what I would greatly appreciate it. Okay So don't forget to like comment subscribe. I love y'all so much and I will see y'all in the next video. Bye